Title: Desire Unhinged
Disclaimer: I own nothing of Vampire Academy nor am I making any money from the writing of this fanfic.
Rated: M for sex and language.
Summary: The emotions Dimitri struggles to control daily gets the best of him after seeing Rose overwhelmed with Spirits madness.
Authors Note: Ugh. I love The Vampire Academy series so much even after all these years. Imagine my surprise when I saw they have a new series on Peacock Network! Watched that. I didn't love it but I didn't hate it. They definitely got Dimitri right. I hope there's another season. The one thing that sucks about the books are the young adult rating. We need some detailed raunch and I'm just the girl to give it to you. Enjoy!
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"You have to let me go!"
I had seen the worst of Rose the past few weeks - short tempered; desperate and angry but this…. this was something far worse. Worse than her outburst on the airplane - her demons were very much real to her and she had been helpless against them. It was terrifying and now I felt helpless again against this madness that was consuming her.
"Please, Roza. Fight this. This isn't you." I couldn't hide the tremble in my words; the agony in my voice. The control I cling so desperately to around Rose is gone as I hold her at arms length; bracing myself each time she tries to jerk away from me. "This isn't you."
Suddenly; as quickly as her rage started she stops fighting me - stops screaming; eyes to large for her pretty face and she's Rose again. The sweet, fearless girl I am madly in love with.
"Oh my god…" She whispers; her own voice trembling with fear as she searches my face. I pull her into my chest quickly and wrap my arms around her; burying my face in soft brown hair. "A-are you alright?" Her chest is heaving; limbs shaking from the adrenaline coursing though her. "Y-yeah. I think so. For now."
Her voice is so small - so full of worry and grief it causes me to tighten my arms around her. "It's over. You're okay. It won't happen again."
A sob suddenly escapes her. Strong, fearless Rose who put everyone before herself. I can't stand to see her cry; my heart twisting in knots at the thought of her so broken. "It will. You… you don't understand. I'm going to be like Anna. It'll keep getting worse and worse until… until I kill—-."
"No." I break away from her embrace quickly - pushing her back at arms length as I search her worried face. "No. It won't happen to you. You're strong - the strongest person I know, Rose. It's why I love you."
I can only watch as her mouth opens in protest; her perfect lips turning down in a deep frown. "You shouldn't. I'm going to become something terrible…" Her words were whisper quiet and she was truly broken. Truly thought she would become someone so unstable she would eventually take her own life. "You won't. I won't let you. I'll fight for you, Rose. I love you… so much. I won't let anything happen to you."
Her eyes were wide again; watching me with so much faith and love it burned into me. Before I could stop myself - all rational thought gone - I leaned forward and kissed her. It was warm and wonderful and made my heartache - in a good way. A groan escaped me as she wrapped her arms around my neck and the intensity of our kiss deepened; my own hands clutching her perfect ass - pulling her into me as we laid back on the bed and my tongue brushed against hers eagerly.
All thoughts of Lissa and Ralf and Jesse disappeared. Any sign of distress floated away as she maneuvered her body over mine; straddling my lap like she had in combat just a few hours earlier. God how I had wanted her then - she was perfect; an absolute goddess among men. She fought like a champion and sparring with her earlier had nearly been my undoing. I had spent the next hour in the coldest shower imaginable and even then I couldn't shake the desire she'd left with me.
That was nothing compared to this. The feel of her - soft and warm against me. I snaked my hands over the fabric of her jeans; sliding under her shirt and up her back as she whimpered against my mouth. She was so fucking hot; even fully clothed my dick was painfully hard between us and the gentle sway of her hips against mine caused another groan to escape my throat.
"Roza…" I found myself whispering her sweet name; moving a hand into the base of her hair - holding her still against me as she pulled away; just enough to take in a deep needed breath. "Mmm," Was her only response. "We can't do this." I whispered; the tiniest trace of responsibility still lingering in my bones despite the beautiful woman on top of me. Rose opened her eyes wider - searching my dark hues as her weight rested on my hips. "I know." She agreed - the slightest look of defeat between us.
I didn't want to be defeated. I wanted - this - more than I had ever wanted anything in my life. Rose was everything I could ever want. She was life and beauty and so damn fierce. Lissa Dragomir would never have a chance with me as her guardian because in this moment - watching reason wash over Rose's face I realized I would always chose her. I would fight for her and throw myself in front of anything that tried to harm her; not the Dragomir princess.
Before she could further the distance between us I pushed myself close and kissed her again; hard and passionately and that was that. No more thoughts of right and wrong it was just me and her and I loved her to much to let this moment pass us again. In a blur of kissing and touching I managed to remove her coat and then my shirt; and then her shirt and after a few moments of organized chaos she was on her back beneath me looking up at me with absolute trust. It was sobering.
"I love you, Roza."
"I love you." She assured; fiercely - reaching to bring me back down to her waiting mouth. "I love you so much…" She added in a whisper as my fingers trailed down the side of her face; then her shoulder and grazed the side of her breast. Her body arched slightly at my touch as my fingers moved down her stomach then her hip; sliding between us as she moaned against my neck - kissing the sensitive area just below my ear. I held my breath; finding her soaked center with a groan. "Dimitri…" My arms nearly gave out as the sound of my name on her lips. "I need to feel you inside of me."
That was all the confirmation I needed; grabbing my aching dick I placed it at her ready opening - meeting her deep gaze as a string of Russian cuss words fell from my lips and I was surrounded by her tight warmth. I could only watch as Rose came undone - her head falling back on the mattress; dark hair spilling around her as her breath caught in her throat and she looked up at me again with wide; lustful eyes. I started to move - slowly at first to savor every inch of her. After a few minutes of sweet slow love making I began swallowing my own groans as Rose started to match my thrusts; pulling me back down to her eager lips as her nails raked at my back. God, the feel of her. It was everything I imaged it would be. Absolute perfection.
"Roza," I groaned as her hips met mine over and over until I was on the brink of losing it. "You' feel… so fucking good..." I assured her; placing my lips against her neck as she suddenly tightened around me - crying out in pleasure as my own release came desperately. I lost myself in her - riding out the high that was Rosemarie Hathaway. "Oh god, Dimitri." Rose whispered after a moment of silent bliss. Her fingers trailed a pattern over my back as I lifted my head and looked down at her smiling face. "That was as perfect as I always imaged it could be."
A rare smile escaped me as I buried my face in the bend of her neck; her arms holding me tightly. I never wanted to move from this spot. Never wanted to be without her again. "I love you, Rose. Every part of you."
"I love you." She whispered against my ear; causing a familiar tightness to form in my chest. I vowed in that moment I would spend the rest of my life figuring out a way that she and I could truly be together. She was destined for greatness - to protect the last Dragomir princess and I would do everything in my power to protect her.
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