"Motive time!"

Monokuma screeches, his fabricated voice grating on my brain-

Is he trying to give me a headache??

"well.. not motive exactly, I just feel like my students could use a little push to get this game going!"

You know what? never mind I think I already had one..

"Since you all seem to think it's real cute to just hang out and make friends, I'm gonna put a limit on how long you can go without someone dying~Let's see..Two days?"

...Two Days? and then what? we all die?

That would be pretty boring. I mean yeah obviously I don't want to die, but this bear claiming to be our headmaster said this is a killing game, if we're playing a game I have to wonder what the goal is..

"You can't be serious!?" Detective chan is rather opposed to this, I suppose most would be.

Monokuma confirms what I was thinking.. "You'll all die if one of you doesn't!"

"Soooo..what's the goal of this game of yours headmaster~?"

I had to ask.

He turns to face me, a robot bear programed to express emotions? Based off the expression the bear is making I'd say it is made for interacting with humans.

"Uhm..well...you see" the bear mocks a child under their parents judging gaze-

is..is it sweating??

"I have to wonder as well.." the long dark haired guy wearing a mask says, too enthusiastically if you ask me.

The bear mimics a face of panic before..vanishing in a cloud of smoke?

huh.

Not much can be said before the whole friendship.will.win gang descends into chaos.

"Why don't we just see if he will kill us?" A regrettably excited tone finds it's way into most things I say..

Nearly all the students express disgust at my words

Detective chan seems..curious

Detective chan and Kaede Akimotsuu have a theory that the bear is being controlled by someone, one of us, hypothetically.

Tsumigi, annoyingly, makes a scene shivering and crying how she, would never have guessed one of us could be so cruel.

……

Something about the way she says that doesn't.. it feels like a lie...

Haha, I can't tell if I'm laughing cause it's funny or cause I'm on edge.

She's calmed down by ,#1grLL0vr, Tenko who swears she'll protect all the girls

I have to say it.

"sounds pretty gay!"My obnoxious shout gets Tenko's attention, She glares at me, well, most of the girls do.

"Wh..Why do you have to be sooo meeeean D:" My fake Cries are Left unappreciated, The girls all sigh and return to talking.

er-most of them do, Maki seems to think me evil with the way she's eyeing me.

..A-anyhow.

Detective chan and Kaede call the one controlling or working with Monokuma the Mastermind.

...Someone working with the enemy? a mole?

...Trust no one?

It isn't logical. It feels intentional...It's good for a killing game..

Trust must be earned.

...If I trust no one I'll probably just die..

Humans do best in a group, a gang...

I ask Akimatsu if she would accompany my around the school, cause I wanna have a look around.

She hesitates a moment so Maki interupts.

"I'll go with you."Her tone is not reassuring in the least, I exaggerate my reaction shivering like..

Tsumugi.

...that feels like important information.

I must have dissociated since when Maki taps my shoulder I almost slap her hand on instinct.

Does she have to freak me out??

Detective chan gives me a look of concern.. I must have gotten his attention..by going quiet.

"Are you alright Ouma?"

uhm-

"I don't like Maki she's mean! I'll just ask the Astro-not" Kaede is confused, Maki is...a little offended and suspicious.

"What?-" Kaito can barely get anything out before I'm weakly pulling him towards a room I have yet to explore...

He doesn't resist at all. Where is his sense of self preservation?? What if I was pulling him weakly into a fucking TRAP?

This damned school is way too big! I have no idea where I'm going..

Kaito must have noticed, definitely not because I stopped walking-

"Why did you bring me with you if you didn't even know where you wanted to go??"

"I know where I want to go!" I do not.

"Oh yeah? Where then?"...for a walk?

"Whaaaat? I can't just have wanted to take a walk with my favorite astro-not~?" He takes a step back.

"wh..Huh? o-Of course I am! I'm Kaito Momota Luminary of the stars!" Haha-He thinks I like him!

..He is an idiot..

I could use an idiot.

"You're the only person I trust right now! I don't even know any of their names!"

Kaito plays with his..is that a goatee?

ew-

"Did you even know my name before this morning? You haven't called me anything other than Astro-not"

Ah! how did he know!?

He gives me a knowing look, damn, he caught my lie.

Not all of it tho.

"Fiiiiine~ I didn't know your name, but you're better than miss red eyes evil glare.."

It takes a second for Kaito to decipher my use of nicknames.

"You mean Maki?" As though there are any other red eyes here...are there more?

"She keeps giving me murderous glares.."I mock whine.

Kaito acts like I just insulted his favorite movie, "She would never hurt you!" he..can't seriously think that?

We literally just met!

..There is no way I'm just going to trust every damn kid here just cause!

"Are you sure you're an Astronaut? I feel like you would've flunked any kind of training besides physical." Kaito clenches his teeth, did I piss him off?

I barely said anything..

"You don't have to be such a dick all the time!" Ah, I did.

I don't give him the chance to storm off, a shadow that makes no logical sense, falls over half my face, I look him straight in the eyes.

My ever present grin twists with the seriousness in my voice.

"You'll get someone killed if you don't keep that anger in check."

He falters, his face taking a more..frightened look? Guilty perhaps?

Immediately my expression reverts to childish grinning,"I just wanted someone to come with me so I didn't get murdered!"

I'm very serious about that actually.

He's silent, for too long in my opinion, "Fine.." he sounds humorously defeated.

We exit the school to have a look around the outside of it, there's a large dome over the entire school..

I walk towards it, is it made of glass?

When I get close to it the sky I see is...Pixals?

-Pixals??

Before I fall down a rabbit whole of dark thoughts I'm pulled out by Kaito yanking my arm towards the warehouse..Warehouse?

This place has warehouse?

The walk towards the warehouse is filled with silence, Kaito must actually be using his mind, otherwise he'd be asking me dumbass questions.

"Why were you making that face?" Kaito, oh so unhelpfully asks, what person can see their own face??

Not Me!

"I don't know, what face did I make Momota?" My head shifting to one side, similarly to a dog when it hears something it doesn't understand, Hehe.

He scrunches up his face, in thought I think? "You looked..like you were about to passout"

Pale?

sweaty?

I'm not sure what that's supposed to mean-"I'm not really sure what that's supposed to mean Momota."

Kaito only gets a moment to check out the warehouse before I'm pulling him out of the warehouse, I don't feel like looking through a bundle of boxes or shelves!

That would be soooooo boooooring!

…

As hypothetically helpful as the items might be, I don't care enough right now, plus, the friendship.will.win gang'll do it anyways.

I ingore Kaito's complaints and we leave the warehouse in favor of walking around the dome.

I'd guess Kaito is thinking again since it's actually quiet.

………

"Did you mean what you said?"

Kaito, at it again, asking stupid questions.

I sigh and turn to face the dumbass in question,"You're going to have to be more specific Momota, I've said quite a few things"

He does clarify.

"When you said you didn't trust anyone?"

-I said that?

"What? Of course not!"..That was a terrible lie.

"Ouma, do you really not trust anyone here?" Kaito continues, his voice is more concerned..

..How could I?

I've never been a trusting person, now is no different.

Especially now.

"At least I don't blindly trust everyone I've ever met~" That sounded more mean than I meant.

He stops walking stomping before yelling, "I don't blindly trust everyone I meet!"

Haha!

"Denile is not just a river Momota!" My retort sounds more like a joke than I meant for-He fully just denied a thing anyone could prove right! Hahahahahaaha-

"I'm not!.." He stops talking.

Why?

..when did I start laughing?...

I'm gonna pass out if I don't stop..

"Dude..your gonna fall over" His voice taking a far more concerned pitch. Momota takes a step closer his arms already in a catching position.

My muscles are getting stiff, I can barely more my fingers..

Everything is starting to feel staticky but I can't focus on that, I'm too busy panicking.

"heheh..Hahahhahah..heheh..." My laughs feel more like gasps.

Stupid scary new place, stupid smells, stupid lights, stupid sounds, STUPIDSTUPIDSRUPIDSTUPIDSTUPIDSTUPID-

"Ouma's the killer!"

no..

"You can't deny it Kokichi! We have proof!"

that's not possible...

"You're the Mastermind!"

I never-

"Look at what you did!"

NO!-

I'm..

where am I?

My whole body feels heavy, I attempt to move but it's like I lost all my strength...

"Ouma?"

Maid san?..

"Ouma you fainted, Kaito brought you into his room since yours was locked. I'm just making sure you didn't get hurt when you fainted.."

She begins to lecture me on being more aware of my health, I'm not listening, I have too many things on my mind..

..I fainted?

I can't say I remember ever doing that before.

My image is ruined.

Absolutely ruined.

Damnit!

"Ouma? are you able to get up?"

-Like I Want to?!

I press my hands to my face and take deep breaths, how the hell am I going to survive?

Will it be fine?

Was the bear lying?

Will I Die??

Turns out those breaths weren't deep.

I was hyperventilating.

Crap-

Tojo tries to help but nothing she does is helping. She stops trying after it's clear it's not working then..she

-gets up?

Where is she going?

I'm too weak to defend myself!

I'll die!-

"Ouma!" Kaito appears next to me.

How did he get here?

What does he want?

"Ouma you need to breath!"

"..Breath in and count to four then breath out and count to four"

Really? That sounds Like shit advice..It does help tho.

My heart stops feeling like a hammer in my chest, heart be damned-I'm not gonna quit talking just cause I can't breath all that well!

"...wh...Whydo you..know howto do that?" My words are slurred, damn..

Momota raises his eyebrow.

What?

I think I have a right to know.

"My grandpa, he used to get panic attacks too."

...I had

a panic attack?

My confusion must've shown cause Kaito looks less sure of himself, "Have you never had one?"

..I can't remember.

My body starts to feel staticky again.

"Hey! Hey! Don't start hyperventilating Again!" Kaito grips my shoulders.

Fuck.

Shit.

"I Can't Remember." I tried to sound less concerned than I am, a bit gets through despite my effort..

Kaito resumes his previous position, he strokes his goatee in contemplation-it's so tiny!

Why does he even have hair there??

Hahah!

Oh god it's so ugly-!

My laughter seeps out my thoughts.

Kaito has no idea why I'm laughing. "Uh..you good there buddy?"

Psh-Oh Yeah I'm Great!

"hehe..hhaha..Why would you have such a tiny goatee? What's even the use? Hahah-"

He immediately regrets his question.

I hadn't even noticed the maid was here, she has a look of relief on her face.

It's not like I was dying...yeesh.

Felt like it tho.

"Alright, you're fine, if you have enough energy to laugh at me. I think you'll be fine.."

He doesn't sound as hurt as the face he's making implies.

I'll make a liar out you yet Kaito Momota~

"You didn't miss much, Saihara had everyone explore the school, pretty much what you wanted to do.."

As much as I love having people admit they were wrong and I was right I kind of have other things to be worried about.

"How long was I unconscious?" I can only assume a few hours.

Kaito closes his mouth, he looks at a clock then replies,"I'd say...maybe four hours?"

That..is

A lot of time wasted.

"Did the gang find anything of use?" Kaito's previously thoughtful look switches to a less neutral one.

"The gang? You mean Saihara? They...didn't find much" That sounded almost pessimistic-

"But they did find rooms!" Aaaand he ruined it.

"Saihara said he would come check on you" Why they hell would he do that? We don't know each other.

Maid san disappeared some time during our conversation, to get dinner maybe?

If I had to guess the others are asking her about my condition, nosy bastards.

There aren't really any windows..I'd have to use the clock to guess. The clock and Kaito saying it was dinner time.

Tojo comes back with dinner, she has Saihara with her as well. Detectivechan sure is caring~

Someone could take advantage of that..

"How are you?"

-Seriously?

This Damned Question Again-is anyone ever okay after passing out due to a fucking panic attack???

"Ooooh yeeeeah, I'm doing Great! That was just the amount of sleep I needed!" Contrary to my sweet expression my voice is strikingly bitter.

Saihara, annoyingly, has a sympathetic look on his face.

I don't need sympathy!

I need to...

I really need like, a board to brainstorm on. This, trying to think only in my mind bullshit is not working.

I'll ask Momota to help me later..