The response to this story is amazing. I wrote the first chapter just to let out my anger about the barn-scene. Many things, said in the first chapter were orginally planned to appear in the first chapter of 'Lose your mind!'. But it would have made the chapter too long.
This story is now going to have at least four chapters!

There was a death silence over the house, ever since Natalie arrived and told them what happened to their father.

It was official: In this family, nobody has time to be upset or mad on someone, as their life is way too eventful and too full of drama to have time to process your feelings or to calm down when you're upset.

Lois was full of worry for Clark, but somehow she managed to figure out anyway what happened before Clark got called away.

On the way back to the farm she remained silent. He was still so weak. And Clark meanwhile thought about Karma. He left his powerless son alone and is now powerless by himself! Irony of fate? Karma? A punishment from God?

Before the trip to his mother, to check when his powers will return, Lois and Clark had a chance to talk alone in Lois' office…

"I need to tell you something!" Clark made the first step.

"Is it about the barn scene?" Lois asked reproachful.

Clark looked on her in surprise. "Where do you know about that?"

"Jonathan called and texted me while you and Jordan were away! Asking where you are. I saw those messages while you were in Hospital. I asked him what happened when I got home, and he just blocked me off. Pretending that it is not important and that I should congratulate Jordan instead. Then I asked Jordan and he confessed everything to me." Lois explained with crossed arms.

Clark buried his head in his hands and moaned guiltily.

"Clark, how could you?" Lois asked. Her voice dangerously calm. In truth she wanted to scream. But Clark was still so weak, and she couldn't yell on him in his condition.

"It was not my purpose that he feels offended or left out. And believe me I tried to talk to him after. And I don't get his words out of my head… Jordan told you what he said?"

"Everything he said to you and everything he said to Jordan after you left! And even some more things I didn't know before." Lois told before she suddenly start to cry. "He won't confess it if I ask him. He is convinced that I don't love him, too because he doesn't have powers."

"We once talked about this!" Clark remembered.

"Yeah, ten years ago. When we had that discussion about telling the boys the secret. We even asked my father and your mother and they warned us that it could happen if this case occurs."

"And we swore to never let it happen. No matter who gets powers or if both remain powerless."

"What happened to our promise, Clark? What happened to it?"

"Too much, Lois! Ans I just don't get it out of my head."

"If you and Jordan would have returned only two minutes later you wouldn't even know it! The last thing Jon would know that you tell Jordan that you are proud on him and then fly away."

"And believe me, I am glad that I got the chance to at least try to talk to him. I made a mistake, Lois. Do you think Jon will forgive me?"

"Jon was so afraid that you will never forgive him! When you were in the other world he was on a guilttrip. And I didn't even help him!"

"These 33 days must have been awful for him, too."

"They were for us all."

"Ever since I woke up in Hospital, I am thinking about Jonathan and how he must feel with me as father and with a brother with powers? I didn't even get a chance to talk to him when I arrived!"

"He pretends to be fine! As usual! Anyway, I think if you tell him now in your condition that you understand him, he will just feel more offended."

"You're right, Lois. I… I think I must admit it: I am a bad father. Because of me, Jonathan thinks he has to be ashamed for being powerless."

"You never took him to your fortress, too. Jordan mentioned it. Jonathan thinks he is not allowed to know his grandmother because his powerlessness."

"Oh my gosh! Did he really say that?"

"Jordan said, he understood it like that! And that Jonathan thinks, your mother does not know about his existence."

"She does! I swear it. I mentioned him to her! She just… awww… she is not the Lara that was once in Lana's body. Back then, she wanted to know everything about the boys. And now I only talk about Jordan every time I visit her. You know what?"

"What?"

"The X-K! It was not about football. Or Timmy Ryan or about the team… it was because he thought he can't satisfy anyone without powers." Clark realized. "He… He really thinks he needs powers just to get loved by us."

"Gosh… That's what he meant?" Lois suddenly remembered her conversation she had with him shortly before Clark came home.

"What?"

"Clark, I wasn't fully honest to you! That day, he got caught with Candice's inhalers, he tried to explain to me his reasons. He said… everyone in this family is something special. And he wanted to be special, too. I just focused on football and Timmy Ryan. I should had heard that he meant us. And then I told you only that he didn't tell the name of the dealer and the rest you know."

"And I think I just worsened it!"

"Yeah… Jonathan is ashamed because he has no powers. Jordan is ashamed for having powers, now. And that all while the world is facing a world-ending crisis… will this family ever get a break?"

"As soon as this crisis is over, I introduce him to my mother. To apology."

"It would be an apology if you took him to your fortress, a day or two days after you went there with Jordan for the first time!" Lois said. "Now it would be an offense and sheer mockery!"

Clark buried his face in his hands again. Lois was right: He waited too long! Introducing him now to his grandmother would feel more like an offense, then an act to let him feel being a part of it.

"Where is he now?"

"Upstairs! He acts like nothing happened. He even denies that he ever said anything?"

"Why? Why is he bottling up everything?"

"Because he is the easy one?" Lois asked. "Is it because he thinks we expect from him to remain quiet and… aww… We didn't even talk to him after his doppelganger appeared! Jonathan just stood on the terrace and watched Jordan fight him! If I would see myself getting beaten up by my sibling, I would have a lot of questions. I mean… he must feel like… ehm…"

"Weak, useless, unloved, invisible… Now that I am powerless, I know how Jon must feel all the time. Right now, I wish I could do something, but I am forced to watch. It feels terrible! But I know I can't just go to him now and tell him that! He would say I am…"

"Hypocrite, ignorant, uncaring, arrogant, incomprehensible…" Lois answered. "It's what I would think. We let it happen, Clark! We both did!"

"Yes! We let it happen that our son thinks we don't love him!"

"I wish we wouldn't have this crisis now."

"Yeah, I would take him aside and try to talk to him again…"

Clark couldn't finish his sentence, as they suddenly heard John-Henry arriving outside in his steel-suit to fly Clark to Tal's fortress to see his mother.

"John-Henry is here!"

"Good luck, Clark! We talk about Jon, later again."

Later was no time. As not only Lara's scan results were not good. But also, the events start to escalate with the sudden arrival of the red sun, the fight in the school and the beginning of the merge of the worlds…

For a while, I thought I am the only one who is so terribly upset about the barn-scene. But it looks like I really hit a nerve with this one. The next chapter follows ASAP. I want to add some more 'deleted scenes' from my previous series. Mainly Lara!