Chapter 12: She was right

I gripped my steering wheel. I had to try my best not to break it. Invite her back. He must be insane. Well, he could have that red-headed witch if that is what he wanted. It was no concern of mine. I was trying my best to calm down. I had run a red light or two. That is how blinded by anger I was. Why did I get so riled up in the first place? I could not remember the last time that I was this angry. I took deep breaths. I had been driving for almost forty minutes. It was just me, silence, and my anger. I turned down the dirt road. Parking off to the side. I need to be around the only people who could calm me down. I exited my car and walked up to the front door. I knocked, and it opened moments later. Suddenly I wasn't as angry.

I smiled. "Kagome."

She beamed at me, hand resting on her belly. She wore pregnancy so well. "Kimi, what a nice surprise, please come in."' she said stepping out of the way.

Kagome and I had grown very close over the years. I loved her as I would my own child. She closed the front door and I followed her into the den. She waddled cutely over to the couch, sitting and getting comfortable. I sat opposite her.

"You look, beautiful dear."

She smiled. "Thank you. It is difficult and the days are long, but it's worth it."

"No one would ever know. You wear it so well. Where are the twins?"

She laughed. "Thank you. Thankfully they are down for their afternoon nap."

"How is your mother doing?"

"She's doing well. I will tell her you said hello. So, what is this popup visit about?"

I cleared my throat. "There are some things I needed to talk to you about."

She grinned at me. "I know that look. Are you having man troubles, Kimi?"

Had Sesshomaru not mentioned anything to her about Kouga? All the better for me I suppose.

"I suppose it is something like that."

Her eyes glittered with excitement. "Please do tell."

I cleared my throat. "Well, you see. I went to the grocery store. I wanted to cook dinner for us. I ran into some that he had relations with. Multiple relations with. His ex-fiance apparently, and wanted to make it known that she would do whatever it took to wait for him. That I was only here simply for the moment, and that upset me. I went back to my apartment and told him that she had made me angry. She is the reason that my arm is bruised. He asked me if I was upset that he slept with her I said no. Then, he has the audacity to say he might invite her back so that he and her could talk things over. After that, I lose my composure and hit him with a bag of Epsom salt. I left him there and came straight here because of how upset I am."

She put her hand up. "Wait, are you saying that your boyfriend thinks it's okay to invite his ex over to so-called talk things over? Especially after his ex-fiance disrespected you and assaulted you."

I straightened up. "Oh, we are not together we are just friends."

She blinked, looking at me strangely. "Just friends?"

"Yes."

"Where is he right now?"

"I left him at my apartment."

"Why was he there?"

"We were to spend a few nights together."

"Did he yell at you once during that argument? Or try to flip anything on you?"

"No."

"How much time do you to spend together?"

"A lot I would say."

"Why are you upset with him over this woman?"

I sighed. "I do not know. That is why I am here. I was hoping you could tell me the answer to that."

She pinched the bridge of her nose. "Kimi. I am not sure how to break this to you, but that is your boyfriend."

I folded my arms. "I promise you he is no such thing."

She laughed. "Then you clearly have feelings for him."

"No. We just enjoy spending time with each other. We have an understanding; he and I. I am able to share things and show him part of me that no one else has seen. He has done the same with me. He is a very good friend. He is patient and kind. He is quite easy on the eyes as well, but I suppose that s just a bonus to who he is as a person. He has just done this one thing that made me mad."

She gave me a look. I couldn't quite understand what it meant.

"Kimi… it sounds like you two more than care for each other. It sounds like you two are on the way to loving each other. Especially if you keep this up. No wonder he said what he did. He doesn't know how you feel, since you haven't been honest with him. He's probably confused too and said that just to bait you. So that he could get some answers. Not a very smart thing to do, but it is a typical man thing to do."

"Kagome, darling you are confused. I do not have feelings for him. He does not have feelings for me. He recently had relations with that woman a few nights ago."

"Why? That makes no sense. Did he see you with a man?"

"Well yes. He threw him from my apartment one night actually."

"Have you told him that you two are just friends?"

"Well yes, because we are.

She buried her face in her, dragging them down.

"Then that is why. I know what two people that have feelings for one another, that are fighting sounds like. No one knows better than me what that is like. How long have you two even known each other?"

I sat there and thought about it. "I've known who he is for quite some time. Only catching a glimpse of him every now and then. However, we've only been spending time with each other recently. I would say almost two weeks."

She looked shocked. "Almost two weeks and you already have him sleeping over, and he has thrown a man out of your apartment. Either you two are very codependent, or you two must really like each other, and Kimi you are not dependent on anyone. That only leaves one explanation."

"Kagome that just does not make any sense."

"In my experience, you demons move very fast. Every demon has a mate. When they find that person, It is close to impossible to tear them apart. It's in your DNA. Your soul chooses for you before you even realize it. At least that is how Sesshomaru explained it."

"He has imprinted on someone once. Someone who he is not over and I've been mated before."

"Has he reached out to this woman at all?"

"No."

"Then she does not matter. Quick question, did you feel this drawn to the others as you are to im, did you ever want to spend as much time with the other as you do him?"

I thought about it. "I suppose not. I do occasionally listen in on him when he is in his apartment."

I could see her holding back a smile. "Oh, okay... moving on. What about when you two have sex? How does it make you feel?"

"I'm telling you we are just friends. We have not had sex. We just talk and enjoy one another's company. I am not attached to him if that is what you are insinuating."

She smiled at me. "Then why do you keep checking your phone, Kimi? Are you expecting a call or a text from someone"

I put my phone in my bag. "No reason. Force of habit I suppose."

"Mhm sure. If you want my honest opinion, Kimi. You two have feelings for one another and are trying to ignore those feelings for some reason. You are trying to fight it. Men are naturally oblivious, but Kimi I am sure you know better than that. You have been alive for quite some time. You know what it feels like to have feelings for someone. I think that you are trying your best to ignore it because you're afraid of feeling something for anyone again. You like him, and you're upset over this woman, probably because you've subconsciously claimed him. You wouldn't be the first Taisho to have done it."

I swallowed the lump in my throat. Was she right?

She sighed. "Let me say this. I need you to picture this. You wake up tomorrow and every day after that. Without getting to see him or speak to him. Now, how does that make you feel?

I felt my hair stand on end. She was right.