I wondered if I should skip my classes today and just pretend that I am sick. There would be no way to avoid Severus. I made my way to the Slytherin table and plopped down next to Draco. "So detention with Snaddy?" Draco asked.
I nodded, "I do not understand why I got detention and you didn't. You were the one outside of your room and in my dorm room. How does it feel to be gods favorite?"
"Feels pretty good," he smiled. I looked over at the head table and noticed Severus was not in his spot. "I will be right back," I said while standing up. I made my way to the potions classroom and knocked on the door. "Enter," he said.
I opened the door slowly, "I thought I told you I didn't want to talk to you," he said while still looking at his papers.
"Can we talk?" I asked.
"If it's about homework then yes. If it is about you lying to me then no," he spat. I walked closer to Severus, "Stop," he said while putting his hand up. "I do not want to get hurt any more than I am."
"Severus," I said.
"You address me as Professor Snape, nothing more nothing less," he slammed his quill on the table. "Now get out."
"Please," I said.
"Now!" He yelled.
Potions class didn't go over well either. Severus barely looked at me when he was talking. He was taking points away from everyone and it didn't matter what house you are in. I am still his assistant which made it difficult when it came to us grading papers alone. He only used one-word sentences when he spoke to me. Detention was canceled three times this week per Severus having important business to take care of. I barely ate anything when it came to supper. I wanted to curl up in my blanket and burrito for the rest of my life. I would skip classes and do that but life doesn't work that way.
On Wednesday night since I didn't have detention I decided to go to moaning myrtles bathroom with my golden egg. I hadn't figured it out yet and wanted to make sure I was prepared. Harry had told me to go to the bathroom with my egg. Which was strange but why not? I got to the bathroom and got undressed. Stripped everything off my body. At this point, I didn't care what anybody thought. I wanted my Severus Snape but he doesn't want me. I sat down in the hot water and moved the bubbles closer to me. I put my hair up in a bun and grabbed my egg.
I opened the egg and shut it instantly. "What is that bloody noise?" I looked up to see moaning Myrtle looking at me.
"It's this egg," I said.
"I'd try putting it in the water if I were you," Myrtle said. I gave Myrtle a confused look. "Well. That's what he did. The other boy, the handsome one. Harry Potter."
I shrugged my shoulders and put the egg underneath the water. I opened it up.
Come seek us where our voices sound. We cannot sing above the ground. An hour-long you'll have to look, to recover what we took.
I came up from the water, "is there merpeople in the black lake?"
"Ahhh, very good. Took Harry ages to riddle it out. Almost all the bubbles were gone..." she giggled. I giggled with her. "Will you be my friend?" Myrtle asked.
I nodded, "I could use another friend," I said while wiping my hair back.
"Is there something wrong?" She asked.
"Yeah," I said, "just complicated relationship problems."
"You mean with Severus Snape?" She asked.
I was shocked, "how did you?" I stumbled on my words.
"Professor Snape comes into this dormitory also," she states, "he knows it's the girls' dormitory but he knows not many people come in here. He talks about you, you see."
"He does?"
"Severus and I have some interesting conversations, to say the least," she said.
"When was the last time you saw him?" I asked.
"The past two nights he has come in to take a bath. He usually comes around this time," she said, "unless he has hallway duties."
I gulped, "I should go."
"Would you like me to talk you up?" She asked.
"I mean you could slip my name in a little bit I should figure this out on my own," I said while grabbing my towel and wrapping it around my body.
"I will talk to him," she giggled, "he's very handsome."
I smiled, "yes he is."
"What happened between you two?" She asked while I was putting my sandals on.
"Um- I lied to him and I shouldn't have," I paused, "I know I should have told him, but I was too scared to lose him. I didn't want him to know about the past. Since I was so young at the time when it started, and I didn't want him to judge me."
"How young?" Myrtle asked.
"Fifteen," I said looking down.
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Severus Snape
I made sure I didn't have to see Skylar so I canceled the detention. I know Minvera would ask why I canceled but I didn't want to deal with her. Minvera can bitch all she wants.
I made my way to the second-floor bathroom where I have been going for the past two days to sulk.
I opened the door slowly because I heard voices and didn't want them to see that I was coming into the bathroom to take a bath. They should've locked the door if they are in here.
"Yeah," it was Skylar, "just complicated relationship problems."
"You mean with Severus Snape?" Myrtle asked. Why do I tell ghosts things?
Skylar sounded shocked. Which she should be, I usually don't tell ghosts my business.
"The past two nights he has come in to take a bath. He usually comes around this time," she said, "unless he has hallway duties."
"I should go," Skylar said.
"Would you like me to talk you up?" Myrtle asked.
"I mean you could slip my name in a little bit but I should figure this out on my own," Skylar said and I looked around the corner to see her grab a towel and wrap herself in it.
"I will talk to him," she giggled, "he's very handsome." I smiled at the comment.
I smiled, "yes he is." I smiled even more about Skylar's comment but soon that faded with thoughts of Skylar lying to me.
"What happened between you two?" Myrtle asked
"Um- I lied to him and I shouldn't have," she paused, "I know I should have told him, but I was too scared to lose him. I didn't want him to know about the past. Since I was so young at the time when it started, and I didn't want him to judge me." I gulped at the comment about her being young.
"How young?" Myrtle asked. My heart started to beat fast at Myrtles' comment.
"Fifteen," she said looking down. I wanted to go over there and hug her but she still lied to me.
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Skylar Simmons
I made my way to potions class and wondered if Severus would cancel detention tonight.
Severus was passing out graded papers and he got to me. Severus leaned down, "detention at 7 pm tonight." I was surprised that he didn't cancel it, but I was nervous to go.
"So you are going to detention tonight?" Draco asked.
I nodded, "he just told me."
"Be quiet Mr. Malfoy," he paused, "and Miss. Simmons." His tone changed when he said my name.
"He's warming up I think," Draco said.
"Mr. Malfoy I told you to be quiet," he said, "20 points from Slytherin."
"He needs to get laid," Blaise said behind us. "He was way nicer before break what happened?"
Severus cleared his throat, "Quiet."
It was true he was nice before the break but nobody else knew why besides Draco, Severus, and myself. I looked up to Severus reading a book while we wrote our essays. I felt so much pain in my wrist. Severus had given us pages to read and a 10-page essay.
I missed him, I missed him so much it was hurting me. I missed his touch and I missed being around him. I loved watching him read. I loved him dearly but I knew he wasn't going to forgive me anytime soon. I missed watching him read in his pajamas. I missed his smile.
I couldn't stop watching him.
Detention
It was strange staying after his first-year class because I had no idea if he was going to talk to me. He didn't make one peep during his first year's class to me. "What would you like me to do, Professor?" I said.
I looked up at Severus who was still reading his book. "Clean cauldrons," is all he said.
"I will get right to it, Professor," I said, still staring at him. I could see a slight smirk go across his face but soon disappeared when he looked up at me.
"Can we talk?" I said while walking up to his desk and putting my palms on his desk.
"What makes you think I want to talk?" He asked while tapping his hand on the desk.
"Can I just talk?" I said, "I want to explain myself."
"No, I will talk and you listen," he said while slamming the book closed and looking up at me. His onyx eyes were hurt and it looked like he has been crying. I wanted to go over to him and give him a big squeeze.
"You lied to me and I do not appreciate that. I'm still in love with you but I can't get over the fact that you were too scared to tell me. You need to trust me about everything," he said.
I was going to bring up Bellatrix but that was fifteen years ago.
"You should've told me that you had been with Lucius. He is a terrible man and I do not like that you were so young when he-," Severus paused. "Did you listen to my conversation with moaning Myrtle?"
He nodded, "you should've told me."
"I know," I said, "I know I should've told you Sev-Professor."
"I want to know how it started," he said.
I scratched my head, "right now?"
He nodded, "we have all night."
"Okay," I gulped.
Flashback
"Draco and I had been friends for a while now and he invited me to stay over for the week. We were around the age of fifteen and I was excited to see his house. He is always talking about his house and how big it was," I paused. "I stayed in the room with Draco since that is where I wanted to be. I wasn't comfortable being on my own. Draco and I had both fallen asleep after talking about him being gay and his family not knowing. Only me. I was the first one he had told," said.
"There was flirting back and forth every time I came over. Draco and Narcissa never noticed what was happening. But one night, I felt arms pull me up and into their arms. I opened my eyes to see that Lucius, Draco's father was carrying me. He took me to his office and sat on the couch with me. He pulled me onto his lap and all the rest went down the drain. Soon we were sleeping together almost every night when I stayed over," I paused because of Severus' face. "What?" I asked.
"Was it consensual?" He asked.
"It doesn't matter because at the time I was only fifteen," I said, "age of consent is sixteen."
Severus gulped.
"I broke it off a couple of months ago but was too afraid to admit it. I knew that if I ever stayed at Malfoy Manor that it would happen again."
"That is all I needed to know," he said.
"Do you forgive me?" I asked.
"No," he said, "but I understand," he said while standing up from his desk and making his way over to me. "You may leave."
My mouth gaped. "Why did I tell you all of that if you won't forgive me?"
"It takes time and I need to process this," he said.
I nodded and made my way out of the potions classroom. So much for detention.
Assembly Room-
"The yule ball has been a tradition of the tri-wizard tournament since its inception. On Christmas eve night we and our guests gather in the great hall for well-mannered frivolity. As representatives of the host school, I expect each and every one of you to put your best foot forward, and I mean this literally because the yule ball is first and foremost... a dance," Professor McGonagall said. The girls were excited but the boys could be less interested. "Silence. The house of Salazar Slytherin has commanded the respect of the wizarding world for nearly ten centuries. I will not have you in the course of a single evening besmirching that name by behaving like a babbling, bumbling band of baboons," Professor McGonagall said.
"I have decided to have one of your professors besides me help with teaching you," she smiled, "we will have the pleasure of Professor Snape helping us," I gulped, why him? "Come on Severus and we will show them how it is done."
Severus walked over to Professor McGonagall, "Place your hands on my waist," she said. Severus gave her a look of disapproval. "Now." He did as he said and put his hands on her waist.
The squib started the music and they were off.
Draco started laughing at the fact of Severus dancing with Professor McGonagall.
"Mr. Malfoy, was is so funny?" Professor McGonagall stopped dancing and walked over to Draco. "Since you think it is so funny then you will come dance with me," she said extending her arm out to him. Draco reluctantly grabbed her hand and waited for the squib to play the music. "Professor Snape why don't you grab Miss. Simmons as your dance partner?" Professor McGonagall said.
I gulped and looked over at Severus. You could tell he didn't want to be there and he didn't want to be near me. Severus made his way over to me and extended his hand out. I grabbed his hand almost instantly and hoped people wouldn't notice how fast I did. His hands were soft and I felt electricity flowing through my spine. Severus pulled me in and put his hands on my waist. "I didn't think you would volunteer for this," I said.
"I didn't, I was forced," he said.
The squib started to music and we started to dance. After a couple of seconds of dancing, "grab a partner and join in," Professor McGonagall said.
"Do you want me to change partners?" I asked him.
He shook his head, "No."
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