Chapter VII: I Literally Cannot Leave
{Background image for this chapter: Tarot card VII - The Chariot (reversed)}
At first, I believed what Claudia Wolf (the woman from that creepy cult) told me (Chapters IV to VI) were just a fairy tale, but today I'm not so sure. Claudia just asked me to try to find a way out of this town and I would believe it all. I haven't tried to leave it because I haven't found Ethan yet. But today I decided to try it just to see what Claudia was about. I still can't tell if the story in Chapters IV to VI is real or a deluded fantasy, but all the paths to leave Silent Hill seem to have collapsed. I literally can't leave. I've been panicking today about this; I felt an impulse to find a way out and leave without Ethan and felt guilty about it. I felt more guilty than in the day of the murder, and then guilty about not having felt "sufficiently guilty" about the murder as well, and then guilty of not having noticed this until now. I thought of all things but at least one I did not consider: Jumping into that ugly abyss separating this town from the rest of the world. I hope I find Ethan soon. I also hope this abyss will come to pass. "This abyss will come to pass" - Father Giorgio said something along these lines (if I'm not deluding myself already). I only hope he meant literally this Abyss.