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A new chapter.
Chapter 1 Bring Me To Life By Evanescence.
"take off your rose-coloured glasses mum, cos I am not going to the wedding!". Leah stormed to her bedroom and slammed the door, rocking the walls. She fell on to her bed and screamed bloody murder in to her pillow.
'why the hell can't anybody leave me alone'. She whipped a tear from her right eye and sat up.
It had been like this for days.
When it wasn't Sue trying to guilt Leah in to going to that wedding, it was Emily conveniently running in to her at the store or outside of her own house. Profusely apologizing and begging her cousin to reconsider her decision. then there was the Uley Pack, Showing up at all hours of the day. calling Leah a Bitch, and saying she's already agreed to go in the first place. Telling her how upset Emily was, and how agitated Sam was becoming because he couldn't please her ex best friend.
And then there was Sam.
'fucking Sam'. the she wolf scoffed.
The son of a bitch had the audacity to show up at the Cullen's while Leah was on patrol. And beg Jake to alpha order her to be a bridesmaid….. for Emily.
Which in turn made Jake laugh in his face.
"At least there was one thing I could be thankful for" she muttered to herself. Ever since leaving Sam's pack and joining Jacob's, things had become a bit easier. Jacob had even made her his beta, which Leah hadn't seen coming at all.
'Sure, it had been hectic for a while. After the confrontation with Volturi we all still looked over our shoulders. It didn't help that quit a few of the vampires who come to witness for the Cullen's decided to stay behind. why?. no idea in hell. Jacob tried to explain it to me but I didn't want to listen. I didn't care. They were meant to be gone. From the bits and pieces I remember from Jake telling me…. or trying to tell me. A bunch decided to say behind and get to know the kid better'. Leah gagged, still creeped out by the little demon. 'a couple weren't ready to leave her yet, a couple wanted to learn more about her, then a few wanted to stay behind just in case the fancy vamps came back for us'. the she wolf huffed.
Knock, knock, knock.
Rolling her brown eyes she hoped off her bed, crossing her arms. "what Seth?". She knew she didn't need to ask. Of course her little brother would be at her door telling her to be nicer to their mother.
Another good thing that had happened was her pack mates were giving her less grief. Leah didn't know if it was because she was beta now?. or if they were all too frazzled about the events of late. But they had backed off of her. Seth for the most part had always been pretty good to her. of course they had their tiffs, but they were siblings and that was expected. Sam's pack however had not. She still had to deal with the Uley pack when she ran in to them on the Rez. But at least it still wasn't as bad as it used to be.
'at least I wasn't getting constantly ridiculed anymore. I can breathe better now knowing anything I say won't be dismissed immediately. I can get up without the feeling of dread that hung over me, knowing the moment I saw them… any of them that I would be relentlessly shamed. Getting told to keep my emotions in check, because they didn't want to deal with my constant bitterness and resentment'.
She snapped out of her thoughts when her brother started to talk.
"Hey Lee".
"what?". She tried to keep her temper under control. The she wolf really had been trying to put more of an effect in to not being as snappy.
"you might not wanna hear this but….". He took a long paused.
"just say it Seth!".
"Sam's here".
"oh of course he is". She said through her teeth, smacking both her hands to her forehead and taking a deep breath. 'well…. At least Seth isn't here to talk about mum'. "tell him I'm out".
"he knows you're here Lee. He can smell you". the younger clearwater brother would of gladly told the older man to shove off. Sam wasn't his favourite person at the moment. Now that the pack was smaller Seth's mind was less cluttered. He could now hear and see his sister thoughts clearly while in wolf form. And what he saw and felt horrified him. he didn't go out of his way to upset her before while in the Uley pack. But he would admit he could have been nicer to her. for the life of him he couldn't understand how he'd never noticed how bad her pain had been before. of course he would stand up for her at points, when he felt the others were being too harsh. He was ashamed to say it but…. sometimes he'd become swept up in it. and would say stuff he didn't mean. but he'd always feel bad later when he'd hear her crying in her room. Knowing he should of stood up for her more. yes, she'd say she'd forgiven him, but every time the siblings would make eye contact Seth knew the cold truth.
"then…. tell him I'm dead".
"Leah". he whined.
"fine". She marched to the door and throw it open. "useless". she hissed walking passed her brother.
Seth muttered a quiet 'sorry' and looked down to the floor.
Stomping down the stairs, wanting Sam to know what kind of mood she was in. the she wolf took a deep breath before opening the front door. " "Sam". giving him a tight smile. "what a pleasure".
"Leah… you need to talk to me. your mother says…".
"my mother is wrong. Emily is not family… not anymore. And you..". she took a step towards him, jabbing a finger in to his chest. "are not… and will never be my family. And no... I don't need to talk to you, because I have nothing to say, and I already have an idea of what your gonna say, so you can save it. You all know how I feel. I have had this conversation with all you many, many times, and I'm sick of it. so get over yourself… and goodbye".
Just as she was shutting the door, the other alpha put his foot in it. stopping her from getting away from him.
"your breaking Emily's heart". He argued.
"she's breaking her own heart by not getting over it". 'if I had a dollar for every time that was said to me'. Leah resisted the urge to roll her eyes.
"then your breaking my heart".
"good".
"what's wrong with you?". He seethed.
"you…. you, you, you, you, you. you are what's wrong with me. you big jackass".
"I thought you were in a better place". He throw his hands up.
"actually yes I am. I'm in a much better place then I was around you. and I am trying to stay in that better place. So if you wound kindly… shove your wedding… up your ass. I would be just… perfect".
"why can't you just…". he stopped himself from finishing his sentence. Biting this inside of his cheek, drawing blood. He glared at her with a passion.
"what Sam?. go on… finished what you wanted to say".
He continued to glare at the she wolf, so she continued to talk.
"let me guess it Sam". she placed her finger at her chin. "why can't you just…. get in line?. Was that it?... I think that was it".
"she feels bad enough as it is".
"I don't care, she should be feeling worse".
"why". he snapped. "you used to be so close". Before he could shut up the words had already spilled out of his mouth.
"that's right, we were like sister". She said dryly. 'until you' she thought bitterly.
"this all can't be just because of me". He looked at her in disbelief. 'she hast to be the most self-involved bitch I've ever met. It's unbelievable that she just can't let us go. Does she really think I'm coming back for her?'. He wanted to pounce on her, shake her until she saw sense.
For a whole minute she just started at him. at hearing this Leah didn't know whether to burst out in to laughter. Or to just phases and rip his head off right there and then.
"she needs you Leah, Emily needs you to stand up and do this for her. you promised her you'd be her bridesmaid. What changed?".
The she wolf throw a hand over her mouth to stop her from laughing in his face. "you're really asking me that?".
"she needs…".
"yeah I heard you". she said calmly rubbing her chin. "what do I need Sam?".
"what?". He frowned, not understanding what she was asking him.
"we all know what Emily needs….. but what do I need?". She remained calm.
Sam just started, not knowing how to answer her.
"have you ever thought of that?". she shook her head. "no…. I bet you haven't. I guess I can't really blame you… cos of the imprint". She scoffed. "must be nice to have that get out of jail free card in your back pocket".
"that isn't fa…".
"no, it's very fair Sam. you need to go look after Emily, because that is your job now. because that's what she'd needs. I…. on the other hand. Have to look after myself…. Because that is what I need. And I am looking after myself, by not putting myself, in to a situation where I am not comfortable. I am looking after myself by choosing… too give myself… the space none of you has given me". she placed her hands together in front of her.
"that…. I….. Lee -Lee we've tried….".
"then what?".
"then what, what?".
"back to what you were whining about before". she glared. "after I've, 'stood up' for her. then what?. We all just go back to how things are now?. or we turn in to the Brady Bunch, we're all hugs and kisses, and breaking out in to song when the sun comes up in the mornings?".
"you need to grow up". He spat irately.
"NO, YOU NEED TO GROW UP!". Leah roared, she was done. She'd let him go on for long enough. "I am not… going to fulfill… a promise, I made to somebody when I was six years old. We also promised never to hurt each other, and when we were both fourteen we pinkie swore that we'd never let a boy come between us. so what's her excuse". Before he could say anything thing she slammed the door in his in. refusing to give him the last word.
'yeah… let that motherfucker stew on that for the while'. Leah smiled to herself smugly.
Later that day.
Leah crept back down the stairs and peeked around the living room.
"mums not here". Seth said from the kitchen island.
she nodded and walk over to the fridge. Taking out the milk carton and drinking back a big swig. Her eyes swung to the clock above the fireplace, and frowned.
'oh great, the meeting'. She rolled her big brown eyes. The clearwater siblings where to be going over to the Cullen. Jacob had decided to hold all their pack meeting in the leeches back yard until the rest of the vampires left. He said it was because he wanted to keep a close eye on them. but the truth was he just wanted to be closer to Nessie.
The she wolf wanted to gag.
The younger boy noticed his sisters frown. "hey, maybe it won't be too bad this time. the other vampires might not come out again". he said, a hopeful look on his young face.
Leah scoffed. 'at our last meeting the Cullen's blood sucking pals decided to make an appearance. We were just finishing up when they come out. It wasn't all of them, just two from the Egyptian coven. In my opinion they were the worst of the bunch. When the younger two weren't following us around with wonder is their red dead eyes, they were trying to ask us questions and…. learn more… yuck'. She shuttered at the thought of catering to a leeches curiosity. 'at least the older two in their coven had the decency to glare at hiss at us. in my option… the way it should be'.
"Seth, when have I ever been that lucky".
"at last their not the worst leeches to be around". he argued.
"your joking right?". the she wolf looked at him blankly. "you really enjoy getting asked about how your digestive system works?".
"whatever Leah". He grumbled and went back to eating.
She smirked and went to head back to her room, when her brother stopped her.
"so do you think you'll do it?".
She signed loudly and turned back around. "do what?".
"be…. in the wedding?".
"what do you think?". she put her hands on her hips.
"it's just mum…".
"should know better".
"is that fair though…"
"And why wouldn't it be fair?. because putting myself on the back burning gives mum less of a headache". . Leah snapped at him.
"that isn't what I mean. she just…. doesn't understand what you went through is all?".
"Seth my sweet baby brother, that is where your wrong. Mum did know what I was going through she just didn't care".
"well I know that isn't fair Lee. She can't phases in to a wolf like we can. She doesn't have a mind link with us".
"no, she doesn't, but she listened as I talked for hours about how I felt. She heard me crying through the walls just like the rest of you. at first she even held me as I cried. But as soon as dad explained it to her, all that telling me how right I was went straight out the window didn't it?".
"she didn't know how to handle it then".
"But she saw how fucking depressed I was, she sat back and told me that I needed to move on faster, even though I was dying on the inside".
"she was upset too". He stood up.
"she was upset that Emily couldn't come around anymore. She didn't want ruin her relationship with Aunt Pam. As soon as she found out about imprinting, and that Sam couldn't control it everyone was back in her good graces. And I was stuck being the one overeating wasn't I".
"well. At the time…".
She wouldn't let him finish. "even if there was no imprint I wouldn't of been overrating. My boyfriend left me for my best friend and I didn't have any support".
"I was there". Seth walked towards her and reached to grab her hands but she pushed him away,
"yeah right up until you joined the pack. Then you were just like the rest of them".
"and I regret that but things are different now".
"not…. For….. me". she seethed through her teeth. She shoved her brother away and sprinted out the back door. phasing the moment her feet touched the wet grass, she ran in to the woodland without looking back.
At the meeting.
Leah had been the last to get there.
The she wolf had waited until her brother had left the house for herself to go in to a grab some new clothes. Her others had ripped to bits when she shifted.
The last thing Leah wanted to do was run in to Seth in the house after their earlier argument.
'I know I needed to apologize to him. he wasn't even the worst one of the boys to torment me over it all. I know I can't say I forgive him then throw it back in his face like that. I know it's wrong… really wrong. But there's just a part of me that can't seem to let it go…. that he took part in it. but then I feel really fucking guilting because he was just a kid at the time and didn't know any better. Besides…. I was kind of a drag. But could you blame me? really?'.
After throwing on some jeans and an old flannel shirt, she made her way over to the Cullen's place.
"okay". Jacob clapped his hands. "now that's Lee's here we can finally begin". The alpha glanced at the window to see his little imprint looking down at him. him happily smiled at waved at her.
'revolting'. She thought as she turned away from it. watching a grown ass man grin at the child that would more than likely one day become his lover. Her stomach dropped and her throat filled with acid very time she thought about it. 'Jacob's my friend…. but for the kid's sake, I hope she chooses him just as a friend. then find somebody her own age to love'.
Leah could feel her brother looking at her, trying to get her attention. She knew he felt bad about earlier, so did she but didn't need that coming in to the meeting.
The meeting was like all the others they had, had since the Volturi left. It was mainly just about touching base with one another, and the patrolling schedule.
"alright". for a split second he the alpha glanced at the she wolf. "now for the last bit of our meeting. I would like to bring up the wedding". He had his lips in an tight line.
She left all of her pack back look at her then look away again. knowing what they were thinking.
"what a… what about it Jake?". Seth stammered out.
"Sam had requested there be guards at the reception".
Leah couldn't help the eye roll. 'of course'.
"he's just a little paranoid about all the leeches in the area, and… I can't say I blame him".
Leah chuckled. "well…. All you have fun with that". she turned and stayed waking in to the tree line.
"Lee..".
"nope".
"come on Lee don't be like that".
"like what?". She swung around and asked calmly.
He didn't answer her, and the other packs mates didn't look at her, feeling awkward.
"Jacob… you already know I have no intentions of being at that wedding. And you already know why. I'm not going to keep repeating myself if no one's is going to bother to listen".
"Lee…". He tried again.
"no one made you go to Bella's wedding did they Jacob, you wouldn't of let them. and if Nessie decides to keep you around as a friend, I'm sure you wouldn't be forced to go to her wedding either, if you didn't want to".
After a long moment of staring at her he nodded. "fine… fair enough".
And with that, she turned and walked away.
Carlisle and Esme, in the house.
the motherly vampire had watched from the window as Leah calmy walked away from her pack. She hadn't meant to ears drop on their pack meeting. Esme was just meant to wait until their meeting was over, then asked if they wanted any food or drink. Than managed to catch the end of the conversation.
'poor thing'. She thought as Leah disappeared out of sight. Esme remember what it was like to feel so isolated. The motherly vampire shuttered thinking about her first marriage. Remembering the insults and the beatings. She shut her eyes tightly trying to burry down all the memory's.
Stepping away from the window she found her husband in his office. He was sitting behind his desk going over some documents, Carlisle had only just gotten home from work. when Carlisle noticed she walked in he smiled lovingly at her.
"sweetheart".
Esme mirrored his smiled and closed the door behind her.
"is everything alright?" He asked with a slight crease in his brow. Sensing something was slightly off about her.
"no, nothing. I was just watching Leah earlier. Poor thing, she seems so alone".
The doctor nodded at her.
"it's just a shame she doesn't have anybody to talk to".
"she has Jacob, he's her alpha, I'm sure they must talk".
"from what I've heard the two don't really talk too much anymore".
"gossiping my love?". Carlisle said amused.
"I may have picked Bella's mind on the subject". Esme slid down in to her husband's lap with a cheeky grin. Wrapping her arms around his neck.
"did she say why?".
"just that Jacob's been busy with Renesmee. And unless it's patrolling Leah doesn't leave her room a lot anymore".
"maybe we could invite her over lunch?, I'm sure if all the others come it wouldn't be as bad for her?".
"I don't know honey. Even if her pack members are here I think it's a slim chance she'd agreed. Plus I don't believe she'd feel comfortable around are guest". He kissed the side of her face. "is every one still here?".
"peter and charlotte left this morning". she ran her cold fingers through his hair.
The doctor nodded. "and everyone else?".
"they're all fine, Ben and Tia are in the kitchen, waiting for the pack to come back inside. While Amun and Kebi are in one of the guest rooms waiting for the pack to leave".
The married couple chuckled.
"the Denali's are in the living room, talking with Alice and Jasper, Garrett is with them. Both Zafrina and Senna are with Renesmee playing Go Fish in our room".
"and Alistair?".
"I'd assume in the attic".
"you assume?".
"I haven't seen him all day. haven't heard him either. My husband the miracle-working?". She smirked.
"I'm miracle working am I?". he chuckled. "why, what have I done?".
"for the life of me I will never understand how you convinced that stubborn as a mule man to stay".
"it took a lot of begging and promises".
"and hugs?". Esme joked.
"actually, never hugging him was one of the promises". He mused, helping his wife up off of his lap.
"well, I'm just happy he decided to stay longer. can't believe you managed to swing that one as well".
"well… I said please, and he said no. so I said please… and he said no again. and when I asked a third time and he said no. I threatened to visit him five times a year instead of once every hundred years. after that he changed his tune pretty soon afterwards".
"you evil, evil man. I love you". she grabbed his chin and gave him a big kiss.
Leah, alone in the woods.
'out of all of them you'd think he'd be the one to understand why even bringing up that stupid fucking wedding would have been pointless'.
Even though the alpha had let her off she was still peeved that he'd even brought it up to her.
'did he really think I'd jump for joy to be a bouncer for Sam's fucking wedding?. Fucking Sam and his paranoia, like any of those leeches would cross the treaty line and attack anyone at that wedding. It's probably all just some plot to make sure I was there, where he could see me. because god forbid I make a choice for myself for once. I do something for my mental health for once. I don't put on a fake smile and pretend that everything is fine and dandy. And not even so I don't get shit for it from the packs, but so I don't have to hear about it later from my mother. So I don't have to push a crying Emily away from me when she crushes me with one of her uninvited nauseating hugs. So Sam doesn't come banging down my door and gods knows what time in the morning. Red faced and biting my head off. telling me how selfish I was that his precious sweet little Emily was crying her eyes out because I wouldn't take a muffin from her at lunch. it's like….. did he ever think I just wasn't hungry'.
Leah angrily throw a rock in to the river she was walking by.
'god damn high and mighty Sam. yes Emily broke my heart, yes she stole my boyfriend. But that didn't mean everything I fucking did was to get at her. like… what did he think?. That I just sat around in my room all day thinking up ways to hurt Emily. Like she even matters that much to me anymore. Anyway, he should know that I don't spend my days plotting to hurt them. the stupid jackass shared a mind with me for almost a freaking year. And he still thinks I can't function without him'.
She picked up another rock and ditched it in to the freezing cold water. Some splashed up on her but the she wolf look no notice.
'he has some nerve trying to get Jacob to alpha order me to his stupid wedding. What did he think was gonna happen after that?. that I wasn't gonna beat the shit out of him for hurting me that way. I also wished Jacob did alpha order me to go. that way Sam wouldn't have an excuse for it. I'd be able to rip his throat out without wondering if I was overreacting or not. I'd be completely justified in his murder too'.
She smirked to herself. But it didn't last long, it soon slipped off her face. another stone went plunk in to the river.
'but of course… even if I got to live out of dream and kill him. that wouldn't take care of the rest of them, would it? Emily would fall apart on the spot, shaking and balling her eyes out. Good. She scoffed. 'could anyone honesty say she didn't deserve it. and could anyone honesty say I was wrong to not feel sorry for her?. then you'd have my mother'. Leah scoffed again. 'of course she's be holding my dear windowed cousin in her arms. Telling her it was going to be alright and whipping her tears away. All the while glaring daggers at me because I just killed the groom. Then in front of everyone she'd give me a lecture about how family is important, and why we shouldn't kill them. Seth would just tell me that I always ruined everything, no shock there. and the rest of the pack would be holding the Uley pack back from trying to get revenge for the murder of their all so mighty alpha. Of course they want to let them loose on me, for yet ruining another gathering with my famous temper. To be fair… at that point they should of known better to invite me. but like always… no one would ask me why. why I was so upset, why I so was angry, why I was crying my eyes out in a cold bathroom while everybody else ate lunch at the table. No one ever asked what triggered me to become so upset. Well I'll tell you…..SAM, SAM, FUCKING SAM'.
At this point she had picked up several stone and were tossing them fiercely in to the river, making quite the splash. The she wolf pictured her ex's face as she pelted the stones.
"yeah… take that". she said triumphantly, kicking up some dirt.
"what was that for?".
The she wolf had swung around quicker than she ever had. Her short black hair whipping in her face, almost scratching her copper skin.
"WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU?" Leah shouted angrily taking a few steps back. 'if im gonna phase, I'm gonna need the room'.
It took a second to spot the owner of the video. And when she realized who it saw she growled at him. the she wolf had remember him from the house.
Alistair was perched upon a high rock looking over the river. He was sitting crossed legged with his back leaning up against the stone. She glared at him as he shook the water off of his coat.
"I'm the bloke who was mindin' his business until you came along". He continued to shake the river off.
"what the fuck do you think you're doing here leech?".
"like I said". he started to talk slower. "minding my own…".
"business, yeah I get it. but why here?. of all places".
"getting away from that house".
"why?". she asked firmly.
The vampire didn't give her a response, he just rolled his red eyes and scoffed.
"you shouldn't be here". she hissed.
Alistair scoffed again. "no need to have a hissy, I know where your bloody treaty line is, Carlisle showed me".
"but your close". She balled her hands in to fist.
"but not over it, so go away now will you". he shooed her with his hand.
The she wolf let out a loud laugh. "you really think you can shoo me away... from my own land… from my own forest". She gestured to herself.
"I just did". He replied
'who the hell does this guy think he is?'. She gritted her teeth together.
"still here?". He said dryly.
'oh… I'm gonna have fun killing him'. "that's real big talk for somebody hiding up there on that rock". She got in to her defensive stance. "why don't you come down here and try ordering me around again. see how well that works out for you?".
"and why would I do that eh?. I'm quite comfy right where I am".
"too cowardly to face me Ah?".
"nope. I'd just prefer it up here. where the air is clean and doesn't smell like wet dog". He smirked down a her.
"oh you really want me to rip your head right off your cold shoulders don't you".
"I actually quite like my head where it is thank you". He lightly touched his neck.
"I think it would look better on the ground".
"I think many people would agree with you on that one".
"why would that be?. do you go around intruding on everybody's walks in the woods?". Leah said sarcastically.
The Alistair chuckled. "to be fair, I was here first. that would make you the intruder".
"intruder my ass". She spat. "who are you anyway?". she crossed her arms over her chest. 'I know this is one of the leeches who's saying with the Cullen's, otherwise I would of killed him already. I know I recognize him, but which one is he?'. The she wolf squinted at him.
He signed and rolled his eyes. "Does it matter?".
"listen buddy, when you're on this land. This close to humans… you're a fucking danger to them. so I'm gonna wanna fucking know who the hell you are".
He signed again, this time more dramatically.
"I don't have all day". Leah snapped.
He scoffed. "because your being so productive right now".
It was now the she wolfs turn to roll her eyes. 'damn leeches'.
"Alistair". He finally spoke after a few long moments.
"Alistair". She repeated to herself. "damn…. How old are you?".
"why are you still here?". He finally snapped. "don't you have a tail to chase or something?".
"rude". The she wolf flung a strand of hair out of her eyes.
A long awkward silence followed. 'why the hell did a stupid leech think it was okay to leave that freak show back at the Cullen's? why couldn't he just stay there so I wouldn't have to deal with his stupid sparkly ass. Man this is not what I wanted to be doing right now, is it too much to ask for one fucking afternoon where I can just lay in bed and watch Outlander all day?. god…. What I'd do for an hour alone with Jamie'.
"your more than welcome to be on your way?". His deep-voiced knocked her from her thoughts. "I'm not planning on going anywhere".
"and I should believe you because?".
"so what?... your just going to stand there and watch me all night are you?". The vampire did his best to hide his smirk, but Leah could see the corners of his moth twisting upwards.
"your bluffing".
"I bloody am not".
He was.
Alistair knew that if he didn't show up at some point Carlisle and Esme would more than likely come looking for him. 'they've done it before'. He thought peeved. 'once they realize I'm no longer in the attic…. They'll come for me. I just need a few hours… that's all I want, Is that really too much to ask?. Just a few hours were I don't have to listen to that constant chatter. Is it so much just to want to lay down on my cot and read all day in peace without any disruption'.
"so if I leave right now you'll what?... just stay here all night?. Doing what?".
"are there more ways to interpret what staying here all night means?. And to answer your other question, I keep to my own company, I've done it for over eight hundred years".
"eight hundred years". she repeated. At hearing how long he'd been around for, without realizing it Leah had let her tough exterior drop. 'yeah, I know leeches are hella old. I think doctor vamp has to be about four hundred at least. I mean, I've seen the dudes house. I've seen all the fossils plastered proudly all over the walls. He had to of collected them throughout the years, There's no way he just picked them up at Kmart'. A wave of realization swept over her. 'holy fucking shit…. What if I live that long?. I don't want to live that long. Is there anything worse than being alive for that long a time…. well, maybe being a bridesmaids at an ex's wedding. The worlds already going to shit, wanting to live that long would be… would be….. brainless'. Was the only word she could come up with in the moment.
Leah was so lost in her thoughts she didn't hare Alistair asked for her name. "what?". The she wolf finally said once she snapped out of it.
"I asked what your bloomin' name was. you were starin' at me like I'd grown myself a pair of wings. I hoped if I said something you'd go back to yelling at me so it wasn't so awkward'.
"no I wasn't sta…". she stopped herself not seeing the point in explaining it to him. "Leah… my names Leah. now go home, go back to fortress flea". she growled getting bored with this conversation.
"no I don't think I will". He leaned back against the rock.
"why are you being so difficult?". She said through her teeth. 'I just want to go home, but can't do that until I know he isn't going to be lurking around here by the tribe'.
"I'm not being difficult… your free to leave me alone anytime you'd like. But I'm not leaving this rock".
"WHY?". Leah finally shouted.
"cos I'm tired of being pestered all the bloody time. when Carlisle isn't coming up to cheek on me, his annoying wife is following me around wanting to know how I feel and if there's anything she could do for me. then there's the pixie one chasing me about the house, telling me how good I'd look if I let her buy me new clothes and shave my beard. Her husband isn't any better, while she's chasing me around he's chasing her. I feel like a damn train. The big one keeps trying to arm reseal with me, keeps saying he wants to know how the English get down. I don't even know what that means. Every time I walk in to a room his bitch wife throws wet rags at me, she says I look dirty and that I should stand under a waterfall under the water runs clear again. so far she's my favourite, she stays away from me the most. Then the little ones always coming up to me, tryin' to touch my face. Esme says the kid wants to include me more in all their… family crap. I don't know why, I glare at the little shit every time I get the chance. If I had to guess… the pixie put her up to it. she wants to become buddy, buddy with me, so I'd let her design me a wardrobe for me. which is pointless because I don't even have a wardrobe".
'my god, my throat almost hurts form talkin'. It's been a long time since I've said this many words. I've gone years without speakin' a bloody word. I don't think I've even said this many words to Carlisle, and I've known the bloke for a couple hundred years. And now this…. women has got me talkin' like I'm gettin' interrogated or something. His shook his head looking up at the gray Skye.
"you satisfied now women?". He growled. Alister finally looked back at the she wolf, only to see her covering up her mouth with her hand, trying to hide her smile. "so you find this amusin'?. Why am I not surprised?". He asked himself.
"im….sor…..i'm sorr…..hahahahaha". Leah had to place her hands on her knells to stop her from losing her balance. "I'm sorry..". she finally choked out. She whipped a tear of her cheek. "oh I needed that, I haven't laughed like that in years".
The English vampire stared at her like she'd lost her mind.
"it's just nice to know when it comes to the Cullen's, somebody has it worse them me".
"so happy to be of aide to you". He responded dryly.
She let out a couple more small chuckles then cleared up her face. "I mean… yeah they annoy the hell out of me, but at least Alice doesn't follow me around". she took a few steps towards him and sat herself down on a rock. 'this doesn't mean I like him…. I could never be friends with a fucking leech. But I could understand not wanting to be around the Cullen's… or any of their friends. And this guy doesn't seem like a friend of theirs… or at least a good one. but…. knowing there's another person out there who would go as crazy as I would if I had to stay at that house any longer then they needed to…. well…. Feels less lonely. But of course I'd never tell this fucker that'.
Alister signed when she sat down. "now you're makin' yourself comfortable". He knew she wasn't going to be leaving him alone for some time. 'came here to get away from a bunch of vultures and walked right in to ones nest'.
"you aren't tempted by that offer?". The she wolf smirked.
"what offer?".
She made a scissoring motion with her fingers.
He scoffed.
"not even a trim?".
"what's wrong with my beard?". He ran his hand over it. "I keep it neat and tidy".
It was her turn to scoff.
"what?, I do".
"You sure about that?. it's scruffy".
"but not out of control". He argued.
"there's dirt in it".
That's just dust from the attic".
"then what's the excuse for you hair then?".
"that isn't out of control either".
"you're kidding right?... it's flinging out in all places. There are sticks and leaves in it".
"to be fair, I was runnin' in the woods recently".
"so your saying your too lazy to fix it".
"I'm sayin' I didn't think anyone would see me….. I also don't give a shit what other people think. Is there a point?. I spend all of time alone, and when I am with others I tend to ignore them anyway".
"you're not scared of what ice queen and mama vamp will do….. or worse…. Manic pixie?".
A look of fear appeared on the vampires face, but only for a moment. "well….. maybe I'll dunk my head in the river before go back". he more said to himself. 'the last thing I need to deal with those monsters. I'd never get left alone'.
Leah surprised herself when she chuckled. 'wow… having a real conversation with a leech and not ripping it's face off. Didn't see that one coming'.
Some hours later.
"I didn't even think a leech could grow hair. Aren't all you weirdos frozen in time or some shit like that?. Leah said cracking her head. it had gotten sore from sitting in the same place on a hard surface for so long.
"it can but only a couple of inches every….". his eyes glazed up as if he were thinking it over. "… six, seven months or so".
The pair hadn't even realized how long they had been taking to each other for. after some time of discussing a collection of topics and several small debates, the chat had gone right back to his hair.
"if you never get it cut then why isn't it down to here?". with her hand in a straight line held it down to her ankle.
"cos I not a bloody hippie". He stated. "I might not have myself a home, or a steady income, like some do gooders who shall not be named. But that doesn't mean I'm not in the position to find myself a pair of scissors". The tracker normally didn't care how long his hair would get as long as it was manageable. But he didn't like it when it got too long, it would get his way when he was trying to get. And if there was one thing that carried on from his human life. It was that he still couldn't stomach hair in his food.
The she wolf held her stomach as she gave out a throaty chuckle, trying not to turn it in to a full laugh.
"what's got you laughin' now". Alistair rolled his red eyes again.
"I just find it funny that you have no home, no money, and nothing to do all day. but run around the forest with a pair of scissors in your pocket, just in case you need to cut your hair very few years". she laughed holding her mouth.
"well when you say to like that". he said dryly, making her laugh harder.
He rolled his eyes again, but straightened up a moment later. Noticing this her laughter died down and she sat up, watching him.
"What is it?". she asked.
"Friends of yours?".
Leah stood up so fast her head spun a little. she stuck her nose in the air and inhaled haled deeply.
'fuck my life, the Uley pack'.
Leah's stomach dropped.
"I'm assuming unlike you they might have the balls to rip my head off". he smirked at her.
"shut up". the she wolf glared at him. "and I did have the balls to rip your head off. I just… decided not to".
Leah was so distracted in trying to figure out what part of the wood her ex pack mates were in, she didn't even notice the English vampire was now no longer on his rock. And was now standing right beside her. she turned around to look at him only to jumped back in shock.
"mind warning a girl before you do that". she hissed. "from what I can smell….. it's just Jared and one of the younger ones". She looked back at Alistair. "you should go before they get here Mr Darcy".
"that nick name….. is it set in stone?".
She snorted. "go before I change my mind and kill you leech".
"then no that note, until next time then….. Leah".
The she wolf felt a gust of wind, then there was nothing. He had just vanished.
"creepy leech". She smirked to herself before running off towards her home. the last thing she wanted was to run in to anybody from the Uley pack and have to explain why she smelled of leech.
Later that night.
Leah had gotten home successfully without running in to anyone. The second she stepped in the door she boated to her room and throw herself into the shower.
She scrubbed her skin until it went red, trying to wash away the skink of Mr. Darcy off of her. she chuckled to herself remembering the face he had pulled when she gave him the nick name.
The she wolf forced the smile to full from her face. not wanting to smile for one of them.
'look…. I had one talk with one of them, one time. that's all. doesn't mean shit. It doesn't make us best friends or nothing. And I'm not looking for a friend either. Not killing this one leech doesn't mean anything. I just happened to finally find a bloodsucker that I liked talking to…'. she stopped mid thought to curse herself. A feeling of disgust bubbled up in her stomach. The last thing she wanted to do want admit to herself that she didn't totally hate spending time with one of them.
'I guess it was just nice to meet a person….. well in his case, a thing. That didn't get a high on life like everybody else around me. it's nauseating to watch everyone I know having a permanent smile on their faces at all time. to watch the rest of the world be constantly happy for no good reason at all'. pushing him from her thought she got out of the shower.
Once changed into her night clothes, she scrubbed her hair until it was dry and throw her towel in to her hamper Just as Leah was about get comfy a knock at her door ruined her vide. "what Seth!".
"mum says dinner's on the table".
"Tell her I'm not hungry".
"if you said that she told me to say, too bad".
"fine". She groaned. Grabbing a jumper and throwing it on over to night shirt she made her way down the stairs.
She took the seat furthest away from her mother but across from her brother, instantly shoving potato bake down her throat .
'maybe if I finish this quickly, and can get to my room without….'.
"Leah, I was hoping to talk to you".
'damn'.
The she wolf held back her eye roll. "what about?". she look up to see Sue Clearwater staring at her.
"did Sam stop by today"?
"yes….. he did". Leah said through her teeth. 'I should have fucking known It was all a set up'. she grinded her teeth together.
"and….. do you have anything to say?". Sue looked at her daughter expectedly.
Seth had now stopped eating and was looking down at his plate.
Lean looked up straight at her mother. "I called him a jackass if that's what you mean". she then went back to eating.
An open hand come down and slammed on the table, making the younger wolf jump. "Leah… all you have to do… is stand there. It won't be hard". Sue did her best to keep the anger out of her voice.
"I thought you taught us to never reward bad behavior".
"don't think of it that way".
"kinda hard, considering that's what I'd be doing".
"people will talk if you don't…"
"people talk anyway". Leah spat back at her.
"your cousins feelings will be hurt".
"yeah… they will. What's your point".
Seth flinched in his seat, knowing what was coming.
"SHE'S YOUR COUSIN, SHE'S YOUR BLOOD". Sue stood up from her seat and smashed her plate in to the sink in anger. "AND SHE HASN'T DONE ANYTHING WRONG".
"NOTHING WRONG?". It was now the she wolf turn to stand up. "SHE FUCKED MY BOYFRIEND IN FRONT OF ME".
A slight flash back
A yeah and a half before harry had taken his daughter out for a walk on the beach. Leah and Sam had been broken up for a week and Harry was the only one able to get her out of her room. Walking along the beach and talking was a thing Leah and her father would do together often. She could never open up to a person like the way she would Harry. He had an arm around her shoulder as they walked and chattered. They weren't long in to their stroll when they began to hear a weak moaning. Believing someone might have been injured, not an uncommon occurrence. Those waters were known for being extremely rocky, so they continued on. the closer they got the moaning become louder and louder. They stopped once they both realized what the moaning had been. Leah felt her face go bright red.
'of course, I had to be with my dad'. she thought.
father and daughter shared and looked and burst out in to laughter. It was the first time Leah had smiled since the brake up. harry swung his arm around his child's shoulders and more and went to walk away. That was until Leah stopped and froze on the spot.
'that laugh'. She thought. pulling away from Harry she ran as fast as she could and stopped dead. a moment later her father joined her.
"HOW COULD YOU". she screamed.
In front of them were Sam and Emily.
Naked.
Rolling around on the sand.
End of flash back.
"SHE DIDN'T MEAN…".
"HOW?, HOW?, HOW?, HOW?, HOW?, HOW?. YOU CAN'T ACCIDENTALLY FUCK ANOTHER GIRL BOYFRIEND. AND ANYONE WHO THINKS OTHERWISE IS AN IDIOT".
"IT WAS OVER A YEAR AGO".
"SHE WAS MY BEST FRIEND, SHE WAS MY FAMILY. THAT BITCH LIED TO ME FOR WEEKS". the she wolf not wanting to take out her anger on her mother, grabbed a glass from the table to throw it against the wall. Shattering it in to a million pieces.
The night Leah had phased for the first time had been the night she found out the whole truth. She had seen it all through their mind link. It turned out Emily and Sam had been going behind her back for three weeks before he broke it off with Leah. she stayed in her wolf form for two weeks, not being able to calm down enough to turn back. once she finally had Sam and Emily was at her door at once. Begging and pleading for her forgiveness.
Billy and old Quil had explained it all to Sue about the legends, and Sam and the boys behaviour of late about the Rez. Once imprinting come up Sue had changed her tune completely. She'd gone from a loving mother who listened and had her child's back, to a women who never wanted to hear it anymore.
"CLEAN THAT UP".
"HAVE EMILY CLEAN IT UP".
"I…. SAID… CLEAN IT UP". sue said slower.
"WHY CAN'T YOU JUST BE ON MY SIDE? "WHAT MAKES HER SO FUCKING SPECIAL?. WHY DOES NO ONE EVER, EVER WANT TO HURT HER FEELINGS?".
Sue ran her hand through her hair angerly, the older women look so defeated. "it was love". She whispered quietly, looking down with tears in her eyes.
"NO". Leah shouted as loud as she could. "WHAT ME AND SAM HAD WAS LOVE, WHAT THEY HAVE IS A FORCED INVOLUNTARY PAIRING, THAT SOME OLD GHOST CREATED TO FUCK OVER MY LIFE". And with that, she bolted back up to her room and slammed the door.
The next morning.
Before getting out of bed that morning the she wolf just laid there staring up at the light bold above her bed.
She could hear her brother and a couple of her pack mates down in the kitchen. Considering Jake was never around anymore she assumed it was Embry and Quil. She couldn't even care enough to smell the air to catch their scents.
The fight with her mother the night before had drained her. fighting with her mother wasn't something out of the ordinary of late. But she never left less shocked very time Sue would defend her cousin slash best friend, and ex-boyfriend.
'why is it so damn hard for everyone to see my side of things?'. She turned her head to see an old photo of the four of them. it was taken two summers ago while on a family camping trip. It was a photo of harry holding up a tiny fish no bigger than his little finger, with the biggest opened-mouthed smile on his face. Sue was sitting down on an esky clapping. and Seth and Leah were off to the side. with Seth on his sister's back. Harry had bet his daughter that she was no longer able to give her little brother a piggyback. And Leah being Leah said otherwise.
The she wolf smiled for a moment remembering how happy they all were they day. her smile faded hearing Seth's footsteps get closer and closer to her room.
"not in the mood Seth".
"me and the guys were…".
"Seth…". She shut her eyes tightly. "I'm really, really, really not in the mood today okay. so please just…. leave me alone". She felt tears gather in her eyes.
She knew he stood there for a minute before walking away. She could hear his feet getting fainter and fainter.
After another hour of laying in her bed Leah decided it was best if she went to the store. 'if I stay like this all day I'll just replay everything that's ever happened to me in head my over and over again. and who the fuck wants to deal with that bullshit all day'.
She flung herself out of bed and throw on a pair of black skinny jeans, a plan white shirt, and a brown and red stripped knitted jumper. Grabbing her boots she, choose to go out the window. She didn't need to run in to her brother and pack mates. All that interaction was going to do was make them all uncomfortable and awkward. The she wolf jumped out her window landing feet first in some mud.
"of course". She chuckled and was on her way.
It wasn't until the she wolf was just outside of the store that Alistair made his way in to her head again. she paused for a second then kept moving, walking in to the ship.
She grabbed a basket and began to stroll through the aisles.
'wonder if Mr. Darcy will be lurking around again. he better not be close to the Rez like he was yesterday. I don't give a damn if he wants to sulk in the woods, just as long as he doesn't eat someone from the tribe'. She smirked to herself. 'Though I wouldn't mind if he sank his fangs in to Emily. I'd pay good money to watch that. If that bitch likes taking my men so much then I'd gladly let her have a go with him'. the smirk fell off her face and she instantly felt sick. 'and now I'm referring to the bloodsucker as my man. Yep….. definitely hit rock bottom now. I have become so freaking lonely I am now borderline fantasizing about a leech'. Her brown eyes gazed to were some kitchen knives were on sale. 'oh please, stab me with one of those now'.
Leah grabbed a bag of cheese and onion chips and tossed them in her basket. Next, she made her way over to the magazines, grabbing a hand full of random ones and throwing them in with her chips.
'ooh, coke no sugar. You're coming home with me'. she took a carton from the shelf and just as she was about to round the corner she jumped back behind it.
Paul and Rachel were hand in hand over by the snack stand.
'oh fuck my life. Why did it have to be Paul? Jared, I could handle without losing it, Collin I could handle without losing it. but no, the universe just had to give me Paul. Big mouthed fucking obnoxious, doesn't know when to shut up Paul'.
Leah watched through the shelf as the lovey Povey couple turned and started to walk in the direction of her aisles. The she wolf quickly slipped in to the one next to it just as they turned the corner.
'that was a close one. I really don't need to be called a bitch or a skank today'. after a few deep breaths, she moved again this time moving a few aisles over, hoping to not get caught.
'if it was only Paul it wouldn't be as bad I guess. Rachel being here makes it all worse because now Paul feels like he hast to prove he's a real man, and insult women for being rightfully hurt'.
The she wolf peeked over to see the pair walking towards the direction of the cashier.
'thank god'. Once they had disappeared she ran over to the register and put through her order.
The man behind the counter passed Leah her bag and she was off. the first thig she saw on her way out as Paul and Rachel over by his car.
Her stomach sank.
Leah quickly turned and walked away. But just as she did that, Paul just happened to turn his head at that moment.
He smirked to herself as he spotted her waling off. "oh, this is perfect".
Rachel followed his gaze and her face dropped. "oh, shit. Paul doesn't do anything".
"it's fine, I'll just be a minute babe. I've been wanting to give this bitch a piece of my mind". as he went to walk off his girlfriend pulled him back.
"please don't, just let her walk away, she hasn't done anything".
"babe it's fine, just wait here". He pulled his arm away and jogged over to the she wolf. "hey bitch". He called.
when she ignored him and kept going he ran faster. Paul ran around her and grab her arm hard. "where do you think you're going Uh?".
Leah roughly pulled her arm away from him. "what do you want Paul?". She didn't need to ask, she knew what he wanted. To torment her. it was his favorite hobby.
"to know why your not over at Emily's. shouldn't you be there going through your girly magazines and picking out what flower she wants for her wedding?. Rach and I are happy to give you a lift". He asked innocently.
"that sounds like a job for her bridesmaids. Now move". She went to walk passed him but he knocked her back with his shoulder.
"you are her bridesmaid, frigid little bitch".
"frigid little bitch, now that's a new one". she rolled her eyes.
"I'm serious, Sam has been going nuts because he can't please Em. And it's all your fault".
"hey, he was the one who cheated on me, he was the one who lied to me. he was the one who didn't even bother hiding his new relationship and went around telling everybody and their mother how happy he was. without a thought for my feeling. And that slut was apart of it. so don't you stand in front of me and tell me their choices are my doing".
"if you're so over him then why….".
She cut him off. "because their guilt is not my problem".
"believe me, I've told them they have enough to feel guilty for". he smirked, hoping his words would hurt her.
"okay then, good for you. that's your business". She tried to leave again but was stopped. "you can't hurt me". she said feed up. "you're trying to hard anyway".
"get your ass over to Sam's now".
"why?".
"because I fucking said so". He got right in her face.
She couldn't help it, she had to laugh. "you have to be kidding right?. Paul even when we were in a pack together you could never order me around. and now because you think your Sam's friend you can. Your so fucking weak, it's hilarious". It was now her turn to get in his face. "never, ever". She poked at his chest. "order me like that again. he hits puberty, grows some hair on his balls and thinks he's a man".
Just as it looked like Paul was going to explode his imprint ran over to them.
"Paul, please, please". She pleaded.
"go back to the car Rach!". Though the sight of her clammed him down, he was still enraged by the she wolf's comments.
"come on. we're gonna be late for Em's anyway".
"Em can wait five minutes, she won't die without you".
Leah noticed the way his jaw clenched and his eyes took a fed-up turn. It was then she put it together.
"Oh, I see". She said smirking to herself.
"what?". He huffed.
"so….. your hissy fit hasn't really been about Sam at all, has it? Rach is now her new bridesmaid, and I'm guessing that's taken up most of her time. and now because you have nowhere to empty your balls, you're taking all your pent-up frustration out on me".
The other wolf lunged ford and took hold of her shoulder, giving her a firm shake. "don't talk about Rachel like that or else, you lonely cunt".
"I wasn't, I was talking about you, stupid jackass". she hissed in pain as he dug his nails in.
"please stop this". Jacobs's sister pleaded.
He gave his imprint a dirty look and pushed Leah away from him. she stumbled a bit but found her ground. Giving the she wolf once last mean sheer, he knocked the bag from her hand on to the ground. Turning away from her he grabbed Rach by the arm and stormed off. Rachel looked over her shoulder and gave Leah an embarrassed look before making it to their car.
"cunt. She muttered to herself watching Paul speed off toward Sam and Emily.
At home.
Not bothering to climb through her window again, she decided to take the front door, bolting passed her pack mates and up to her room.
Leah heard her brother call out for her but ignored it. she throw her bag on to the bed and went immediately over to her bathroom flinging off her jumper and shirt, she cheeked out her arms.
Already two rather large ugly yellow, and purple bruises had formed on her shoulders and arms where Paul had grabbed at her. there were several small imprints and cuts were his finger nails had dug in to her sort copper skin.
'crap, if Jake or Seth see those their gonna lose their shit'. Ever since leaving the Uley pack, the black pack had become slightly more protective of her. now have a better understanding of what she had gone through.
'the last thing I need is to be caught up in a bunch of man children and their childish heroic gestures'. She picked up a cloth and started to scrub at her little scraps.
'better not freaking stay this way for long. It's bad enough Jacob will probably hear about this from Rachel'.
Leah and Rachel had never really been close, even though they had grown up together. the she wolf was always much closer to Rebecca. But the two did start t talk more after went away to Hawaii. That didn't last long though. After the break up with Sam, all their friends close sides. Rachel choose to go with Emily and comfort her instead at the loose of their friendship. It did hurt Leah that deeply because they had only just begun to be close. What hurt her was that Rachel barely even knew her cousin.
'I guess it could have been because of Paul. But that doesn't completely add up because Paul hadn't even imprinted on her yet. That didn't happen until six months after Seth and I had phased'.
Knock, knock, knock.
"Leah…. go okay".
"I'm fine Seth".
"look, so…. Jake just called".
'for god's sake'. She rolled her eyes. "what he wants now".
"he says Esme is throwing a lunch for us….. and we all have to go".
"Seth come on…".
"all of us". He reiterated.
She exhaled heavily. "when?".
"we gotta be there in half and hour".
"fine". She angrily tossed the cloth in to the small tub next to her. "give me fifteen then we'll go".
"okay".
She heard her brother quickly shuffling away from her door. placed both hands on either side of the sink she gazed in to the mirror with dead eyes.
At the Cullen's.
'don't puke, don't puke, don't puke'. Leah told herself walking through the Cullen's doorway. Jacobs was outside waiting for them. he took his beta aside.
"be nice".
"I am". She said through her teeth.
"I mean it Lee". He gave her a pointed look.
"what's this lunch for anyway?". She crossed her arms over her chest.
"Esme just wanted to be nice….. let her".
"and the others?".
"are harmless. Just ignore them alright".
"If even one thinks about….".
"I'm sure none of them will want to hug you". He smirked.
"that's not what I was going to say".
"just get inside". He lightly pushed her towards the other. And the pack made their way in to the kitchen.
'I don't even get why she cooks so much, it's not like she can eat anyway'. the she wolf thought.
"good, you're all here". though Esme wasn't looking at her, Leah knew the mama vamp meant her.
They all took a seat at the table, Leah felt taut setting in there. She looked around but didn't see any of the guests. Feeling a bit less stressed she settled back down in her seat. The only leeches in the room were Esme and Carlisle. They were seated at the end of the table with Jacob and Seth. while Embry and Quil were in the middle, and Leah was at the end. she was thankful that Seth decided to sit as close to mama and daddy vamp as possible. Her younger brother was the most talkative person she was. he could keep a conversation going for a good few hours before tiring himself out.
Carlisle and Esme shared a look while the wolfs were too busy chowing down on the spaghetti.
Though Esme told Jacob the reason for the lunch was to say thank you for all they had done for her family. The real reason was to try and make Leah feel more included. And maybe that would lead to her feeling less lonely. It took a few conversations but the doctor's wife eventually talked him in to letting her do this. Ever since the day before Esme just could not get the she wolfs face out of her mind. Esme knew it would take time for her to feel more involved, that's why she and her husband decided it would be best not to bombard her with questions. Understanding if they asked too many if would most likely scare her off.
As much as Leah hated to admit it, she thought it was damn good spaghetti. She wouldn't go as far to say she was having a good time. but she was quit content to just sit where she was, eating some good food, and listing to the conversation of others. the she wolf found she was always more of a listener than a talker.
Unless someone said something that pissed her off or a topic she felt passionate about up coming. But if the conversation was on something she wasn't keen on she'd just sit and listen... or space out.
It was about half way through the lunch when their alpha imprint come running through the kitchen. For a second Leah stopped but ate on trying to ignore the demon child.
"Grandma, Grandpa". The little girl ran straight up to Carlisle and jumped in to his lap.
"my little love". Esme ran both her hands down the side of Nessie face.
"I'm hungry".
"I thought you would be". Esme pitched her cheek then reached behind her. producing a small plate of spaghetti. "here you go my love".
"thank you, grandma".
'yuck'. Leah did her best not to make a face.
"hey, Ness".
The little girl looked up at Jacob. The older man pointed to the meant balls on her plate and opened his mouth.
she laughed, picking one up and throwing it at his face. it landed in his mouth and all the wolf males cheered. Leah smiled when Seth made eye contact with her, but it faded a second later once he looked away.
"again!".
The alpha smiled and opened his mouth again. letting her throw another one at him. and again they all cheered. "
"you". the little girl said pointing at Leah. but before she could say no Seth got the kids attention
"Ness here". the younger wolf opened his mouth and reached his plate over to her, so she could take one of the meat balls off his. and like before they all cheered.
'that was a clos….'. Leah wasn't able to finish her thought because a meant ball hit her straight in the chest.
The room went frozen.
All the wolf's eyes went wide. Though all the boys were as still as rocks, all were ready to jump on her if she phased.
The she wolf looked down at the mess on her shirt.
"I'm sorry". A small voice said. Nessie slid down a little on Carlisle's lap.
"Leah… calming words".
It was then she looked up. "shut up Jacob". She said almost like she was amused. "I'm not gonna phased cos a mean ball got thrown at me". she glared at him.
"you sure". He asked more forcefully than intended.
"it's a little bit of sauce, it's nothing. Besides….. I've had worse throw at me". the she wolf got up form her chair. "can I use the…"
"yes dear, There's one down the hall". Esme answered her.
"thanks". Leah had a tight smile on her face and headed to the bathroom.
'damn'. Both husband and wife thought as she walked away.
"I'm not so hungry anymore". Renesmee said quickly looking down, feeling a little embarrassed.
"hey, Ness. Don't feel bad, okay". Jacob tried to cheer her up.
"yeah, Lee ain't made at you. when she's she mad, you'll know it. believe me, I know… I'm her brother". Seth gave the kid a kind smile.
Leah the bathroom.
'damn man, this place in nice'. Leah stood in the middle of the big bathroom with her hands on her hips. 'this is like forty times the size of my little dinky bathroom'. She went to the sink and tuned on the tap. Grabbing one of the nice looking flannels, that probably cost more than great grandmother's china. she dipped it in the water and dabbed it on her shirt.
'the nerve of them, thinking I'd yell at the little girl….. well little demon girl, for getting some food on me. they should know I'm used to it by now. why do they all think I sit as far away from Seth as I can while at bonfires? The little turd isn't capable of getting the food in his mouth on the first try'.
She scrubbed until it was only a faint splodge.
'well, I guess that will have to do'. She huffed and threw the now stained flannel in the sink. ever since she'd become a shape shifter, things like clothes and jewelry weren't things she cared much for those days. 'there's not really a point is giving a shit about pretty things if they get destroyed straight away. Had to learn that lesson fast'.
'it was an old shirt anyway'. she thought sitting down on the edge of the bath. After a minute she slid herself in to the tub and got comfortable.
'dang…. This is more comfortable than my own bed. White people get everything'. She closed her brown eyes and placed her arms under her head resting them there before she needed to get back out to the kitchen. 'maybe I will come over more often, but only if it means I get a few minutes alone with this tub'.
She heard laughter from the kitchen table. 'or maybe it's best I just stay in here. probably make everybody a lot happier anyway'.
"you look like you havin' the time of your life". An English accent jolted her from her rest.
"you again". she spied Alistair up against the bathroom door. Leah was so she didn't even hear the door open and close. She couldn't smell him either. 'I guess all the sink from the other leeches clouded together'.
"and you".
"you want something or what?".
He shrugged.
"so you thought you'd come down from your attic and say hi?". she sat up a little, resting on her elbows.
"you could say that?". He replied.
She raised her eyebrows.
"I felt you". He looked down.
"you felt me?". this time only one eyebrow went up.
"I felt… drawn, to come down here".
"and that's how your power works?. Like you can't control it. you just… feel like you have to be something and you go?". She sounded almost assumed.
"sometimes. But most of the time I'm in control. I rely on it….. like a gut feeling. It doesn't usually steer me wrong…. Until now that is".
She felt a slight warmish feeling in the pit of her stomach, at his boyish smile. "you must be just broken that you got me instead of princess Di". She mocked.
He scoffed.
"so what do you want with me then?".
Alistair gave her a funny look.
"well if your gut wanted me…. what does it want".
"probably to tell you to take a bath every one and a while".
Leah grabbed a towel that was nearby and ditched it at him. "you don't smell so good yourself Mr. Darcy".
"back to that are we?". For a moment he looked miserable about the nick name.
"oh, I don't think we really ever left". She now sat up in a bath. "pickles still after you".
"it's part of the reason I come down here…. she came up there".
"here…". she sat up a little more and scooted to the side. "tell me all about it". 'acting as a therapist sure beats for a bloodsucker, sure beats having a lunch date with Linda Blair from the Exorcist'.
For a moment it seemed like he was going to leave and run back in to the attic. But he eventually slowly made his way over to her. he placed himself on the side of the missive tub and slid down so he was now facing her on the opposite side.
"you sure this is the best place to have one of our little chats". He gazed around the bathroom as if he's never been in one before.
"your kidding right?, it's the perfect place".
"how do you figure that?".
"you smell like crap. If I need to throw up I can do that in the drain, then clean up with the shower head".
"aren't you delightful".
"I know what I am". She lifted her legs up to his right shoulder and crossed her ankles, Resting there.
"real nice".
"well if you're here I may as well use you as a foot rest".
"I'm happy to be of service then".
"you should be, somebody finally finds you useful for something".
"you warm my cold dead heart so".
"that's why I'm here". she shot him some hand guns.
"I'm so lucky".
"you are, I've heard from one or two people in my life that when I'm not a moody, hatful bitch I can be quit the catch".
"no kidding?... because in my life I've had one or two hundred people call me a moody bitch".
The she wolf had to laugh at that. "really?... I never would of describe you as moody or bitching". She said sarcastically.
"others would have a different option".
"so…". Leah laced her fingers together in front of her. "what's on your mine".
The kitchen.
"had anyone seen mopey anywhere". Alice stormed in to the kitchen with a look of pure determination on for beautiful pale face. "I was too busy running through all the different styles I could do. and when I finished I realized he'd gotten away".
"again". snorted her husband coming in behind her.
"umm, no, he hasn't come through here". Carlisle replied.
She bit her lip and turned to the wolfs. "no offense guys. but do you know when your all leaving. It would just be easier to find when I'm actually able to see him".
"we won't be here that much longer". Seth answered.
"they all have patrol tonight, and I need to help my dad with some stuff. We'll be out of your hair soon". The alpha looked up and saw the face the gifted vampire was giving him. "I promise".
"where'd Lee go?". Quil suddenly asked, his mouth full of pasta.
"she didn't leave did she?, I said I was sorry".
"I know Ness". Jacob rubbed her shoulder, giving Seth a hard look, that said 'get your sister in line'.
The younger wolf shuttered and went to get up. "I'll go look…".
"no Seth it's quit alright". the doctor stopped the much younger boy. he stood up and give Nessie to her aunt to hold. "you stay and finish your meal. none of us heard her leave, so she must still be in the bathroom".
Carlisle walked out of the kitchen.
"hold the phone… Leah's here too?". Alice squealed in delight. "this is fantastic".
"Alice". Her mother warned.
"I have this dress that I think will look amazing on her. it's dark green, knell high, and long-sleeved. It will show case her long legs perfectly, and show off just how tall she is".
"she'll be over joyed". Embry said looking away.
"can we be there when you tell her?". Quil asked Alice with a big grin.
The bathroom.
"no, no way, there's just no way you could pull off a mullet".
"that's what I said. but the little thing is relentless. I have half a mind just to let her do whatever she wants to me. as long as it will get her to leave me alone".
"tell her to give you a mohawk…. Please". She laughed.
"oh, come on". the tracker snorted.
"what's so wrong with a mohawk?".
"I'm not having this argument with you again".
"because you lost it yesterday?".
"because there is no argument. I… am…. Not….getting a… mohawk".
"but…".
"they look so silly. Besides….. my hair isn't made for that anyway".
"sure it is, it's hair".
"no, it's flimsy, the way I like it".
"you're a leech, everything about you is strong".
"right". He snickered.
"see". She leaned ford and tried to grab at his long blond hair.
"no, stop". He swatted her hands away.
"no, just…..let…..me".
"go away, would ya".
"stop fighting me".
"stop touching me, women".
The she wolf lurched herself ford and with both hands grabbed the sides of his hair. Alistair involuntary leaned ford so she wasn't leaning over him. so now the pair were both leaning towards one another. it wasn't until they made eye contact had they realized how close they really were.
"though it wouldn't be terrible would it". he spoke. "Having a funny haircut. It's not like some bloke is gonna come alone and see it, right. I'm all alone out there".
"all alone. Yeah… I know what that's like". She said quietly. Her eyes flickered down to his cold lips.
"yeah….. alone". The tracker repeated. His burgundy eyes did the same.
Just as the pair began to slowly lean in to one another. becoming closer, and closer. The door opened.
"Leah, are you still in here?. just wanted to make sure…". Carlisle stopped the moment he saw them. never in his three hundred and sixty-five years would he have ever thought he'd be seeing what he was seeing. His old friend Alistair the recluse. Sitting opposite in his bathtub across from Leah Clearwater.
About to kiss.
The tracker jumped out of the tub using his supernatural speed and stood in front of his friend.
"Carlisle". He nodded before bolting out of the room and out of the house.
The doctor stunned gazed back at the she wolf, who in turn was staring at him with wide eyes. She got out of the bath as fast as she could. the doctor leaned down to help her but she refused it. "Dr. V". she said before running passed him. She could hear her pack mates calling her as she ran down the stairs and out of the Cullen's home.
'oh, fuck…. I've really done it now'.
Please read note.
Hi all, this is something I've been working on in my spare time for a while now. this is probably the longest chapter I have every done.
Don't worry, my other stories hadn't been abandoned. I work on them when I can. Everything just got really stressful, my Nana passed away, my physical and mental health went downhill, and a lot happened all at once.
I hope you all can understand.
I'm hoping to be back soon with my others stories.
Please leave comments and questions if you have any. It's always important to me to know what you guys think.