During my Highschool days I was given an opportunity by my Literature teacher to write an essay about my highschool and how I felt about it. But due to my lack of resolve back then.. I couldn't complete it.

But here I am standing on Nakanoshima bridge, Chiba prefecture.

I have decided to finish this essay of mine, in the form of a letter. Maybe this would be considered the last achievement I have ever done.. The most satisfactory one.

Well to be honest my days in Sobu high, they sucked. The teachers.. My peers.. They were among one of the worst interactions I ever had during middle school.

Hence I thought the lack of interactions would be much better.. But they soon label me with a disease, something like Autism.

An outcast wasn't the worst thing. It did come with its own perks. I had free time.. Lazing around. While others were probably having the best time of their lives. For me, it was just my bedroom, living room.. My house.

If maybe I tried to fit inside.. but my Ego didn't allow.

Maybe if there was someone to push me.

The fact.. They were happy with other people, who was this 'They'? Back then I would have called them 'Normies'.

But now I would just call them.. 'Satisfied people.'

They were content with the lives they were living. Or At Least they weren't suffering.

Then there are the unlucky folks..

It was unfair.. There they are living their lives in a fantasy.. Whereas one with realistic thoughts suffer.

Is this what they meant by 'Ignorance is bliss'?

Waking everyday to just disappoint yourself. What was more disappointing about myself was unlike others.. I necessarily did not have any goals in life.

It was tiresome. Nothing had quipped my interest of any sorts.

Eventually my hate of highschool, transcended to university and finally life itself.

Questions.. You begin asking them yourself .

Worth.. How much are you worth?

Better.. Will it get better?

Chance.. Will I get another chance?

Sorrow.. How much more will I have to go through?

It circulates back-

Worth.. Is it worth living anymore?

Better.. Is it better that I just leave it all behind?

Chance.. By any chance, will I change my mind?

Sorrow.. Will anyone feel it, when I am gone?

These questions are left unanswered..

School never taught me.. College didn't either..

I would have never imagined that I would be doing this..

But to live an another day in this misery known as this world.. I can't. It suffocated.. It made me feel useless. It made me feel like an incompetent fool.

If these are my last words.. I want them to make sense.

But sense? Nothing made sense anymore. When you think you know it all.. yet I knew nothing.

Cherish... cherish what? this blessing?

Thanks for making my life rotten..

Here is my cherishment of the cruel world we all live in.

Time? .. It doesn't change or even wait for anyone.

That's why I came to the conclusion..

People like me should just jump

Sayonara

-Hikigaya Hachiman

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