Chapter 11: In Memorandum (Bonus)
Intelligence is the wife, imagination is the mistress, and memory is the servant.
- Victor Hugo
THIS IS WHY I STARTED HATING HUMANS.
I BELIEVED THAT STRANGE ECHO FLOWER TO BE TELLING THE TRUTH, THE GREAT PAPYRUS CAN SMELL THESE THINGS, NYEHEHEHE ... HEH, I ALMOST THOUGHT I STILL HAD A NOSE.
IT APPEARS TWO HUMANS CAME TO ME AND FOUGHT ME VALIANTLY, NYEH? I DO NOT REMEMBER ANY OF IT, BUT THEY MUST HAVE BEEN GOOD HUMANS! THEY LOVED MY COOKING, APPRECIATED HOW COMPLEX MY PUZZLES ARE, AND MUST BE WILLING TO BE MY FRIENDS ... OR SO I THOUGHT AT THE TIME, SAID "FLOWEY".
THEN, THE SAME HUMANS THAT SHARED MY COMPLEX FEELINGS OF GREATNESS HAD GIVEN UP BEING HUMAN AND ... KILLED US MONSTERS FOR NO REASON AT ALL. IT IS STRANGE, THE GREAT MEMORY OF THE GRAND PAPYRUS CAN ONLY REMEMBER ONE HUMAN AND ... MOTHER?
WHY IS MOTHER HERE? "FLOWEY," TOLD ME NOTHING ABOUT THIS ...
WHY IS SHE POINTING THAT DAGGER AT ME?
WHY IS THE HUMAN CRYING?
WHY DOES IT HURT SO MUCH?
WHO SHOULD I BELIEVE NOW? ...
THE GREAT PAPYRUS DO NOT KNOW WHOM TO BELIEVE NOW, NYEH ~
NEITHER SANS NOR "FLOWEY" IS TELLING ME THE TRUTH ABOUT THIS, AND THE HUMANS DO NOT SOUND ANY BETTER NOW EITHER. I HEARD A COMMOTION IN TOWN AND RAN THERE, ONLY TO FIND SANS WITH A BIG ASGORE CLONE. THERE WAS ALSO A HUMAN, AND THEY LOOKED LIKE WHATEVER SANS TOLD ME ABOUT THE PRINCESS THAT DIED.
WHY ARE THERE DEAD PEO- NYEH? THERE IS DAD TOO?
I SHOULD STAY AWAY AND STOP THE HUMAN, NYEH. THEY MIGHT BE FOOLING US AGAIN ~
looks like demon gurl will behave, with the old lady around. heh, she sure got better at being a human in that much. i remember dunkin' her so hard back then ... and that kiddo went all slappin' and confessin'.
hehe, pretty shocking reveal if you ask me.
bet he would be surprised to see his gurl and her mom being celebrities in here, hehe.
guess he is around floating with mom, wondering why he was such a bad kid. told that gurl before, kiddo shouldn't get knives or we'll be treading on a thin edge. sure kids don't hear their pops these days, or ... not even, i'm not doing well with aster either.
pops seems, uh ... alive. sure is weird to see him not possessing me or something. saves me the headache and the whole power surge but ... doesn't excuse his ghastly motives. why would he want demon gurl to free the monsters anyway? that kid's been rotten since the start, sure she changed last time but not confident about how long she can stop being a stabbing lass.
yea, she changed. talking on the phone with her was weird, like ... her falling in love rather than in LoVE, and with a human of all things. thought she told me she hated everyone, right before i dunked her and she got RESET'ed.
then the kiddo came, and things were cool ... until that same kid did the same mistake.
should have kept an eye socket back then, but i'm no good at promises, huh?
hope i don't get a chance at throwing a bone or blasting a human, not that i don't mind.
These people sure look excited to see me, after all this time spent in the Ruins. I believed I was forgotten, I counted on it as well. To be honest, the burden of being a Queen was too heavy for me. Since Asriel and Chara died, Asgore had been firm in killing humans to break the barrier. That was never my intention of course, and we bickered for the first time in ages.
I wonder how I should deal with him, perhaps lecturing this old goat hard will do for now.
Monsters I do not know of flocked around me, amazed to see their "Queen" is back. I have no idea what a Queen should be nowadays, but I feel excited about teaching them for the time being. I'm using the Librarby as a classroom while Chara recovers,
Chara is back, and although I should be happy about it, I do not feel that excited. My child had been here before, I can feel it. After all, those nightmares were not just that ... they were real. Chara killed me along with her lover, more than once, to get humans past the barrier. I always wondered what I did wrong, or what should I think of her now that she is alive and kicking.
I can only assume Aster's companion had been the one corrupting my child, which is odd. That monster was an upstanding Royal Guard, who valiantly died to help us escape.
Maybe she did not feel that way, the loneliness must have been too much to bear. I should know, the whole time spent in the Ruins, helplessly trying to prevent the inevitable.
Humans came, humans left, and humans died.
Then came a few others to kill us, then others to be forgiven.
We too need to be forgiven, but I am not certain I can ever forget what Chara did. As her current parent, I can support her, but a part of me will always remember that ... abomination she was.
Yet,
Chara seems eager and happy to see me and feels guilty about what she did. She is just like the child of old, the one we picked up back then.
When we were a family.
That room, where I lay down after being roughed up by Frisky and Bonehead.
How nostalgic.
I can still hear his confession echoing through my demon self, shaking its very core. I can still hear his ragged breath, as he checked me up before I passed out.
Later on, he came to the room, scrambling around to get me patched up. It was quite cute, to see that child caring so much about me. He always did the right thing, always made me feel right, and had the words to get me out of my misery.
At least, until he made that shady deal.
Perhaps it was Aster showing him the consequences of his future acts, as if deep inside, he wanted to try how I felt when I killed people.
Perhaps it was my clumsiness that made him draw the short straw, endangering himself more than my SOUL yet again.
Still, I could not bear the weight of being the one to hurt him every single time. Even so, I like his company, and that is why I went on that dark path again. I went back through Hell to bring back another Fallen Angel.
Then, there is Mom. She cannot possibly forgive me for what I did, yet still does her job as a mother. When did I go wrong? I do not know ...
Maybe when I unintentionally poisoned dad with buttercups.
Maybe when I convinced Azzie we should teach humans a lesson.
Maybe when I tried taking over humans or obeying that thing.
Not when I killed those "parents", they were wrong, to begin with.
Mother is doing well with the children, she enjoys teaching them puns and snail spots. The children do not mind how silly her jokes or facts are, they're still young enough to enjoy it. I rarely had that chance, except for one miserable year, and one timeline with Frisk.
Aster seems to lay low, perhaps I should talk out to him about his kids. Bonehead is not exactly the perfect child, but I could make amends this way, I just ...
I just want to make things right, just like Frisky would.
"Partner, are we saving them all this time?"
"Yes, we are, partner ... and that includes your sons"
"Have you grown tired of killing people already?"
"Not like I ever wanted to try that any further, it was ... exhausting, to say the least"
"Haven't you liked the thrill of it, the power that flows into you, to be the one in control "
"I never was the one in control, I've let you lead me down a highway to hell"
"You looked like you enjoyed being a bully though ... a broken, frenzied bully."
"I won't lie, I did ... but the price was too high for me to keep it up."
"You're a strange human, partner."
"You're quite odd yourself, for a monster ... have you quelled your revenge at last?"
"I've lost the will to do so ... after all, you saved my long-lost beloved."
"And so you did, she even got to see her family now ..."
"Are you alright not being with her? I can keep an eye on him by myself. "
"I'll stay here as well, I want her to be safe. She could also enjoy her mother's company that way"
"You're not a bad human after all ..."
"You're getting a little better at being a human, partner."
Humans, and Monsters
Working together
Worrying by themselves
In a world that is getting dark
Darker,
Yet darker,
Interesting, very ... interesting.
What do you think, readers?