Clare's POV

Ali and I sat in homeroom next to each other. I had my history notes out and I was trying to study for my huge exam but Ali kept poking me, "What is it?" I exclaimed a little annoyed. I knew what she was going to ask, "What's going on with Eli? I saw you guys leave together yesterday. Did you guys do it in his creepy dead person car?"

"So what's going on with Eli? I saw you both get into his car. Did you guys do it in his creepy dead person car?"

What do you know. I was right. It's amazing how much I know her. I gave her an appalled look, "Ali! You know what I think about pre-martial sex plus his car is called a hearse." She flipped her hair and rolled her eyes, "Well sorry. So what did you guys do?" I thought to myself. What did we do, Clare? "We made out" Oops. I didn't mean for that to come out. It sounded dirty. Oh listen to yourself Clare; you just kissed the guy it's not like you did the nasty. Ali laughed, "Wow! That sounds like so much fun. So are you guys like together now?" Well that was a good question. What exactly were we? I knew he liked me and he kissed me but that doesn't mean we're specifically together, does it? "I don't know, actually" I said. Ali smiled and patted my shoulder, "its okay Saint Clare. I guess you will just have to find out"

The rest of the day went by fine. A couple of times I passed by Eli in the hall. He gave me a cute little smile every time. After the bell rang for lunch, I went to my locker to get my lunch bag when Eli came up behind me and covered my eyes. "Guess who" He snickered. I knew it was him, "Hmmm is it the guy that has said nothing to me at all today except for smiling in the hallway?" he lifted his hands off my eyes and I turned around to see his face glowing with happiness. He very lightly touched my cheek, "Oh I'm sorry. I guess I should be paying more attention to my GIRLFRIEND". The way he spoke was in a sarcastic manner but he looked at me with tender eyes. He slowly moved his head closer to mine and kissed me. It wasn't as great as the last one but hey a kiss is a kiss and he sure was a good kisser.

"Well looks like the emo fag isn't gay after all" Eli pulled away and watched Fitz walk by with his group of friends. They all laughed at his remark like he was some sort of comedian. Eli glared, his fist clenched. I rested my hand on his shoulder, "Just ignore him Eli. It's not worth it". He turned back to me, "Promise me you won't intentionally try to talk to him". Ha! Intentionally? Don't have to worry about that. I smiled, "I can defiantly promise that" he smiled back at me and we walked to lunchroom hand in hand.

Eli's POV

I situated myself on the floor of the isle while Adam sat across from me. Adam flipped through a comic book and then looked up at me, "So you kissed her and…."

"We're together now" I finished his sentence. I tried to keep a straight face but it was hard. I hadn't felt this happy since….. well since when Julia and I were dating and that was a year ago. Adam smirked, "You two are so funny" I gave him a look, "What's that supposed to mean?" He put down his comic book, "You always come to me and say all this sappy shit about her and then she comes to me and says the same stuff. I have been waiting forever for you guys to just get together and now that it finally has I just realized that I may be the third wheel." I scooted myself across to sit next to him. I gave him a noogie, "Aw. Don't worry Adam we won't forget you"

"Hey! Stop it!" Adam laughed as I continued to push my fist into his head. He kept whining and laughing. It was a mix until he pushed me away, "Look over there!"

Down the isle-way, a beautiful tall girl stood peering through the bookcase. She was dressed well. To me it seemed like she was rich. She had a lot of un-necessary jewelry. Her brown ringlet hair was pulled into a low side ponytail. I had seen this girl before. She was a 12th grader at Degrassi. Fiona Coyne was it? She pulled out what looked like an issue of the Scott Pilgrim. Adam pulled himself out of my lock, stood up, and casually walked up to her. I followed behind him shortly.

"Have you seen the movie adaptation? It's awesome." Adam said staring at the comic book in Fiona's hands. She smiled at him and then gave him a lopsided grin, "Nah. My brother went to see it with his ex and he said it was really funny." She looked back at the bookcase almost as if she was searching for something else, "I'm actually only here to buy a present for my ten year old cousin. He loves comic books. So I figured this would be a great place." Yeah, I figured she wouldn't be here just to buy some comics for herself. Fiona smiled at us politely, "I'm Fiona" Adam nodded, "I'm Adam and this is Eli"

Fiona slyly smiled at us both, "So this is what you do in your free time, hang out in the comic book store?" To me it sounded like it was supposed to be an insult but she just stood there with an innocent smile. She was probably expecting a witty remark. Adam scratched his head in embarrassment, "Uh well Eli has a girlfriend so this isn't all he does. And for me…. I only come here on last resort. You know, like if everyone is busy or something." Smooth Adam. Way to charm a girl's heart. She laughed, "Oh yeah? Well I happen to think that nerds can be really cute and Eli, what are you doing hanging around in comic book store when you should be hanging out with her?"

"Well!" I glared at Adam, "Someone was supposed to give me an idea for where I should take her for our first day…." Fiona cut off my sentence, "You should defiantly surprise her. Girls love surprises. Take her somewhere different. Maybe someplace she loves?"

"Wow….. thanks I'll defiantly think about that" I said. Well that helped. At that very moment was coming up with the best date that Clare Edward would ever have.

I got home that night on time. I didn't want to piss ole daddy off too much. As I stepped through the door, I hung up my leather jacket on the coat rack. Dad was lounging on the couch. Five empty beer bottles sat on the coffee table. Damn he was drunk. Not good.

He looked up at me and turned off the TV.

"I got a call from your school this morning. They said you have skipped three classes. What the hell is that about!" he growled as he got up to his feet. Shit! I should have known he was going to find out.

"Why can't you just be a good kid, Eli? You know, you should stop making it so hard of this family."

"THIS IS NOT A FAMILY! Families eat dinner together. Hell! Even families cook dinner together. And for some reason I'm always the one stuck with cooking. To add to that I'm always the one cleaning this shit hole up! You're never sober to do anything!" I screamed in his face.

Dad's voice got very quiet. The sound of it was very unreal, "Eli, don't you remember why everything is this way? If it hadn't been for you, you would have still had your mom and Elsa here. But no! You had to be a dramatically little emotional teenager!" Oh, no he had not just gone there.

I glared at him with rage, "Julia died! How else was I supposed to react?" I said while gritting my teeth.

"Julia's death was the best thing that ever happened to you. She took away your life, Eli! You had a bright future but after you met her it was all downhill."

I couldn't believe those words came out of his mouth. I always knew he never liked Julia but… how could he say that?

"Fuck you" I said. Plain and simple. At that very moment I was thinking about what Julia would say if she heard me say that to my dad. 'Well put, Goldsworthy' she would probably say.

I said nothing to my dad after that and surprisingly he said nothing either. I ran up to my room and slammed the door behind me. Anger boiling in my skin and I kicked the leg of my desk in frustration. I lay on my bed, "I wish this would just all stop." I thought for a moment and then I saw my pocketknife on my bed stand. I needed a way out and there was no other way. "No Eli, don't start this again" I whispered to myself. My body stiffened and I felt numb. I slowly reached for the knife but pulled my hand back. I shook my head, "I don't care anymore!" I grabbed the knife, put the blade against my wrist and pushed.

A/N: Hey guys! Did you watch Degrassi tonight? Omg the trailer for next week looks so good! I can't wait til we meet this Imogen girl! I don't want her to ruin Eclare's chances of getting back together :/ Anywho, I hope you liked the chapter. I had to change the rating from T to M becuase I wanted to use that line "Fuck you" from Eli to his dad and I was afraid of getting in trouble for having a T rating lol so that's why if you notcied it's M now. As stated I am uploading a chapter each night just as Degrassi premieres so I will not write durring the weekend. I'm going to take a break from the Eclare buisness lol. So check online for monday!

-Plurds