me: I'm back!
amber: yes and now a word to LovinOnlyForYuu
me: thank you for the criticism your right jasdevi as the twins would have been a way better idea and i think i made kanda more in character in this chap
amber: the song that allen sings is dolls by rin kagamine (yes another vocaloid song but it was the only song i could find that had the sadness of being alone that i was looking for. P.S in the story the song is kind of showing how the deformed circus members are alone and unloved)
me: now lets get this show on the road :)
I woke up to a familiar yell from a certain annoying red head. "Yuu! We're at Oxford already! Wake up!" Lavi yelled through the closed door. I looked to my right and saw that Allen was gone. he's probably out setting up. my mind explained. I got out of bed and opened the door. As soon as the door was open Lavi ran down the hallway. Usually I get mad at him for waking me up and I chase him and try to kill him until we both get tired but today I didn't care about our game. The fire breather turned and saw that I wasn't chasing him and shrugged. "Come on. We have to start setting up." he said and we both walked out side.
The big top was already up so we walked inside and helped the acrobats setup chairs wile the clowns set up the actual ring. Five minutes later I realized that Allen and Lenalee were setting up chairs on the other side of the tent. They were talking and laughing as though they had known each other forever. I smiled and thought good in a place like this you need a few friends. But then I got a flash of a very different emotion. Jealousy. I frowned why is he with her and not me. what dose she have that I don't. my mind snarled.
A hand was placed on my shoulder and was followed by a voice. "Hey. You ok?" Lavi asked
I turned around and replied "Duh! Why wouldn't I be."
"Well you've been abnormally nice, you didn't try to kill me for waking you up, and you smiled. I haven't seen you smile since we replaced Cross's wine with cold medicine 3 years ago." Lavi explained.
Whoa I have been acting strange I realized "Whatever. I'm not sick and I'm not going crazy. I'm totally fine you moron!" I told him
The fire breather laughed and said "That's the Yuu I know! Now come on these chairs wont set themselves up."
That night the entire circus staff gathered by the back entrance of the tent waiting for the show to start. Cross was closest to the entrance dressed in a black tux with a large top hat and a black cane. "All right. We have a full house tonight so if you want to eat tonight and tomorrow then the show had better be perfect." Cross said. He then walked into the tent and to the center of the ring. "Ladies and gentlemen! Welcome to our humble circus. For our first act we have our acrobats." The ring master announced then he walked off to the side of the ring. Then Lenalee and her friends entered the ring and the show began.
After the acrobats came the fire breathers and dancers, then the clowns, and finally the animal tamers. I entered the ring with Mugen, a leopard, a grizzly bear, a scarlet macaw, a sea lion, a tiger, and five other people. The act was simple, just animals doing tricks you could teach any house pet but it never failed to thrill the crowd. After about ten minutes we leave the ring and wait for the final act. Deformities.
I was waiting for Cross to announce the deformed when I heard a soft, musical voice "You did great out there Kanda." I turned and saw Allen beaming up at me. He was wearing a tight gray tee shirt and tight black slacks. My heart fluttered and my pants tightened as I noticed how the clothes showed off his slender, toned figure and his 'package'. I was about to thank him when Cross spoke again.
"Now I bring you those with a less fortunate fate. A future of being stared at and being unloved. I bring you the deformed." Cross announced and he walked off to the side. The lights turned off and Allen walked to the middle of the ring. A spot light illuminated him. A hush fell over the crowd, the music starts and the boy began to sing.
When night arrives lights are lit in this town
The sound of creaking wheels
They echo as I walk
With no destination in mind
There is nowhere that I can go
For what reason was I born?
Why is my heart a color of silver?
A long time ago that person told me
"You are a special doll."
So that I may be praised by him, I must dance and sing
Even now, I will continue to sing
I will sing, even if he never wakes up and open his eyes again
For what reason was I born?
Only to sing for eternity
Someday, I will fall into slumber and
Go to the same wonderful place in which he has gone
My wish is not granted
Living to sing alone has broken me
As time has flowed on
I have forgotten how to sing
I need to hurry to the place in which he sleeps
While dragging along my cracked body
How many times have I already fallen over?
I arrive in a place where the sea can be seen, adorned by flowers
Now, you may sleep
To be together with him
Let that wish be granted now
"You've lived alone long enough"
I hear his voice from somewhere near
The voice that I've heard many times in my dreams
It echos gently in my heart
I am immersed by
A soft light
I can smile now
I can smile now
As the final note died the entire audience stood up and applauded with tears in their eyes. Even the circus staff, who had heard their fair share of sad songs, was crying. As Allen bowed an audience member threw a rose. Allen caught it and made a big show of sniffing it. I then notice that I too was crying from the beauty of the song. I quickly wiped the tears away. What's wrong with me? Why is he making me so emotional? Why? my mind pondered. Then the lights turn on to reveal the other deformed people who and entered unnoticed during the song and the act began.
After the act was over Cross showed everyone to the door and the deformities exited the ring. As soon as Allen left the tent he was attacked by the circus staff. "You were amazing out there Allen!" they gushed. Allen thanked them all looking very embarrassed. God he's cute. WOAH what! He's guy I shouldn't be thinking like that! my brain scolded.
"Hey Yuu what did you think of Allen's song." Lavi asked me
I shrugged, unsure what to say. I glanced at Allen's gray eyes and saw something I didn't expect. Pain. He was hurt by my silent reply. I immediately wanted to take it back and say how amazing he was. Then logic kicked in and I turned away. I thought I only started feeling these things after Allen appeared. So maybe if I ignore him and be mean to him he'll leave me alone and everything will go back to normal. That should work. Right?
amber: WRONG KANDA! DEAD WRONG!
me: hahaha allen will never leave him alone :)
amber: so like this chap? whats your fave part? we want to know so we can add more of what you want
me: so any ways alert favorite R&R Ja Ne