Authors Note: Sorry for taking so long to update. I should be updating a couple of my other stories too. I know you probably don't care. But I was busy. I got married to the love of my freaking life. Josh. ( = Also im Preggers. Yeah with twins …. AHHH! Lol my Joshy don't do nothing half assed. We've been married almist a year now. And I'm four months along. Its crazy, but im very happy. But I still should have been updated. So thanks for the people who do review. Cause I don't get a lot but yet. People do read my story interesting …. ( = But here you go.
*WARNING THERE IS SEXUAL ABUSE IN THIS CHAPTER.
Brothers & Pixies
BOV
I woke up and almost didn't know where I was. I looked around the familiar room then looked at the blonde mop of hair sticking out from under the cover. I thought back to
the night before and sighed thinking about what Jasper said. He had met a girl. Who? Did I know her? When did he meet her? Where did he even meet her. I sighed and got up and walked to my room.
I couldn't think straight my life was changing so fast. Jasper had met a girl. I met a ….Edward. Was this going to turn out good? Or bad? Would
jasper leave me to be with this girl for good one day? I grabbed some clothes and went into the bathroom to take a shower.
After I took my shower and did my morning routine got dressed.
I threw my hair in a ponytail and grabbed my keys. When I got in my car I sat there for a minute, something was off. I couldn't tell what but I felt like something was going to happen. Something big. But I couldn't tell if it was good or bad, that bugged me to no end.
I was driving and didn't know where I was headed I just needed to go, just needed to leave. I pulled up at the familiar building and held myself. I couldn't stop thinking about Jasper. Or even Edward for that matter.
My head was swimming with so many worries and I couldn't take it. I couldn't stand it. Not having control over my emotions. I felt so weak. I felt just like that little girl. I felt like my old self. I sat there in my car holding myself having a panic attack.
Not fully knowing why I was freaking out so much. But I just knew I was going to lose Jasper. I couldn't lose him. He was my protector. He was my brother.
" Look at me Bella." I couldn't look him in his eyes. I was ashamed. I let him… I let Marcus…. It's all my fault. If I was stronger I could have fought him off. If I wasn't so scared I would have screamed for someone even though he told me not to even bother to make a sound. Jasper lifted my chin with his finger and looked me in my eyes.
I saw pain, anger and sadness in them. " Bella how would you feel about leaving here." I looked at him confused. " what do you mean?" He smiled " I found money. Money in my dad's secret hiding place it's a lot of money.
I think we should run away. Run away together." I looked at him for a long time thinking he was crazy. I was sixteen I needed to finish high school. I was a junior cause I had got skipped up when I was younger. I only had one year.
Even though the thought of staying anywhere near Marcus terrified me. I wanted to finish high school. He wouldn't mess up my education. Not that too. I shook my head " Jasper I can't … I got to finish school. I have to not let him win.
He… always wins. " I sobbed on Jaspers shoulder he held me. Rubbing my back. It will be okay. Just one more year and were free. "We'll be okay. We are going to be alright." I don't know if he was talking to himself or me. I never said anything back. I just let him hold me.
He was the first person I let touch me willingly. He calmed me down. I trusted him so easily, I knew it wouldn't blow up in my face. With him I'm safe. With him I'm normal. With him I have a family. But what neither of us knew was that it wouldn't be a year before we ran away.
Before we were free.
I woke up to knocking on my window. I looked up to see the sky dark and Leah standing next to my car. I opened my door and got out. " Damn girl, how long have you been sleep in there?" I didn't answer I just shrugged and walked passed her.
" Bella… are you okay?" I turned and nodded and smiled slightly at her.
I walked into Twilight and went straight to the back to change. I had slept for ten hours in my car and it was nearly time for me to go up. So I needed to not be Bella any more I needed to be Marie, I needed to feel strong.
Even though my mind felt so weak and worn out. My body felt strong and I had so much energy. If that even makes since. I changed into a dark royal blue bra and lace panties. Black heals. Black lipstick. Shook out my wavy hair around my shoulders and sat there and waited for my turn. I turned off my mind and turned on my body. I needed to feel different.
I needed to be in control.
After Victoria came down the back stairs smiling with no top on I walked onto the stage and waited behind the curtain for the music to start. It was almost like I blacked out as soon as I got on stage. This didn't happen a lot but when it did I ended up doing stupid things.
T-shirt & my panties on
T-shirt & my panties on
T-shirt & my panties on
T-shirt & my panties, got my t-shirt & my panties on
Picture this, I'm in my bed, body's hot, soak 'n wet.
Thinking bout the things I like to do (I like to do)
I was on the pole with my legs wide open upside down. And slide down on to my back. I did a twist so now I was facing the hungry eyed mean.
I'm open wide when it comes to freakin you (freakin you).
Imagine me, (imagine me) wet as can be, between my legs,
You tasting me (tasting me) boy when you get here ya know my
Love will over flow and you ain't got to worry bout my clothes cause I got my
T-shirt & my panties on
I was all over a man in the crowd doing tricks on him that he wish his wife at home could do.
(just how ya like it)
T-shirt & my panties on
(waiting for you)
T-shirt & my panties on
(you can't deny it)
T-shirt & my panites, got my T-shirt & my panties on
I was back on the stage doing more things on the pole, shaking my hips to the beat.
Don't be susprised when you come inside, saddle up and be prepared to ride,
Up and down, back and forth,
Can you feel me, baby why don't you just, take your time, tonight you're mine,
Gonna turn around, hit it from behind,
Boy now that you're here you know my love will over flow
And you ain't got to worry bout my clothes, cause I got my
My bra was on the floor and my hands in the hair as I danced like it was my first nature.
T-shirt & my panties on
(just how you like it)
T-shirt & my panties on
(waiting for you)
T-shirt & my panties on
(you can't deny it)
T-shirt & my panties, got my T-shirt & my panties on
I was once again on some man who didn't know what hit him. Moving my hips in a way that most likely made him cum on sight.
Don't you know, I'm feeling kinda sexy,
Now that we are all alone, baby can we do the nasty,
In the privacy of our own home, baby come a little closer,
I unplugged all the telephones, because tonight is special,
I got my T-shirt and panties on
I was on the pole once more doing more tricks that earned me more money.
(T) (Shirt) (I'm) (Waiting for you) (Pan)(Tees)
(I'm) (Waiting for you) (T)(Shirt)
(I'm) (Waiting for you) (Pan)(Tees)
(I'm) (Waiting for you)
[chorus x1]
When my song ended all the man cheered and begged me to stay. But I couldn't I was still out of it and I couldn't be told to do anything. I walked back to my locker and put on my bar outfit.
I walked to the bar my mind still cloudy. My heart still beating fast. But my pockets full to capacity. Leah looked at me like she wanted to ask what was up. But she said nothing. I didn't know what was wrong with me when I got like this it was like my mind was on vacation but my body still knew I had things to do.
My mind was cloudy and I couldn't think. Let alone think straight. I served drinks and flirted ad usual but I wasn't there. I felt like maybe I was just drained from the panic attack earlier. But I felt like it was more to it than that.
When it was time for me to leave I went to my locker to change. When I was dressed I looked at my phone I had seven missed calls from jasper and sixteen text messages. Most were from jasper but there was a couple from Edward
. He asked if I wanted to hand out tomorrow. I sent a text saying I'd think about it. He text back instantly saying okay. I went to walk to my car when a hand grabbed my arm I turned to see a man from inside the club gripping my hand in vice grip.
" Hey babe… I was wondering if you wanted to go some were and take a ride on my dick." I glared at this jack ass. " Get the fuck off of my you fucking pig." I said snatching my arm away. He smiled a sick smile. " O shit baby… I like them all feisty. Makes for a better time."
He tried to grab me again but I kicked him in the family jewels. An ran to my car. He was trying to make his way over to me but he didn't get to me in time. I was already in my started up car and driving away.
Doors locked and all. I drove till I realized I was crying. I was crying cause that could have been so much worse. I was crying cause I was finally strong enough to get away on my own.
I was crying cause that brought back so many memories.
"Isabella come here!" I looked around for Heidi anywhere but she was know where to be seen. "Isabella if I call you again I'm going to be very angry. He was always angry. I ran up the stairs to find Marcus naked in my bed. " I need your help with something."
Isabella your such a good little girl. You didn't cry. Daddy's so proud of you. Now give me your hand. I gave him my hand after a minute. Terrified he cut me again. " ISLABELLA! You wanted to make daddy wait!" He took my hands and ran them under the hot scalding water from the sink. I screamed but he just smiled. Phil smiled at me while he told me he loved me.
I was under my bed crying hearing his foot on the hard wood floor. Heidi was high and passed out so he was looking for me. I never imagined I still be hiding under my bed at the age of sixteen. But I was. He came in my room whispering my name. He finally stopped and dropped to his knees and looked under the bed right at me and that smile that always made me cry appeared on his face
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I was holding myself and rocking my body in my car parked on the side of the rode. After a while I started my car back up and headed home. I needed Jasper. I needed him to hold me. Tell me I was okay, that we were okay.
When I walked into the house I called out Jaspers name. But he didn't answer. I sobbed out his name. "JASPER…. I NEED YOU …. I NEED YOU TO HOLD ME….. "I felt so weak now.
"Jasper please where are you?" I heard a yell … a female yell.
Then I saw him and without even thinking I ran to him and hugged him tight. " Jasper I thought you were just her friend! What the fuck happened to you being like her fucking brother! Why the hell is she saying she need's you!"
I looked behind jasper and saw a short girl with black hair and green eyes.
Glaring at me as if I had just stole something from her.
Jasper looked very stressed out. But he wasn't looking at the red faced pixie girl he was looking at me with worry, fear, and guilt on his face.
Fear? Worry? Guilt? The anger on the girls face? That was when I realized. I Was going to lose my brother. Soon.
Authors note: Thanks for reading. I should update soon. Sorry to end it right here. Hehehehehhe. See you soon. ( = REVIEW REVIEW REVIEW !
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