~Side notes!~

hey I finally uplouded this! Yay! Thanks for being patient with me Sanyu DarkStar and yes Shadow, you can be happy now.

As a warning most of my works will involve sexual content and course language. Do not flame me for it.

Well enjoy the sad tale of Shadow.~

I sat between two large crates reading the instructions on the packets. I needed a syringe. I wasn't fond of them but that's what the drug required I guess. I didn't have any but good thing I knew where the infirmery was.

Slipping into the darkness around me, I found my way to the cruiser's infirmery. No one was there aside from the med droid, which was charging. I had all the luck. If only that luck got me noticed; I wanted to be noticed, to be like the others. I wanted to talk with them, laugh, have fun as one of them. I hoped this drug would allow me that one wish.

Taking what I needed, I went back to the cargo hold. The dark, quiet, empty cargo hold; I wanted to share my world with someone special, but no one liked the darkness. I would change that. This dug would change that.

After filling the syringe, I stuck it into my forearm. Not too careful, I admit, I made a bit of aa mess of my arm. The pain was sharp and the feeling of the syringe empting its contents into my bloodstream was something else. My head felt so clear, until...

All at once voices were bombarding my brain. So many all at once. I screamed wanting it to stop. When they slowed down, I realized that i wasn't hearing voices but the thoughts of others, I was hearing everything. I smiled, thi drug will prove usefull in the times to come.

A few days later, the cruiser had returned to base and i went back to my bunker. Sure enough, no one even noiced I was gone. If only they did, what would they say?

After they had allhad gone to bed, I injeced another dose of glitterstim. My arm was beginning to bruise from the last dose I had. I grinned, maybe someone would notice that. It wasn't like the showers had individual stalls in the refreshers we had access to.

As the thoughts sorted themslves out once more, one stood out from among the others. A single plea for some one to stop. It perked my intrest so I followed the little thought to it's source, behind a locked door. Merging into the shadows, I saw into the room. There was one bed but three clones. One had bright red hair and his eye caught my attention. They were a beautiful gold colour, and i could tell it was his plea I was hearing. He sat atop of another clone with obvious scarring on his torso from past battles. The largest one had a scar running from from above his right eyebrow, over the top of his head, to the base of his skull. The smallest one's plea was because of the one with the scar on his head trying to force his way inside of him. He was shoved away by the one under the beautiful red head. I wanted to know his name.

The larges one was named Gash. I didn't like him at all, he made both clones bleed. But he was also the first one to tire out. The one the red head had started to ride willingly was named Fang, he seemed gentler than bu I really anted to know the red head's name. Then it came to me; through the haze of feelings and emotions, it was the most beautiful name I had ever heard. Lucifer.

I loved his voice, so peircing yet pure. I wanted more than anything for him to look at me. I didn't know why, I just wanted him to if no one else did. It had to be him.

I flt bad for Lucifer. Out of the clones he could see in front of him, none of them loved him. I would love him if he gave me the chance to. His heart felt thought rang clear to me "Will I ever meet someone who'll love me?" I smiled in spite of him not being able to see me, but i was too scared to step forward.

I wanted to scream out my thoughts. " I'll love you, I'll make you feel good everyday if you'd only notice me." I wanted so badly for him to notice me. Only Lucifer. One day I'll get him to look my way. That is all I need.

~ Le gasp! Crossover! Yeah I did cross two stories over. The other one is called The one named Lucifer and can be found on my profile.

~ Thanks again for being such patient readers! ~Rogue