Hello everyone!!! This is Suboi Airi up here again. It's been quite a while since I wrote anything due to the exams but now I'm back with more!
Special thanks to Amygondor and the rest for making me feel up to writing this new chapter first. I truly appreciate your comments and support for this! Anyway, that's enough of me.
In this chapter I was trying to once again show how Daniella's one true wish was to be seen and appreciated. This is one of the reasons why she hates Fiona as everybody seems to want her even though she has not done anything for anyone in the castle. I was also trying to show her child like simplicity and innocence. Her lack of knowledge but her strong desire to please and be appreciated just like so many children want. This chapter also shows once again, her ability to feel, but not know what she is feeling. Her humanness but her inability too see herself as one. Her lack of understanding on things around her and inside her as well.
Now, on with the chapter!!!!
(start)
Azoth...Azoth…Azoth… her mind chanted.
How does one go about obtaining the precious Azoth? The important Azoth. What exactly must she do? What are the steps? What are the instructions?
Daniella did not know how to answer the questions plaguing her mind. They were chanted again and again and again in her mind, just as loud as the chant to hurt the Princess but not nearly enough to drown out the continuous chant of Azoth. Her thoughts were loud. Too loud. Too messy and too loud. She did not like it. It made her feel uncomfortable. It made her head fell like she had crashed it to the ground. It made her head throb.
Throb…Throb… Throb…
It didn't seem to end. Sometimes, it felt like there was something sharp digging into her head, but each time, when she put her hand to her head, there was nothing there. It was just her imagination. Her imagination that didn't stop it from feeling real.
It mad her less concentrated on her tasks. On her orders. On what she needed to do. That was bad. It would be bad if Master saw it. It would be just as bad if the Keeper saw it. They would think that she was imperfect. If she was imperfect, than she would be punished again. She did not want that. The punishment made her feel…odd…uncomfortable…bad…
The feeling in her head was better than before, in the very least. One of her questions was answered, and then it went away… but it did pull other thoughts inside it, so Daniella did not know if that was good or bad. Either way, she remembered the incident clearly.
"What is the Azoth?" she had asked the Master.
"The Azoth?" he sneered." What would such an insignificant doll want with such sacred knowledge? Why should I say anything about the topic?"
She had kept silent at that time. What was there to say?
"Humph. As pathetic and worthless as you are, you might have better ears than those disgraceful twins. Those ungrateful things."
She did not understand. Those two? Who were they? Why did they know but not her? Was she not…worthy…? She opted for more silence.
"The azoth is the force of life in a person that allows them to be alive. To live, but more importantly, to be alive. It is more potent in women as it is the reason for their ability of the Cycle."
She did not understand. What Cycle? She tilted her head just a small faction to the side. A miniscule amount, hardly noticeable. He saw it, however.
"What was that!" he shouted. His nasal and gritty voice grated her ears, but she made no show of it." Disgusting doll! Lifeless puppet! You are not ANYTHING!"
He panted harshly, out of breath from all the shouting.
"You are not a real person Daniella. You are not a human being. You are not, and you will never be." He snarled out "no matter how much azoth I pumped into you, you were never able to adsorb it. You are lacking. You are sterile. You will never have the Cycle inside of you. Not like she has."
Here, his eyes gleamed with an odd sort of want, a hunger. "Not like the Princess. She has the Cycle. The Cycle of life. The Cycle of rebirth." He looked sharply up at her. "She is the one who will draw all men to her. She pulls them to defile and filth her. She is the one who lures us inside of her again and again and again, no matter how filthy she will become. We will enter her and make her scream, and with that, we will have the Cycle continue. She is Precious. She has the Key. And with her, I will do things that I never can do with an empty doll like you. Yes. You are empty. You are incomplete."
With that, she had been dismissed.
Daniella walked into the dining room. Debilitas was there. He seemed to be searching for something. He looked at her.
"Dolly…?" he ventured. He took a few steps towards her. He peered closely at her through big eyes that knew nothing of the world outside his own. He shook his head and growled, stomping a few times in sulky tantrum. "No, you not Dolly. Want Dolly. Don't want you." He turned away from her and ran out.
Dolly? Who was Dolly? There were only two women in the whole castle. One of them was she, Daniella and the other one was….
The Princess.
Princess Princess Princess Princess Princess Prinncess Princess Princess Princess Princess Princess Prinncess Princess Princess Princess Princess Princess Prinncess Princess Princess Princess Princess Princess Prinncess Princess Princess Princess Princess Princess Prinncess Princess Princess Princess Princess Princess Prinncess Princess Princess Princess Princess Princess Prinncess Princess Princess Princess Princess Princess Prinncess PRINCESS!
Nobody wanted her. Nobody wanted Daniella. Nobody wanted an incomplete lifeless doll. Nobody nobody nobody nobody nobody nobody nobody nobody nobody nobody nobody nobody nobody nobody nobody nobody nobody nobody nobody nobody nobody
Because Daniella could not taste or feel pain or pleasure. Because Daniella was empty and a doll. Because Daniella was lacking the Cycle and was sterile. Because Daniella did not have enough Azoth. Because Daniella was incomplete.
They all want the Princess. Oh lovely Miss Fiona. Miss Fiona who draws them inside her filthy body, dirtying herself as well as everyone around her. Again and again and again and again!
Daniella felt odd. This time it was different from before but very much like how it felt when she mind pushed her to kill the Princess. It was hard to breath. Her jaws were clenching as well as her toes and her whole body was tense. She was using too much force in her movements that made her jerky and stiff. She lifted her hand up to her face. She was trembling. She took deep breaths, willing this oddity to release its grip on her. She needed to get more oxygen into her blood stream. It was not long until the oddity resided.
She put her hand down. What was that…?
It did not matter now. She could think of that later. The master told he to take care of the Princess. That meant that she needed to cook for her. To feed her. To provide her nutrients for her to survive… but what?
The only thing she cooked for her master was boiled meat. She did not cook for anyone else. The Keeper made his own food and Debilitas usually ate whatever he could find. Or at least whatever he found he could eat. It usually meant raw meat from captured animals that he found along the grounds to whatever was lying around. His stomach could ingest almost anything from meat, to feathers and fur, to the plants growing around the castle.
Perhaps that was what she ate as well.
Either way, Daniella would start with something she knew. Meat.
There was always meat at the butchering room. She slowly went there in her carefully measured footsteps. There was still a lot of time. There was no real and actual need to make any haste. She descended down the castle steps, walked past the stone monument, pass by the rusty gate, ignored the odd cages and went down the steps into the meat room. Debilitas was supposed to shop up more meat so that it would be easier to carry around.
The room was dusty and dirty, just like how it usually was. She looked past the cages, over the table to observe the fly infested chunks of meat. Blood was no longer dripping from it, but flies were eating their way through the still damp flesh. Still, meat was meat. Neither Master nor Debilitas shied away from meat, in this condition or not. Shooing the flies away, she dragged it back into the kitchen. She shopped t up and put it in the pot to boil.
Now the, what else did they eat? She remembered the Keeper mumbling once about the importance of the color green, and that Debilitas did usually eat the freass and plants around. She picked up an empty box from the storage/box room one floor below and went out once again. Getting on her knees, Daniella started to pull handful after handful of green grass and weeds. It took time. A lot of time and a lot of effort, but Daniella did not mind it. The master ordered her to do so, so it was worth it. If it would please them, the Keeper, the Master or even Debilitas, she would do. Working like this, like when she cooked, washed the floors or wiped those carved stone blocks in the tower, she felt lighter and content. If that was what contentment felt like? She often dreamed on how it be like to feel all those queer emotions. Happiness, anger, sadness, jealousy.
When the box was full, she lifted it and returned to the kitchen. She had meat, she had the green plants, and what else did she need? Daniella went around the castle trying to pick up the things that seemed that it would be good for Miss Fiona,
She didn't mind the work. It would please the Master after all. Not only that, but if Miss Fiona got everything she needed, she would be there for master and Debilitas as well. Then they would both be pleased.
Daniella felt light as she cooked, adding the grass and others into the pot of boiling meat.
Who knows? Maybe Miss Fiona would be pleased as well.
(end chapter two!)
So how was it everyone? I do hope it's up to expectations.
Anyway, if you're asking, the butcher/meat room is the room where Fiona got up from. The box/storage room is the place from Fiona's bedroom, run out and down the stairs to the last stair where a tiny room full of boxes are.
If I'm wrong about the Azoth, please tell me. It has been a long time since I played and if you read my last chapter, I am unable to play it to refresh my memory. I also know that Lorenzo was more inclined to Fiona's dad than to Riccardo but if I'm not wrong, him running away was the minus factor for Lorenzo. If I'm wrong, once again, please review and correct me.
Throughout the whole game, I do not think we say how or what anybody (except when Fiona ate and got stomach poisoning) so here's to what I think. For Daniella, I just imagine her to be given drops by one of the two insane people. Or pills. Works either way. Thus the no taste thing.
Oh, and yes, the Keeper was mumbling about GREENS, not the actual color green. Still, it makes no difference.
Hope you enjoyed the story! Please read and review!
Suboi Airi
