Hello everybody! Suboi Airi here!
Sorry for all the long wait. But here is the new chapter!
It's short, I know, but please bear with it. :D
This is showing the insecurities of Daniella and the child like way of thinking. Also the reason she was having such a drastic change form the nice ' I want to please everyone' thinking that made everybody go "awww" to the one back at the first chapter where she was feeling very vicious to Fiona. As you can tell, her mood swings around quite alot, though I don't blame her. Fiona was being polite, but that politeness just made her...
Have you ever wanted something, but when you got it, it was so false you would rather have been without?
Italics show the past
Normal, the present
Underlines, passages out of books she had read
start!
step... step... step...
She was walking along the corridor. All the way away the MissPrincessMiss's room where she lay.
It was odd... What she wanted when she got it was so different from what she thought it would be like.. When she thought of what had just happened...
She was finally done. The long tiring work. The effort to cook for the Miss. It was very different from what she served Master, but Master never wanted anything but red meat. The Miss needed other things then meat.
Daniella had never cooked anything else, but when Debilitas went into the kitchen, he seemed to like the plateful that she gave him. But during his seventh plate, he was distracted and immediately ran off. Still, he ate a lot, so it must be good, yes? Perhaps the Miss would like a lot as well.
She prepared the table and served the food there and waited. The Miss did not come. The Master said that she would come to the dinner hall to eat. It was what a good princess would do, but she had not yet appeared. Why had she not appeared?
Did she think that Daniella would not cook? Did she think that Daniella could not cook well enough? Did Daniella do some thing wrong? Was Daniella incapable of pleasing the Miss so much the Miss would refuse to see her or even come to the dining hall? Did the master not say that she needed to eat? Why would she not want to eat? Because of something that Daniella had or had not done?
Was she that incapable of pleasing anybody?
The Miss needed to eat. Daniella would find her and call her down to eat. Perhaps then the Miss would be pleased to eat.
Walking around, Daniella finally found the Miss trying to open the door. But she was shaking too much to fit the key into the keyhole. Shaking.. Trembling.. Daniella had read about it once.
Trembling is a sign that warns of possible danger in the future it the trembling continues. If a human body is trembling or shaking, it might be the cause of unhealthy food or not eating enough. Ensure to feed the body properly...
The Miss needed to eat. She would try to make her eat.
Trembling can also be the effect of mental stress. In this times, comfort is advisable. Touch could be an avenue for comfort. If the person is a stranger, it would be advisable to touch the hand..
Daniella went up and grabbed the Miss's trembling hand. She jerked and tensed. Why? Was Daniella's touch not comforting? If Daniella could not comfort.. Perhaps it was not comfort the Miss needed. It was the food. Dinner.. Then why did she not come? Perhaps she did not know. Then Daniella would tell her.
"Dinner is ready, Miss."
The Miss must eat. It was essential for her to eat. For herself, the Master and the Keeper.
"Dinner is ready, Miss"
So many questions that Daniella could not answer bubbled into her head. Why? Why did she not come if she was already trembling? Why did she tense at her touch? Why were there so many questions?
Why does she keep doing wrong things?
Yes. Daniella did do wrong things. The Dinner was Wrong. Despite all her efforts, the dinner was Wrong.
She barely ate two mouthfuls. She just lifted the spoon to wet her lips, over and over and over again.
"Be as friendly as a doll like you can" the Master had stated.
To be friendly, one usually starts off by telling the other of oneself so that the other can familiarise themselves with the one.
" My creator said he made me the perfect woman..."
To be friends, one must usually tell them one's faults...
"But I cannot taste or experience pleasure. Or feel pain"
She said nothing. Just sat there and continued to wet her lips. Why did she not say anything? Why? Why did it hurt that she said nothing?
The successful result is that the other would continue the conversation with stories about themselves in turn.
"...thanks... for the meal..."
…! Inside, Daniella felt something crumble.
That was not what she wanted. Not at all. Not this Wrong appreciation. The Master had never told her that word. Neither had the Keeper. Nor Debilitas. It was what she had wanted right? So why was this so false? So untrue? So Wrong? So hurtful?
That was never what she had wanted. Despite everything she had ever done, nobody had ever gave her a word of thanks, but she managed without it. Waiting, just waiting for the time somebody would appreciate her worth. When somebody would think that she was worthy of being praised.
No, nobody had ever said that before. That was good. She now knew it. They were being kind not telling her that. That Miss... That MISS!
Pretty little Princess! She was so loved and praised! So much that she would give such Wrong hurtful words!
Disgusting woman! Filthy female! Princess! Princess! Princess!
Did she think of herself that much better? To slam into her face all her incompetency? Daniella knew, Daniella Knew, Daniella knew her own faults!
Princess! Princess! Princess!Princess! Princess! Princess!Princess! Princess! Princess!Princess! Princess! Princess!Princess! Princess! Princess!
Her body tensed once again. Hard to breath. Hard to thinkPrincess! Princess! Princess! She could not control her body. Her teeth gritted against each other. An ugly sound from her throat. It Hurt! It HURT!
Daniella could not be what she was created to be. Daniella could not do what she was supposed to do. Daniella could not meet expectations. Could not. Could not. Could not. Could not. Could not. Could not. Could not. Could not. Could not!
Why? Whywhywhywhywhywhywhywhy? She was a Failure. Because she did not have That. She did not not not not not have! Azoth! Woman! Life! Cycle! She was, she was-
The failure of not being responded to properly would mean that certain steps have not been complete-
Failure, not complete, wrong, false, not, not, wrong, false, failure, wrong, not, not, Not , not complete, wrong, false, not, not, wrong, false, failure, wrong, not, not, ot , not complete, wrong, false, not, not, wrong, false, failure, wrong, not, not, not complete -
"I am not complete"
Daniella stumbled around the corridor she was in, hardly seeing, mind reeling, chest clenching. She tried to gasp for air but it was hard. Her hand found a knob and she let herself fall through the entrance that yielded when she turned her hand.
The study. A word caught her eye. Azoth. Her breath stopped. her whole consciousness was focused on it. Nothing else matted at that current frame of time. It was in latin, but she knew how to read it.
An Azoth can only be obtained when the holder has lost its life. The Azoth would be restless in the body for the first few minutes before dispersing itself to a new container. Freshly killed, the Azoth would be at its most potent and the most valuable. The methods to transfer the Azoth...
Daniella continued to read on. She now knew what she had to do to have her true wishes to come true.
She Will be the Princess of this castle.
End!
And thats it! Hope you enjoyed it! It was relatively harder to write because that was really an important scene and I hope I manage to do it well enough. Honestly? I dont think this chapter was as good as the others.
Tell me what you think! Review!
Suboi Airi