AN I sort of had some trouble with this. I knew where I wanted it to go, but writing it was hard.
The rest of Glee was lame. Finnessa came back in with this huge ass grin on his face. Heh. Get it? Finn, grin? Damn, I'm awesome. He kept looking at Rachel like she was a double cheese burger with bacon. Except Berry is Jewish... and a vegan. When she came back into the room, she sat at the piano bench, talked to Schue, and when she finally sat down, it was on the edge of her chair far away from Finn. Those two are weird.
Schue assigned us something about finding ourselves through song. I'm pretty sure he already did that. Back when Kurt was straight, and Rachel didn't talk. Today Quinn, Tina, Santana, and Artie were going. They were all boring as hell. Quinn was the last to go and she was singing a song about fucking God.
Found myself today
Oh I found myself and ran away
Something pulled me back
The voice of reason I forgot I had
All I know is you're not here to say
What you always used to say
But it's written in the sky tonight
So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me
I know what song I'm gonna sing. I have to actually practice. erry would be proud.
GLEE
My pink hair brush is in my hands as I look into the mirror.
I've got the time and I'm wasting it slowly
Here in this moment I'm half way out the door
Onto the next thing, I'm searching for something that's missing
Finn walks in and just sits on my bed. I love when I have an audience
There's gotta be more to life
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure, there's gotta be more
Than wanting more
"You know Rach," He walks over to me and puts his arms around my waist. "You are probably the best singer I have ever heard." He kisses the top of my head, looking at us in the mirror.
"What do you mean, probably?" I glared at our reflection, pushing him away.
"Well of course, you're a great singer. I just mean that there are other good singers too. You are the best. Just sometimes Mercedes sings really good. Quinn too." He gave me a goofy smile as he tried to hug me again. "I cant wait until our wedding. Maybe the two of them can sing while you walk down the aisle."
"Are you kidding me here, Finn? Is Ashton about to walk out?" I flop onto the bed and he lies beside me, beginning to kiss my neck. "Finn. We have to talk."
He started to suck on my skin, he knows I hate hickeys. "How about we talk about our wedding night. Or how about we just act it out. Rachel, you're so beautiful." His hand began crawling up my shirt. " We can practice making our baby, you'll make such a great Mommy."
I couldn't take it anymore. "I cant take this anymore, Finn! First of all, in what world do you think that talking about making a baby with someone is dirty talking." I shove him, and he rolls off the bed. "Secondly, how would I ever make a great Mom? I've never had one. Also have you notice that I'm completely selfish. Like, I'm pretty sure the most selfish person ever. When I thought I was pregnant earlier, I thought that my life was over. I thought we came to an understanding that my career and my talent came before anything else. Your dreams are important, but you really dont have any. The Actor's Studio is a Masters program." Oh no, the tears have started, dont back down Berry. "Finn, its fairly obvious we want different things, I think we need to end this."
Finn rushes to me, dropping to his knees. He's crying and it breaks my heart. "Rachel, come on, dont do this. We're gonna get married. You're gonna win a bunch of awards, and be in so many shows, and I'm always gonna be by your side. God, why am I saying 'gonna' so much? Rach, I dont know what I am without you. Please, we can work through this. We need each other."
"Not once did you say anything about loving me, Finn. You only said that you needed me. That you dont know where you'll be without me. We are going to end this and remain friends and there wont be any awkwardness... I love you too much for that. Now, I'm going to break down and cry and you're going to hold me. You fully have permission to cry too. Now get over here and hold my damn hand." Finn hugged me tighter than he ever had before. Both of us crying, until we fell asleep together.
GLEE
Rumors are going on about a Finchel breakup. I dont believe it though, because they are still standing by her locker together, their hands intertwined. Like more than usual. It's really gross.
Last night, I practiced my song for HOURS! I go into Glee, and Rachel is sitting so close to Finn, it should be illegal. Probably did anal for the first time. That shit brings people together. When Schue asked for volunteers, my hand was the first one up.
"Puck, you've never asked to go to the"can" before, dont worry about starting now." He looked around the room, seeing if anyone was ready.
"No, once again I will be paying a musical tribute to Billy Joel. I am singing this song to everybody in this room, but more importantly, my best friend. Hey, Brad, do you mind if I play?" Brad's eyes bug out of his head, but he nods. "This is for you, Berry."
Slow down you crazy child
You're so ambitious for a juvenile
But then if you're so smart tell me
Why you are still so afraid?
Where's the fire, what's the hurry about?
You better cool it off before you burn it out
You got so much to do and only
So many hours in a day
Although I'm no Brad, everybody looks shocked that I'm playing a song on the piano, by Mr. Piano Man himself. I look at Rachel, and she has moved away slightly from Finn, smiling at me.
But you know that when the truth is told
That you can get what you want
Or you can just get old
You're gonna kick off before you even get halfway through
When will you realize... Vienna waits for you?
Slow down you're doing fine
You can't be everything you want to be
Before your time
Although it's so romantic on the borderline tonight
Too bad but it's the life you lead
You're so ahead of yourself
That you forgot what you need
Though you can see when you're wrong
You know you can't always see when you're right
You got your passion, you got your pride
But don't you know only fools are satisfied?
Dream on but don't imagine they'll all come true
When will you realize... Vienna waits for you?
Slow down you crazy child
Take the phone off the hook
And disappear for a while
It's alright you can afford to lose a day or two
When will you realize... Vienna waits for you?
And you know that when the truth is told
That you can get what you want
Or you an just get old
You're gonna kick off before you even get halfway through
Why don't you realize... Vienna waits for you?
When will you realize... Vienna waits for you?
When I'm done playing, Rachel rushes up and hugs me hard. She whispers a thank you in my ear as everyone claps and yells for me. Damn, I'm badass.
"Wow, Puck, that was amazing. How come we didn't know you could play the piano? Just wow. Too bad someone has to follow that! Rachel since you're already standing, why dont you go?
I hug Noah once more, and he leaves to sit down. "Alright, as most of you have probably heard, Finn and I have decided to end our romantic relationship." Everybody's mouths drop. Sam could probably eat a whole watermelon. I know for fucking sure that I'm surprised. "Although I will always love Finn, we have different asperations, and we cannot be held back by each other. We are going to try to make sure that this does not cause any bad blood in the club. We will both remain co-captains, and duet partners. Please appreciate the fact that we are being mature about this, and give us time to get used to being single. If you haven't already noticed, we are still trying to figure out who we are alone. This brings me to my song for the week. I will be singing Unwritten by Natasha Bedingfield." Damn, she talks fast.
I am unwritten, can't read my mind, I'm undefined
I'm just beginning, the pen's in my hand, ending unplanned
Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten
As she continues to sing I finally realize that Rachel Berry is single. I am strangely excited about that.
AN- I dont own lee, or any of the songs used. But I do own the image of Mark Salling half naked from last night's episode. I am so happy with the reviews I've been getting. Keep them commin'! you very much. please tell me what you think!
