Charlie's POV:

"Hey Alex?"

"Hmm?" He replies from underneath my head.

"That was the best first date I've ever had."

"You're welcome Charlie".

"Thank you".

I take his tea and set it on the table next to mine, replacing it with my hand. I listen to Alex's breath and heartbeat slow, falling in perfect rhythm of each other. Slowly, blissfully, I fall in to sleep.

I wake up around 4 AM, still positioned on top of Alex. I couldn't imagine how that could be very comfortable. I stand up carefully, trying not to wake Alex. I stretch out my limbs, noisily. I was wonderfully stiff from my romantic slumber on the couch. I take a large swig of the cold tea resting on the table to sooth my dry thought. I move to leave the room when a hand grabs at my leg. I almost drop the mug in surprise.

"Don't leave me," comes Alex's hoarse morning voice.

"Why don't you come with me?" I turn round to face him, "There is no way I am going to fit comfortably back on that couch."

Alex keeps pawing at me, his eyes half closed.

"Carry me?"

"I don't think so. Come on," I pull at his arm, trying to get him up. It flops back down, lazily.

"Fine, I'll just go lay in my bed…. All alone…. Naked and cold…. With no one to snuggle."

"Look at that, I'm awake," Alex yawns, sitting up.

I shake my head at him. He walks to my bedroom groggily and flops down on my bed. I follow him. I take another sip of cold tea before joining him in my bed. The cool cloth feels nice underneath my skin. The comfort is short lived.

"What is this?" Alex squeaks.

I turn round to face him. "What is what, Alex?"

"You said you were going to sleep naked!"

"Goodnight Alex". I turn round again, closing my eyes.

A few seconds pass in piece before I am blocked from sleep once again.

"Hey, Charlie?"

I sigh, "Yes Alex?"

"I'm cold."

I flop over on to my back and snuggle close to Alex.

"Is that better?"

"You're still wearing cloths, Charlie".

"Good night, Alex".

"Good night."

I woke up again, this time to a sunny bedroom. My bed was empty. Alex's scent still lingered. I heard the sound of a shower coming from my bath room.

I sit up, "Really, Alex? You had to use my shower?"

I suddenly remembered everything that had happened in that bathroom only yesterday. I had lost my virginity to a man. And not just any man but, Alex Day. The man I had thought to be my best friend all of these years. The man I had bought a flat with. The man I had shared every thing with for so long and had never known my secret fantasies could ever become reality.

What would people think once they knew? Charlie McDonnell; gay. Would they be surprised? Repulsed? Or could they have seen it coming all along? What about my mum? She said she would always love me no matter what, but would she really? What about my brother and sister? What about Alex's family? What about our friends?

What was so wrong about being gay anyway? I had always been a big supported of equality. I had never understood how a male person was any different from a female person. Who cared what they had in their pants as long as you liked their personality? Or was gender really a defining factor? Am I really gay or is it just Alex? What happens if things don't work out between us? What then?

I have too many questions. I need to do something to make my brain shut up.

I hear the shower turn off from the other side of the door. I stand up to stretch. I take off my shirt and pants and throw them in my dirty cloths pile. I knock on the bathroom door.

"Hey, Alex? Can I come in and brush my teeth please?"

"Yeah, that's fine, Charlie, come on in," he opens the door for me.

He is soaking wet and very naked.

"Hello!" I exclaim as he reveals his body to me.

"Hi, yeah, there are no towels in here. I figured you wouldn't mind the view," he gives me a little wink.

"Yeah, whatever, I don't mind," I push past him to the sink.

Rather than leaving, he turns around to face my back.

"Charlie, are you cross at me for some reason? Have I upset you?"

I wipe the steam from the mirror, not looking back to face him.

"No, Alex, I'm fine. Just don't expect us to have hot crazy sex all the time, okay? Sometimes I just want to be able to be around you and not get a hard on. Is that alright with you?"

"I'm going to go get dressed".

Alex walks out of my bedroom in silence. I sigh, letting my head loose. It makes a light "thunk" as it hit's the mirror.

"What am I going to do?" I mutter to myself, "What am I going to do?"