Wondering
By SSQ
He's sitting on a beach on the Boeshane peninsula when he begins to wonder. Wonder what it would be like to just stop. He wondered what the afterlife was like. Most timelords wouldn't believe in a theory as preposterous as an afterlife, but he does, for their sake, he does. For the Master, his Koschei who left him just like he had left him; For Susan, his granddaughter from oh-so-long ago. For all his human companions destined to die, he hoped that there was one, and hopefully it was pleasant.
Far more pleasant than living as a man without a time.
His mind strays to Amy when a redhead passes by, and crushing agony tortures his hearts. Even the girl who waited left him in the end, and that fact kills him inside. After all, he deserved it. He showed off the universe as a sort of penance, but that never could change who he was. The Oncoming Storm. The Predator. The Destroyer of Worlds.
A monster.
A monster that should have died long ago, should've died the moment he stole a TARDIS to see the universe and left his best friend behind, because after that there was so much bloodshed; he never could save everyone despite how hard he tried. He became a monster. A monster that should-needed to-die.
But he won't because despite how much he isn't worth anything, the universe always needs saving and there's no one left to do that but him.
The monster who hides in angel's clothing…The man who should die, but can't.
The last of his kind, all alone and wondering.