PLEASE READ THIS FIRST: Okay. So this chapter will have some darker things in it, nothing inappropriate, but it mentions self-harm. I will put stars around the part containing it so you don't have to read it and i will put a reference down the bottom so you can still get any information from it hat you need. AGAIN. DON'T READ THE STARRED BITS IF YOU HAVE A PROBLEM WITH READING THIS KIND OF STUFF. Also. This may be triggering so here is the TRIGGER WARNING
A/N: So yeah, read the warning. I'm not sorry for writing this. It is MY story. You do not have to have anything to do with it, but I am very thankful to those who read/review. But I have upped the rating. I, myself am really proud of this chapter, so please don't hate on it.
Previously:
Octavian studied Rachel. Her face, a few tears threatening to escape. Her hands were balled up in fists and turning white from the tension. That's when he saw them. Little white lines on her beautiful skin.
Rachel saw it in his eyes. She pulled her hand from her leg it had been on and crossed her arms, covering any evidence.
"Rachel" Octavian whispered, his eyes looking so truthful and trustworthy
"I don't want to talk about it" Rachel wriggled, trying to to free her hands, and ended up leaning against the wall which the bed was against. She pulled her knees to her chest and used her arms to hold them there. She felt tears leave her eyes and lay her head on her arms.
Closing up seemed to be the only reaction she could fathom at the time. She couldn't very well just tell Octavian everything she'd been through. She didn't think she could even if she wanted to.
He wouldn't understand anyway. It was stupid now. But it didn't used to be like that. It used to be the only solution, like her closing up was now. She couldn't explain what she had done. That's when Octavian did something she didn't expect.
"Rachel, I saw them" She felt arms around her an gave up. She collapsed into him. Letting his warmth fill her. Rachel buried her face in his shirt and began to cry. Really cry. Horrible sobbing racked her body and she was breathing heavily and tears were wetting Octavian's shirt.
But Octavian didn't go, He stayed with her. Never taking his arms away from her. He kept talking to her but Rachel couldn't make out the words, just feel the vibration in his chest.
Eventually the crying began to slow. Rachel calmed her breathing and pulled her face from Octavian's shirt, wiping her eyes on her hands.
"Sorry" she mumbled
"Rachel, I really care about you and I don't know what would make you do this, I know nothing about your past, but, I want to help you and I don't want you to feel like that again" His blue eyes looked at Rachel's green ones.
"It was everything" she sighed, giving into his eyes.
"Everything?" he questioned.
"Everything" she re-affirmed "My father, the fact that I had no friends and no-one to talk to outside the staff. And the psychologist my parents made me see. But he didn't care. Nobody cared. And I was all alone. And I couldn't do anything about it. I had nothing except false love and a fake smile"
Rachel felt tears pricking her eyes again, but she blinked them back. She would not break down again. She needed to get this off her chest. Blue eyes were on her again.
"And then, a few years ago I met Percy at Hoover Dam, and after he accidentally tried to kill me he helped me, and I helped him escape skeleton warriors" Octavian looked confused "Long Story" she said before continuing her story "He was the first person who helped me out of nothing more than kindness. He didn't even know about my father. But he had to go. Then I met him at my school, where he was starting out. And I saved his life again and I kind of liked him. Then I guided him and Annabeth through the Labyrinth and then..." she blushed. Unsure if she should say the next part, after all that had happened between her and the boy across from her.
"Then..."
"Then Percy got together with Annabeth, which was okay, because I became the Oracle of Delphi. But then Percy left, and it got bad again."
"Rachel" Octavian shifted so he was sitting cross-legged across from her "You still haven't told me why"
*** Translation down the bottom :)
"Because when everything became too much, I could find someplace to be by myself and a blade. And drag it across my skin and at least I could feel something. I could feel that I was alive. And I though It would be something. And 1 cut turned to 2 which turned to 5 which turned to 20 and it became out of control. And every moment of my life was filled with worry that someone would find out and send me to a mental hospital. And I didn't have and friends to tell. And once I did it didn't matter anymore. Because I found the strength to stop. But then they all left me, to save the world. And I don't blame them from that but I still felt alone. And the blades made the lonliness go away. And the blood dripping from my arm stopped the emptiness"
*** You may read on now :)
Octavian didn't say anything for a while. Thinking it through.
"I'm sorry" she whispered
A few moments passed and he spoke again "I'm so proud of you"
Rachel looked at him, confused by what he said "What?"
"I'm proud of you. You are so strong to live through that. I can only Imagine the hell you must have been in to do that" And he took her wrist and slowly kissed every scar on it. All of them. And when he finished he took her other wrist, and kissed it, even though there weren't any little lines on it.
Then he leaned froward and kissed her. Properly. And Rachel kissed him back. And she loved every minute of it.
It could have been hours, and it felt like only seconds but was probably a few minutes later when warm lips were pulled from her's and Rachel leaned forward and kissed him again. Because he had made her feel like the prettiest and luckiest girl in the world. And she really wanted more of that.
After a while she forced herself to move back. Rachel looked straight at him. "Would you-"
Then lips were on hers again, and she tried to keep talking, to no avail. Then she felt Octavian speak, before she heard the word "Yes"
Rachel laced her arms around his neck and moved so she was on her knees. And she felt his comforting arms wind their way around her waist bringing her to sit on his lap. And their lips parted and they sat there enjoying eachother's presence for a while.
A while later Octavian spoke in her ear, and she would have jumped had she not been trapped in his embrace "You know, we haven't eaten since breakfast. Do you want to get some food and sit by the beach?"
"First date?" she asked nervously.
"First date it is" he smiled and she stood so that he could.
*** She cut to know she was alive. but it got out of control and when she met Percy she stopped because she had friends, but when he left she started again.
A/N: So I hope you liked it! I know it was a bit dark, but don't worry, the next chapter will be pure fluff. And after that there's some action. Only 3 more chapters I think. The story's almost where I want it to be, just a few little tweaks here and there and BLAM SLANE. Fanon completion :)
Notice how I put a glee reference in a PJO fic. Sew me :P :)
Thanks for reading and don't forget to review :)
-Athena Ari Hawthorne
P.S. If you were wondering. This is my favourite chapter of the whole fan fiction. Because it gets dark, and I love dark stuff. And I absolutely love fluff. So for me this is just what I want to write like 24/7. Oh, and don't worry. I don't like PDA, so it will be avoided :)