If you are chilly, here take my sweater...
Tonks yawned and stretched, still on the couch with the paperwork she had been concentrating on for the past three hours. She curled back up, chewing on her pen. She never used quills while doing paperwork, She didnt want it to drip. She sighed again, she had no idea what to write in this report, she had been working with Kingsley "tracking" Sirius.
He had given her the task of writing up a fake, but believable, report on his latest whereabouts, which was really funny, considering she was sitting across from him, about to have dinner with the said "stark raving mad murderer".
Sirius looked up from the prophet, "Oh, by the way, did I tell you Remus was stopping by a bit before the meeting tonight?" Tonks looked up from her paper again and shook her head, "No, you didn't. Why?" She asked, trying to conceal her happiness, which was difficult because her hair was turning yellow. It had been three weeks since she had last seen Remus, they had both been busy with work and the order. She was used to seeing him atleast twice a week, because of meetings and Sirius. They had become a fairly close trio.
"Mmm, he said he had been missing our conversations, but I think it had something more to do with pink haired witch I know. Am I the only one who noticed how he seems to come here for you, not handsome me?" Sirius asked, smirking as her hair turned peach. "Well, of course we are close! We are friends." Tonks answered, then realized how utterly lame she sounded. All Sirius did was wink and look back down at the paper. She sighed.
How long can I keep my...er... Feelings a secret from Remus if I can't even manage to keep them away from Sirius? Do I even want to keep them from him? She thought to herself, her hair turning peach again. She frowned, concentrating on turning it brown once more.
Tonks laughed and bit into the chocolate muffin Remus had brought her, as he told Sirius a joke he had heard about trolls. She absolutely loved the muffin, she made a sound of appreciation. She loved it even more once she found out he had made it by hand and that there were eleven more just like it waiting for her at his place. He promised to bring them by soon. She giggled, remembering when Sirius had pouted and asked where his muffin was. Remus had kinda blushed, ran his hand through his hair and mumbled "forgot." It was extremely sexy.
That's one thing Tonks didn't understand about Lupin, half the time he flirted with her and the other half he acted like he couldn't stand her. It made no sense! She wasn't sure how long it would be before he broke down and cornered him. Tonks sighed and looked to her left, where Remus was sitting, talking to Sirius, who was in the ugly wing back char, across from the sofa.
She studied Remus's features: his perfectly almond shaped, melted chocolate brown eyes, lined with dark lashes; his crooked smile that showed how gentle and caring he really is; his sandy brown hair that was always slightly too long and in his face, it looked so soft; the scars that covered his body, that showed what he as been through, and how strong he is; and last, but certainly not least, his long, lean, but gently muscular body.
Tonks looked back up to find he was looking at her, a slight marauder-esque smirk on his face. He winked at her before looking back at Sirius. Tonks felt her heart drop. Was that a friendly wink or a flirty wink? She asked herself, trying to sort it all out, including her inappropriate emotions towards him.
Tonks looked back up and on impulse asked, "Hey, Remus, do you want to go for a walk? It's nice out and I've been cramped up inside this house all day." He stopped talking to Sirius as looked at her, curiously. "Is everything okay, Nymphadora?" He asked, concern covering his face. Sirius just smirked, understanding she just wanted some time alone with him.
"It's fine, I'm fine. Like I said, I've just been inside all day. I wish to stretch my legs, is all." Tonks answered, unsure if she was doing the right thing, asking to be alone with him. She didnt want to lose their friendship and she wasn't sure if he would run the other way if he found out that she had feelings for him.
It's not like he would be attracted a GIRL, he would want a women, someone closer to his age. Im thirteen years younger, he probably sees me as a kid. Plus, I'm clumsy and I can choose to have a beak for petes sake! Tonks thought, waiting for his reply. Remus looked like he was Considering his options, the meeting wasn't going to start for another hour, so they would have time. "Mmmk, lets go." Remus said looking at her and smiling gently.
He got off the couch and dusted off his jumper, which had lint on it. Tonks smiled at his cleanliness, and manners. It never ceased to amaze her how much of a gentleman he was. She couldn't help but laugh when he held out his arm for her to grab, bowed, and smirked slightly. Tonks giggled and put her hand on his arm, feeling the sturdiness of it. Her heart skipped a beat, she shouldn't feel this way with him. She never felt this...right with a man before. Sirius scowled at them for leaving him and mumbled something that sounded like "bloody house arrest" and some more...er...vulgar words. Remus chuckled and led Tonks outside.
She let go of his arm and shoved her hands in the back pockets, of her black skinny jeans. She was also wearing a purple-off the shoulder three quarter shirt, and a pair of old leather boots. Her hair was curly, shoulder length and a shade of brown she enjoyed, the bangs slightly long. Remus looked at her and opened his mouth, looking like he was going to say something, then shut it again. "Yes, Remus?" Tonks asked, looking at the cracked sidewalk as it passed beneath her, craggily bits of dying plants growing all over the cracked parts.
He sighed and just shook his head, his shaggy, sandy brown waves looking a bit more limp than usual, looking a more grey than usual. Tonks realized that it was a full moon in two nights, no wonder he wasn't acting normal. He never did around this time of the month. "Got your wolfsbane?" She asked quietly. Remus just nodded, looking slightly deflated. Tonks reached out and grabbed his hand, he squeezed it back. They just continued walking, hand in hand. It was getting dark out and the wind picked up. Tonks shivered slightly.
"Are you cold?" Remus asked, smiling in amusement. Tonks smiled up at him, "I'm fine, really!" She said as the wind whipped through their hair. He unbuttoned his jumper, stopped, and turned so he was facing her. He guided her arms through the sleeves and started buttoning it up for her. She smiled, blushing, they were so close. "There, better?" Remus asked, quietly looking her in the eye. She inhaled his scent, she absolutely loved it, oldspice, chocolate, and a slightly smoky scent that reminded her of grimmauld place.
"Thanks." She said looking back, affectionately smiling at him. He kept his hands on the front of the jumper, she took a step closer, looking at his lips, then back at his eyes. She had heard that the eyes are the windows to the soul. He had a very nice soul. "Aren't you going to be cold now?" She asked, he only had a white, v-neck tshirt on. He just shook his head. Remus started to lean down a bit, he looked like enchanted by her. She stood on her tiptoes to meet him. He pressed his lips to hers, as his hands were still on the buttons of her jumper. Tonks wrapped her arms around his neck and pulled him closer, deepening the kiss.
Remus suddenly jerked away, avoiding her gaze, he knew he shouldn't have done that. "Sorry, oh crap. I shouldn't have done that. Ugh! I'm sorry..." He said backing away, running his hand through his hair. "Keep the sweater, I'll talk to you later..." Remus turned and started striding down the street, searching for an open alley to apparate in. "Wait! Remus!" Tonks called, heading after him, she didnt reach him in time as she heard the obvious CRACK of his apparition.
Tonks sighed and leaned against the nearest building. It was amazing. It was right. Did he not feel the same way? Did he realize he didn't like it and that's why he left? Tonks sank down to her heels, confused and hurt.