Your head is aching, I'll make it better...
Remus groaned and rolled over, pulling the covers over his messy haired head. He opened his eyes, just to quickly shut them again, the light coming through the drapes were just too much. What happened last night? He asked himself, he knew it had been the full moon, but normally his head didn't feel like it was going to pop.
Remus sat up and turned green. He jumped out of bed and managed to get into the bathroom just in time to heave yesterday's lunch up. He sat over the toilet gagging, which didnt help his head any. He heard Sirius shout something from his bedroom, the next floor up. Remus wiped his mouth and called out, "I'm fi-" he was cut off by another bout of vomit. He heard the squeaking of springs as Sirius rolled out of bed and clomped down the stairs. Remus heaved once more, feeling exhausted and shaky. He was never this sick after a transformation. Normally he was just sore, tired, and injured. He was most definitely still sore, tired, and- He looked at his arms and bare chest to see the huge scratches all over it- injured. He groaned again as Sirius opened the bathroom door, "You look took absolutely ghastly! What happened?"
Remus looked up at him, flushed the toilet and stood up. He shakily walked over to the sink, wetting his toothbrush and said, while brushing his teeth, "Thanks, padfoot, you look amazing too. I don't know what's wrong I just feel horrible." He spit out the paste and glared at Sirius, who was wearing a pair of sweatpants and a black baggy tshirt. "Can I help you with anything?" Sirius asked, while scratching his shaggy, bed head.
Remus shook his head, "Let me go back to sleep?" He said, then another wave of nausea struck him. He threw up the toilet lid and started coughing in it again. Sirius mumbled something about tea and breakfast and left.
Remus was startled out of his uneasy sleep by a knock on his door. He opened his eyes and much to his relief saw that there was no sunlight streaming through the windows. It must be late. "Yeah, come in." He said, thinking it was Sirius come to check on him. The door opened and the light from the hallway silhouetted a females figure. "Wotcher, Remus." Came her soft voice. Remus flopped his head back onto the pillow.
It had been six days since the kiss- not that he'd been counting or anything- and he hadn't seen her since. He was ashamed and embarrassed, what made it worse was how much he had enjoyed it. He shouldn't have gotten that close to her anyway, he knew he wasn't good for her. He was dangerous. "Hello, Nymphadora." He replied in a quiet, distant voice.
"Can I come in?" She asked, as his vision started clearing a bit and she came into focus. She was sporting limp, mousy brown hair; a baggy grey sweater; and a pair of dark denim jeans. Remus made an affirmative sound and tried to sit up against the headboard, realizing he didnt have a shirt on he pulled up the bed sheet. Tonks came in the rest of the way and shut the door behind herself. "Sirius sent a patronus saying you were sick..." She started, then trailed off. "Oh, yeah, I'm fine. I think I figured out what happened." He said and winced, as a sudden burst of pain went through his head. "Are you okay?" Tonks asked, leaning forwards and holding her hands out, as if she expected him to pass out or something.
"Mmm, yes, I'm okay. Headache." He answered as he layed back onto his pillow and shut his eyes. He felt the mattress dip down very slightly as she sat down near his feet and placed her hand of his arm, he opened one eye and looked at her. She smiled slightly, and asked, "What is causing it?"
Remus rubbed his face and realized he hadn't shaved in three days, "Old wolfsbane. I bought it off some guy on the street. Well, old or it wasn't made right. I'm not completely sure. I got into a fight with Snape, so he wouldn't make me any... Not very many people sell it, let alone for a fair price... So, since I didn't have enough money to buy it from a healer, I bought it anyway, hoping I could keep a shred of my humanity..." He stopped and sighed, another wave of migraine-like pain exploded through his head.
Tonks muttered something not very friendly about Snape, Remus laughed a bit. She placed her palm very lightly on his forehead. "Oh, crap! You have a fever, it feels pretty high... I'll go get some ice." She got off the bed and quickly left the room. He layed back down and darkness swept over him again.
"Is he going to be okay?" "I think so, his fever has gone down a bit." Remus stirred as he heard the voices of two of the most important people in the world to him. "Remus, are you awake?" He heard the soft, delicate voice of the women he lo- had feelings for. He opened his eyes to see that it was still dark out. "You passed out, your fever got too high." He heard Sirius from somewhere in the darker corners of his room. Remus looked at tonks who was leaning over him, placing a cold washcloth on his forehead. "You are still burning up." She whispered, not wanting to hurt his head, which was still pounding.
Sirius muttered something about sending Molly a patronus and left the dark room, Remus would have normally objected, but he felt too rotten to do so. His stomach started twisting and he suddenly felt nauseated again. He groaned, placing his hands in his stomach and squeezed his eyes shut, waiting for the pain to pass.
"You are an utter git." He heard tonks say. His eyes flashed open and he looked at her with bewilderment. Maybe he was hallucinating. "What?" He asked, his voice deep and hoarse. "I said, you are an utter git." She said again, a twinkle in her violet eyes. Remus coughed and a muscle in his back started spasmimg. He flinched in pain, closing his eyes once more.
"If you ever do something so stupid again, I will not forgive you!" She exclaimed grabbing his hand as the spasm got worse, he moaned and mumbled "ow." Remus opened his eyes again and gave tonks a half smile, "So, you don't hate me?" He asked and flinched again.
"Hate you? I could never hate you! I'm not even mad, I'm just hurt... I don't understand why you would kiss me like that and then... And then just leave. Did you not enjoy it?" Tonks asked letting go of his hand and looking at her own. Remus just sat in silence, debating his options.
I can tell her how I really feel and possibly endanger her, but what if she leaves me? What if she just doesn't even feel the same way? Or I could just keep my feelings to myself. She would move on and meet a new guy, who could make her happier... Who wouldn't be old and a problem. She is already worrying and this is only the first time she's seen me sick. But... I'm not sure if I could manage my life without her now. I need her happy face. I'm selfish, but...
When he looked back up at her he saw the tears in her eyes. His heart broke, he could almost hear the crack. "Tonks, look at me..." He said, gently, clearing his throat. She looked up at him and a tear slid down her cheek. Remus wiped the tear away with his thumb and pulled her face down to his own. He kissed her and she kissed back. When he felt her lips on his he couldn't explain how right it felt. It felt like he had been born just to kiss her.
He felt her hand slide up to his face and her thumb started tracing patterns on his unshaved jaw. He pulled away and looked her in the eyes, her hand still on his cheek. She smiled and her hair turned yellow. Remus grinned back, he didnt care how sick he felt, he would always remember this memory with utter joy. "Yellow?" He asked, a chuckle coming out of his mouth. Tonks grinned at him, "happiness." Was all she said and kissed him again just as Sirius walked back in, followed by Molly, mad-eye, and Arthur.
Tonks ignored them all and continued kissing him, Remus felt his face burst into a blush, but pulled her even closer, putting his hand in her brght yellow, long hair. He heard Sirius clear his throat, "Well, I take it you are feeling better!" The door shut, and Remus guessed that everyone had left. He grinned against, tonks's lips and felt her giggle. She pulled away and asked how he was feeling. "Hmm, terrible... But, I have am idea of how you could make me feel better..." Was all Remus had to say before tonks kissed him once more. He could almost feel his own hair turn yellow.