JANUARY:

Dad tries buying me a book, but I refuse to read it.

Dad tells me it's an important day, and I instantly know. That day is the first time we met.

FEBRUARY:

Dad and the other adults gather us up for Valentines Day. I still don't really understand it completely, but I know you give hearts to your friends saying nice things about them. I give you, Jade, and Rose a heart.

I visit your house for the second time. We avoid the smuppets as much as we can.

I cry when I leave again. You say you can protect yourself against the smuppets.

MARCH:

We have Easter together. Rose ends up finding the most eggs, but Jade finds none. You give her all your eggs before she starts crying.

APRIL:

My birthday comes up, Jade gives me a 'magic rock' she found. You give me a drawing that you state out took you a week to finish, making a comment that I should "Really like it or else" Rose gave me a book she made out of construction paper.

You allow it.

MAY:

Bro gathers us all up and we go to Peter Pipers Pizza without our parents permission. When Dad found out, I couldn't visit for a month

JULY:

We all visit moms grave together. Dad soon tells us all to go to the car with Bro and Grampa. Dad comes back with red eyes.

While visiting Grampa's house, I ask you, Jade, and Rose where Mommy went. Everyone shrugs.

"Mommy said that she is working to keep you alive" Rose states out

"Bro said that your mom had passed..." You pause "A big test and was going to be gone for a little bit!"

AUGUST:

We all start school for the first time, and all four of us get into Mrs. Treese class. We all sit together, and stay together.

I accidentally lost my glasses, but a boy name Karkat found them for me. He's a real meanie, but is also real nice.

SEPTEMBER:

We have to read in class, and I tell Mrs. Treese I can't read it. When she asks why, I tell her "It's illegal in Strider town"

OCTOBER:

Just Rose and I go to the park where we first met. I can see Mrs. Lalonde rubbing Dad's back while his hands are holding his head.

Dad doesn't drive me out to go Trick or Treating.

NOVEMBER:

I visit your house, and Dad warns Bro on telling him where he takes us. We run off to your room as fast as we can, slamming the door shut and locking it so the smuppets don't come in.

When night comes, I ask you "How much longer till mommy comes home?"

You stay quiet, then you turn over and hug me "A while longer" you mumble.

When I leave, I tell my dad on the way to the car "Daddy, don't worry, Mommy's coming home soon! So you don't need to cry anymore!"

Later that night, I hear him sobbing.

We leave a seat open on Thanksgiving.

DECEMBER:

Jade's birthday, and she gets a big doll house from dad, so most of he time, she plays with that. I give her a pretty hair tie that I bought for fifty cents. You give her a bracelet you made, which looked terrible, but she still loved it. Rose gave her a snowflake she made.

Your birthday, and I got you a stuffed penguin, even though you seemed not to like the penguin your self, you still accepted it. Rose gave you a very pretty clay sword she made. Jade gives you suckers, and ends up putting it on your glasses.

Bro took you out of the room to change your glasses, which we don't understand at all.

Rose is given a pink pony by Jade, and I give her a doll that I had gotten at a garage sale, but dad helped me clean in (He did it himself while I watched). You give her a poorly made charm bracelet.

For Christmas, we all gathered up at Lalonde's house. Dad didn't want any presents, and refused every present from everyone. He didn't even accept mine.

Later that night, I watched him take a present from Ms. Lalonde. He opened it, and kissed her as thanks. I cried that night because I feel like dad is replacing me.

New Years comes, and I barely participate. You decide that it's unfair, and sit next to me as we watch the girls play.

I wish in the New Year that daddy'll love me more. You're the only one I tell, and you pinky swear not to tell anyone.