JANUARY: We come back from winter break, and the teacher ask us what happened while we were gone. We all lie.
'It was fun'.
We notice Jade being absent a lot.
On the day we met, I walk to you at play time and we sit under a tree while I teach you to make a flower crown. You still suck at it, but I can't lie, "You're doing better!"
When Bro picks you up, he asks you to go to the car. He walks to me and kneels in front of me, putting hands on my shoulders "I'm so sorry, John" he hugs me and leaves. I wave you both good-bye.
FEBRUARY:I make everyone in our class a card for Valentines day, and during the party we eat cake and drink root-beer floats. We laugh and have fun.
Some kids begin bullying me at school, but I won't tell anyone.
MARCH: Dad gives me a computer, telling me to occupy myself with it, but only if I finish my homework first. I jump on the moment he leaves the room and begin playing it immediately. I hadn't done my homework.
Rose and Jade are absent. We both spend three days just talking to each other instead of talking to others. You seems that you are the only one who understands how scared I was in November.
Whenever I notice we are out of a teacher's view, I cry to you.
Karkat comes with a black eye, and he tells everyone it's from a baseball when playing with his brother.
Vriska and I talk about how she likes the number eight a lot.
On Easter, the entire school looks for eggs around the school for prizes. The ultimate surprise is given when someone finds the golden egg. Gamzee finds it, but he gives it to a boy named Tavros. Tavros gets a whole bunch of candy, and he shares it with Gamzee.
APRIL: When April the first comes around, I play my first prank. I keep hitting you with rubber bands, but the second you turn to look at me, I look down. At Recess, you tell me that you know it was me.
We say next time we'll do it to Jade.
I'm eight.
When the subject of my birthday comes up, Dad tells me the computer is the present and goes to the kitchen to make even more cakes.
The class doesn't hesitate to sing me Happy Birthday. I blush while everyone does so, looking at the floor with an embarrassed grin.
When we go outside, Jade gives me three fake rings she made in art, Rose gives me a card with a dollar in it, and you give me three things. One of them is a card from Bro, and the other is from yourself. Your present is a fake blow-up sword.
"Now you can protect yourself"
At home I read Bro's letter.
"Happy Birthday, John
I'm sorry things have gone bad, and things that happened shouldn't had. If you need anything, you can come to Dave or I for it.
-Bro"
At the bottom, there is a picture of Lil'Cal
"Hee Hee Hoo Hoo"
MAY: Vriska and I play pirates, and I end up falling off a log and break my leg. Vriska keeps apologizing, but I'm crying too much to reply to her.
When Dad comes to see me, he scolds me and leaves. I wonder why he doesn't love me anymore.
When Bro and you see me for the first time since I broke my leg, you run into the room and hug me as tight as you can. "Be careful, Dave," warned Bro. When you ask me about what cake Dad made me on my birthday, I say none. You guys leave.
Rose and Rose's Mommy comes, and Rose holds my hand, looking like she wants to cry. "I thought you died or somthin'!" Rose's Mom kisses my forehead and says I'll see them soon.
Grandpa and Jade come in, and Jade instantly cries when she sees me, jumping on my hospital bed and hugging me tightly. Grandpa tells Jade to get off, but I hug her back. I miss my twin. Grandpa gives me chocolate, and he kisses my forehead and leaves with a sobbing Jade.
Vriska comes in with her Mom, and her Mom pushes her in. Vriska looks up at me and begins crying, "I'm Sorry I'm Sorry I'm Sorry." I grab her hand, "It's okay Vriska." I then promise her when I get better I'll play pirates again.
The next day, you and Bro bring me a big chocolate cake. We all eat it together.
JUNE: While Dad's visiting, Grandpa and Jade come in. Doctors pry between Grandpa and Dad and told them to leave after a very loud conversation.
Jade waves goodbye before she says hello.
When you visit again, I tell you what happened. Bro apologizes and hugs me. When I ask why Daddy doesn't love me anymore, Bro looks at me and won't reply.
I'm out of the hospital with a cast. I then realize you can't see me until school comes back around. I sit in my room, spending my time alone on the internet aimlessly after making up all my homework.
JULY: Daddy goes to the Graveyard without me.
You sneak into my room and I ask you what you're doing. You said, "I have to see my best bro every once in a while"
You give me your name on Pesterchat. I talk to you every single day when I can.
My cast comes off.
AUGUST: School starts for third grade. I play pirates with Vriska.
I hug Rose and Jade on the first day, telling them how I missed them. I have my class with Rose. You have yours with Jade. The only time we talk is at Recess.
My reading average is below average. You allow reading in Stridertown.
SEPTEMBER: Karkat ends up breaking his arm and doesn't come to school. When I ask daddy if I can go visit him, he yells 'No' and sends me to my room.
I ask you to sneak in my room. When you do, you lie down with me and hug me while I cry silently. If I'm too loud Dad'll get mad.
When I wake up, you're still there.
OCTOBER: I hear kids talking about funny words, 'sex' and 'rape'.
The bullies keep bullying me, and they push me off the top of the playground and I fall on my leg I broke. When I'm limping, you ask why. I say I fell.
We didn't celebrate Halloween that year.
NOVEMBER: When the teacher ask what I was for Halloween, I say "A ghost"
Rose walks up and hugs me, then kisses me. She says I can tell her anything.
On Thanksgiving, dad sits at the table, talking to the empty seat across him as he eats his dinner.
DECEMBER: It's Jade's birthday, I give her the present at school. I give her a macaroni picture.
It's your birthday, we sit on the swing sets. I try giving you your present, but you stop me and say you won't take it. When I ask why, you stand up, walk to me, and peck me on the lips. "That's my birthday present"
It's Rose's birthday, I give her a plastic necklace I found on the floor and had rinsed off. She wears it everyday.
It's closer to winter break, and Jade gives me the prettiest bracelet I have ever seen, and tells me to keep it safe and away from daddy. I do.
Winter break is here, and you make sure to talk to me all you can over the internet. I make sure to talk to you too.
No Christmas celebrating.
When the New Year comes, I sneak outside and watch the stars and listen to the popping of fireworks. I wish that in the year Daddy and Bro will make up. I beg and beg that he'll love me too.