Roxas's POV

I woke in the middle of the night; Axel's arms were firmly around me, holding my body to his. I wasn't sure what had woken me, maybe I had woken myself, I hadn't had a nightmare, I knew.

Unable to fall back to sleep, my mind began to wander back to my therapy session, could it have been true that I was suffering from survival guilt?

I thought long and hard about the question and the only answer I seemed capable of conjuring up was a yes. At the end of the day, Sora was more deserving of life.

I thought that Sora should have lived instead of me, he was such a strong person, always putting others first, I knew if he had a choice, he wouldn't have changed who died in the fire.

That was why I was pulling away from Axel, because it hurt to feel happy when Sora would never feel again. I had a heart still, an empty heart, and it begged me to let it fill with the love Axel offered, but my conscious was getting in the way.

I loved Axel, I loved him so much, I missed how good his arms felt, missed how comforting his voice could be, and everything else, and overall I missed Axel.

I owed it to Sora to try to live a happy life and I knew there wasn't just a switch to make it happen, but the realization was a good start.

I rolled in Axel's arms so I was facing his bare chest, nuzzling into it; I gave the warm flesh a soft kiss and heard Axel sigh in his sleep.

I feel asleep at some point after my epiphany and now Axel was gently shaking me awake.

"Go way, sleeping," I mumbled into the pillow and earned a chuckle of Axel, he seemed to be in better spirits since I agreed to see Namine.

"It's noon, I'm making myself a sandwich do you want one?" his voice was hopeful, it wasn't as if I was starving myself, but I knew how worried he was about how little I was consuming. "Alex is having lunch with Demyx and his parents so we'll be alone."

"Okay, I suppose," I did feel a little hungry.

He left the room saying something about ham and cheese, I waited a few minutes before I got enough energy to roll out of bed and make my way to the bathroom to relieve myself.

I made my way to the kitchen once my bladder was empty and I had splashed some cold water on my face to wake me up some.

"Hey," he said with big smile on his face, as I sat across from him at the small table.

"Hey yourself," I mumbled.

"How are you feeling?" he asked, seriousness creeping into his voice.

"I'm tired," I replied bluntly, taking a bite out of my food.

"How do you think the session went yesterday?" he wanted to know.

"Good, actually I think it may have a good idea," I told the redhead, whose eyebrows shot up as the smile returned.

"Of course it was a good idea," he stated. "I thought of it, didn't I?"

"Yeah, you did," I nodded in agreement, feeling a small smile creep onto my lips. "That's why I'm surprised it was actually a good was."

"What exactly, may I ask, is that supposed to mean?" he frowned, pretending to be offended.

My smile widened as the laughter flowed out of my mouth, before it stopped abruptly, and the guilt settled in. I had honestly forgotten about Sora for a moment there. The tears felt like they were about to pool out, but nothing came.

"It's okay to laugh Roxas," Axel said, bringing my attention back to him. "Sora would want you to be happy, got it memorized."

I let out a breathy laugh.

"I'm trying to remember," I stated. "I know you're right, and I'm really glad that I've had you to help me get through this."

"Glad to be of service," Axel smirked. "Seriously though, you know I would do anything for you."

"Sometimes I really wish we were back together," I told him softly. It was true, we were always somehow god together, despite how different we were, but the differences had one out in the end.

"I regret letting you leave every day, you know that?" the redhead mumbled, acidic eyes sparkling. "I tried moving on, but there was no way to forget you."

"I know what you mean," I responded. "To tell you the truth, I always expected you to come after me, but you didn't…Why didn't you come after me if you still loved me?"

"You told me that you wanted space," he sighed, eyes dull and cast downwards. "I thought you would reject me…I always planned to get you back, but I thought if I tried straight away, I would lose you forever."

Axel looked close to tears, I knew he was telling the truth, I could see regret all over his face.

I got out of my chair, coming around and wrapping my arms round him, he had been consoling me long enough; it was time for me to repay the favor.

"I love you Roxie," Axel mumbled, placing me on his lap and burring his head in my spikes.

"Love you too," I replied, softly.

Alex's POV

I stepped into the kitchen, to a scene of love and maybe if I hadn't just had the worst meal of my life I would have slipped back out of the apartment silently.

"Are you okay?" Axel was the first to notice me.

"I just ran all the way from Demyx's house," I replied, taking a seat that I supposed was Roxas's because there was now a sandwich in front of me. "His dad threatened to castrate me."

"He sounds…nice," Axel laughed, and I gave him a glare.

"It's not funny!" I stated in a loud angry voice, slamming my hands onto the table. "He was serious!"

"I'm sure he wouldn't have actually done it," Roxas dismissed also.

"He was holding a carving knife!" I shouted at them.

We stayed in our positions for a few moments in silence before the silence was broken by my cell, it was Demyx, I knew because my bloodstained valentine by Murder dolls was the ringtone.

"Hello," I answered, sitting back in the chair.

"Where are you?" he asked, he sounded worried.

"Axel's apartment," I replied softly. "I'm sorry I ran off, I just…I just got a bit freaked out…I'm sorry."

"Can you come back?" he pleaded. "He wants to apologize."

"Roxas actually isn't good right now," I replied, ignoring my brother and the blonde boys frowning faces. "Ax wants me to help out."

"How 'bout tomorrow?" he asked.

"I don't know, maybe," I mumbled into the receiver. "I have to go now, bye."

"Bye," he said back, before us both hung up.

"Do not look at me like that," I told both of them.

"Do you want some water, it appears your pants are on fire," Axel grinned.