OKAY! So I know that took forever but I'm really proud of this next chapter and I hope you love it too!
The following day Kurt woke to a certain daughter of his jumping up and down on his bed.
Kurt groaned and rolled away, putting a pillow over his ear.
"Daddy get up! Blaine's coming over today!" Ellie sang.
Kurt's mind started un-fogging immediately at the mention of Blaine's name. Huh, Kurt thought, that really did happen.
Kurt rolled over and smiled at Ellie before jumping up and snatching her from her jumps, tickling every part of her he could reach. They stayed like this for a while, Ellie laughing her lungs out and Kurt laughing evilly. When they had both had enough, Kurt finally surrendered to Ellie's laughed out pleas for him to stop.
"Okay giggle monster, how about some breakfast?" Kurt breathed, propping them both up on his bed.
"Okay!" Ellie exclaimed, jumping off the bed and running out of the room.
Kurt laughed softly to himself before remembering what was in store for him today. He had to see Blaine again today. He had to talk to him and look into those beautiful eyes again.
Knowing he was gay was only going to make it harder for Kurt to shut up his feelings. But he had to, and he knew that. Even if Blaine could ever possibly feel the same way about Kurt, he couldn't to that to himself...not again.
No, Kurt thought, don't think about that. You have to stop doing this to yourself.
Shaking off all these thoughts, Kurt went to get Ellie some breakfast, today a simple bowl of cheerios, and find Blaine's number so that he could tell him when he should come over today.
He found it on the table by the door and dialed the number, retiring to his room and curling back onto his bed.
Blaine answered on the fourth ring, his voice still groggy and rough, which sent shivers down Kurt's spine, which he forced himself to ignore.
"Hello?" Blaine practically growled into the phone.
"Hey, Blaine? It's Kurt," Kurt said tentatively.
"Oh! Kurt! Hey, how's it goin'?" said Blaine, sounding suddenly much more awake and Kurt heard the rustling of sheets, making him gulp.
"Great! I'm sorry to call so early but we have to be out the door by eight so..." Kurt finished lamely.
"Oh no, don't worry about it," Blaine replied sincerely. "So what's up?"
"Well I was wondering if you'd still be able to start with Ellie today?" Kurt asked.
"Yeah that'd be perfect! What time were you thinking?"
"I was thinking maybe arou-" Kurt started but was cut off by what sounded like the phone dropping and Blaine's muffled laughter followed by his far-away yell of what sounded like 'suck my dick' followed by another mans laugh and then his voice saying 'oh don't you remember? I already did that!'
Kurt's heart felt like it was sinking into his stomach. So he already had a boyfriend. Of course he did, idiot, Kurt thought, Have you seen him? He was about to hang up when he heard the sound of the phone being picked up followed by Blaine's voice.
"Kurt? Sorry about that, my phone fell," he apologized.
Did he really think that Kurt hadn't heard his conversation?
"Oh, that's fine," Kurt lied. "So I usually pick up Ellie at twelve thirty, so do you think you could be here by one?" Kurt asked, still feeling very uneasy about what he had just heard.
"Yeah that'd be great! I'm really looking forward to it," Blaine told him as the same man from before mimicked Blaine in a very obnoxious tone.
Kurt pretended that he didn't hear him. Because that's what Blaine was doing, and that's how it should be, and that's how it would be. Kurt also knew that even if Blaine wasn't dating 'Mr. Obnoxious', Kurt wouldn't have done anything about their relationship anyway, because nobody would ever reciprocate his feelings. He had accepted that a long time ago.
"Great, Blaine, I'll see you then," Kurt said, trying to keep his voice as even as possible.
"Okay. 'bye, Kurt," Blaine answered cheerily back.
Kurt hung up before he could hear anything else from Blaine's mystery man. He set the phone down on the night stand next to him as he felt tears sneaking up in his eyes like snakes. He pushed them forcefully away. He would not let this happen. He'd gotten too far to betray himself like this. Not when everything was finally going his way. Kurt was not going down this road again.
So, brushing himself off, he went out into the main room where Ellie had turned on the television and was watching some cartoon.
"Come on honey, we gotta get ready," Kurt told her, getting a cup of coffee ready for himself, using instant because he didn't have the patience this morning.
"Did you talk to Blaine?" Ellie asked in a sneaky voice, perching herself on the stool in the kitchen and leaning towards him.
"Yes, I did. He will be here shortly after I pick you up from school," Kurt said nonchalantly, filling a kettle with water and turning on the stove.
"Did you talk about anything else?" Ellie suggested, moving her eyebrows up and down in an uncoordinated manner.
"No we did not, and I don't want you getting any more ideas about us, okay?" Kurt said sternly, poring the boiling water from the kettle into his mug.
"Okay I just think you guys would be really cute together is all," Ellie said sadly, sliding off the stool and padding to her room.
Kurt took a seat, sighing into his coffee as he read his favorite sections in this mornings paper.
The morning past without thought of what was coming for Kurt later that day. He focused on his work purposefully and productively.
When it was time to up Ellie Kurt caught the subway as usual. He sat down on one of the many free seats, thanking god it wasn't rush hour where you could barely find a place to stand, and took out his iPod, putting it on shuffle as he settled into his usual people-watching state.
One set of people in particular caught his eye. They were two men. They were so enthralled with each other it was as if no one else in the world ever existed. Kurt couldn't imagine ever feeling that like that again. They were hardly even touching; they defiantly were not speaking at all. Kurt didn't understand, but he still felt a longing for this interaction. To have someone feel the exact way you feel for them. To feel a dizzying sense of being infinite at every second of time and every stage of life.
At the same time, he couldn't understand the bravery of these men. How could you possibly trust someone so much? And it's not as if you are trusting them with just one tiny part of your being. How do you give yourself, everything you are, to one other person, and not have an underline fear in every single move you make?
Kurt couldn't picture having the strength to do that with someone, no matter who it was. It seemed impossible, a fantasy.
At that moment the couple burst out laughing for no reason, and Kurt couldn't force back the tears this time. They came, and he sneaked them back away with his hands.
He stopped his people-watching for the rest of the ride.
He picked up Ellie and took them both home, where he made lunch for both of them while Ellie explained the goings on of her day. He then put her down for a nap and started cleaning up what little there was to clean up in his spotless apartment.
Then, at one o'clock on the dot, Blaine arrived.
The sound of someone knocking on the door startled Kurt away from dusting every surface in reach.
He practically ran to the door, fixing his hair in the mirror before stopping with an exasperated look at himself.
The smile on Blaine's face when Kurt opened the door was enough to make anyone's heart stop. But Kurt didn't let that happen, he had promised himself.
"Hey, Kurt! How's it goin'?" Blaine exclaimed as Kurt let him inside.
"Good, good. I'm kind of running late so just kind of make yourself at home. There's plenty of food in the kitchen, all of toys are over there," he signaled to the corner of the room, "and plenty of movies," he gestured to the shelves of films beside the T.V.
Blaine nodded at all of this. "Got it," he said, giving Kurt a reassuring smile.
"So I'll be home around seven. Ellie's taking a nap and usually wakes up around two," Kurt explained as he hurriedly gathered up his phone and backpack.
"Got it," Blaine said again and then continued in that annoyingly sincere voice he had, "I'm really happy to be here, Kurt."
"I'm happy you're here too," Kurt said, smiling back at him before making his way to the door and opening it. "I know you'll do great," Kurt said before going out the door.
Blaine smiled softly after him as he closed the door. He looked around the apartment trying to decide what he should do until Ellie woke up.
He decided television was probably the best way to go, so he sat down on the elegant couch and began flipping aimlessly through the channels.
An hour later Blaine had settled on a cooking program and was watching a woman in an expensive house cooking expensive food that no normal person would ever eat.
He was laughing at one of her mechanic phrases when he heard Ellie's bedroom door open.
She walked out into the room rubbing her eyes but when she saw Blaine a smile lite up her adorable features and she scampered up to the couch and plopped down on it.
"Hi, Blaine!" she exclaimed, bobbing up at and down on the couch.
"Hey there! Have a good nap?" Blaine asked her, turning down the television down and facing her on the couch.
"Alright. I don't really need them, but Daddy makes me," Ellie told him.
"Well I'm glad he does, or else you wouldn't have the energy to have a bunch of fun with me, right?" Blaine asked, smiling and clunking their heads together playfully.
"Yeah I guess," Ellie giggled out.
"So what do you feel like doing today?"
Ellie thought for a moment before answering, "Let's play house!" Ellie enthused, jumping up and pulling Blaine with her.
The rest of the day went similarly like this. Ellie had Blaine in the palm of her hand. Her adorableness was too much to resist, even for Blaine who was skilled at this sort of thing. Before he knew it he was getting fit for Ellie's hats and made to kneel down so he could reach everything in the play house. They had a tea party, where Blaine met all of the other guests (Ellie's stuffed animals) and their personalities in extensive detail.
Blaine was so worn out by dinner time that he couldn't imagine how he was going to do this everyday. Through his tiredness he felt something else, and that's what made him know he could. Joy. In the time he hadn't been working with children he had grown to miss it more than he thought possible. It was also the Ellie of it all. He couldn't remember meeting a purer soul, and he couldn't comprehend how wonderful a parent Kurt must be.
Even in the short time he had seen the interactions between the two of them, he could see it. This made him wonder though. Why wasn't Kurt with anyone? He knew how adoption agencies worked, and if Kurt got Ellie when she was a baby, Kurt couldn't have done it alone. Besides the logic of it, he couldn't imagine anyone not wanting to be with him. Although he would never admit it to his boyfriend, he found Kurt incredibly attractive, and if he was being honest with himself, that was the only reason he noticed him on that busy street that day. He has an unique and forceful beauty about him and you would have to be blind not to see it.
Blaine had a sudden flash of himself and Kurt sitting in this apartment together, laughing at Ellie together in the living room, making love in their bedroom, cooking together in the kitchen, and going on adventures in the city, all three of them.
Whoa, Blaine thought, that's new.
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