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Chapter 2

He'd perfectly planned the whole thing out but James had to screw it up yet again. All Kendall wanted to do was punching his boyfriend straight across the face to hit some sense into that stubborn brain of his, but he had just walked out on him. He was tired of the never stopping arguments, he was tired of always being topped.

James needed to let the tight leash loosen up a bit, because Kendall now was certain if things between them were going to continue like this, he wasn't going to return that house.

All those years spent in couple therapy had been a waste of time and money. Both James and Kendall were more of the dominant type till the very day that they had met. Soon they'd fallen in love with each other and would have given up everything for one another.

For Kendall it never mattered that his parents disliked James. He'd always tell James to see past the hate because there was the way to happiness.

Kendall was only seventeen when he found out that his parents weren't his parents by blood. At first it shocked him, it would shock any person, but he had made it through the worst times with James on his side. After about a year what it had taken to get to know that his mother was alive, it had cost several more years to actually get any information about her whereabouts. Kendall couldn't have made it without James. James had the money and the connections to find her, while Kendall could only sit and wait for anything to come up. He wasn't sure he could ever thank his boyfriend enough for searching Jennifer.

Yes, James had made mistakes, but Kendall loved him anyways.

Only if he hadn't been such an idiot most of the time. It weren't the mistakes that would upset Kendall. No, not anymore. They never were, to be honest. Kendall had forgiven James for making up a scene about him cheating on Kendall, only so that way Kendall would have broken up with him and his family would have been happy. He could move past of James' upcoming need for running off. Kendall couldn't even keep track anymore how many times James had wanted to take off and never come back. He'd thought that would make things better for Kendall. Somehow Kendall every time could explain it to James that nothing would upset him more than him leaving. He could always make him stay. It was tiring, but it was worth it for Kendall.

And this was just one of the many things that James had been able to fuck up their relationship with.

I should go back. To keep fighting as I always do.

This was just what James wanted. Making Kendall leave. He'd tried several times, but Kendall was always strong enough to keep going.

Though there is a point when everyone's had enough of being strong.

And that time had come for Kendall too.

If James had thought that he was on top of this situation, he was wrong.

It's all in my hands, baby. It's all up to me now. You think you successfully manipulated me into leaving you. Fine. It's not only me leaving. You'll not know it for a while yet.

"This isn't exactly how it should be, Carlos." James hadn't had a calm minute since Kendall had left.

All he could do to stop himself from going after him was calling his best mate, Carlos. "You wanted this to be like it so live with it now. Dude, you know I love you, but what you've been doing to that guy past these years would have given anyone a serious heartache. You love him. He loves you. Why couldn't you just let him has his space in the relationship too? Why do you always have to top everyone when you are obviously not made for that?"

"Look, Carlos. You have no idea what's gone down here." His best friend was pretty much of a speaker of mind, but he didn't know a thing. James thought so.

"Yeah. Sorry. Forgot you were the king of all brains and no one can figure a thing out only you. Bullshit, James. You hear me? It's been going on for years now and you don't want to come anywhere close to Kendall's family because you're afraid of getting rejected again! But you know what? With not coming around you'll exactly get there again! It's turning the other way around than you thought it would. You fuck it up by not wanting to be in touch with them." The same speech happened every time when he had fought with Kendall, and James couldn't learn the lesson yet. "You don't understand how, right?" Carlos whispered.

James put himself down onto the couch. Kendall loved that couch. That was the first thing they had chosen to buy together. "He'll go to them for support with his broken heart. I broke it again and he runs there every time and they will think I'm a monster again."

"Correct."

"So what do I do?"

"Are you ready to meet them?"

"No." There wasn't the tiniest doubt, he wasn't at all ready. "They love Kendall. Even if he has turned out to like boys rather girls, they love him anyways. It's great. They are great people. But they hate me for pushing their one and only Kendall towards the "wrong" way."

"I can't tell you what to do then. You thought you were going to keep Kendall for the rest of your life without him trying to escape once he realizes that the whole thing is fucking unhealthy?"

"I wanted him to escape. But I never thought it was going to hurt so bad."

"You need him more than he needs you. You didn't even know it, did you?"

He let out a little snort. "Nope."

"So if you need him that much why can't you just go after him and take him back?"

"He wouldn't come." James was sure. James could always see it on Kendall's face when he'd had enough of something. And obviously tonight his boyfriend had just a little more than enough of him. "He's really tired of me. By now he realized just what I did and he's re-thinking everything. And he's acknowledging that I'll always be this way, and this time that realization will stop him from wanting me any more."

"You don't know that. He is probably going to stay away, but only to keep you on the edge. You've been controlling the relationship so far and he's had enough of that. It's not you he's had enough of, James. He wants to be the top for once. Leave him be, but not for too long."

"And just how long is enough?"

"I don't know that. But it would be the best if you just faced those demons of yours and let things be the way they are supposed to." Carlos did always know what to say. He'd always had the answer to every question. James couldn't ask for a better friend. Kendall had always been his friend too. But once you are in love with someone it's hard to call him a friend. He is your life. He should be.

Kendall was James' everything.

And he'd just lost him.