Heat was radiating from my cheek as Kendall stormed out. Part of my wanted to go after him and slug him right back, but that wasn't very professional. And even though I wanted to hit him back, because no one touches James Maslow's face like that, I knew I deserved it. I held my cheek as I walked over to the window and stared out into the streets to cool myself down before confronting him again. I had to mentally prepare myself to apologize to Kendall; needed to find the right words so that he knew I was truly sorry, and crossed the line, without sounding too soft.

I knew I crossed the line the moment he stopped in his tracks and made no argument to my harsh words. It wasn't like Kendall to not talk back to me. He always found a way to turn everything I said into an argument and, no matter how much it annoyed me, I wouldn't have it any other way. Something about the way he sassed me got me riled up, every time.

I sighed as I swallowed my pride and made my towards the office lobby. I couldn't come up with the right words yet, but might as well get this over with so that we could move on with our day. Taking a deep breath, and removing my hand from my cheek, I opened the doors but only to see Carlos sitting in his desk, Logan sitting on top of Kendall's desk, but no Kendall in sight. I glanced around, confused, but was able to spot him as the elevator doors were closing in front of him. We made direct eye contact as the elevator doors closed, and I could see Logan excuse himself from Carlos and prepared myself for a bitching.

He shoved me back into my office and closed the doors behind him, locking it as he looked furiously at me. I had no idea what Kendall had told him, but I wouldn't be surprised if he told them what had gone down in here a few minutes ago. Logan walked passed me and placed his fingers over his eyes, shaking his head as he did, and I could tell he was about to give me a piece of his mind. "WHAT THE HELL did you say to or do to Kendall?!"

Knowing where this was going, I decided to play it cool and pretend like nothing happened. Adjusting my tie, I walked passed him and towards my desk. "Whatever do you mean Logan?"

His head shot up and the look in his face was a bit frightening. I had never seen Logan express such anger as he shook his head. He obviously wasn't buying it. Kendall definitely spilled the beans with this one. "DON'T play dumb James! Or at least pretend to be as intelligent as you claim to be," Ouch, what the hell was eating him up?

"Ok, I don't know what Kendall told you, but I-"

"That's just it James," Logan interrupted, "he didn't say anything. And you and I both know that it isn't like Kendall to not say anything. That's when I knew something had been said or done,"

Avoiding eye contact, I smiled as I began typing an e-mail on my phone. It wasn't a real e-mail, but I had to find a distraction so I wouldn't have to look at Logan. "Glad to see we both know how Mr. Schmidt works. Now how does that prove anything? All I'm hearing is that Mr. Schmidt didn't say anything, so how does that prove anything happened?"

Logan gave me a look I hadn't seen since I broke his chemistry set back in the seventh grade. He walked over to where I was sitting and I felt my neck tie being pulled, forcing me to look him in the eyes. "Look here James; I don't know who you're trying to fool, but you can stop with that dick attitude of yours. I am not your subordinate; I'm your damn brother and I'm not afraid to kick your ass if needed to get the truth out."

I felt a mix of emotions as he let go of my tie, but mostly I was impressed by the sudden change in Logan. I've never seen Logan take charge like that before. Adjusting my tie I let out a sigh, there was no way that this conversation could be avoided. "Okay," He glanced up at me with clenched fists as I continued, "I had asked Mr. Schmidt to re do some purchase reports for me, he turned in reports that were unacceptable, and I had to have a talk with him."

"That's it?" The anger in his expression faded and the regular, every day, Logan was coming back. "Can I see these reports?"

I tossed him the folder and as he opened it to examine the reports, I felt like I had to explain myself. "He turned them in yesterday, but they were unacceptable. I asked them to redo them and have them ready by this morning, but when he came in he turned in the exact same reports he did the day before."

Logan raised an eyebrow, "And…what's wrong with this purchase report James? It looks perfectly fine to me; all the information needed is on it."

"It isn't as neatly done and organized as Jennifer's,"

Logan chuckled, "Ha ha, wow…James, really? You were going to make Kendall redo something, that didn't need fixing by the way, just because it wasn't neat or organized?"

I didn't like the tone of his voice and I couldn't help but get defensive. "Hey, I'm his boss here remember? If I tell him to do something, I expect it done the way I asked. No questions asked,"

Logan slid the folder back towards me and shook his head in disapproval. "Wow, you really are something…"

"What's that supposed to mean Logan?"

Logan smiled and I immediately regretted asking, "Glad you asked James." He began pacing back and forth in front of my desk as he continued. "I don't know what it is you have against Kendall, and don't deny it. We all know you do. Your mother, my father, and I can see the way you treat him, and it's a bit ridiculous actually. But you need to stop being such a prick towards him."

I began to tap my feet nervously, "I have no idea what you're talking about."

"Really? Because you're tapping your feet and that's your tell. Look, Kendall is a great, hardworking, and trustworthy employee. You need to tone down the asshole attitude towards him, he doesn't deserve it. He's been a loyal employee for a few years now,"

"Oh my god not this again, I am very aware he's been working here for some time now. Mother constantly reminds me,"

"Then you should know to trust mom's judgment." I cooled down a bit, remembering what Kendall had said earlier. It was a bit frightening how Kendall and my family think alike.

"Well then you should trust Mother's judgment as well, she left Kendall under my wing an-"

"She left Kendall in this department because she knew that you needed the best help around! You really think that, without Kendall, you'd be ok running this department alone?"

"…" I stayed quiet, listening to my step brother finish.

"I don't know what happened to you over at School that made you become such a dick, bu-"

"Shut the fuck up Logan, you don't know shit. So stop talking right there,"

Logan raised an eyebrow, surprised from the reaction he got from me. "Wow, did Lucy do you so wrong that you have to be angry with the world all the time?"

His choice of words stung. He had no right to bring up my ex fiancé like that. I stood up and slammed my fists against the desk, "Get the fuck out,"

"Gladly," Logan turned on his heels and made his way towards the doors. "Oh, and Kendall took the rest of the day off. He probably won't be in for the rest of the week either." He turned the knob and smiled at me, "Have a nice day asshole!"

As the doors closed behind Logan, I sat on my chair and stared at the black computer screen in front of me. That was low of Logan to bring up Lucy like that. He didn't know enough to use her against me like that. Then suddenly, Kendall came into mind. This is how he must've felt when I brought his father up against him. Damn it, Logan…you did it again. You managed to make me see the error of my ways, this time without even knowing the full story.

I sighed and scratched my head as I sat in my quiet office. I felt like shit. For one, Logan reminded me about my failed romance with a woman I once saw a future with. And two; if I felt as bad as I did now, I couldn't imagine what Kendall was going through. I wanted an apology from Logan, but I knew I didn't deserve one because I was yet to apologize to Kendall.

/

The next few hours were spent regretting the events of this morning. Lucy was on my mind thanks to Logan, and I couldn't help but reminisce about my past love life. Then Kendall was in my thoughts as well. I swallowed my pride and agreed to apologize to him the minute he returned to work tomorrow. Wait, suddenly I remembered Logan mentioning Kendall was going to be out for the rest of the week. Did my words really hurt him that bad?

I rubbed my eyes and put my sunglasses on as the hangover feeling came back. Last night was a blur; the last thing I remembered was drinking at the bar with Jett. Wait…I had sex with Jett last night too. That didn't bother me much because I didn't really remember, and I knew Jett had a thing for me since we were in middle school. But the thing that bothered me was the fact that, according to Kendall, I called him while I was intoxicated. Not only that, but I vaguely remember calling Jett Kendall last night…and imagining it was him I was fucking. Damn it, what did all this mean?!

I will admit that I felt a slight attraction to Kendall. Well I wouldn't say I was attracted to him, it was more like I was lusting for his nice ass and set up of lips. It's rather confusing because I always orientated myself as straight, but my actions last night and constant thoughts about Kendall would contradict that. Maybe I had to face the truth that I could possibly be bisexual. I mean, I had a fiancé once upon a time…

Man, fuck you Logan. All these thoughts were stressing me out. My thoughts constantly switched between Lucy and Kendall. Thinking about them made me notice some similarities between the two. They were both stubborn, they both had a sassy attitude, they had a mouth, and they knew how to irritate and excite me at the same time. The similarities between the two were a bit scary…then it hit me. Could this attraction I have for Kendall only exist because he reminded me so much of Lucy?

The bulge in my pants wasn't helping. I didn't want to be thinking about either of them anymore. Getting up to lock the door, I pulled my flask out from the desk drawer and took a swig.

I continued to drink until it was lunch time and a knock on the door made me hide the flask as the doorknob jiggled. "Hold your horses I'm coming!" I unlocked the door and Logan was standing in the doorway. "Oh it's YOU, what do you want?"

I was slurring my words and my breath most likely reeked of vodka. Logan noticed my state of soberness and quickly closed the door behind him as he walked in. "James? What the hell, are you drunk?"

"James, what the hell are you drunk?" I said, mocking him.

Logan rolled his eyes, "How immature James. Did what I say to you earlier upset you so much you needed to get drunk during work?"

I ignored him and made my way back to the desk. Pulling my flask back out, I took another swig. Waving it up in the air, I hiccupped as I spoke. "Shut up mom," I said sarcastically, "I'm a big boy…I can drink if I want to."

"Yeah, but not during work! You know how upset our parents would be if they were to find out?"

"What, are you going to go and snitch on me Logan?"

"What? No, of course not. Why would I do that? We are brothers,"

"Well being my brother didn't stop you from bitching at me earlier,"

Logan chuckled as he smiled, "We all need a good bitching sometimes James."

I narrowed my eyes, putting my flask down after taking another drink. "Well, thanks to you…I-i…I…" Calming down, I couldn't get the words out.

"Yeah?"

"Logan, can I ask you something?"

Logan nodded, "Sure,"

I took a deep breath before I asked. "Logan, how did you know…like for sure, that you were…"

"That I was what?"

"..you know, you were…g-ga…"

"Gay?"

I nodded and looked down, ashamed a bit that I wasn't comfortable enough to complete my question. Logan had to think about it a bit before he answered, "Well James, I always kind of knew."

"But you had girlfriends in middle school and high school,"

"That's true…but at the time I was in denial, I didn't want to accept the truth. I thought that maybe if I dated a girl…the feelings I had about boys would go away."

"I see…but you and Camille and were so serious, I honestly had no idea that you were gay. And we lived together for years,"

"Yeah I know. I thought it was love, but in reality I was just looking for a friend that loved me for who I was. You know, Camille said she knew I was gay before we even started dating."

"Shut up, for real? Why did she keep up the charade when she knew you would never be into her?"

Logan looked down at his feet, "She said she felt sorry for me because I wasn't being true to myself. How I doubted who I really was and decided to live life a lie as a straight guy,"

"But she has no right to say that, I mean the girl was an actress! You have to be good at lying to become an actor,"

"Well she had a point James. I was never happy living life in the closet,:

"Why did it take so long to come out anyways?"

"The fear of being rejected by the ones I love, my family…."

"Logan, you know we'd love you no matter what."

"Yeah I know, but I had doubts back then…"

"Doubts, why did you have doubts?"

"James…you used to call me faggot or fag whenever you were mad at me. I felt like you knew and didn't approve.."

I looked up and made eye contact with Logan, his eyes were glossy and I could tell that this was a sensitive subject. I got up and embraced Logan with a hug, "I'm so sorry bro, I had no idea…"

He returned the hug and as we broke away from each other, he looked at me with a puzzled look. "So, if I may ask…why the sudden curiosity?"

I froze and only smiled as I tried to come up with a lie. "I, uh…" Shit. I shouldn't have asked and just let myself wonder. Hell, that's what the internet was for! But I buried my own grave here, and I couldn't come up with a lie so I had to come clean. "…Logan, I'll be honest with you. This morning I did something horrible,"

Logan raised an eyebrow, "Okay…I'm listening…"

Scratching the back of my head, I glanced up and looked at him to see the expression on his face when the words I was about to say came out. "I, uh, brought up so-wait, scratch that. I used a sensitive subject against Kendall this morning,"

Logan crossed his arms over his chest. "uh-huh,"

"..I used his father against him to get the last word in on an argument we had this morning." Wow, hearing it out loud sounded worse than it did in my head.

"Oh my go-James!" Logan threw his arms over his head.

"He just made me so angry,"

"That's not a good enough excuse James,"

"I know…it's not just that. Logan, I…I don't know why Kendall makes me act like this…"

"Ooooh," Logan was putting the puzzle pieces together and had an idea where James was going with this.

"I deserve that comment you made about Lucy earlier,"

"Sorry about that James,"

I waved my hand to signal Logan not to worry about it, "It's fine Logan. But after you left the office, I did a lot of thinking. Lucy and Kendall are a lot alike you know,"

Logan walked over and was standing in front of my desk now, "James, if you're saying what I think you're saying…then don't deny your feelings. And again, sorry about Lucy…but you know everything happens for a reason."

We were interrupted by a knock on the door. We both glanced back to see Carlos poking his head in with a smile on his face. "Hi, excuse me, sorry for interrupting. But Logan are we still up for our lunch dat-I-I mean lunch plans?!"

Logan smiled and gave Carlos a nod, "Of course, be out in a sec." Carlos nodded and slowly closed the door as Logan returned his attention to me. I smiled and shook my head at the obvious attraction the two had for one another. Logan raised an eyebrow and crossed his arms, "What?"

"You like him, don't you?"

"Not that it's anyone's business…but Carlos is great."

"Well, I think you two would make a cute couple. I say go for it,"

"Thanks bro, but let's concentrate on you…now I know why you're such a jerk to Kendall all the time."

I returned the same expression Logan gave me, "What do you mean by that?"

"James, think about it…you said so yourself Lucy and Kendall are a lot alike."

"Yeah, so?"

"Maybe, Kendall reminds you of Lucy…"

I stayed quiet and leaned back in my chair. He read my mind, and I can tell where he was going with this.

"Well, whatever you decide to do…just know I'll support you." He started walking backwards towards the door, "Now if you'll excuse me, I have a lunch date to attend to."

"Don't you mean 'Lunch plan'?"

"Shut up James, and just so you know, you should show this kind side of you more often. And you should go for it; you two would make a cute couple." He said, repeating what I told him a few seconds ago.

Before I can ask what he meant, or who he was referring to, Logan was out the door. I don't know why I questioned what he was trying to get at. Logan was a genius, so he most likely understood where I was trying to go with my questions. The fact that I was questioning my sexuality and that I possibly had feelings for Kendall, and my hostile nature towards him was a sort of defense mechanism because he reminded me so much of Lucy.

/

Coming into work the next morning felt great. Today was the day I'd start being a bit nicer to Kendall and then maybe get to know him a bit more. As the elevators opened, I frowned to see an empty desk in front of Carlos' as I walked into the lobby. I waved Carlos good morning and just locked myself in my office all day.

The next few days were a repeat of that day, talk about déjà vu. I had been having lunch by myself in my office, and Logan had invited me to join him and Carlos for lunch today. I agreed and as we meet at the lobby, Carlos unexpectedly canceled because he was going to meet a friend for lunch.

"Alright, have a nice lunch Logie!" Carlos said as he gave Logan a hug. I watched from inside the elevator as Logan came walking in, with huge grin and all.

"Logie?" I teased.

"Shut up,"

We came to the sidewalk café that was a few blocks from the office and decided to eat inside. I wasn't about to sit outside where everyone from Maslow industries could see me. I smiled at the waitress as she brought us our drinks. "Anything else I can get you two fine gentlemen?" She asked flirtatiously.

"Yeah, actually we're ready to order." Logan said as he placed the menu down.

"No problem," She smiled as she pulled out a notepad and began writing down Logan's order. She glanced at me and smiled as she bit her pen, "And you sir? What will you be having?"

I smiled as I placed my order and the flirty waitress walked away. "Wow James, you have everyone throwing themselves at you." Logan teased.

"Not everyone Logan," I took a sip from my drink and looked outside. There, being seated was a tall blonde male that looked familiar. I couldn't really tell if it was Kendall or not, because his back was towards me, but I couldn't help but steal glances in his direction as Logan began talking about the family weekend getaway they were planning for next week. I was sure it was Kendall the moment Carlos took a seat next to the blonde.

"Logan," Logan stopped talking and glanced up to see why I interrupted him. "I think that's Kendall having lunch with Carlos over there." I kept my eyes glued to the pair outside as Logan nodded.

"Oh yeah, I think it is! Wow, what are the odds that we'd come eat at the same place."

I placed my hands over Logan's, causing him to look at me. "Logan, I need your help…"

"With what James?"

"I'm pretty sure Kendall is still angry with me, otherwise he'd be back at work already, but you think they'd be willing to have lunch with us?" I gave Kendall a lot of thought this past week and gave into my feelings. There was no denying that I was attracted to him, and I didn't want to fight what my heart was feeling anymore.

"Well not to brag, but I'm sure Carlos wouldn't mind…I don't know about Kendall though,"

"Can you go, I don't know butter them up?"

"Well, we can't just go and sit with them without their consent."

"I know Logan, which is why you go and try to get them to offer us the empty seat at their table."

Logan sighed, "I don't know,"

"Please?" He looked up and saw how desperate I was. Desperate to start a new with Kendall, to make things right, and to apologize.

He got up and adjusted his tie, "Fine, but tell them to bag our food. In case this plan of yours fails, we'll have an alibi to fall back on. So we won't be standing there awkwardly if they don't offer us to eat lunch with them." Without another word, he exited the café and made his way towards the boys.

The waitress walked up with the food in hand, eyes glued on me. "Here you go sir, oh where's your friend?"

"He stepped out, actually can we get these to go?"

"Of course! Be back in a bit,"

She returned a few minutes later with two large brown bags and the receipt. She winked as she placed the bags on the table. I looked down at the receipt to know how much I'd be paying when I saw that she had wrote 'call me ;)' with a number written beside it. I smiled as I pulled my wallet out. I placed enough money for the food and an extra twenty as a tip. It was my way of letting her down gently I guess.

Stepping out, I took a deep breath as I walked up to the trio talking and stood beside Logan. "You, uh, ready to go Logan?" I looked down to see Kendall tense up as he heard my voice. He didn't even glance up to look at me, which I admit hurt a little but I deserved it.

Since they hadn't offered us to sit and eat with them, and Kendall still refusing to even look up, I decided to make the first move and try to talk to Kendall. "Glad to do see you're doing well, Mr. Schmidt." I waited for a response, but nothing. He sat there quietly and just kept his eyes firmly on the table. Without any luck, I decided to abort mission and fall back on Logan's backup plan. "Let's go Logan, don't want to interrupt their lunch date."

I walked away and was quickly joined by Logan. "Wow, what a way to show you're sorry."

"What do you mean?"

"I mean…calling him Mr. Schmidt, instead of Kendall, screams 'professional relationship only'. If you really want to get to know him better, start by calling him by his first name. "

"You really think that'll work?"

"Yeah of course," We stopped and waited for the street lights to signal it was ok to walk across. "And what the hell was that last comment about? That just sounded like you were annoyed or something." The signal came on and we began walking down the street.

"I don't know Logan," I looked back at where they were sitting, "Kendall just makes me act like that…" I stared into the distance, watching him watch us as we crossed the street. I smiled but I doubt he'd be able to tell, as we turned for our building.

/

I came into work the next morning, only to be surprised to see Kendall sitting at his desk. I couldn't help but smile as I walked past them, "Good morning,"

"Good morning, sir!" Carlos yelled out as he typed on his computer.

Kendall just smiled, that fake smile I may add, as he stayed quiet and wrote on his calendar. I sighed as I entered my office and walked over to my desk. I pulled out a stuffed bear I had bought that had a mug full of candy in its hands. I had bought this as a apologetic gift for Kendall, but he hadn't returned to work until today.

Placing the gift on top of my desk, I walked over and called for Kendall. Kendall entered the room but stopped when he saw the bear sitting on top of the desk. He raised an eyebrow as I smiled and closed the door behind him. "Good morning Kendall,"

He looked at me with a confused look then pointed at the bear, "What the hell is this?" He asked. He must be suspicious because I never give gifts to employees, and I never referred to him by his first name during work hours.

"It's, uh, a gift. F-for you,"

"For me?"

"Yeah…"

Kendall shook his head and started clapping his hands. "Bravo, Mr. Maslow. Bravo!" What the hell was he doing? He turned and dropped his smile, "Do you think this is an acceptable apology for what you said the other day?"

"Well about that, Kendall loo-"

"Well Mr. Maslow, buying me some lame gift like this isn't going to make me forgive you."

"I know, bu-"

"Is this what you do all the time? Buy gifts to avoid saying the words 'I'm sorry' to everyone?"

So he wanted me to verbally tell him I was sorry."I'm sorry,"

"Yeah, I bet you are. I'm sorry too, sorry you're such an as-"

"Will you please shut up and let me talk, damn?!"

Kendall shut up and stared at me with his jaw dropped. I sighed as I took a seat on the edge of my desk, "Look, Kendall, I'm sorry okay?" He let his shoulders dropped as I continued, "I deserved that slap,"

"I'd say you deserve more."

"Damn, do you have to turn everything into an argument?"

"Well do you have to be such an ass all the ti-"

I didn't know what came over me, but at that instant I rushed over to Kendall and shut him up with a kiss. I placed my palms gently on his cheeks as he stopped resisting and gave in. I pulled away and smiled as he opened his eyes to gaze into mine. "Are we going to argue over that?"

Kendall looked surprised and aroused at the same time as he smiled, "Only if we don't do it again." Kendall wrapped his hands around my hair as he pulled me back into a kiss. We stumbled backwards and landed on the sofa that was in the office as Kendall was now on top of me, making out passionately.

Ooooh snap! :D The first Kames kiss!(x So you guys, what did you think about this chapter? :3 It's a lengthy one compared to the previous chapters, and I hope all future chapters are as long or longer. xD