I will most likely not be updating tomorrow i am truly sorry i have a speech coming up that i need to prepare for class so we'll see how that goes through. anyway here is chapter 6 this chapter will be more about our beloved Gajeel and his problems. not much dialogue in this chapter. READ the bottom at the end of the chapter please!
Chapter 6
Gajeel was very conflicted at the moment he had been standing where Levy had left him for the past 20 minutes.
He probably looked like a crazy person standing there with his fist clenched staring off into space. He decided to go to the one person or actually one exceed that he could go to for advice and also to kick the crap out of again. People around him were whispering as usual when they saw the petite girl with him they thought the worse.
People who had stuck around and were currently eyeing the man were taking shots at his masculinity "I wonder if those studs are covering for something" the person whispered back "Ya or maybe that long hair of his." Gajeel tried to ignore what they said but his temper had reached a boiling point.
Especially when somebody said "How was that girl with that guy he's a heartless monster" Gajeel turned to the man who was at least 60 feet away and charged him. Gajeel had reached him in less than a few seconds smashing the man against the brick wall behind him.
Gajeel was furious he spit venom at the man "Don't you ever say that again or ill crush your fucking skull like a grape. He threw the man to the ground and walked away the wife of the man spoke up "How do you sleep at night?" Gajeel paused "Thats easy I don't" and he went on back to his house.
The words that Gajeel had spoken were quite true he had had a numerous amount of sleepless nights just thinking about his past. Not that he could change it, but because the guilt ate away at his physi like a termite colony to wood.
He wished all the voices would stop screaming in his head "Stop" "don't hurt her" "take me instead" Monster!" these were the words and phrases people used against him most of the time. Gajeels conscious was slowly eating away at him each passing day.
It was a curse one that he had set upon himself and he knew that all too well. The people at the guild knew what he was and always kept a close watch on him at all times. He hated he never gained the full trust of his friends. The only person who understood him was Juvia, but he hated talking to her. He thought sooner or later he was going to have to.
As for the only people who weren't a past friend the only other people that trusted him were Levy and Lily. Now that they were both angry with him he was in a predicament. He wanted to tell Levy all he could about himself, But in the end would she accept him?
He was so afraid of being rejected by Levy he tried to keep even ground with her all the time for both their sakes. The pressure of Gajeels depressed state was weighing down on him. If he lost Levy he would be at a loss.
Thinking it was one thing telling her that he thought this was an entirely different story. He had feelings for the blue haired girl he just didn't want to act on them for fear of being rejected. Also because he felt like he never deserved her in the first place. He beat her senseless pinned her to a tree and carved her stomach. What kind of a twisted person does that?
Gajeel thought about this for the duration of his walk home. When he reached his house and opened the door nobody was home. "Still? god damn Lil you that mad at me?" Gajeel mumbled to himself. He decided that taking a shower would be best he was running around all day today. Also to clear his head of the little blue mage.
Levy probably thought a cat died and was looking for the source of it thats why she left in a rush Gajeel laughed to himself at the mere thought. Gajeel disrobed and walked into the shower he turned the water up to scorching his favorite heat. He stood there for a few minutes thinking about his place in the universe as most people do in the shower.
He thought about the days events and how they unfolded. He had not expected to make Levy hate him so much in less than an hour, but he managed to do so. He hated himself to the point of self destruction and it would only grow stronger as the days came and went.
Before the iron man came into Fairy Tail his heart was as cold and hard as his magic. Now Gajeel had gone soft thanks to all the wimps of Fairy tail. He called them wimps even til this day, but his perspective of them changed over the course of the time he was here.
He no longer saw them as wimps, and pussies but strong family members that he could lean on for support. Even if they did view him as an outcast. He still liked that he could walk into the guild hall and receive a "hello" ,and a "what's up"? from people. Even the people he had hurt during the war were friendly with him to a degree.
Jet and Droy were guard dogs for Levy so they wouldn't like him no matter what he did, but her forgiveness was what he yearned for. He could never have it, he knew that but he wanted it so bad. Levy and himself had always talked in the guild hall after they returned from Tenarou.
This made Gajeel happy that she could act normal around him, but it wasn't enough every time he talked with her for more than a few minutes his mind would wonder to dark places. He would remember the past, and what he had done and what her mangled body had looked like. What he had looked like to her when, he attacked her and her friends in cold blood.
Gajeel's thoughts were now in the back of his head where he kept most of his dark past. His heart began to pump slightly faster as he remembered burning down homes for Jose. He remembered laughing at the people fleeing from him in droves. His heart was getting louder and beating faster now.
He remembered the innocent lives he took with his bare hand, and all of the kids parents he had taken away from them forever. He had once caved in a mothers face just for trying to save her kid. This was the work of a monster that's all he was to anyone including himself.
Gajeel's heart was loud blasting in his ear he could hear every pump his chest started to swell with pain. He thought about what he had done to the kids after, unspeakable things that he would never repeat to anyone. Gajeels chest was pounding it hurt with much intensity.
He gripped it he couldn't breath he fell to one knee, and began to tear up, he couldn't repeat his life decisions he had to live with them forever. He began to break down in the shower the only relief he had in months from his dark thoughts.
The last thing he remembered before passing out was Levy and her smiling face saying "Goodmorning" to him and him saying "I'm sorry".
Lily had just come home from hanging out with Happy and Charla. When the Exceed had arrived home he had noticed the shower was on.
"That bastard finally home?" Lily said with a smirk. He sat down in his usual seat at the kitchen table and waited for Gajeels exit. An exit that was taking awfully long to take. Gajeel's showers were only around 5 minutes long he had been in there for 10. "How long is that man going to jerking off?" Lily marched over to the door and knocked no response.
He knocked again he waited...Nothing Lily then shouted "Gajeel you in there?". Still no response, so Lily shouted "Alright i'm coming in then!". He Changed his form and knocked down the door only to see Gajeel sprawled out on the shower floor. "What the fuck happened in here?" Lily ran over to the passed out mans body.
Lily then grabbed a towel and draped it across Gajeels body then carefully putting the mans head in his lap. He tried to wake him up, but when he did Gajeel responded with "I'm sorry". Lily looked down at the man and with a concerned tone in his voice asked "Who did this to you?".
Gajeel Didn't responded this time, so Lily just picked him up and threw him over his shoulder. He walked out of the bathroom with The man on his back, and brought him to the bedroom. Lily then unceremoniously threw Gajeel on the bed and put a blanket over the man.
"God damn Gajeel you better be ok" Lily then walked out of the room and into the kitchen Lily had a plan. If he didn't wake up in the next 10 minutes he would inform Makarov. So now all Lily did was sit and wait to see if the Iron man could get up.
End of chapter 6 i most likely won't be updating tomorrow i am sorry for that. A/N: The part with the children and what Gajeel did to them is not what you think there was no RAPES ok? im not that dark. as usual please review and subscribe.