It had been 2 days since Peyton last heard from Lucas, aside from the occasional glance at each other in the hallway nothing. Peyton tried to keep her distance a little from Scott but that seems hard to do as Scott and her shared a few classes. They still hadn't done any work on their assignment. She was keeping herself busy by working at Karen's Café to take her mind off of Lucas and was planning Karen's party that was supposed to be happening this weekend. 5 days. That's how many days until Karen left for London. After her shift was done she headed home. Not being able to handle anymore, she called Haley.
"Haley I need to talk you." Peyton said exasperated.
"What's going on?"
"I had this huge fight with Lucas and it's been 2 days. 2 days since I've spoken to him and I'm losing my mind." 2 days Haley thought. 2 days since she last saw him too, the very day he was informed of his marriage to Lindsay being still legal and true. Haley figured Lucas had told her everything,
"Peyton listen, It's just a lot for him to take in."
"I know it is Haley but that doesn't mean it's not hard on me either. I love him and I don't wanna lose him but this silent treatment is just…. I'm going crazy."
"Look, when Lindsay showed up and told him she had never filed for divorce it shocked him and that kiss, well that kiss meant nothing. I was there so there's nothing for you to be worried about."
"MARRIED. KISS." Peyton yelled.
"What the hell are you talking about?"
"Umm I.. um.. I thought you knew." Haley stuttered.
"NO! I definitely did not know. But thanks for being honest with me. I gotta go." Peyton said
"Wait don't do something stupid Peyton."
"Don't worry I wont. I'm just gonna pay that boyfriend of mine a visit or soon to be ex-boyfriend. Whatever."
"Peyton I think you need to calm down first."
"He had 2 days to tell me Haley. 2 days. I'm sorry, goodbye." Peyton hung up and headed straight for Lucas's. Haley tried to calm him to give him a heads up but he wasn't answering his phone.
Peyton made her way up the steps to his house and knocked. Once. Twice. No answer. So she started pounding on the door. Finally she heard movement as he opened the door. SMACK! That's all that could be heard for miles as Peyton's hand collided with his right cheek.
"What the hell Peyton." Lucas said stunned holding his cheek as it burned already feeling the swelling.
"You and me we're done." That's all she said. And turned and left. As soon as she turned the corner, she fell to the ground against a building and broke down for the first time since it all began. Lucas pulled his shoes on and went out in search of her. He knew she didn't get far since her car was still parked right infront of his house.
"Peyton" Lucas yelled as he looked around block after block. He started making his way to the Rivercourt maybe that's where she'd be. When he turned the corner, he found her. Balled up against a building, head down crying. His heart broke. He bent down to her level and tried to soothe her but at the feel of his hand on her head she flinched and got up.
"Baby what's wrong?" Lucas asked wanting to know what caused her outburst just a few minutes ago.
"Didn't you hear me before? We're done. Over. And don't you call me baby ever again." Lucas was about to grab her hand but she flinched backwards because he could.
"I don't understand. What happened?"
"You. You ignore me for 2 days. 2 freakin' days Lucas and you ask me what's wrong."
"I.. I just needed time." He hadn't called her or told her what happened with Lindsay and he felt guilty for that but truth right now is more was more focused on everything Lindsay had told me, not cause he cared but cause he wanted to find a way out of it before he told Peyton.
"Well you can have all the time in the world cause we're done."
"Come on don't do this. Let's just go back inside and talk about this."
"Talk about what. You stopped talking to me cause I was honest with you. We said no more lies Lucas and you… you lied to ME. You weren't honest with me. You walked away from me because I told you everything and here you are keeping something this big from me for days"
And there it was, she knew. How did she know he had no clue but she knew.
"I can explain." And she just laughed in his face.
"Explain. Smooth. How do you wanna explain that your still married or that you kissed someone else. HUH."
"First off, I didn't kiss her she kissed me."
"Is that suppose to change anything?" She asked.
"Look I was just as shocked as you are right now. Believe me. That's the only reason I haven't called. I was trying to figure a way out of this, to make this easier for you."
"For me? You know what woulda made it easier? It woulda been a whole lot easier if my boyfriend, the person I said I love you to, the person I thought I shared everything with to tell me the truth but instead I hear it from Haley."
"She told you?"
"Don't even get mad at her. In her defense she didn't know that I didn't know. I was venting to her about our fight in regards to Scott and she assumed it was in regards to you and Lindsay and she tried to defend you."
Lucas shook his head, he didn't blame Haley. He was happy she defended him in fact. He was even happy she told Peyton because he didn't know how to.
"Doesn't matter anyways. I don't want to be with you anymore." Peyton said as she walked away from him. Lucas kept going after her.
"I love you, please don't. Don't do this." He begged.
"You have a wife. Go fix things with her. You said for better or for worse, I was just one of those worse things. She'll forgive you and take you back so go. Go be with her"
"You are the best thing to ever happen to me. Don't ever say that. I don't wanna make it work with her. I don't love her. I love you only you."
"You know when you first told me you loved me, I never thought I'd be sick of those words. I could just listen to you saying it over and over all day. But right now, those words mean nothing to me. They are just words that don't mean a thing."
"I can't believe you just said that. I know your hurt but that's a low blow."
"Hurt doesn't even cover it. You ripped my heart out of my chest and stomped on it is more like it."
"Peyton.." He started but she held her hands up.
"You can't tell me anything Lucas. Nothing in this world to make this all go away. To make this all better." And with that she was gone and he let her go. He watched as the love of his life walked away from him. He turned around and went home where he spent the rest of the night getting drunk.
1 AM
Peyton went home and just cried, cried until she had no more tears left to shed. She couldn't sleep, her mind was going in overdrive. She wished she had listened to Haley and went home to calm down before storming over to Lucas's. She was on her way to the kitchen when she saw a figure pounding on her door. Seeing it was Lucas and the time it was, she opened to door. When their eyes locked, it was evident they we're both standing at their most vulnerable. They both has been crying so it seemed.
"Peyton I'm sorry. I'm so so sorry. I can't lose you. I can't. I love you so damn much it hurts." Peyton's heart broke at seeing the state Lucas was in. She just wanted to kiss the tears away.
"And hearing you say what you said. I.. I just need to know if you love me. Please tell me you still love me." He begged. This wasn't the same man who stood before her a few hours ago. This man in front of her was broken. He was carrying a broken heart.
"Lucas I could never stop loving you." Those we're the only words he needed to know, to hear. Those words gave everything meaning.
He pulled her to him and crashed his lips onto hers. Though she hesitated at first, she knew this is exactly what she wanted in this moment, to feel his lips on hers. The kiss got heated fast. Lucas slammed the door behind him with his foot. Picked Peyton up from her behind as she wrapped her legs around his waist. Though he was drunk in this moment, he totally and completely sobered up as he carried her up the stairs.
He threw her down on her bed and crawled over her as he kissed her more feverishly this time. In a swift moment his jacket, and shirt we're off. Then it was her turn. Within a few seconds all clothing article was promptly removed. There was no foreplay, no need for it. Lucas entered her in quick movement as she inhaled sharply at the sudden feeling. There was no stopping, no slowing down. Right here, right now. They needed each other, they needed to feel each other's love and words couldn't do that for them but their bodies could.
This was electric, something out of this world. Peyton moaned and screamed his name as the pleasure she was feeling was beyond earth shattering. Lucas was moaning her name as well louder and louder with each movement. And as they both reached their climax, they remained intertwined inside each other. Connected in more ways than one. No words we're said. After a few moments, Lucas pulled out of her and wrapped her in his arms. They didn't talk. Words couldn't possibly be enough in this moment. Time stopped and they remained in this position for the rest of the night as sleep over took them both.
Morning came, Peyton's alarm went off as did every morning to signal the start of a new day. Lucas and Peyton both woke at the same time as they opened their eyes. Remembering what happened the previous night. Peyton god up, picking up her clothes and headed to the washroom without a word.
"Where are you going?" Those words the first words spoken.
"Washroom" Is all she said as she closed the door behind her. Once she got dressed, Peyton spent a few moments looking at herself in the mirror. She didn't know what this meant? Or even what to do. A part of her told her to let him go. Let him fix his marriage. But the other part of her, the part that love that man couldn't fathom the thought of him with another woman.
"Peyton you okay in there?" Lucas knocked snapping Peyton out of her thoughts. She pulled herself together and opened the door. Lucas was standing looking down at her and she broke down. He caught her before she could fall and held her tight.
"I don't know what to do Luke. I love you so much but I just don't know how to let you go."
"Then don't" He said.
"But you're married and it changes everything."
"It doesn't have to. Look Peyton, I don't wanna be with her nor do I wanna be married to her and I'm going straight to the courthouse and filing for divorce."
"Things we're said Luke and I don't see how we can go back to before." Luke stayed quiet knowing she was right. She said hurtful things to him and his actions hurt her. They we're both to blame.
"Maybe this is it for us. Maybe we just go our separate ways." Peyton whispered.
"I don't know how we got here." He said
"Neither do I.. Last night was just closure I guess." He just looked at her. He didn't want it to end either. It was one of those moments where no words could be said, no words could describe what they felt. It was the end.
"Sometimes no matter how much two people love each other, its not enough."
"Maybe we weren't meant to be after all." Lucas said.
"But I wanted you to be the one."
"I did too, I did."
"I guess that's it then." Peyton said pulling herself up. "I'm not going to go to school today so .."
"I don't have classes today and like I said I'm going to the courthouse."
"Maybe you shouldn't." Lucas glanced her way.
"I mean just cause it's over between us doesn't mean it has to be with Lindsay maybe you two can make it work." She said "Just think about it."
Lucas gathered his things and got dressed. He was almost out the door when Peyton ran into his arms.
"I don't wanna let you go." She whispered against him.
"Maybe.."
"Maybe one day? Maybe we just need time?" Peyton continued.
"Yeah. Time." Lucas said and those words the last words she heard from him as he left.
2 weeks had passed since that infamous day two lovers said goodbye. It was angry, it wasn't bitter. It was two people who loved each other with all they had who needed to be apart for now. Peyton would see him in class and around the hallways but no words we're ever spoken. Haley had informed her a week later that Lindsay and Lucas had a big blow out over the fact that she was pregnant and had his baby and never informed him. When she heard the news, she knew they had made the right decision. He needed to fix his family who now and forever would be Lindsay and their son.
"Hey you okay" Scott said approaching Peyton's locker.
"Yeah. I'm great thanks for caring Scott. You've been great these last 2 weeks."
"I care about you Peyton, you know that. So whatever you need I'm here for you." Peyton hugged him, she needed to feel someone's arms around her. She closed her eyes as she snuggled her face into his shoulder. She wouldn't cry not anymore. She looked up to see Nathan walking by giving her a small smile. And she smiled back knowing he cared. Nathan knew how badly she was hurting.
"I think you need a night out on the town." Scott suggested.
"Maybe your right." Peyton agreed.
"So you and me tonight?" Scott asked hopeful.
"That sounds great. Pick me up at 7?" She asked.
"You got it." He kissed her cheek and then left.
Peyton grabbed the rest of her stuff and headed out herself.
"So you and Scott?" Lucas asked leaning against her car.
"You and Lindsay and a baby? She countered. How did they become like this.
"You heard." He said surprised.
"I'm fine. I just want you to be happy you know." Lucas just nodded fully understanding.
"I kinda have to go so if you don't mind" She said gesturing to her car.
"So is this how it's going to be from now on?"
"Luke, we both decided this was it."
"I know but we've had time to calm down and I don't know why we're not together."
"You have a baby and a wife!" She exclaimed and the last thing she wanted to do was show emotion.
"So you do still care?" Lucas asked suggesting her outburst was telling.
"Lucas I'm trying here. I'm trying everything to hold it together. I'm trying not to grab your face right now and kiss you. I'm trying to be strong but I'm about this close to breaking." She motioned with her finger.
"So why don't you." He challenged taking a step closer.
"The truth is if we wouldn't have broken up when we did; we would have when the truth about your baby would have come out so no matter what we'd be in this exact position. So just go be with your family, they're who you belong with." She said exasperated as she opened her car door. But Lucas slammed it shut.
"Is that really what you want?" He took another step closer to her. She closed her eyes at the feel of having him this close. She didn't dare to open them because she knew exactly what would happen.
"I want you to go home to your wife and kid and I want to go home and get ready for my date with Scott. And then I want you to let me be happy."
"For the record you'll never be as happy with him as you we're with me."
"LUKE STOP." She yelled "If you loved me, if you ever really truly loved me you'd let me get in my car and leave right now."
"You know I love you."
"Then step away." She asked pleadingly and he did. He let her get in that car and drive away. She watched him in her rearview mirror fading further and further away and when he was out of sight she broke down.
It was now 7 and Scott had just arrived. They decided to head to the local diner. They slid in the booth with Scott sitting next to Peyton. They ordered their meals and Scott began telling her more about himself including why he left basketball behind.
"It was something we did together you know. And when my dad died last year, the sport died with him." Scott explained.
"Yeah I get what that's like. I've lost a lot of people in my life and I just close myself off. I don't play sports or anything but I love music. And so when something like that happens in my life I tend to lock myself away and just listen. It's like I feel it in my soul. I guess that's the difference between sports and music though" Scott nodded. He put his hand over Peyton's hand that lay on the table. She looked down at their hands and then locked eyes with him. It was nowhere close to the connection she felt with Lucas but she did feel something. He pulled his hand back and laid it on her cheek as he leaned in.
"What the hell?" Scott yelled as he jumped up. Milkshake. Someone had dropped their milkshake all over him.
And the culprit? A smirking Lucas.
"Lucas" she mumbled but Scott didn't hear her. He simply excused himself and went to the washroom to clean himself up. When the coast was clear she turned to Lucas.
"Was that really necessary?" She asked pissed.
"He was about to kiss you."
"And?" Peyton said not getting his point.
"He was about to kiss you." He simply repeated.
"You know… I like him Lucas, is it so hard for you to just be happy for me as I'm doing for you."
"Yeah it is. I don't want anybody kissing you but me." He stated
"News flash. We're not together anymore. You think I've never thought about you and Lindsay? How her hands are touching you in bed. How you kiss her like you use to kiss me but guess what I had to get over it so now YOU get over it."
"I can't"
"It's funny because the day I decide to finally move on is the day you show up at my car. Where we're you for the last 2 weeks? Where we're you when I showed up in the middle of the night on Haley's doorstep? Where we're you then? Oh I know in bed with Lindsay." Lucas took a step back, he knew he'd gone too far this time.
"You know what Lucas. I thought we could maybe be friends, for Haley and Nathan's sake. I thought maybe I could still have you in my life somehow, someway but it's clear that's possible. So just stay the hell out of my life." Peyton was about to storm off but Lucas grabbed her arm.
She gave him a warning look.
"You ready to get out of here?" Scott asked coming back out of the washroom all cleaned up.
"Yeah I am" Peyton said as she took his hand leaving Lucas all alone inside the diner. As soon as they we're outside Peyton pulled Scott towards her and kissed him. She kissed him and didn't pull back. It wasn't malice. It wasn't out of anger. She wanted to kiss him and would have if Lucas wouldn't have interrupted earlier. As the kiss intensified Scott pulled her flush against him and she wrapped her arms around his neck. When they needed air, they both pulled back smiling.
"That was so worth the milkshake" Scott said as they both laughed. From the corner of her eye she could see Lucas. He witnessed it all and in a way she was glad because maybe now he would actually let her go.
I was gonna go a different route for this chapter and after struggling for a few hours I went this way. I think this is better then the way I was originally gonna go. I still wanted them to interract the part I hate the worst in fics is when a couple break up and it take 10 chapters to bring them back. Scott is not gonna be an asshole in my story. All you have to remember is Leyton is the end game obviously. Anyways feedback would be great as always :)
