I had stood there for… I didn't even know. 5 minutes? 10 minutes?

The wall felt freezing against my half-bare back. Cold waterdrops drained along my neck and made me shiver.

Yurina was asleep. I took a deep breath and thanked all the possible higher powers in this world.

I was shaking. Not from the cold, but from all the excitation, adrenaline, confusion and fascination.

Calm down, Maasa. Calm down.

"Go lie on the bed", I commanded myself inside my thoughts. My body responded very, very slowly.

It only took a second to step from the door to the bed as silently as I could. It felt like 5 minutes.

Okay. I am safe. There is a possibility that Miyabi and Saki did notice I was in the room. But they wouldn't tell anyone, right? I have nothing they would want.

"Holy…", I suppressed the scream before it got out of my throat. Yurina slapped my back in her sleep.

I'm just going to lie down and empty my mind. For just a minute. Close my eyes…

05:36. Red numbers glowing bright in the darkness caught my eyes. In a blink of an eye the clock had moved forward 6 hours.

Weird movement next to me had woken me up. Yurina had rolled her blanket tight around her body and wriggled around the bed like a worm.

Oh no. I tried to rip the blanket off of her because it looked like she was being strangled in it. Yurina just kept moving away from me and cried.

Somehow she managed to get her hands free and started flailing around. I grabbed her wrists tightly and climbed on top of her.

"WAKE UP!" I screamed. Ouch. I hope I didn't wake up the people in neighbouring rooms.

"Wha-what?!" Yurina was really confused.

"Where am I? Where is Chinami? LET ME GO I HAVE TO SAVE CHINAMI!" Yurina burst into tears after shouting out the last sentence.

What was she talking about? What has Chinami done? I embraced the poor girl in a hug and kissed her forehead.

"Yurina. Look at me. Calm down. Tell me what has happened to Chinami?"

Younger girl lifted her eyes. "She jumped. She was on the roof and jumped. I couldn't save her, I tried to change her mind for hours but she jumped!"

Yurina's crying became rather loud. I caressed her arm with my hand and reached for my cellphone with another.

I chose Chinami's number and pressed a button to call her. I put the call on speaker.

"What the fuck Maasa? Did you know it is 6 in the morning, dumbass?" a very, very irritated voice answered.

Oh, wow. Chinami sure was grumpy if you woke her up. I felt like blocking up little Yurina's ears so she couldn't hear Chinami's language.

"I am sorry Chii, but Yurina dreamed that you jumped off the roof and she is crying because she thought it was real", I tried to sound apologetic.

Chinami seemed to change her mood immediately.

"Kumai-chan, don't cry. I am alive and well. I am sorry I was so mad but it's a sign I am alive, right? I am mad, therefore, I am."

Yurina giggled a little.

"I'm sorry Chinami. The dream was really realistic. Now I am crying because I am so happy you're alive!" Yurina burst into a loud cry again.

Chinami sighed.

"Oh you. There's still a couple of hours to sleep and I'm not going to waste that. Good night!"

She hung up the phone.

Yurina was still sobbing and shaking so I squeezed her tight. I pressed small kisses on her forehead and pet her stomach.

I moved down to a bit more comfortable position and rested my head on her chest. I kept moving my hand on her stomach to calm her down.

"Maasa…" she whispered.

"Yes?"

"I'm sorry that I caused trouble to you. I just got very scared", she said with a nearly inaudible voice.

"It's okay. Stop apologizing or you will have a hard time falling asleep again", I answered and looked in her eyes with a smile on my face.

I patted her head and rolled back to my own side of the bed. Yurina turned around to face me.

"Maasa… could you do that a little longer? It really calmed me down and felt nice."

She looked so miserable I couldn't help but agree, even though I felt like sleeping myself. I wrapped my arms around her very clumsily and poked her side. I kept poking it for a while and she giggled.

"That tickles!"

I grabbed her tighter in my arms and tickled her sides. Yurina squirmed around and laughed loud.

"Stop, Maasa! Stop!"

I did stop. I would have kept torturing this little airhead if the people in the next room hadn't banged on the wall and yelled something. Partypoopers.

"Let's try to sleep, shall we?"

Yurina nodded. I tousled her hair a little before hitting the pillow with my head. Calm darkness surrounded me almost immediately.

A cellphone vibrated on the table next to me. I winced awake and saw Yurina had vanished from the bed. I stretched my sore limbs and managed to get out of the bed pretty quickly.

The woman in the bathroom mirror looked like she was brought back from the dead. I would have been scared if that person hadn't been… me. Okay. Time to rewind last night.

Me and Risako. Risako and me. Me, Maasa and my friend Risako. My band mate Risako. One of my best friends Risako. Risako I had sex with 9 hours ago.

It was totally spontaneous. And she was the one who started it! But I was the one to continue it. I had no idea what Risako felt towards me though. She is the kind of person who could easily think what happened last night was just one time and we could keep going on like regular friends. I wish I could be like that too.

What was I supposed to feel? What was I allowed to feel? We had announced our incoming hiatus just a few weeks back. If we could have a compromise, we could be something after disappearing from the spotlight of the judging media.

Fresh cold water on my face should wake me up properly. That felt good. Time to brush my teeth and check what made my phone so loud this morning.

Messages in Berryz Koubou Line group.

Chinami had told everyone how Yurina and I woke her at night. Seems like she slept in the same room as Momoko. Everyone just laughed at the story and somehow it made me relieved. Nobody had brought up anything else.

I received a private message. From Risako. She wanted to visit my room.

I allowed her with no doubt.

A few minutes passed and someone knocked on the door.

It wasn't Risako but Miyabi.

"Can I come in?" she asked.

"Sure, but Risako is also going to appear at some point and we would like to talk in private."

Miyabi laughed and sat on the bed. "She won't. I sent that message from her phone."

My heart immediately skipped beats. For sure, my face was either bright red or pale white.

"I think you left these in our room last night", Miyabi handed me a pair of Little My socks.

"Oh, th-thanks", my voice was trembling a bit too much for this situation. That doesn't mean they know anything, socks aren't a big deal.

"I visited your room last night to get my cleansing gel back from Risako and had to comfort her. That idiot had watched some movie of a sick dog." You go girl, a perfect reason!

"Well, it seems like you comforted her quite well. Your clothes were on Saki's bed when we came back from the shop", Miyabi revealed with a super annoying smirk on her bitchy face.

No. I am not in trouble. Not yet.

"Yeah… we are friends so we took a bath together, like back when we were just kids. Is there something wrong with that?" I am so proud of myself for coming up with this.

"Of course not!" Miyabi giggled and stood up. "And judging from the noises we heard, Risako really seems to enjoy bathing with you." Miyabi made her way to the door and left.

I was left there with my mouth wide open, unable to move.

At 08:30 I finally got myself ready and out of the room. The hallway was dead silent. While waiting for the elevator, I heard a door closing and another person's footsteps coming closer.

I turned around and it was Risako. Actually, I didn't even need to turn around by myself, she had grabbed my arm and pushed me through the open elevator doors.

"Hey, what…" I couldn't say any more when she got all over me, yelling.

"Miya and Captain heard us last night! We are fucked!"

"I know, I know! But we aren't as long as they don't tell anyone else. Besides, you're the one who got fu…"

Risako slapped me right on the cheek.

"Maasa, you know Miyabi is the worst scandalmonger in the whole company after me. There's no way that by dinnertime there is a person who hasn't heard about us."

I thought for a second. I have nothing that Miyabi would want, but I could try.

"What if I go to her and beg that she doesn't tell anyone? I can give her anything she wants", I said.

The elevator doors opened and Risako nodded before stepping out and heading to the restaurant. I followed her, surrounded by so many thoughts and possible scenarios.

Maybe we were able to figure out something together at a better time.

The restaurant was big and there were three full tables of food. Hopefully a good breakfast will make me feel better. I saw no Berryz staff anywhere, so I roamed around the salon.

"Maasa!" I heard a high pitched voice that for sure belonged to Momoko. I turned around and saw all the other members sitting by the windows.

"What took you so long, Maa? Usually you're the first one to rush to the food", Chinami teased.

"Shut up", I laughed a bit and pushed her so hard she dropped a banana on the floor.

"Hey!" Chinami yelled and threw her napkin at me while other members and staff were dying of laughter.

I went and collected myself a nice mountain of food. Convincing Miyabi would be hard with an empty stomach. After around half an hour everybody was ready and we were told we had a few hours left to spend as we pleased.

Everyone made their way to the rooms. Luckily Miyabi was the last one to leave from the breakfast, so I had an opportunity to talk to her without interruption.

"Miya, could you please not tell anyone about me and Risako? I will do anything you want."

She turned her head to me and lifted her eyebrows.

"I wouldn't get any benefits from spreading this among the members, you know that?" she stated. "Except their reactions would be lovely to see…"

I smiled at her. "So you won't spread it?"

Miyabi giggled in her usual way. "I only said I wouldn't get any benefits from spreading this among the members. We are idols and you know those gossip magazine journalists are always following us, waiting for filthy idol rumours to be revealed. This would be jackpot to them."

Miyabi Natsuyaki, everyone. Thirsty for drama, a bitch blackmailing people just for fun.

"What do you want, then?" I asked again. There has got to be something or else she would have spread this to everyone in 5 seconds.

Miyabi walked past me, towards the elevators and I ran after her.

"I knew that Risako had planned seducing you for a while", she mumbled.

I should have known it wasn't completely spontaneous.

The doors opened and we stepped in.

There was an awkward silence for a moment, until I took a deep breath to start my begging again. Miyabi stood completely silent, gazing at me from the other side of the elevator.

The doors opened and Miyabi stepped out even though it wasn't our floor. She walked quickly towards the other side of the hallway and I had no choice but to run after her again.

At the end of the hallway there was a deep burrow with a towel cart in front of its opening. Miyabi moved it and walked behind. She signed me to follow her and I noticed there was a table at the far end of the burrow. Miyabi moved the towel cart back to cover us.

"I always wondered what Risako saw in you, but what we heard last night… I don't think she's disappointed." Miyabi didn't look at me but I was sure she grinned.

"What does that have to do with the fact you brought me here?" I sounded annoyed. Fuck it, I was really annoyed with her.

"If I am not disappointed, nobody will know about you and Risako. Get it now?" Miyabi said and leaned over the table.

I got it. I said was ready to do anything but this… this was a surprise.

In a millisecond I decided I would do it. If this was the thing what would save Risako and me, it wasn't the worst thing to do.

"Come on Maasa. This floor has no residents so nobody will hear us." She looked at me in the eyes. I nodded.

Before she could even notice, I was in front of her and pushed her over the table.

I grabbed her hair and moved my lips near hers.

"Is it a promise, Natsuyaki?" I whispered and looked at her eyes.

"Of course. I never break promises", she lift her face and kissed me on the cheek.

Her lips crawled towards mine and eventually they collided. Miyabi grabbed my hair in her palm and pulled me away.

"Less lips, more fingers", she whispered.

Miyabi was already panting heavily. I lift my hand to touch her stomach that her crop top left uncovered. My fingers found their way under the piece of clothing.

With help of Miyabi's hands, her shirt flew on the floor. Her bra was see-through and I could see her state of excitement clearly. She grabbed my wrist and landed my palm on her left breast. I lifted my other hand too and together they squeezed her breasts tight. Miyabi moaned and threw her head back, trying to get my mouth on her throat.

With my lips and teeth I painted purple marks on her pale skin as evidence. She didn't mind it at all for sure. My hand kept fondling her chest area, playing with her nipples through thin fabric.

Goose-bumps formed on her skin under my touch. I moved my hands down her stomach as she took off her bra. The top button of her high-waisted jeans opened after a while of working on it. She helped me with rest of them.

I pushed her down to lay on the table. Our eyes met when I slid my hand under the waistline of her jeans. She smiled, I tried really hard not to.

"You're doing this for Risako", I reminded myself inside my thoughts.

My hand made its way under another layer of fabric and found what it was looking for. Pressing on Miyabi's most sensitive spot made her squirm and giggle. I kept my fingers moving and leaned over her. More purple marks appeared on her pale skin, this time on her chest and stomach.

Miya ran her fingers through my hair and caressed my neck. She moaned very silently and I was glad about that for so many reasons. It didn't last long until her whole body tensed and she breathed even louder and faster.

I withdrew. Miya raised her upper body and looked at me with an expression full of mixed feelings.

"Are we g-" I began, but Miya stood up from the table and threw herself all over me. She kissed me greedily and guided my hands down her body.

"Take them off", she commanded.

I pulled her pants lower and eventually they disappeared alongside her panties. Miyabi leaned against the table in a position that was a clear sign of what she wanted me to do next. I went on my knees and grabbed her hips. My head dove between her legs and my tongue explored around her spot.

Miya's moans became more frequent and she couldn't stay still. I asked her to lay down on the table and locked her thighs with my arms. I sucked gently on her clitoris and (luckily) she seemed to enjoy it a lot.

My arms were around her thighs so I stretched my right hand to touch the spot I had been pleasuring with my mouth as I went lower.

My tongue moved around her entrance. I sensed Miya's hand on top of my head. She lift up her hips and my tongue made it's way inside of her, making her groan. She trembled and pushed herself against me. Shortly her body tensed again and she moaned loudly, squeezing my hair in her fist and pushing my head between her thighs. When she had finally fully calmed down, I kissed her inner thighs and pet her stomach.

I stood up and walked over to the towel cart to wipe my mouth. Behind me Miyabi collected her clothes that were all over the table.

"So, I guess we are good now?" I asked cautiously. I heard no answer so I turned around. Miya was putting on her shirt with her back facing me.

I was about to get furious with her bullshit and walked over to her.

"Are we good now?", I repeated.

Miya turned around with her bra on her hand, make up slightly messy and hair still in perfect style.

"Yes, we are great now." She was smiling. She had been smiling a lot today. Final kiss from her to me – she mentioned something about how good she tasted with my lip gloss mixed with her juices – and she was gone.

I sighed. The smile I had tried not to show forcefully came on my face.

"Oh, how am I going to survive with that girl", I murmured alone.

I hope I looked fine even though my hair was really messy from all the playing Miyabi had done with it.

Maybe I should go and take an early nap. Or talk to Risako. No, definitely going to take a nap. I'll let her live in fear for a few more hours.