Jack Macfarlane

Ch. – You think I don't?

When we arrived , I looked out of the wagon window and saw that big, big house. I've seen it before , a few times. We walked out , and Bonnie presented the house. Outside , there was a garden with vegetables. Inside, it was a regular house – living room , kitchen , bathroom and bedrooms. In the living room , there was a coffee table and a sofa. Upstairs Bonnie showed me my room , which was next to her's.

"You better go , look around your room. I'll be in the kitchen, when you're over, come down for the dinner."

I looked at her for a second and saw that panic in her eyes. I didn't realize at the moment what was the matter with her, so I just walked in and bamped the door at her face. Only 5 or so minutes later I heard her walking away.

That was our last conversation in that week. All I did that week was practically crying my eyes out and thinking what should I do with my cursed life . That week can be called the worst one in my life. I'd just sit and look on the walls. I closed all the doors and windows, so nobody had any chance to disturb my loneliness. I seemed to not even notice the fact that I didn't eat or drink all the time . I threw all my books out the window , maybe from madness or something, but thankfully , they lended on Bonnie's garden, so when she went to water the plants next morning , she found and saved them...

Again, all I was doing was wasting time thinking why this happened to me and then sometimes listening to the noises from outside. Those were different. Some reminded me the noise of galloping with Pa and some reminded Mom's care when I was small... But the most common ones were the barking of dogs , which reminded me of Rufus. He was lost after Pa's death. Mom was telling he must've been shot...

It was already Saturday when Bonnie came back.

"Jack..? "

I didn't answer her , I didn't wanna answer nobody that-wise. Actually she came when I was sitting next to the door... Why you ask? I seriously don't know...

"Jack please come out and eat something, you'll die..."

"Go away."

I knew this would not work, but still, you need to give it a chance to make sure.

"Noh , I won't. Listen , I know you don't wanna hear me , but-

"Oh yeah , it seems like you understood it finally!"

"But, I know how you feel and ,I know-

"Psh... How CAN you know how I feel? Did you lost your parents in half a year? Did you loose all the people you cared about in that half a year?! You cannot feel how I feel, and that's a great thing...

"Well maybe I didn't loose the people I cared for in half a year, but I did loose a lot more than you... I had 6 brothers, and 5 of them died... My father died in the undead attack , my mother died when I was young... I had a large family, and what's left now? I'm totally alone , left here , by myself to rule this ranch. " She stopped for a minute and added a sob. Then she felt down on the grown and putted her back on the door, so typically I could feel her behind the door. Now we were there , sitting back to back. Then she took a breath out of the cry, and continued. "And you know what?"

"Wha...?" I whispered ... I couldn't talk normally , because I was ashamed of giving her so much pain...

" I am a strong person, and if you wanna know, I didn't give up yet, and if this broke you, then I'm more manly than you are! 'Cause I'm as manly as 7 man standing side by side, I am as strong as all of my bros together could be , together with my dad and my mom, together with all the MacFarlane ranch can be, and you should be the same way! The same as I am ! 'Cause I am a women, and it's a shame for you to be weaker than I am!..."She paused and continued crying, with such heart hitting sobbs, that even the most unhearted person would be hit in the heart... "So now decide, do you come for a meal?"

I heard Bonnie standing up and heading down stairs.

I stood up too and went after her. Bonnie was sitting on the sofa with her head in her arms. She looked so depressed... You could feel that all over the room...

"Yeah , I do..."

She looked up at me for a minute, then she smiled out of tears .

"Thanks, kid!"

She stood up and hugged me as hard as that "as strong as 7 man " woman could, so I couldn't breath.

"Bonnie, you're smothering me!"

"Oh , sorry! Now go to kitchen! I'll come in a minute! "
"Uh all right!"