Title : The Hearts Wants, What It Wants
Theme : horror/dark fantasy story
Pairing : Kaneki/Uta
Miachi13, iliveformangaandanime, guest
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Chapter 5 - Decision
Kaneki had been thinking about what the old man said. His words were stuck in his mind. Anteiku were a placed run by ghouls for ghouls but even humans go in there. The place was a nice place that didn't involve any danger for anybody.
"You're so lost in your own dream." Uta had surprised the boy like he always did and Kaneki almost fell of the seat he was sitting in.
"Uta-san." Kaneki said in a surprised tone.
"You're cute when you're surprised." Uta said. Here it came again. Uta always said such comments to him. Kaneki didn't understand how the guy wasn't embarrassed when he said such words with a straight face then again Uta always had the same expression no matter what he said.
"What were you thinking about?" He asked.
"It's not that important." Kaneki said but he told Uta since the boy started to trust the guy since he saved him and was there for him. Kaneki wasn't a person who trusted easily after what happened with his mother. His mother was so naïve to trust her sister. It still upset him that he couldn't do anything at the time.
"Yoshimura-san said that." Uta said. Uta didn't seem like he cared but there was something in those eyes but Kaneki couldn't tell what the older male was feeling. Sometimes he never really got Uta. Uta also sometimes helps out with the Anteiku cafe since he makes masks for the ghouls so he goes to the café sometimes.
Uta then decided to change the subject.
"How is your university going?"
"I haven't been going." Kaneki said. He also told Hide that he had been sick that's why he is always away. Hide wanted to visit but Kaneki said it was nothing for him to worry about. He thought maybe he should just quit college sometimes since another part of him inside wants to eat human but his other half stops it.
"Kaneki-kun you look very stress out so you should relax or you will grow white hair." Uta joked. Kaneki couldn't help but laugh with him since the man always made Kaneki feel calm.
It seems like Kaneki been spending a lot of time with Uta not like Uta minded it. Somehow Kaneki was just drawn to this person. It was funny how he wanted to know a bit more about Uta when he wasn't the type to say much about himself.
"I'm going for a walk." Kaneki said. He got up and waved goodbye to Uta.
"Come by anytime." Uta said as he waved goodbye back to the younger boy.
Right after Kaneki had left a woman came in. She looked curious, she had just walked passed the black-haired college student when she was heading inside Uta's shop and wonder who the boy was.
"Who's he?" She asked. Uta didn't answer but stayed silent and prepared to make his next mask. The woman hated when Uta ignored her like this.
"Uta!" She yelled in annoyance.
"Itori when did you get in here?" Uta asked like he didn't know. Itori has been friends with Uta for a long time and he always does this but she can never get use to his personally.
"I asked who that boy was."
"Kaneki Ken." Uta worded his lips. Itori heard of the boy before. He was the one that they found hurt when Rize got killed and the boy somehow survived.
"This is sure interesting." She mumbled.
"Why are you here anyway?" Uta asked.
"That's right I had business with you." She said.
Kaneki had been walking around the city all day. He went to couple of shops that he loved like those book stores. Kaneki would sometimes stare at people and think which are ghouls and which are humans, there were some Kaneki could make out but some were still hard since he was half. His mind still at Rize in them, he kept remember those times he met her and how he fell for her, what a fool he was. Now he was a ghoul because he fell for her.
He wanted to find the doctor who did this to him but he wasn't anywhere. He search but nobody knew where the doctor had vanished. When he found the man he needed to ask him some things he wanted to know.
"I wonder what I mother would think if she saw me now." He sighed. Kaneki could still hear his mother's sweet voice. She was an angel to him, there was nothing more important to him then her. He was happy as long as she was there but she was too naïve and it killed her. He knew now that all humans are weak like his mother, if he was still human would he also be weak like she was. Now he was a ghoul he was stronger and wouldn't let anybody get in his ways, but he wanted to be way stronger.
"You're spacing up." Kaneki startled from the source of the voice. Kaneki turned around and saw his senpai.
"Nishio-senpai."
"You look surprised."
"It's because I am." If he was there why didn't the guy say something sooner?
"What are you doing here?" Kaneki asked.
"Can't you see I'm shopping?" Kaneki then eyed the bags that his senpai was carrying.
"You're with Kimi, right." Nishio nodded his head in agreement.
"She's around somewhere."
It's funny how much things have changed. Kaneki didn't like Nishio when he first met the guy. He was afraid he would eat his best friend. Kaneki himself couldn't believe he helped the guy out. He almost got killed because of that but lucky for him that Uta saved them all.
"I heard from Nagachika that you haven't been to school."
"Oh that."
Nishio didn't want to butt in Kaneki's life but he thought it was a waste for the boy not to attend school. The college they attend was famous and a lot of people try to get in but unlike Kaneki others were actually working hard.
"You're not sick."
"I think I know that myself."
"Since I'm waiting for you I don't mind hanging out with you." Kaneki didn't know how he felt about that. It sounded more like he wanted hang out with him but the way he said it pissed Kaneki up.
Two continued walk around the city. Going through stores. Nishio didn't buy anything while Kaneki actually bought a book that interested him in some store. It was a big book and Nishio couldn't understand why the book would even a book that big.
"You're going read that." He said in surprised tone. Nishio didn't like reading much, he couldn't deal with studying outside of the university when he had to do it in class.
The two stopped at some café and had some coffee.
"You're working hard aren't you?" Kaneki asked. Kaneki was referring to Anteiku the place that Nishio worked at.
"You could say that but that bitch is a pain in the ass."
"Who?" Kaneki asked.
"You know that girl."
"Touka-chan."
"She's always saying things that piss me off." Kaneki didn't understand why he was even listening to Nishio complain to him about things he wasn't interest in. "She should learn to respect her elders."
"Nishio-kun." Just then Kimi came up to the two. Kaneki was glad that she appeared. The girl then stared at Kaneki in surprised. She didn't expect to see fellow student from Kami here.
"Thank you for last time." She bowed her head. She shouldn't even thank him since he didn't do much.
"Kaneki you should come by the café since Hinami would like to see you again." Nishio said before walking away with Kimi and leaving Kaneki there alone. Kaneki watched the two from behind, Nishio looked way happier than he did before.
Just when he turn around he bump into somebody. He touched his face in pain. He then looked to who he had bump into and saw it was Touka and she was with Hinami.
"Kaneki-onichan." She spoke.
"Idiot watch where you're going!" Touka seemed like she was in a bad mood and he had a feeling it had to do with Nishio who he had just saw.
"What are you doing here onichan?" She asked.
"I was just doing some shopping." He said as he held out the bag in his hand.
"You bought a book." Hinami said in a happy tone. Hinami was like Kaneki they both loved reading. Hinami loved it more when she saw all the hard books that Kaneki read at the café.
"How is working with Nishio-senpai?" Kaneki asked direction his words to Touka and she gave him a glare but Kaneki didn't budge from her aura that she was giving off.
"I rather you work there then deal with that idiot." She said.
The old man's words were still in his mind. Sure he declined him but part of him actually wanted to go there. He didn't want to be alone and he felt he met some interesting people. He probably can't be the boy he used to be when his mother was still alive but he's still himself.
"Do you have work today?" He asked.
"Yes I do a bit later." Touka said.
Later Kaneki had made his decision and come to Anteiku to meet with the manager. He felt if he stayed at Anteiku he might find out what he supposed to do with his life.
"I'm glad you decided to come." Yoshimura smiled. Yoshimura was always glad to help a fellow ghoul and he thought Kaneki needed to be somewhere like Anteiku. He was half-ghoul and could eat food like a normal human but there was food that he couldn't eat like a normal full-ghoul.
Kaneki had come out with a waiter uniform. He found it strange wearing something like this but it was for the job. He also decided that it was time he go back to university and try to act like a human once more. He maybe be a ghoul but he still had his human half that he couldn't forget about.
And he wasn't going to let Rize take over that part of him.
Touka was pretty shocked to see Kaneki come out wearing a waiter uniform, as well as Hinami and others that worked there. When Touka said he rather work with he didn't think that the guy would actually come work at the café.
Hinami was glad that he could see Kaneki more now. She could talk to him about books.
That evening Yoshimura introduce Kaneki to a fellow ghoul and Uta's close friend. Yomo Renji didn't speak much but he knew a lot about the ghoul world. The old man had asked Kaneki to go with Renji to get food. Kaneki was sick to his stomach when he saw what they were going to do.
Kaneki didn't think about it since he was half and could live like a human but he didn't realize that ghouls also have to eat and its human flesh they eat. Renji had gotten some flesh from human that had died, well it was better than a live human but it still made Kaneki sick.
After helping with Renji the black-haired boy decided to go to where Uta was. His shop was always open for him. He thought he needed to tell Uta about what had happened. Uta was surprised that Kaneki had joined Anteiku. He acted shock but it looked like Uta had a feeling that Kaneki would join.
"You're getting along with everybody. Aren't you?" There was cold tone there but Kaneki thought it was normal and didn't keep that in mind.
Uta was a mysterious guy to Kaneki, There were things that he didn't know much about the man. Renji was his friend and even he didn't know much about the guy. Kaneki wondered how the two even became friends, it was hard for Kaneki to picture the two as friends but they were.
"Kaneki-kun would you like some coffee?" Uta offered.
"I would but I'll make some for both of us." Kaneki said. He had learned how to make simple coffee from Yoshimura and he thought he should thank Uta since he's always the one coming to the older man. He sometimes wonder if he is being bothersome to Uta.