Title : The Hearts Wants, What It Wants

Theme : horror/dark fantasy story

Pairing : Kaneki/Uta

Mr. Ghoul - It's nice to hear what you think might happen. I can't say much since it will spoil.

BlueRoseMidnight - Yea i liked that part of the anime and manga and i needed to put that part in. Most of the stuff i write are from there.

Thanks all for reviews.

This chapter contains alot of the anime and manga. I'm not good at fighting scenes so i tried.

Chapter 7 - White-haired Kaneki

Kaneki had done something that he would never do he went to where Aogiri hide out was with a little help from Itori. Itori didn't know that the black-hair boy was planning to go there so she felt bad. Everybody were upstairs in the lounge."

"He's not the type to get beaten easily." Nishio spoke with a serious tone. Nishio knew well since the guy did save his life.

"Nishio." Touka said. She didn't know that guy actually cared about Kaneki.

"Let's start this." Yoshimura spoke. The things he shouted everybody in the group, mostly Touka and Nishio since they were close to him more.

"Hey, gramps, what the hell are you talking about!" Nishio yelled, he's tone was very angry, he didn't like what the old man was telling them.

"Stop!" Touka called out to Nishio. With that said Nishio stared at Touka and then stopped his yelling.

"We're going, right? We're going after him, aren't we?"

"Aogiri is mad of up ghouls who bank their entire exist in fighting. Sneaking into their base to find Kaneki-kun won't be that easy."

"Noway…" Hinami didn't like the sound of that. She didn't like that she wouldn't be able to see Kaneki again.

"Not to mention that the CCG are on the move as well to deal with Aogiri. If we do go search for Kaneki. There's a good chance that we'll be the one exterminated instead.

"What? You're not thinking of abandoning him, are you?" Everything the old man said made Nishio upset.

"I'm going." Touka said. "What is our policy, again? Touka got up from her seat while looking at Yoshimura. "Manager, if you're not going…then I'll go alone."

"I'm going too." Nishio said. "I owe him after all." Nishio couldn't forget how Kaneki saved him, Kaneki wasn't the type to do those things but he did it.

"I want to help as well." Hinami spoke up. Kaneki had also saved Hinami's life. She couldn't forget everything that Kaneki had done for her and her mother even if she was no longer alive. "Onii-chan is always helping me out, so…If there's anything I can do, I'll do it!" She said while holding onto Touka's hand.

"Hinami."

"Let me say this, so there's no misunderstanding. I had plan to go after Kaneki-kun from the beginning, however I wanted to let you all know I can't guarantee the safety of anyone here. I understand how everybody feels here. If we go then you must places your lives on line like he has for you. And in return Yomo-kun and I will protect you with all our might." There was pause then Yoshimura spoke again.

"It is Anteiku's policy to help each other out, right." He smiled which made Touka smile in return. She was happy to hear that from the manager. "There's one more thing." Yoshimura looked at the door. "You may come in." He said.

Touka and Nishio were not happy to see such a sight. It was probably the person they never wanted to see ever again.

"You! Why!?" That guy was the root of his problems from the beginning.

"Amore!" Tsukiyama Shuu had appeared, he raised his hand up to know that he has entered. "Heartbreak! He was the same as ever.

The manager went to explained that they needed Tsukiyama's power to get into the base.

"I don't want him here. He has no intention of helping Kaneki." Touka was enrage. Of course she would since she had experience with him and it didn't turn out well. That time she went to save Kaneki but it turns out the other way when it was Kaneki who protected her instead.

"How are you even alive?" This was pissing Touka up. It wasn't just Touka. Nishio didn't like the idea either. "This guy just wants to eat Kaneki-kun."

"You don't have to worry about that." Yomo appeared in the room. "I'll look after him. He won't do anything on my watch."

"Kaneki." Touka had this sad expression on her face when she spoke his name. He hope he wasn't doing anything reckless.

Kaneki didn't think of his plan of action but when he saw one of the ghoul try to kill their own kind he stepped in. He didn't like the sight but because of it he wasn't in the best condition.

The ghoul that made Kaneki that way was a guy with blond hair and with Sharpe lizard eyes, his name was Yamori. He seemed to like torturing people, he didn't care if they had enough. He was sick and it made Kaneki sick.

The ghoul had manage to inject Kaneki with what was called a RC suppressants, making the one-eye ghoul weak and not able to move around much. Kaneki had come to take care of these guys for what they had done to his family in Anteiku, he didn't want them to be hurt ever again.

Anteiku members had arrived at Aogiri base. They had to cover themselves so they wouldn't be noticed. Uta had also joined to help. He couldn't believe that Kaneki would do something reckless. It seemed the boy had changed since working at Anteiku.

"Is something wrong?" Yomo asked.

"Nothing." Uta said. "Let's hurry up and find Kaneki-kun." Tsukiyama was in their group as well. Uta was the one who beat Tsukiyama when both Kaneki, Touka and Nishio were in trouble, he didn't like the guy much after that incident but they needed him.

There were a lot of ghouls around so they had to take care of them before others noticed them. It wasn't hard for them since they had a very strong group and could take care of them fine.

Uta was disappointed that the boy who always came to him didn't tell him anything. If he had maybe he could have done something.

"He's always does something that surprises me." He mumbled.

Kaneki was feeling weak and helpless, he couldn't do anything because of what Yamori had injected in him. The man was making him count numbers.

"I know what I'll do next, kill everybody at Anteiku. This upset Kaneki a lot, he didn't want them to hurt, he came here to stop that but he was helpless. What was he thinking when he came here alone. His head was low and down, he recalled his mother at that moment.

"Okaasan." He spoke. Suddenly the scene changed to white.

"Good morning." A familiar voice spoke. She sat bend down beside Kaneki.

"Rize-san? You're alive?"

"Things like that don't really matter now, do they?" She walked to the other side to Kaneki. "Tell me, Kaneki-kun. What kind of person was your mother like?

"You called me "mom'' just a moment ago." Rize said. "Is that her?" The scene changed once again. And she was the woman who gave birth to him. The one person he cared deeply for, his mother.

His mother was cutting some roses up, then little Kaneki came running toward his mother. Little Kaneki would ask his mother to help him with some kanji that he didn't understand. He went explaining those things to Rize. The scene changed and this time his mother had gone to work and Kaneki went to his father's room and read books, it was because of his father's love for books that he got into them even if he never met his father before he passed away.

Kaneki went talking how he didn't care about anything because he had his nice, kind and beautiful mother by his side.

"My mother used to say." The scene changed with young Kaneki. His mother had her hand on his right cheek. "Ken. It's okay to feel pain. Nice boys like you can find happiness despite all that.

"It's better to be hurt then hurt others." The scene changed once again with the current Kaneki. "Kind people are able to find happiness just like that. That's what she taught me."

"That's why you're in the mess now?" It's better to be then hurt others. "Have you been living your entire lives believing such lies?"

"Are you sure your mother was the kind and wonderful person you thought she was." The scene changed with Kaneki's mother giving who was Kaneki's aunt some money.

Kaneki remember it all clearly those times. His mother working day and night.

"But then…

"But then she overworked herself. And I was left alone, didn't have a place to call home." Kaneki thought that at the beginning but that changed when he met Hide, Hide was always there for him and was family to him. He was the next person he cared for after his mother.

"But you're going to lose him and it will be all your fault." Rize said. Kaneki didn't want didn't want to believe those words but she was right. The scene went back to Yamori torturing some ghouls he had tried to save. It was too late when Yamori killed them. The scene changed once again.

"It's…all my fault." He finally said it.

"It took you that long to realize it?" Rize said. "You'll sit there and blame yourself over and over, but that won't change anything. You don't try to change. It's your fault.

Everything Rize said was right, everything was his fault to begin with. Kaneki's thought went to the two that were killed and everybody at Anteiku, Hinami's mother who he couldn't save and the pain it caused the little girl. His mother who overworked and died and he couldn't do nothing, he had wished his mother had chosen him over anything.

Rize finally got Kaneki to understand what was right. She told him that the weak can't survive and that you have to be strong, strong to kill Yamori, his mother was weak that why she couldn't turn her resolve around. Rize held onto Kaneki with a smile. Kaneki's ghoul eye turned red from all this.

"Are you going to let Yamori get his way?"

"No…I won't!" He said with a serious tone. His mind was made up and he knew what he was going to do from now on. Rize let go of Kaneki and stepped back a bit.

"Your dear friend Hide and companion at Anteiku might expose to the same tragedy that happened here."

"I won't let that happen. I'll spare no mercy to anybody who tries to take my home from me."

The roses around the white scene turned red in each moment.

"Do you have that kind of strength?" Rize asked.

"Yes." Kaneki answered and more roses turned red.

"Are you saying you accept me?" Rize asked, her eyes turned into that of a ghoul now.

"No. I'm not saying that." Kaneki pined Rize down the ground. "I can suppress you anytime."

"Are you sure you're no making the wrong choice?"

"I'm not the one who's wrong. What's wrong is this world? The whole field of roses, flowers turned red and nothing white was left.

"That will do, Kaneki-kun." With Rize's last words Kaneki started to eat Rize.

Kaneki's hair color changed to that of white, Kaneki had blood on his mouth from eating Rize.

"I am a ghoul." He spoke.

Back to the scene with Yamori, Kaneki stayed still without moving and Yamori went on about how they will kill everybody in Anteiku. When Yamori leashed his kagune Kaneki got up and jumped from behind and attacked Yamori.

"That's a foul."

Yamori saw blood from side of his face and Kaneki wiped the blood from his lips.

"Wh- Y-ou…bite me?"

"Almost like the intestines of a fish on the verge of spoling."

Yamori used his kagune once again and attacked Kaneki. Kaneki dogged it and attacked Yamori in which Yamori grabbed the boy's leg but Kaneki twisted it and attacked with his other leg, after letting go his twisted leg went back to normal.

"You think something like that would hurt, after all I've been through?"

Yamori started to go crazy yelling at Kaneki but the boy stayed there standing with a smile on his face. Every time that Yamori attacked Kaneki dodged it. He wasn't even landing a punch on the boy. But Kaneki was able to punch Yamori in his stomach.

Even when Yamori got Kaneki the boy manage to come back standing which shocked the older man. Finally Kaneki leashed his Kagune with a smile on his face.

"Now…it's my turn." He smirked. The two attacked with both Kagune but it was Kaneki who hit Yamori and got him damaged then Kaneki which Yamori couldn't even land a hit on. Even when Yamori was down Kaneki stabbed him with his Kagune. Kaneki did the same thing that the man had done to him making him count numbers.

"You tried to devour me." Kaneki said. "So you won't mind if I eat you, do you?"

Uta had stopped dead in his tracks.

"What's wrong?" Yomo asked.

"I'm not sure but I think something is going down." Uta had a feeling it had to with Kaneki, something wasn't right, was it just him worrying about the boy or was it something else.

"Let's hurry and find the brat." Yomo said.

"Okay."

Touka had encounter her brother Ayato. It wasn't going good, she didn't want to fight him but it wasn't going that way. Even so Touka tried to fight her best she was no match for her brother.

"You're just like our father." Ayato said."

"Weak." The mention of their father made Touka recalled the memories she had with their wonderful father.

Ayato leashed his Kagune and ripped Touka's off which she cries in pain, she was in pain, but even so she called out her father which annoyed Ayato and made him attack but he didn't manage to attack her since Kaneki had come and rescued her.

"Kaneki." She said in his arms.

"I'm sorry, this is all my fault." Kaneki thought about it, it was his fault he went on his own leaving everybody behind without a word. His eyes looked sad and Touka could see that.

"Kaneki!" Nishio arrived and saw Kaneki and Touka and the girl wasn't looking so good.

"Take care of her for me." He said handing Touka to Nishio.

"What about you?"

"Don't worry about me." He said. Kaneki then wore the mask that Uta had made for him.

Kaneki went to face Ayato the brother of Touka.

"You shouldn't do that to your only family member." He said.

"Shut up!" Ayato attacked Kaneki was blocked by Kaneki's hand.

"Listen when somebody is talking to you." He said

A fight went on. Ayato realize how this guy seemed different from when they first encounter him. He was weak before and he didn't really care since Yamori dealt with him but he was still alive. As they fought Ayato couldn't land a hit on him which annoyed him. Ayato used his Kagune but Kaneki jumped and dodged him.

"Come on try attack me, you eyepatch bastard!"

"I can't do that."

"You half-assed bastard."

Kaneki then attacked with his Kagune and sent Ayato flying which damaged him.

"Therefore, Ayato-kun I will half-kill you."

Kaneki and Ayato went on with their fighting. Both damaging each other in progress. While so Kaneki figure it all out why Ayato was in Aogiri which annoyed Ayato. In the end Kaneki broke his bones in progress saying how this is nothing compare to what Touka had felt.

"You bastard!" Just then another ghoul appeared. He has a mask with a large lip.

"He seemed strong, if he's in Aogiri." Kaneki was going to attack but a hand stopped him. There were three people standing there. Yomo, Uta and Tsukiyama.

"Yo…mo-san..."

"Ken that's…enough…rest a little."

"Rest…? Why? I didn't even fight yet." Suddenly Kaneki's leg felt weak and he fell down on the ground.

"I…have to fight. More…more more more…"

"…Leave it to us Kaneki-kun." Uta placed his jacket over the boy assuring him everything would be fine.

"Uta-san." Kaneki said.

The three then looked at the enemy and was ready to attack. Everybody attack at different time. First was Tsukiyama then Uta put his through the ghoul then Yomo attacked and kicked his head off but then he started to come back to life.

In the end the fight didn't last and the ghoul took Ayato with him and disappeared.

Later Kaneki had told everybody that he had no plans to return to Anteiku, he had something to do. Which shocked everybody but Uta stayed calm.

"I can't return to school or home anymore."

"What are you saying?" Touka yelled.

"Uta-san, you don't mind me staying with you."

"It's alright." He said.

"I want to protect everybody and to do so I must leave and get even more stronger.'"

The days Kaneki started living with Uta. The boy was changed and didn't speak much, it was like before but he did speak to Uta more than anybody. He never told Hide anything and everybody at the university thought he went missing. Kaneki didn't even pay any visit to Anteiku, he had made up his mind.

It was strange to see the white hair on Kaneki but it didn't bother Uta. When at home Kaneki never wore the eyepatch. Uta noticed that Kaneki would sometimes stare off to space.

"Get even more stronger." Uta mumbled. He didn't mind having Kaneki all to himself. He couldn't wait to see what else the boy would show him.

"Aogiri will come looking for him but for the time being I'll have him."