Gon's eyebrows twitch, groaning slowly as his eyes flutter open. Gon rubs at his eyes, turning to lay on his stomach. His bed is just so comfortable, he doesn't want to get up. He buries his head in the pillow and closes his eyes trying to fall back to sleep. He feels the fullness of his bladder and he groans. His body isn't going to let him go back to sleep till he relieves himself. Gon sits up in bed, letting his legs hang off the edge as he yawns, stretching his arms above his head.
Why of all times does he have to pee? Gon hasn't had such a good nights rest in...years. It's like he's a new person. He finally had a night where he didn't have the nightmare. He finally had a dreamless night. Gon stands up, the wood under his feet creaking as he walks over to his bathroom, searching for it almost blindly. The wood feels cold under his feet and he cringes.
Gon sighs in relief when he finds the door that leads to the bathroom. He opens it up and walks pass the mirror, standing in front of the toilet. Gon closes his eyes as he reaches into the hole in his boxers to pull himself out and relieve himself-
All he feels is soft flesh. Gon's eyebrows furrow as he digs deeper- Gon's eyes snap open, he becomes awake real quick. He can't find his manhood. All he feels is a slit. Gon looks down in alarm, his mind racing, only to choke on his own spit when he sees two large mounds where his flat chest should be. Gon is wearing a very large shirt he doesn't remember putting on but that doesn't alarm him as much as the boobs that are on his chest and the fact he can not, for the life of him, find his penis.
Gon runs over to the mirror, his heart racing and he ends up tripping over his own feet, hitting his hip against the sink. "Ouch!" Gon winces only to blink. His voice...It's no longer deep and baritone. It's high and soft. He sounded like Mito. Gon swallows as he walks over to the mirror, bracing himself.
Gon can't help to stare at the mirror. He blinks once. Twice. But the image won't change. A woman is staring back at him. Gon takes in his long black hair that reaches pass his shoulders, he takes in the soft edges of his jawline, and how smooth his face is, like how he was when he was a child. Gon's breathing becomes uneven as he sees with his own eyes the breasts that are on his chest. This can't be real. Gon touches his hair before he touches his face, watching how this woman's expression turns close to panicked. Gon pokes one of his breasts, getting it to jiggle and Gon to squeak. It's real! Gon felt that! This woman...is him!
"Is this...a dream?" Gon speaks, still shocked when he hears that high pitched voice. It's so strange. Gon stares at the mirror longer and the more he looks at himself, the more real it becomes. The woman has his tan flesh and his amber eyes. This woman that's him.
This has to be a dream. Gon closes his eyes, his eyebrows furrowing when he feels a pain in his stomach because he still has to relieve himself but...but...how? How do girls do it? He usually stands up to go pee but there's nothing to aim with so...Does he sit down? Where does the pee come out for a girl?
When he feels that urge, he knows he can't hold it anymore. He rushes over to the toilet and pulls down his boxers. He looks down at himself and frowns when he can't even see his genitals because the boobs are blocking his view. "Okay...okay I just..." Gon stares at the toilet like he's never seen anything like it before. He decides to straddle the toilet, hugging the back of it for leverage. It feels like he's on it good. He bites his lip as he lets go. Gon sighs in relief at hearing the liquid pour into the toilet and the loosening of the tightness of his organs.
As Gon reliefs himself, he can't help to hope this isn't one of those dreams where you think you're peeing in real life but you're actually peeing in your bed.
Gon waits for him to wake up wet but he doesn't. He's still on the toilet, his hair is still long and he still has breasts. It's so weird but Gon is starting to think this isn't a dream. Gon gets off the toilet, not liking how it feels wet down there. He takes some toilet paper and just wipes down there, feeling strange as he wipes back to front and throws it in the toilet. His nose wrinkles when he got some urine on his hand and he goes to wash his hands quickly.
He doesn't like this. Gon doesn't like this at all. He doesn't know what to do. He doesn't even remember how he became like this...wait...He had a bad dream. He remembers that. He had a bad dream so he went to take a walk...and while he was taking a walk he met this man and-
"Hey Babe." Gon tenses when he hears that voice, whipping around, getting to a stance immediately, glaring at the threat. He blinks when he sees that man he was just thinking about sitting on top of his bed, his bare chest exposed.
"Micky..." Gon remembers this man's name. Was he sleeping in his bed? Before Gon can question him, he remembers the pain. He remembers the cuts and then the agonizing pain. He remembers accepting Micky's job and wanting the man to use his power so he could use his nen. He remembers everything. Gon still can't believe...this. "What did you do to me? I'm a..." Gon swallows, he can not get use to this voice.
"You're a woman." Micky nods, the grin he had on his lips falling slightly as he gets out of bed.
"That's your special power? Turning men into females?" Gon blinks. "That's...pretty amazing." Gon can't help to gawk a little. Micky used nen to turn him into a woman. He looks like himself too. He really physically changed him. Gon didn't know that was possible. "But how is this going to help me get my nen back?"
"I've completely changed your body. I've made you smaller and softer. I've changed your flesh and the size of your hands and feet. I didn't have to do much with your waist because you were already curvy. I've turned you into a woman. Inside and out. By changing your body, I've also been able to change your nen network. It's like you're a new person. You'll need to be trained but in this form, you will be able to gain your nen back." Micky stares at Gon, a smile turning his lips as he admires his work, a deep pride in his blue eyes. "I changed you from a sexy man, into a smoking hot babe. I did an amazing job if I do say so myself."
"I can use my nen?" Gon looks at his hand and wills his nen to cover his hand. His eyes widen when his hand gets covered in his amber aura, becoming like a flame. A bit more than he wanted but it came easy to him. Micky is right. Just a little bit of training and Gon will have his nen honed once again. Gon feels his heart pick up speed and he smiles brightly only to frown when he catches a glimpse of the large mounds on his chest. "Um...So can I change back? Once I've gotten my nen down? You can change me back right?"
Gon's not really sure how he would feel about staying a woman for the rest of his life. It would certainly be something he would have to adapt to.
"I'm pretty sure I can. Probably." Micky waves his hand when Gon's eyes widen and he frowns deeply. "Don't worry about that right now. You need to be in this form for my jobs. No one can know that you're Gon. Though I have to admit that those eyes sort of give you away. You have unique eyes. So that's why I got you some green contacts. It should fix the problem." Micky thinks for a moment while staring at Gon. "These men are all horrible people. They'll be attracted to you right away which will make your job a lot easier."
"...Right, the job." Gon tries to snap himself out of it. He is still Gon. He's just a female now. It's just hard to wrap his mind around this. "You said we would leave out after you used your power." Gon glances around to make sure and he is indeed, in his hotel room. "You carried me to my hotel room?"
"Yup. The change is always really hard. Some don't make it. I'm glad you did. I knew you would." Micky grins. Gon's eyebrows furrow. So he really could have died. He felt like he was dying. "I thought you could rest a bit and I knew when you woke up you would be freaking out so mind as well get this out of the way here before we head to the plane. Wouldn't want you having a fit on the plane. So are you alright? How you feeling?"
"I feel good. Nothing really hurts and it feels like I've been released. It don't feel plugged up like I did with my other body. I can really feel the change in my nen. It's really weird trying to get use to this voice and the fact that I don't have anything down there anymore. I'm starting to get use to the voice though." Gon looks down at his hands, looking at his smaller arms. Gon does feel good. He feels better. Being a woman shocked him but he's slowly getting use to it. Not too fast but he's adapting.
'This is insane...I wonder what Killua would think of me?' Gon's heart picks up speed and his fingers twitch. He wants to send Killua a picture. If Killua sees him as a woman, he'll have to call him. There's no way Killua could just ignore that. No one could. He'll ask what happen, he'll want to know what is going on.
Gon needs to show him what just happened. He needs to show him this amazing change. Gon starts to feel his body for his phone only to remember he had his phone in his pocket in the pants he took off at the building.
"Do you have my phone? I left in the pants I took off." Gon looks at Micky, feeling a bit panicked at not having his phone. He needs to take a picture. He needs to get Killua connected with the situation. He needs to share this with him.
"Yeah I do." Micky walks over to the bed, grabbing something off the night stand. When Micky holds out his phone, Gon sighs in relief.
"Yes! Thanks, could you give it here? I want to send a picture to my friend-"
"You mean Killua?" Micky raises his eyebrow, his lips starting to curl.
"Yeah! How did you know?" Gon smiles only to tilt his head.
"Because that's all you've been sending pictures to." Micky touches his phone, scrolling down his messages. "And he hasn't replied to any of them."
"H-Hey don't look at that." Gon flushes in embarrassment, feeling ashamed for some reason at someone seeing that. Gon walks over to Micky, reaching for his phone only for Micky to hold his phone higher. Curse his short height.
"Why do you keep sending him pictures? Why do you keep messaging him? Most of your messages are all to Killua and I haven't seen him text you back once. It's sad."
"Killua is really busy and...and I just like sending him pictures. I like keeping him in the loop. He's my best friend." Gon glares at Micky when he takes a step back with his phone, his only connection to Killua.
"This isn't just being busy. He's ignoring you. It looks like he doesn't want to talk to you." Gon feels his heart sink. He grips his arm, feeling a bit sick. Micky doesn't have to say that. That thought has already crossed his mind. He doesn't have to hear it from someone he just met...
It's painful how obvious it is.
"Just give me the phone back." Gon glares at Micky, his nen going crazy around him. He's having trouble controlling the flow of it now.
"You have an obsession. If he's ignoring you, fuck him. I mean, at first I was laughing a bit at you just sending him all these crazy pictures but then I was like...It's just sad. You need a break away from this phone, that's what you need."
"It's not an obsession I just...I just like sending Killua pictures." Gon tries to defend himself but his voice falls short.
"Yeahhh. You like it a bit too much. You're going to thank me for this later." Gon raises his eyebrow when Micky holds out his cell phone only to crush it in his hand. Gon gasps, feeling like something just shattered with the phone. All the pictures he took, all the messages sent, all the numbers, all gone. "It's like a band-aid okay?-"
"You broke my phone!" Gon shouts out in disbelief. He charges towards Micky, torn between cradling his broken phone or socking him in the face.
"Gon, Gon. I did it for you." Micky dodges him, moving over to the side, his hands up as he drops the broken pieces of his phone. "It was driving you a bit crazy. Who keeps messaging someone who doesn't message them back? You were having conversations with yourself dude."
"Says the person who was looking and reading someone elses messages!" Gon counters, feeling his cheeks heat up in shame again. "Who does that? I wasn't having conversations with myself!...I'm sure Killua at least looks at them..." Gon swallows, rubbing at his arm, that anger fading into something else. His long black hair is getting in his face.
"No. I don't know who this Killua is but I can tell you, he is not good for you. I don't know if he was your boyfriend or whatever but it's time to move on. When someone doesn't message you back, you don't keep messaging them. Reading those messages, it was like you were speaking for him."
Gon doesn't have to be told that. He knows. He gets it. Gon may have a problem. He's been lying to himself for too long. He just...he just wants Killua to be with him. He just wants to feel connected with him. He doesn't want to think that Killua hates him or that he wants nothing to do with him. Gon's chest sinks and his fingers twitch. He just wants to take a picture and send it to Killua. He just wants to call him, even if it goes to voice mail.
How can Gon move on from Killua? He's his best friend. That never changed. Gon still wants Killua to be by his side. He still wants to travel with him and see the world. Gon can't get over Killua. And maybe it is making him sick.
"Maybe Killua doesn't want to talk to me. Maybe Killua was ignoring me all that time but...I still want to talk to him. When I send him pictures, I feel like I'm still talking to him, like we're still together. I don't care if Killua isn't looking at them or if he's messaging me...I just want to feel like we still have a connection." Gon speaks honestly, looking at Micky who is staring at him with a frown on his face.
"That's...really sad." Micky shakes his head. "Look Gon, This mission of mine is going to be good for you. There's a lot of change and we'll experience a bunch of things. It will be a good break for you. So while you're working for me, no phone."
"What?" Gon's eyes widen and he grips his baggy shirt. "No phone at all? But I have others I talk to-"
"No phone. You need a break. It's like a new beginning...alright now, when you give me that look I can't be strict. You can have a phone but one that can't send pictures. That sounds better doesn't it?"
"...I guess so." Gon pouts. He still doesn't like it. Sending pictures has been his only contact with Killua for two years. He can feel an uneasiness settle over him, and it's worse than when he woke up and found he had no penis.
Micky stares at him before he smiles, and it's gentle. "I'll treat you to an ice cream or something for breaking your phone okay? And I'll buy you a new one. I can be an ass but I'm just looking out for you. Once you're gotten your things we'll head out."
"Okay...You said the first guy was in Yorknew right?" Gon tries to focus on his job and not on the fact he's a woman or that his phone is in pieces and he has no way to reach Killua. What if Killua tries to contract him while he doesn't have a phone- Gon's chest tightens and he feels like he can't breathe for a moment. Is he really going to have a panic attack over that? Gon knows it's not normal.
"Yes. We'll take the plane there and get a hotel." Micky watches as Gon pulls out some of his clothes, looking at them with his eyebrows furrowed. "We'll be getting you some new clothes. We need you to look like a woman, not dress like a guy."
"Okay..." Gon thinks for a moment before he smiles over at Micky, getting him to blink. "I want to wear a pretty dress. I've always wanted to wear one when I saw Mito in them but she wouldn't let me try it on when I was younger. I think this could be fun."
"That's the spirit! You're a chick now so you can wear a dress and no one is going to look at you like you're weird. There's a lot of things you can do. Wear whatever and i'll be helping you with putting on makeup and such." Micky hums, looking pleased. "there's probably a few things I should let you know about being a woman."
"Yeah, could you tell me how to go to the bathroom? I went but it felt strange and I don't know if I did it right..."
"Just sit on the toilet like you're taking a dump and then wipe from front to back." Gon nods, frowning when he remembers he wiped back to front. He's about to ask about it when Micky speaks again. "A think something you should be aware of Gon, is that even though you are a female now, your brain hasn't changed. You are still Gon. You have the mind of an 18 year old male and the body of a female. Your sexual orientation shouldn't change and you are able to have intercourse. You will also get periods every month and I have no idea when you'll start so...yeah."
"I'll get a period?" Gon frowns, remembering those times when he would see bloody clothes in the thrash can. When he thought Mito was dying, his aunt was forced to explain to him what periods are so he wouldn't freak out. Periods didn't sound pleasant.
"Yeah sorry about that." Micky gives him a lopsided smile, rubbing the back of his head.
"Can I get pregnant?" Gon blinks, pointing at himself.
"I'm not sure actually. Maybe." Micky shrugs his shoulders. "if you have sex, use a condom to be safe-"
"I'm not going to have sex in this body." Gon blushes, feeling flushed. "You don't have to worry about that."
"Aw that's too bad. We could have had some fun." Micky winks. When Gon gives him a look, he chuckles. "I'm just playing. I'm more into guys myself. Now if you were a man... me and you could be rocking that bed all night babe."
"I think I'm done packing my things." Gon tries to ignore how his heart beats faster at the thought of Micky doing anything to him. Maybe it's not the thought about Micky...maybe it's the idea of another guy doing things to him. His mind keeps going back to those blue eyes and that soft white hair...Killua isn't far away from any of his thoughts. "Lets go get these guys. I might be a female now but I'm still Gon." Gon grins at Micky, punching his fist in the air as he grabs his bag. He doesn't have many things on him. "They won't know what hit them."
"They really won't." Micky grins as he opens the door for Gon. "Ladies first."
"Such a gentleman." Gon teases, chuckling to himself as he walks out. The hotel is cold...it almost feels colder somehow.
"You know it." Micky chuckles as he follows Gon down the hallway. Gon tries not to think of Killua. Tries not to think of his phone. Gon has been able to adapt to being a woman a lot quicker then adapting to not having a phone. It's only been five minutes and he's feeling empty.
Now it's like...Killua really is gone.
And Gon really is alone.
"Don't tell anyone that you've changed." Gon stops mid text and looks over at Micky who is sitting next to him on the plane. As soon as they left the hotel, Gon was quick to look out the closest phone store. He was delighted to find there was one on their way to the airport. He made the cab driver stop and then he proceeded to buy a new phone. Of course this one is a lot cheaper than his other one since he can't send pictures. It doesn't even have camera! Gon sat patiently during the ride to the airport and didn't open the phone till they sat down on the plane. He's doing good. Gon lasted about an hour without a phone.
"Why not?" Gon tilts his head. He was just texting Killua a long message about how he changed into a woman and how he has this new job and how crazy it is and how he wishes he could see but he doesn't have a camera anymore-
"Word is easy to get around. I don'' want anyone knowing that Gon Freecss has transformed into a woman. You look too much like yourself. Even with the green contacts, i'm doubtful. You have the same mannerisms and anyone really looking could point things out that would give you away. I need to teach you some tips on looking girly. One, don't spread your legs." Micky hits Gon's thigh, getting Gon to close his legs.
"But it's comfy." Gon whines. "And I'm sure Killua wouldn't tell anyone, or Leorio-"
"You can't tell anyone." Micky shakes his head. "This mission is important to me. I don't need you giving yourself away."
"I guess so." Gon mumbles as he erases his message to Killua before he thinks of what to say. "I've gotten a new phone! It's kind of cheap so I won't be able to send you pictures but we can still talk on it." Gon tries to sends this message only to frown when he can't get a signal. So much for sending Killua a message. Gon feels that uneasiness but when he sees Micky giving him a look, he puts his phone down.
"While we're sitting here, we mind as well go over some things." Micky hums when Gon's amber eyes are focused on him, a strand of black hair falling next to his cheek. Micky reaches over and tucks the hair behind Gon's ear. "You've already gotten some admirers."
"Yeah I noticed." Gon nods his head. He's been aware of a couple of guys staring at him. They're not being sneaky about it either. Whenever Gon would look at them, either they would look away, or they would smile. At first Gon thought they were being friendly so he smile and waved, but when they started to wink and mouth 'lets go to the bathroom'. Gon is sure they don't want to be just friends. Gon isn't that naive. At least not anymore. He feels his eyebrow twitch when he feels this man staring at his chest shamelessly. "That's rude you know?" Gon huffs, glaring over at this man, getting him to look out the window.
This isn't how you're suppose to treat a lady. Gon is a guy but they don't know that. If they like him, they should be friendly and nice, not looking at him like he's a meal. They should take him out on a date and maybe kiss him on the cheek first. That's how he's treated all the women he's taken out. And he doesn't like how some of these men look like they have a wife sitting next to them.
"Don't snap on them for staring. It's hard not to when your knockers take up most of the space." Micky chuckles when Gon glares at him.
"Who's fault is that? You're the one who made me like this." Gon huffs. "You could have made my chest smaller."
"Hey, I had no say in that." Micky holds up his hands. "My power just tweaks your DNA. If you were born a female, this is how you would really look, boobs and all." Gon still has to wonder if he could have made his chest a bit smaller than this. They're a bit heavy too, not something that Gon can't handle of course but he notices the difference. Most defiantly.
"...I still can't believe there's a nen power like that. How did you discover you could do this?" Gon raises his eyebrow, becoming interested once again in Micky. He's a strange guy. Gon doesn't know much about him still but he doesn't have a bad feeling. He doesn't think Micky wants to harm him.
"That's a funny story. I might tell you it later." Micky smirks when Gon pouts. "Don't give me that look. You're adorable with that face of yours." Micky squeezes Gon's cheek, squishing his lips together to make a fishy face.
Gon's heart beats faster when a memory comes back to him. Back when they were 12, Killua and Gon had been arguing about something when Gon pulled at Killua's cheek. Soon after Killua squished his face much like Micky is doing now. It was a bit rougher but the chuckle that left Killua's lips was worth it.
"Your face looks so weird!" Killua chuckled and Gon feels his chest clench. He longs to feel those hands on his face again. He liked it then as a child. He would love it now as an adult.
"Now lets practice on your flirting. You're going to need it for these men. You're going to have to be cute and sexy at the same time." Gon blinks when Micky speaks. The man is no longer touching his face but staring at him with those blue eyes, his expression serious. When had Micky stopped touching him?
"My flirting?" Gon questions. He knows how to flirt with the ladies. But since he has a feeling his targets are going to be male...
"Yup. You're going to have to be sexy for old men pretty much. The more you seduce them, the easier your job is. So lets practice on that guy who keeps staring at you." Micky nods his head. Gon turns his head, his amber eyes making eye contact with this guy across from him. The man flushes and looks away quickly. "Tsk. That won't do. Start up a conversation. I want to see you flirt with this guy. Flirt like you like him. Go. Show me what you got."
Gon flushes. He's never flirted with a guy before. Gon turns his head back to the guy so he can study him. He's not bad looking. He's a skinny man with curly red hair. Gon tries to think of what to say. If this was a girl he wanted to date, how would he start it out? Though after his experience with Micky kissing him last night and his thoughts about Killua after...Gon can't help to question his sexuality a bit.
"Hi there." Gon reaches over and taps this man's shoulder. He tenses before he looks over at Gon, his face getting red, those green eyes shifting away from his. Gon smiles. "I really like your hair. It's cute."
"Oh...um...thanks..."Those green eyes look up at him. "I really like your..." Those green eyes slide down before he looks up quickly. He seems choked up. Gon doesn't really know what to say either. He doesn't really want to go on a date with this guy and he's starting to wonder what he should do next. Honestly he's never really had to approach someone before. The girls came to him and the women on the island came to him too.
"Okay that's awkward." Micky grunts, getting Gon to look over at him. He's shaking his head. " You got to be smoother than that. He obviously likes your rack since he's been staring at them non stop." The man flushes and looks away quickly. "You have an awesome chest Gon and you must use this to your advantage. Men want you. They don't want to take you out on a date. At least most of them won't. They just want to fuck you. So use that."
Gon frowns at the language but he knows Micky is right. The men on this plane are staring him down and it's not giving him a good feeling. It's almost like the feeling he got when Hisoka was staring at his ass as a child, only a lot less frightening. "How do I use my chest?" Gon has just gotten them. Hes' not sure he even wants to use them on these men.
"You know, just stick them out. If you were wearing a low cut shirt it would be a lot easier. But you can use other things to be sexy. Instead of talking like a chirpy little birdy, why don't you try to speak slower? Give me your sexy face right now. I want to see it."
"Sexy face?" Gon blinks.
"Yeah. Try to seduce me. Give me a face like you just got done masturbating and you're all loose and you wouldn't mind another round." Micky's expression doesn't change.
Gon blushes. Can he make such a face? Gon closes his eyes, trying to think of the last time he masturbated and the feelings. He remembers how it felt to cum and those lingering thoughts that get his face to heat up. He opens his eyes giving Micky some sort of face. Maybe it's sexy, it's not too sure but it's the best he could do.
"Not bad." Micky hums. " Just make your eyes half lidded...there you go! Make that face when all else fails and i'm sure they'll try to take you to bed."
"Eh okay." Gon flushes, feeling a bit dirty. His heart is beating faster and he feels a bit warm.
"Alright now I'm going to give you an example of how you should flirt." Gon blinks when Micky starts to twirl Gon's hair on his finger, leaning in, sticking out his chest subtly. "You look like you could use some company mister. I'd like to..." Micky rubs the inside of Gon's thigh. "Entertain you." He leans in, whispering this against his ear.
"Wow." Gon has to admit he feels warm from that. He wonders if he could be as alluring as Micky just was.
"Sexy right? Now you try. Maybe use your body a little. Spread your legs, touch your neck. Use your body as a weapon."
"I'll try..." Gon tries to think all of all the movies he's seen and how the women were sexy in them. "Maybe later me and you could get a ice cream cone." Gon speaks slower like Micky told him, leaning forward.
"Okay now say something that suggests something dirty." Micky encourages, moving his hand in a come on motion.
"We can share an ice cream cone." Gon licks his lips. Micky blinks.
"Wow... you're terrible at this."
"Hey!" Gon pouts, straightening himself out. "I just turned into a woman less than four hours ago. I don't know how to be sexy as a girl. I'm still sort of getting use to the fact I have breasts you know?"
"Well how did you act sexy when you were a man?"
Gon thinks for a moment. Has he every tried to be sexy? Gon has taken girls on dates and they kissed but he doesn't think he's ever tried to seduce them. Because Gon didn't want to make love to those girls. He had a fun time with them on their dates but when it came time for Gon to walk them home, he always declined when they asked him if he wanted to come up to their room. Once he thinks about it, he supposes those girls tired to seduce him, popping out their chest, bending down in front of him, twirling their hair, just like Micky was doing. It didn't really work on him though.
"Alright, personal question time. Are you a virgin?" Micky watches as Gon's in thought eyes look at him.
"Yeah I am." Gon answers without any shame or embarrassment.
"Shit you really are a virgin." Micky groans, rubbing the back of his head. "Okay have you ever done anything? Like I don't know, have you gotten a blow job from someone or a hand job at least?"
"There was this one girl who tried to give me a hand job after our date but I stopped her."
"Why the fuck would you stop her?"Micky blinks.
"Because I didn't really want her to." Gon didn't think he would have to explain himself but Micky is giving him a probing look.
"So you didn't want some chick touching your dick but you let some strange dude touch it?" Micky grins when Gon gives him a slight glare, his cheeks tinting.
"You said you would help me get my nen back." Gon huffs. "it's not like it was anything sexual because you were cutting me."
"Cutting can be sexual. You were getting hard from it-"
Gon shoves Micky a bit, feeling embarrassed for once in his life and a little confused. He did get a little hard from it.
"I think the only reason you're a virgin is because you've been barking up the wrong tree." Micky grins. "You were hot as a man and you're hot as a woman. There's no reason that you shouldn't be getting mad tail. I'm thinking that you're not into girls though. Have you ever thought about dating a guy?"
"No I haven't..." Gon starts only to trail off when he remembers something. A long time ago after they lost to Knuckle and Shoot, Gon had to take Palm on a date. Killua didn't seem happy about it and soon after Gon learned he never went on a date. Gon never got the chance to do it but Gon started to plan out a date for Killua. He wanted to take him on a date because he's never been on one. Back then he thought he was being nice, but now that he's older, looking back at it...Gon remembers how he smiled thinking about all the things to do with Killua. The idea of going on a date with Killua now makes him feel warm.
"By that look on your face, i'm going to say you have." Micky studies Gon for a moment. "So what's up? Are you embarrassed about liking guys or something?"
"No. This is just new to me...I've always thought girls are pretty and soft but..." Gon's eyebrows furrow. "I didn't even really think about being attracted to guys as a possibility. I've only just recently learned about gay marriage and what being gay means."
"So you're just inexperienced." Micky smirks. "I go both ways Gon and I must say, a prefer a nice muscular man. You just need to experiment a little. So if you've ever in the mood, I'm always waiting for you baby."
"No thanks." Gon shakes his head, his cheeks tinting but when he sees Micky wiggle his eyebrows, he can't help to chuckle.
"Ugh fine." Micky rolls his eyes but his smile is teasing. "But you know your like of guys could help in these missions. You just need to look around and explore this part of you. I mean, what have you been doing all this time? You haven't experimented at all with guys?"
"No. I've mainly been doing missions and traveling." And sending pictures to Killua, thinking about him.
"Alright, this mission is like your vacation. We're going to have a good ol time exploring that sexuality of yours anddd we have a lot of work with your flirt game."
"I guess so." Gon gives Micky a sheepish smile before he grabs his phone and opens it up. He frowns when he sees there's no signal. He still can't send a message to Killua and he feels that silent panic in his chest. What if Killua is trying to contact him? What if something happens? Gon really wants to tell Killua about how he turned into a woman but at the very least he wants to tell him how he's questioning his sexuality and he might very well like guys. This is something his best friend should know. But Gon has no way to contact him.
Gon tries to think of what Killua would say to finding out about him being gay to calm his panic. Gon draws a blank. He doesn't know what Killua would say to that. Would he be alright with it? Would he think he's weird? Gon wants him to be okay with it. Gon wants...Gon wants to try to take Killua on the date he never got to as a child. Gon opens his eyes when his heart beats faster.
"So hey, tell me about those missions and where you traveled." Micky slowly lowers the phone that Gon tried to mess with to send Killua the message even though he has no signal. Gon's eyes light up and he turns to Micky, pushing Killua to the back of his mind for just a moment. It's been awhile since he's had someone to talk about his travels in person. So Gon tells Micky. He hops in his seat as he tells him all the wondrous things he's seen, all the amazing things he did. All the things he wanted to share with Killua but the other male isn't by his side and Gon wonders if he's even seen all the messages he's sent.
He has to push thoughts of Killua to the back of his mind as he talks to Micky. The other male is listening intently, his eyes wide when Gon would say something amazing and it just feels good.
It feels nice having someone to talk to. It's nice telling someone this story and having them respond to him. Maybe Micky was right...maybe he really was having a conversation with himself for 2 years. Maybe he was talking for Killua because...Gon couldn't bare not having him. It took Micky saying something to him and being here for Gon to come to terms with it but honestly, Gon knew all this time. Gon knows he has a problem but he knows...oh he knows that when he gets signal he'll go back to messaging Killua.
Because that's all he has of Killua now. The only connection he has with his best friend.
And it is sad.
"Yorknew!" Gon cheers as he runs into the hotel room and doing a belly flop on the bed. He sighs at feeling the comfortable mattress. It's nice that they're staying in this hotel. It's the same one he stayed at with Killua and Leorio.
"Finally. I hate traveling."Micky groans as he throws their things to the side of the bed. "So it's like 5 in the afternoon, I'm gong to go out to get you some clothes. Did you see how many people were looking at you strangely? It's because your wearing what looks to be a long shirt with nothing underneath."
"I have boxers on but I couldn't fit my pants anymore. My pants were too tight." Gon frowns as he sits up in bed, remembering all the looks he got from the older women.
"Yeah I know, that's why I'm going to go shopping for you. I'm going to make you look so fly." Gon tilts his head as Micky pulls out measuring tape from his bag. "I'm going to measure you and then while i'm gone, you're free to do whatever in here."
"I think i'm going to practice my ten." Gon smiles at the idea of being able to control his nen again. He stands up and lets Micky measure his shoulders, his waist, his bust, and his hips.
"Good idea. Get a start on that. Man your boobs have to be a D at least. You could be a model." Micky grins at Gon who feels like he should cover his chest.
"You really think so?" Gon beams. Him a model? He doesn't really want to be that but it's a funny thing to think about.
"Yup. That's why you are a model. At least that's what you're going to tell everyone." Micky straightens himself out. "So I'm going to be back in a couple of hours." Micky waves him off and before Gon can ask him anything else he's booking it out the hotel room.
"Why am I going to tell people I'm a model?" Gon tilts his head, frowning slightly from not having an answer. Gon blinks when he remembers he should be able to text Killua now. He looks for his phone only to tense when he can't find it. Where did he...Then he remembers Micky had held his phone when they were getting off the plane. Micky distracted him and he took his phone with him. Gon huffs and flops down on the bed. He wanted to text Killua but it seems Micky is going to make it hard on him.
Gon closes his eyes as he crosses his legs. There's no need to get panicked about it. Not when he can be practicing his nen.
Gon closes his eyes, taking a deep breath as he focuses on letting his nen come out through his pores. His eyebrows furrow when his nen comes out in an crazy fire rather than a controlled flame. Gon takes deep breaths, trying to get his nen to calm. He clears his mind and soon, his nen is a soft glow around him. It's making him sweat holding it but he has it. If he keeps practicing he'll be able to use his nen like he did when he was twelve.
Gon opens his eyes, tensing when he sees himself in the mirror, not recognizing himself. He blinks at the woman looking back at him, sitting on the bed in a meditating position. Gon touches his face, the woman doing the same. It really is strange. It's something to get use to. Micky didn't even seem sure if he can change him back. Gon is happy he got his nen back but he's not sure about being a woman. He can't help to think of Killua. Would he even recognize him when they meet again? Gon looks like himself with the tan skin and the amber eyes and black hair tinged green but it's going to confuse Killua seeing him like this.
Gon's stomach twists and he feels restless without his phone. He wants to tell Killua what happened. He wants to talk to him. But Micky doesn't want him telling anyone about his transformation. Gon wonders if he told Killua, would he be quick to come find him? Maybe he would scold him for letting Micky do this to him. He might be angry at Micky. He might cross his arms like he does and glare. Gon smiles at the thought.
What if he doesn't even respond to this?
Gon's smile falls. That would hurt. Gon closes his eyes and tries to work on his nen again, pushing Killua to the back of his mind. Gon makes his mind blank which calms his heart and stomach that were getting upset from his thoughts. He just focuses on his nen. Killua is pushed aside.
Gon doesn't know how long he's been meditating but by the time Micky walks into the apartment, Gon is soaked from sweating and his nen flows a bit more freely out of his body.
"Yo! I'm back. I got you a lot of the good stuff." Micky grins as he walks into the room, shutting the door behind him. He's carrying a couple of bags. Gon opens his eyes and smiles at Micky, letting his nen go back inside. "I see you're getting to work on your nen. It looks good." He wrinkles his nose. "Did you have sweat all over the bed though?"
"Working with my nen breaks a sweat. I didn't think I would sweat this much." Gon chuckles, rubbing the back of his head as he stands up. He watches Micky put down the bags before he digs in one. "Are those my new clothes?"
"Yes and then some." Micky pulls out a white container, walking over to Gon. Gon tilts his head as Micky opens them, revealing two contacts. "These will change your eye color to green."
"...Are they really necessary?"
"Tomorrow night you will be going to the hunter ball. It's a huge thing and I'm pretty sure you're going to see people you know there. There may be people you know in town too. So when ever you leave this apartment, you have to put these in. Your amber eyes are unique to you. Even though you're a chick now, someone might easily pick you out because of your eyes." Micky closes the container before handing them to Gon.
"The hunter ball...?" Gon's eyes light up when he remembers Leorio talking about it. He said it was mainly for hunters who have families or who enjoy dances. Leorio said there wouldn't be alcohol so he didn't want to go. Also he said Kurapika wouldn't be going. Gon was going to meet up with Leorio and just see what he's been doing as a Doctor but now that he's going to the hunter ball, Gon can't help to wonder if...Killua will be there. His heart beats faster, and he swallows. "I've heard of the ball before. Why am I going there? Is the target a hunter?"
"No and yes." Micky stretches, taking off his shirt before jumping on the bed, crossing his arms behind his head. "Your first target is a guy named Rose. Yes, his name is Rose. And he named himself that. He's a crazy mother fucker, Gon. He spends his time hunting young women and selling them into the sex industry. The hunter association hasn't been able to prove it yet. The only reason the hunter association started to think something is wrong is because all the young females missing were involved with Rose. Young female hunters or children of hunter kept going missing. Rose would trick them and take the young girls to sell them. He would gain their trust by his looks and polite ways. They suspect it's him but they don't have the proof. I know he's done these crimes."
Micky's eyes flash, those blue eyes getting darker. "You Gon, will bring him in. Once he lays eyes on you, it will be like a moth attracted to light. You will talk to him, get him alone. You will be captured by him and you will find out where he's keeping his latest group of girls. He can't know how strong you are. You will make him think you want him. You will act as if you have no idea who he is. He is a very attractive man and that's how he gets his women. You will play the part of the victim."
"So I'm the one who's getting the proof."Gon nods his head, finally getting why this form is needed. Rose is after young women. If Rose knew he was Gon Freecss, he wouldn't try to sell him most likely. That's why Micky doesn't want him to tell anyone. It makes sense. Gon has to act like he's weak. Gon doesn't like that much though.
"Yup so tomorrow we're going to go into town and you're going to practice being a vulnerable woman. We'll also work on your flirting." Micky nods his head, yawning. "Once we have where he's selling the woman, we have the proof. We'll bring him in and then we can knock him off our list. We have to do this quick alright? So you do all you can to make him interested. Make him want to sell you." Micky starts to tap his fingers restlessly, talking about Rose is making him anxious.
"Eh I wish I could just fight him. I don't like this sneaky stuff." Gon wrinkles his nose.
"You can beat him to shit but that doesn't prove he's the one who took those females. He's not stupid either. You can torture him and he might tell you where the girls are but by the time we get there, all of them will be gone. He has others working with him. This is the only way we can get him Gon." Micky looks at Gon seriously. Then he grins. "Once we have him, you can fight him. He's a pretty worthy opponent. You'll have fun fighting him."
"Yeah?" Gon's eyes light up in excitement.
"Yeah." Micky grins before he pats the spot next to him. "Lets watch a movie or something before we go to bed. A lot of crap happened didn't it?"
"Yeah." Gon looks over at the bags before he gets in the bed next to Micky, getting under the covers as Micky messes with the remote to turn on the TV. "How do you know that Rose is the one who's taken all the girls?"
"I just do." Micky gets stiff. He grins widely. "Look! Family guy is on! Love this shit!" Gon's eyebrows furrow but he looks at the TV. Soon he forgets what they were talking about, the show making his mind go numb as they laugh at the jokes.
Gon doesn't want to think anyway. Every time he thinks of the hunter ball, he thinks about Killua and if he'll be there. Gon feels his fingers twitch. He wants to contact Killua but...maybe it's better he doesn't. Gon swallows when he thinks of Killua trying to contact him and he turns on Micky. "Hey do you have my phone?"
"Yeah I got your crappy flip phone." Micky grunts, taking the phone out. "If you're going to text Killua, don't tell him where you are or what you're doing or that you're a woman now."
Gon nods his head. He frowns but he'll listen. Gon types in Killua's number and saves it. He doesn't know Leorio's or Kurapika's by heart so he'll have to find those on the hunter website later. Gon feels himself clam down now that he's able to text Killua.
"Hey Killua! My old phone was broken so I had to get his one! I can't send you anymore pictures:( I'm on a new mission and I can't tell you much but a bunch has happened. I wish I could tell you. I bet you couldn't even guess what's happened to me." Gon texts this and then sends it to Killua.
Gon falls asleep waiting for Killua to text him back. He never does.
"Isn't this a little short?" Gon blinks as he looks at the white skirt Micky bought for him. The skirt comes up to his upper thigh and shows off his toned, smooth legs.
"Nah. This is the style now." Micky waves his hand, watching as Gon looks at himself in the mirror.
"And the shirt is low too." Gon blushes at seeing the top of his breasts showing. "It looks cute though." Gon has to admit. The fluffy green shirt with the white skirt looks good on his new body.
"It's adorable." Micky hums. "And by showing your lady lumps, you'll easily attract attention. You ready to go out in the city?" Micky's smile falls slightly when he sees Gon look over towards his phone, a frown on Gon's lips. Killua didn't message him. Why did Gon think it would be different? Maybe he thought Killua would be interested in this new mission.
Maybe Killua isn't interested in him at all anymore.
"I'll get you an ice cream." Micky wraps an arm around his shoulder, grinning at him as he walks with Gon out of the apartment, leaving the phone resting on the bed. "I still owe you that for breaking your phone."
"Mm Ice cream sounds good." Gon smiles, pushing Killua to the back of his mind. He's working after all. Micky is a nice employer. "So while we're in the city, you're going to teach me to be more lady like?"
"Yeah i'm going to try. Getting you to wear this skirt will also get you use to the dress you're going to wear tonight." Micky walks with Gon out of the hotel. Gon blinks at the bright light from the sun and all the people walking around in the streets. "Mannn this place is packed. They're all here for the hunter ball I bet you."
"So many." Gon's eyes light up in excitement as he looks at everyone, feeling his lips twitch up into a smile. As Gon and Micky walk in the direction with the crowd, Gon gets a few looks and soon those looks turn into whistling and winking.
"Try winking back." Micky offers. Gon closes his one eye in a wink but it feels strange on his face. Micky chuckles. "That was horrible. Don't look like you have something in your eye."
"It's weird." Gon huffs but this time he winks and offers a guy a smile. He eats it up.
"That's better!" Micky beams. "Let's work on that walk. You walk like a dude. Try swaying your hips more."
"Do I need to?" Gon's eyebrows furrow. " I think my walk is fine."
"Okay but you're not going to be able to work it tonight with that walk." Micky huffs.
Gon doesn't know much about 'working' it but he's sure he'll be fine without doing too much of this. Gon still doesn't like the idea of what he's going to do even though he understands it. "Alright. Lets do a exercise. I'm going to leave you on this bench and if anyone comes by to flirt, flirt back. I'll be watching off on the side and giving you pointers." Micky gives him a thumbs up when they get to a bench before he walks off.
"I just stay here?" Gon blinks, watching as Micky disappears into the crowd of people. Gon sighs, flopping down on the bench, his eyebrows furrowing. This job is strange. A few men pass him giving him winks or cat calls. Gon masters his wink but he notices that most the time these men are next to women that don't look too happy at Gon when he winks back.
Gon kicks his legs, feeling bored already. His mind is starting to wander places he doesn't want it to. Every time he sees white, his heart lifts up, thinking maybe, just maybe Killua could be here but when he finds out it's not him, Gon's heart sinks. Gon feels small on this bench. There's something about to break in him, and he doesn't like it. Gon stands up quickly and pushes his way pass the crowd, ignoring the whistles even though he's suppose to be flirting. He doesn't feel like it right now. The contacts he put in are irritating his eyes. The more he blinks, the dryer his eyes feel. He wishes he didn't have to be in disguise.
Gon finally gets out of the crowd. Now he's standing in front of a clothing store, the man running it wiggling his eyebrows at him. These men don't know how to make a girl feel welcomed or comfortable. Some of them are looking him up and down and Gon doesn't like the hungry look they get-
"Ah!" Gon's eyes widen when a girl suddenly runs out of the crowd, tripping on her own feet. Gon is quick to catch her, stopping her from falling on her face.
"Are you alright?" Gon's eyebrows furrow. The girl's head landed against Gon's shoulder, her black hair in her face.
"Yeah i'm fine. S-Sorry about that." She giggles, pulling away, looking at Gon with apologetic blue eyes. Gon feels his mouth go dry. He knows those eyes. He knows that face. He's only seen her once but he would never forget that face. "I shouldn't have tried to move pass the crowd."
Gon can't say anything. He just stares at Alluka. Still not believing it. This is Killua's sister, the one he left with. Gon's heart is beating so fast and only when Alluka narrows her eyes at him does he snap out of his shock.
"You look kind of familiar..." Alluka tilts her head before she smiles. "I would remember a face like yours! You're so pretty! Ohh and I love your skirt!" Alluka gushes over Gon. "And your shoes!" She squeals when she looks down at the white slip ons Micky bought him.
"Thanks." Gon smiles and it feels strange on his face. He's about to have a heart attack. "You look familiar too..."
"Yeah?" Alluka beams. "That's probably because my brother is a famous hunter! We've been traveling and seeing a bunch of cool places!" Alluka huffs suddenly, this look of irritation on her face. "I had to get away from him though. He never lets me go off on my own. I love him and all but I want some room to breathe."
"Y-Your brother is here?" Gon swallows, his mouth going dry. He listens to Alluka intently, wanting to know more about what Alluka and Killua have been up to.
"Yeah over there some where trying to get some more chocolate. He's not too happy i've pretty much forced him to come here for the ball." Alluka smiles sheepishly. "But I want to meet people my own age! I was hoping to meet some of the hunter's children but..." Alluka looks at Gon with her blue eyes lighting up. "I was hoping to find another girl about my age. Do you want to go shopping with me?" Alluka flushes, getting a bit bashful now.
"Sure." Gon nods his head dumbly, his heart beating so fast. Killua is here. He's getting chocolate. Killua is in the same town as him. Killua's sister is right here. She's grown a lot too. Her black hair reaches her waist, her blue eyes so bright and pretty. She's wearing a blue dress that goes to her ankles. She's adorable and she comes to Gon's chest. It makes Gon wonder how much Killua has grown, what he looks like. He's so close. Gon is feeling light headed and he just wants to squeeze Alluka he's so happy to see her.
"Yay!" Alluka cheers,doing a little dance only to flush. "I'm being weird aren't I?"
"Nope." Gon chuckles doing a little dance with her. "Dancing isn't weird at all!"
"hehe yeah! Ohh what's your name? I didn't even introduce myself! My name is Alluka!" Alluka holds out her hand.
"My name is G-" Gon stops, choking up on his words, getting pale. He can't give her his name! Especially since she's going to be at the ball...No one is suppose to know about him. A name suddenly pops in his head and he speaks it. "Grace. My name is Grace."
"Grace! That's a pretty name!" Alluka's eyes light up. "Are you going to the hunter's ball too Grace? I would love to see you there!"
"Yeah I am." Gon smiles when Alluka squeals.
"I want to show you my dress! Do you have a picture of yours?" Alluka pulls out her phone and starts sliding through her pictures to show Gon a dress that's large and puffy, a light pink. Gon can't help to smile at it.
"That will look great on you Alluka! You'll look adorable in it." Gon beams, getting Alluka to flush.
"You don't think it's too childish?"
"No! It looks like a princess dress!" Gon hums, liking Alluka's energy. It's nice having someone to get excited with again. And it's Killua's sister. Killua is here. "Alluka's going to be a princess!"
"No." Alluka blushes but her eyes are brighter. "Grace is the one who's going to look like a princess! What color is your dress?"
"I'm not really sure-"
"Don't tell me you don't have one!" Alluka gasps, grabbing onto Gon's wrists, looking at him seriously.
"I do but um..." It's green with bows. Gon's eyes widen at that voice but he doesn't question it. He will later. "It's green with bows." Gon watches Alluka's eyes sparkle and he can't help to chuckle. He's never seen someone get so excited over clothes.
"Maybe we could get ready together! I've always wanted to have someone to have a makeover with." Alluka is bouncing. "I could curl your hair and do your makeup!"
"That sounds like fun- "Gon starts.
"Sis!" Gon's heart stops. He swears it does. Gon swallows thickly as he turns his head slowly towards the voice. That voice that has gotten lower with maturity but is the same voice he knows.
Gon feels like his heart is going to explode when Killua shoves his way through the crowd, standing before him. It's Killua. He would recognize him anywhere. His white hair has grown longer in the sense it's puffer, his bangs framing his face but his hair only covers the back of his neck. Killua's blue eyes are so bright, a thin eyebrow twitching in irritation. Killua has gotten taller. Much taller actually, just as Gon had feared. He towers over him! The blue shirt he's wearing right now shows off his pale skin and his muscular arms. Seeing him like this, Gon can't help to wonder how much stronger he's gotten. Gon can't help to wonder a lot of things but in this moment, all he can think about is that Killua is right in front of him.
Gon feels a lump in his throat and all he wants to do is hug Killua and tell him how much he missed him. "Killua." Gon says breathlessly. What ever Alluka was about to say is cut off by Gon saying Killua's name. He looks at Gon with his eyebrow raised, his eyes narrowing.
"How do you know my name?" Killua shoves his hands in his pockets, looking him up and down. Those sharp eyes locking with his. "Why are you around my sister?"
Gon opens his mouth. He's speechless.
"This is Grace!" Alluka gives Killua a nervous smile. "I think we've met her before! She looks really familiar to me."
"Yeah...She does." Killua stares at Gon's face, those blue eyes flashing before he closes them and takes a deep breath. "I don't know where i've seen you before. Why don't you jog my memory?" Killua glances at Gon from the corner of his eye.
Gon can only stare at him. He still can't believe it. Killua's here. Gon wants to tell Killua the truth but when he opens his mouth, he can't say anything. Killua raises his eyebrow, waiting for an answer. Gon's eyes shift from side to side, starting to sweat when Killua gives him that probing look. He's seen it before but it's never been this intense on him before. "I feel like...i've seen you a lot. Maybe i've seen you here before?" Gon tries.
Killua is quiet for a minute, studying Gon. "Yeah. Maybe. But if my sister has seen you before, it couldn't have been here." Killua keeps staring. "Why are you sweating? What's there to be nervous about?" Killua narrows his eyes again.
"Because...because it's you." Gon rubs his arm. He can't help to wonder if it's his mind playing tricks on him. He's pictured this moment so many times in his head...and this is nothing like he pictured.
They aren't running into each others arms and hugging. No. Gon is a woman named Grace and Killua is looking at him like he doesn't trust him. Gon wants to tell him but when ever he opens his mouth to tell him who he is, his voice leaves him.
Killua blinks before his face wrinkles up. "Ugh don't tell you're one of those crazy fan girls. I'm not interested in someone who looks like you." Killua shakes his head. Gon feels a stinging in his chest that he doesn't understand but it hurts. Killua looks away from him to give his sister an annoyed look. "What are you doing talking to someone like this?"
"I'm not a fan girl." Gon growls, not understanding why his face is getting hotter, but something is building up.
"Really?" Killua hums, giving Gon this look. "You keep staring at me like I'm your long lost love or something. It's pathetic. I don't even know who you are but you stupid girls fall in love with me. It's annoying."
Gon feels a pang in is heart. He doesn't even know who he is. He doesn't recognize him? Just a tiny bit? Gon swallows the lump in his throat...was he really staring at Killua like that? Like he loves him? Killua's reaction to him makes something ache in him.
"Killua stop being mean to Grace!" Alluka hits her brother, glaring at him. "She's really nice! And she's going to the hunter's ball too!-"
"You're a hunter?" Killua raises his eyebrow, He's sneering at him, doubting him. "What, are you the daughter of a hunter?"
"What makes you think I'm not a hunter?" Gon counters, gripping his fists, glaring at Killua. The ex assassin blinks at the look Gon is giving him. There's a ringing in his head and he winces.
"Because if you were, you'd be the type to stalk." Killua shakes his head.
"Brother." Alluka glares. "She wouldn't stalk you. Grace is really nice. It's not her fault that you look like this. All the girls fall for you and you're so mean. Grace is going to get ready with us to go to the ball!-"
"No. We're not taking her to where we're staying. Absolutely not." Killua gives his sister a firm look.
"But Grace is my friend-"
"No. You can see Grace at the ball." Killua turns those cold eyes on Gon. He smirks, Gon's heart beating faster with him being so close. Gon reaches out to touch Killua only for his eyes to widen when Killua smacks his hand away. It stings. "Don't be so pushy. No guy likes that. You might have a pretty face but i'm not interested in sluts. So if you're trying to get closer to me through my sister, you're wasting your time." Killua whispers so Alluka can't hear.
Gon is speechless again. Killua has never talked to him like this. Ever. He's never spoke so meanly too him either. "I want to spend time with Alluka."Gon finds himself saying. Killua stares at him a moment before sighing.
"Well then I guess we'll be seeing you at the ball Grace. Come on Alluka." Killua grabs his sister's hand before he marches off with her. Alluka turns to look back at Gon, smiling apologetic.
"Bye Grace! See you at the ball! I'm sorry about my brother!" She waves. Gon waves after her numbly.
He stands there, still staring after where Killua was. He was right within reach but...he felt so far away. Farther than when Gon was just sending him messages. Gon couldn't even tell him who he was but the way Killua looked at him...that's not how Gon wanted their reunion to go.
Gon's eyes water, his chest heaving. He turns on his heel and runs as fast as he can back to the hotel. He's not surprised to find Micky waiting for him, sitting on the bed. "You're the reason aren't you? That I couldn't tell Killua who I was?" Gon breaths rapidly, a lump in his throat.
"I couldn't let you. He's going to be in the ball. I don't need him ruining our plans."
"Killua wouldn't! He wouldn't tell anyone-"
"Gon...or should I say Grace? You can not tell him, not in till Rose is captured." Micky's expression gets dark when Gon is about to protest. "He didn't even recognize you. What's the point in you getting all worked up over this? This guy hasn't been texting you for years. What makes you think he'll be so happy to see you?"
Gon's breath catches in his throat. He tries to think of anything to say to that. Anything at all. "Killua...Killua wants to see me-"
"Please. You're so in denial." Micky rolls his eyes. " It's pathetic really."
Gon flinches at the word pathetic, remembering Killua's words. Gon opens his mouth to say something but he can't. He just stares at the floor, his eyebrows furrowed, that lump in his throat growing.
"Maybe I am." Gon looks up at Micky. "...But I still want to talk to Killua. If I can't talk to him as Gon, i'll talk to him as Grace. Because...he's my best friend." Gon's voice breaks. "I'm going to take a shower."
Gon walks into the bathroom and shuts the door behind him. He gets in the tub and just hugs his knees to his chest. When he gets bad like this he needs a little time out. He needs to get away.
Gon just can't believe it.
Gon use to stay up just imagining Their reunion. He pictured Killua hugging him and smiling at him. He pictured them racing and playing like they use to. He pictured nice words being exchanged and a mutual relief that they're back together.
That's not what Gon got. There was no smiling or hugging. Just this coldness. Gon has been wanting this moment for so long and now that it's here, Gon has never felt so alone. Maybe it would have been better if Gon never saw Killua. At least then he could pretend. He could pretend that Killua reads his messages and that he cares about what he's been doing. But after seeing him in person...seeing how well off Killua is without him, how much stronger he's gotten...it's obvious to him now.
Killua doesn't need him. Doesn't want him.
The tears fall down Gon's cheeks, his shoulders shaking in silence. It hurts. Because Gon isn't okay without Killua. He's not okay being away from him. All he does is think about Killua and what' he's done. Everything he does he wants to share with Killua. He's missed him so much and now that he's here, now that Gon's finally seen the boy he's been thinking about non stop...
Everything is falling apart.
Alluka and Killua are closer than ever. They've been fine together. Killua doesn't need him. He doesn't want him. He has someone to share his experiences with. He has someone to care for him...
Gon is left with no one.
Gon only lets himself cry for a little while, only lets himself sit in this tub and self loath for a moment before he pulls himself together. He gets out of the tub, wipes at his eyes, surprised that the contacts stayed in.
Maybe Gon is dead to Killua. Maybe right now, Gon can't get to Killua. But Grace can. She can hang out with Alluka and be around Killua. Even if Killua finds him annoying, at least he's around him again. Gon glares at himself, his eyes becoming filled with determination. He has a job to do. He's Gon Freecss. He's not going to break down. No.
"Micky." Gon walks out of the bathroom, smiling at Micky who raises his eyebrow at him from the 360 in mood.
"Teach me how to be more like a woman."
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