Gon groans, feeling cold, bare. It's so cold in here, is he even wearing anything? Gon wakes up and as soon as he feels that his arms are restricted above his head, he becomes on high alert, his senses coming on and tuning in on his situation. Since his eyes are opened and he doesn't see anything, he knows he's been blind folded and he knows he's tied by his hands right now, against something metal and cold.
He tries to move his legs and he's able to with no problems, his muscles are slow to respond to him though. Gon tests the restraints, they dig into him but he knows he'll be able to break them. He listens intently, there's someone else around him. He smells their cheap scented products and can hear their guff laughter.
Gon is confused so he tries to think of how he got in this situation. Then he remembers the pain in his neck, remembers falling. He was at the ball. He was suppose to seduce Rose and get him to take him to the warehouse where he's hiding the other girls. It didn't work out and then Micky told him to talk to Alluka-
"S-Stay away from me." Gon tenses when he hears that voice, his eyes widening and his heart seizing up in alarm. Alluka. She's here. Who ever kidnapped him took Alluka too. Those men are laughing and he can sense they're to his left, where Alluka's voice was.
"We just want to see what we're working with. Our buyers won't buy unless they can have the product displayed." Someone speaks and it makes Gon feel ill. "Hold her feet, I'll just rip the dress off, she's not going to let us take it off-"
No. Gon isn't going to let that happen. Gon breaks his restraints, the sound of metal breaking gets the men to stop talking. Gon rips off his blindfold, glaring darkly at these men who are looking at him with wide eyes, there's about five of them surrounding Alluka. Her dress is ruffled and torn on the side, her hands cuffed above her head and a blind fold on her eyes.
"What the hell?" One of them says and that's about all the get to say before Gon is on them. He punches one guy in the chin, knocking him into another guy, both hitting the wall hard. Gon grabs another and head butts them when he tried to grab him. He pushes the other guy and breaks him through the wall without barely trying. The last guy tries to run but Gon picks up one of the unconscious guys and throws it at him, knocking him down hard, busting his head open and getting him out of the count.
"W-What's going on?" Alluka trembles, looking around. She's probably confused. All she heard was a bunch of loud noises and those men crying out in pain. "Big brother?"
"No it's me. G-Grace." Gon almost said his real name.
"Grace!" Alluka sighs in relief. "I was so worried! When I woke up I was like this and I didn't know where you were! I thought they were hurting you." Alluka sounds like she's about to cry. She must have been so scared.
"Don't worry Alluka. I'm fine. Did they hurt you?" Gon grabs the keys off of one of those men before he walks over to her and unlocks her cuffs, letting her arms free.
"I don't think so. They were trying to take off my dress but...they didn't do anything else. I think they were trying to sell me." Alluka rubs her wrists that are sore before she takes off her blind fold. Her eyes widen when she sees all the men laying on the floor unconscious before she looks at Gon. She flushes and looks away from him. "G-Grace what happened to your dress?" Alluka tenses and looks at him seriously, frowning deeply. "They didn't..."
"Huh?" Gon blinks, looking down at himself only to blush and cover his chest. He's wearing nothing but green underwear. They took off his dress. Gon looks around for his beautiful green dress but it's no where to be seen. Gon knew he felt cold. And he knew it felt strange when he ran, like an extra weight bouncing on his chest. Gon feels weird touching his chest so he stops covering it, sighing. Curse this body. He can't just run around without his shirt anymore.
"Did they hurt you?" Alluka moves closer, seeming to forget Gon doesn't have a shirt on, frowning deeply.
"I don't feel like they did anything to me. I think they just took off my dress." Gon wrinkles his nose, looking at Alluka who sighs in relief.
"Good. I got really worried-" Alluka seems to take in all the men who are passed out around them, bleeding and hurting. She looks at Gon, tilting her head. "Did you do this?"
"Um..." You know karate. Tell her you were taught karate to fight off the crazy's at your modeling shows."Yeah I did. I know karate. I was taught karate to fight off the crazies at my modeling shows."
"Wow! Grace you're really strong! That's amazing!" Alluka's eyes light up in admiration. "That makes sense, a pretty girl like you needs to know how to protect themselves!...You don't think these people kidnapped us because you're a model do you?"
"I'm not sure." Gon has a pretty good idea who it was. It was Rose. Gon grips his fists. He has to fight Rose. He has to find him and he has to find the other girls here before he sees that he's done this and tries to flee. Gon has to make sure Alluka is okay though.
"Or maybe it has something to do with me..." Alluka frowns, rubbing her arm. "If it does...I'm sorry Grace. You could have gotten hurt because of me. I didn't-"
"It wasn't you Alluka. I'm pretty sure this is completely my fault so I'm sorry I dragged you into this." Gon says firmly before giving her a soft smile. "We have to get out of here before more people show up. We should get help." Good! Act like a victim. Act afraid.
"I-I'm scared." Alluka admits, her small body shaking when they hear someone walking near the room.
"Don't worry. I'm going to get you out of here and back to your brother." Gon smiles at Alluka. " I won't let you get hurt." Gon would never let Killua's sister get hurt. She's the reason why she's still here. She's the reason he lives.
"Grace..." Alluka looks into his eyes for a moment before she nods, her eyebrows furrowing in determination. "Be careful. Big brother should be here any minute. Knowing him he's probably going crazy."
"Yeah probably." Gon chuckles thinking about it. Gon just walk out of the room right now. Gon raises his eyebrow but he does it. When he walks out of the room, he runs into a man. Gon blinks, wondering why Micky wanted him to do that but then he gets a good look at this man, and he knows why.
Rose blinks at him owlishly before those eyes look down at his chest, trailing his body before looking up at Gon, grinning.
"How did you get out?" Rose seems to get himself together, those eyes getting suspicious. Gon glares at him darkly, he can sense Alluka behind him and she's shaking. She's worried about Grace. Alluka has nothing to worry about. But the issue here is that he can't use his nen. Alluka might be able to tell who he is and he's sure Killua isn't close behind.
"Alluka close your eyes and stay behind me." Gon says without looking behind him.
"Ohh your girlfriend is there too?" Rose seems pleased. "I don't know how you got out, I hired a bunch of idiots. Let's get you tied up and pretty again shall we? They'll pay a hefty price for you-"
Gon jumps towards him using that one step technique he's been using as a child. Rose's eyes widen, taken off guard by his speed, Gon punches him in the chest, sending him flying across the room. A bit of his nen comes out with the punch but not much. He hopes it wasn't anything. Gon doesn't give Rose time to think or for his mind to catch up to what just happened. He runs over to Rose, slamming him down on the ground, pinning his arm behind his back.
"You're not that strong." Gon frowns. "I was expecting more."
"What the hell! That power! You're a hunt-" Rose starts only for Gon to shove his face into the ground, not wanting him to say something that Alluka will hear.
"G-Grace can I look? Are you okay?"
"Don't look yet Alluka! Just stay in there. I'm fine. He's no match for my karate!" Gon reassures only for his eyes to widen when Rose's aura spikes, sending him flying of of him. Gon bites his lip as he hits the ceiling only to fall down. He lands on his feet, barley dodging a spike of aura that would have pierced his chest.
"Are you trying to make a fool out of me?" Rose snarls. "Damn those titties." Rose looks down only to look up quickly. "That pretty face got me distracted. I don't know what you plan on doing but you're not leaving here. Sorry honey but you die here."
"G-Grace?" Alluka sounds alarmed.
"No worries Alluka!" Gon calls after her as he glares darkly at Rose. He takes off running towards Rose, frowning and feeling flustered when his breasts bounce but he really can't let that distract him right now. Gon dodges another spike attack from this guy, still running towards him. He steps, flying towards Rose. The man's aura spikes like a porcupine. Like thorns. Gon jumps up quickly, stopping himself from being impaled.
If Gon could use his nen, he would surprise him with his paper attack and take that chance to finish the fight but he can't. Gon uses his strength and lands on the ground with force, cracking the foundation underneath him, making Rose stumble. Don't go over board. Killua is almost on you. You're not hurt at all and there's a bunch of guys passed out and you're not having much trouble with Rose either. Make it look like you're struggling.
Gon frowns. He's not struggling though. And the fact Killua is almost here and he has to act like he's struggling means that Killua has to 'save' him. Gon huffs, wishing he could show this guy what he's really made of but Alluka is here and Killua is almost here. Gon doesn't want them to know who he really is. Not yet. And he can't for his job.
"You bitch!" Rose suddenly charges towards him. Gon's not sure why he suddenly had a burst of rage in till he hears the sirens. Police sirens. Not only that but Gon can sense others coming. The hunters are on the way~ Gon gets ready to fight Rose off, only to remember he's suppose to be struggling. So Gon dodges Rose's hand that's turned into a sharp spike with his red aura. Gon moves quickly, easily and when he sees an opportunity...
He stops dodging and lets the spike go into his shoulder. A wound that won't mess him up too bad but will make it look like he was having problems. Killua is here. Start crying. "Owwwww." Gon groans and maybe he tries too hard with his ow as he falls to the ground, holding his shoulder, feeling flustered with having to act this way. It doesn't hurt that much. He's not going to cry.
Gon blinks as Rose reaches towards him, hitting him on the head only for a flash of light to come. Gon watches as that light kicks the shit out of Rose, his movements so fast Gon can't keep up. By the end of it, Rose is laying on the ground, a bloody and broken mess.
That was...amazing. Gon has heard about Killua's Godspeed from others but he's never gotten to see it himself. That was incredible. Gon feels awe and jealously at the same time. Killua has grown. He's gotten stronger. Gon is...way behind. He's still behind. Gon feels sick, his stomach twists and he has to look down at his hands when Killua turns his gaze on him. Gon could have taken care of that guy by himself. Gon knows that but it still bothers him that Killua is the one who finishes his battle.
Gon isn't weak. But Grace has to be.
Keep your head down. We have a problem. Gon tenses, feeling alarmed and the first thing he wants to do is look up but he doesn't. He keeps his head down.
"Where's my sister?" Killua's voice is guff, worried laced in his tone. Gon can feel how tense he is, can just imagine his expression.
"Big brother?" Alluka peeks out of the room when she heard her brother's voice.
"Sis!" Killua sighs in relief, running over to his sister to hug her tightly. "I'm sorry I didn't get here quicker. Did they hurt you?"
"No i'm fine! Grace helped me! She fought those guys off!" Alluka sounds like she's smiling only for here to gasp. "Grace! Your shoulder! You're bleeding!"
Don't look up. That asshole knocked out your contacts.
"A-Ah...It's..." Gon trembles, not from the pain but from the anxiety of being found out. He starts to look for the contacts but he can't find them. He stays still, keeping his head down.
"Grace?" Alluka frowns. He can feel Killua get closer with his sister. "Big brother I think she's really hurt. She was protecting me the whole time! Without her, I don't know what they would have done to me!" Gon can feel Killua's eyes on him and he doesn't like it. He's exposed.
"Hey, that wound isn't too bad." Killua grunts, and his voice is closer, he's kneeling in front of him. There's a pause. "...Hey, look at me. You're freaking my sister out." Gon blinks when he feels a jacket be placed around his shoulders, covering his body. "There. That's better right?" Gon nods his head , feeling a bit warm from having Killua's jacket on him. He can smell the other man and it's doing things to him. It's been so long, he almost forgot how he smells like. Like cotton and blood.
"Grace is your face hurt?" Alluka's voice is soft. The sirens are right outside the warehouse now. Gon did his job. Rose has been exposed. He did it but he feels like he's failed. They're going to find out.
"N-No I'm fine-"
"Let me see your face." When Gon doesn't listen and Killua reaches out, Gon covers his eyes with his hands. Gon doesn't know what to do. "Stop being stupid. Let me see your face." Killua growls out in irritation.
Don't let him see your face. I'm coming to help you baby.
"Get off." Gon moves his body away from Killua when he tries to move his hands by force. "I'm fine-"
"Then let me see your face." Killua growls, seeming fed up.
"Well hello there." Gon blinks at that voice, recognizing it immediately.
"Who the fuck are you?" Killua snaps.
"Um I'm a cop? Duh. I'm here to deal with this here problem."
"Where's your badge?"
"Where's your dick?"
"Huh?"
"What?"
There's a tense silence before he feels Micky get closer. "If you're not willing to show me the dick, then i'm not willing to show you my badge."
"That makes no sense. None what so ever."
"You're just not familiar with the law here sir. No dick, no badge-"
"You're not a fucking cop-"
"You're right. I'm not a cop. I'm a unicorn."
"What the fuck? Are you high?"
"High on life. High on life my friend. Don't be hating. Just be appreciating...okay yeah I am high. Just a tiny bit. It seemed like a good idea at the time." Micky sniffs before Gon feels him suddenly on him. "To be high or not to be high, that is the question." Gon blinks when he feels Micky shove something into his eyes and it stings and hurts. He blinks and he knows he has contacts now.
"Get away from her creep." Killua snarls just when Gon looks up, seeing Killua yank Micky away- Gon's eyes widen when he takes in how Micky is wearing a red wig and a police outfit. Micky grins at Gon.
"Can you guess who I am?" Micky gets away from Killua to start thrusting his hips forward in a dance.
"No?" Gon blinks.
"Rin from Free? Come on don't tell me i'm the only one who watches Free?" Micky looks around only to get blank stairs. "yall are no fun. Look at that face." Micky points at Killua who glares darkly. "You know what that face says? It says 'ughhghhghghghg I hate everything and everyone. Uhhhh' if you look in the dictionary you would find that face under the definition of grump."
Killua looks like he's about ready to kill Micky only for a bunch of cops and hunters to run in. Micky takes this chance to run out, leaving Gon starting after him with wide eyes. Well...Micky did help him. But he did it in the weirdest of ways. Gon can't help to start chuckling when he sees the look on Killua's face. Now he'll think of what Micky said when he looks at Killua's face.
"What the hell you giggling at?" Killua snarls which only gets his sister to laugh as well.
"You really do have a grumpy face." Gon chuckles getting Killua to bristle.
"Shut up." Killua snaps, crossing his arms before glaring after where Micky was. "His voice sounded familiar..."
Gon blinks. Killua knows Micky? Get out of there some how. "Um...Well i'm going to go now. Get myself cleaned up." Gon stands up, knowing his work is done. "I hope you don't mind if I use your jacket to cover up. I'll give it back to you tomorrow. You're picking me up tomorrow right?"
"Grace you should go to the hospital." Alluka frowns. Killua is giving him this look, he's analyzing him.
"No it's alright-" Say your manager will fix it. "My manager will fix me up." You're scared of the hospital. "I'm scared of the hospital."
"Your manager can take care of a wound like that?" Killua raises his eyebrow.
Hell yeah I can. "Yeah he can. It's not a bad wound either, I've been stabbed worse-" Gon tenses when Killua's eyes flash, catching that. Bitches. Say bitches did it. "You know..." Gon coughs. "Bitches did it." Gon feels his face heat up from saying that word.
"Bitches?" Killua crosses his arms.
"You really have to be careful Grace! I didn't know girls would get so jealous that they would stab you." Alluka frowns, eating up Gon's lies.
"I don't really care." Killua shakes his head, giving Gon this indifferent look. Killua would never gave Gon this look but things have changed. "If you want to be stupid and let your manager take care of the wound then fine. Keep the jacket, you got your blood all over it anyway. We'll be at town square at 8 in the morning. Don't be late or we'll leave you."
The way Killua is talking to him, reminds him of a strict teacher or a person of authority. "Osu." Gon gets lost in those moments, thinking about training with Killua and how much fun that was. But as soon as his giggle comes, it leaves him when he sees how Killua isn't laughing with him. Of course not. He doesn't' even know who he is. He doesn't' even recognize him. Gon feels that pang in his heart and all he wants to do is curl up into his sheets or do push ups or do anything that would get his mind off of this feeling right now.
When Killua gives him this weird look and opens his mouth, Gon is quick to take action. "S-See ya tomorrow!" Gon turns on his heel and runs. He can hear Alluka calling after him but he just wants to leave. The cops try to stop him but he passes them too.
"Baby girl!" Gon turns his head to see a car waiting for him. That voice he would recognize anywhere so he runs towards the car and hops in. Micky wraps his arms around him as the car takes off, being mindful of his wound. "You did great! That was awesome! I mean wow!" Micky pulls away, his blue eyes sparkling. "I knew I picked the right guy! You weren't even using your nen and you were like wham! Boom! Smack! You broke that guys nose and the blood was like squirt! You were even fighting against Rose without nen! And to top it all off, you were fighting all those guys topless. I mean, you were letting it all hang out-"
"Gah! It's not like I had a choice! Those guys took off my dress and I couldn't find it!" Gon flushes, hugging himself and then getting more flushed when he remembers it's Killua's jacket on him and the feel of it on his bare skin gets him warm. Gon's eyes shine with determination. "I couldn't use my nen, or Killua would have found out. I don't want him to know who I am. Alluka said Killua is afraid of something and that's why he hasn't been texting me but...i've been afraid all of this time too."
Gon feels something build up, Micky's smile slowly falls to a tight line. "Afraid Killua didn't want anything to do with me, afraid he moved on, afraid that something happened to him, afraid that maybe he didn't forgive me...afraid that I lost him. I told Killua I missed him and he's been looking at my messages. He just hasn't texted me back. I've been attending to him, having conversations with myself, day dreaming about him, hoping and imagining him reading my messages. I've kept him up to date on everything. And he never messaged me back."
Gon glares out of the window, his chest feeling tight. "I don't want him to know who I am. If Killua didn't forgive me, if Killua wanted nothing to do with me, he should have just said so. These pass two years I haven't been right in the head. I still don't think I'm right in the head. When I'm around him, all I want to do is be near him. I long to laugh with him and play around with him. I long for how we use to be. There's a part of me that wants to tell Killua who I am. Wants to see how he would react to it. Would he be happy? Would he smile like he use to long ago? Or would he give me that one smile...would he be fake towards me. If Killua gave me a fake smile, I don't know if I could take it. Maybe I'm just stupid. I think stupid things but after finding out about what Killua has been doing, I don't want him to know it's me. I don't want to text him as Gon either. He's been cruel. He's not the only one who's been afraid."
Micky is quiet. Gon doesn't look at him and keeps staring out the window, watching the buildings go by. Gon takes a deep breath. "Why did you want me to go with them? Killua wants me to meet up with them tomorrow to leave." Gon puts more pressure on his shoulder to stop the bleeding.
"Whoa. It just got really serious. I had to take a moment." Micky takes a deep breath before shaking his head as if to shake it off. "Alright. I get that you're hurting and all but going with Killua is the best thing for the both of us. He's going to be heading towards our next target so you can just hitch hike off of them, all the while, watching as my plan unfolds." Micky rubs his hands together.
"Your plan?" Gon raises his eyebrow, turning to look at Micky in curiosity. "Why would Killua be going to our next target? How do you know that?"
"Just trust me. He'll be going towards our next target. I'm good like that." Micky grins. "And what plan you ask? My plan to get that ass hole back for what he's done to my sugar pie." Micky wraps an arm around Gon, grinning.
"Huh?" Gon blinks.
"You just said you don't want to text him right? Well good. That's a part of my plan. Don't text him. Even if he texts you, don't text him. You're not Gon anymore, you're Grace. You'll travel with him and while my plan is in action, you'll see him slowly break down."
"I doubt he would break down." Gon huffs. "I doubt he would even text me-"
"My plan will work Gon. And you and I will be satisfied." Micky's lips curl and it's the first time Gon gets a shiver down his spine from him. "Just do as I say and everything will be good."
"Okay." Gon blinks before tilting his head. "You still haven't told me how you know Killua is going to go where the target is-"
"All in good time." Micky's leg starts to bounce. "All in good time..." His blue eyes get darker before he looks out of the window. "We're close."
"Huh?" Gon frowns at the change in Micky. "Is something wrong?"
"No. We got Rose. I was able to see you beat on him and while you were fighting, I started letting all the girls go and I called the hunters and the police. Thanks to you I was able to get him." Micky lets out a long sigh of air. His shoulders dropping. "He wasn't the one."
"He wasn't the one for what?"
"Tell me Gon, have you ever wanted someone to die so much, that you start to dream about it?" Micky doesn't look at him. Gon thinks about the question. He shivers when he thinks of that dark time, when his mind got fuzzy and all he could think about was killing that ant. Killing her for what she did to Kite. It clouded his mind and he let it overtake him. He let it morph his body and he let it take away his best friend.
That feeling overtook him completely.
"Sort of." Gon admits, scratching at his arm. "Have you, Micky?"
"Yes. I still feel it inside me. This need, this fire. I try to sleep it off and it's what I think of. Sometimes I feel like a monster. But to kill a monster, you have to become one." Micky's voice is low, motor toned. A complete change in how he usually acts. Gon doesn't feel wary though. He feels no bad intentions towards him.
"I became a monster once." A crumpled up face, smashed in with blue blood gushing out, his large over sized fist not stopping as he keeps breaking into the skull. The burst of light coming out of his stump of an arm and then the cry of alarm and angst from the person that means the most from him. " And that's why people see me as a hero." Gon closes his eyes, gripping his fist. "I killed who I needed to kill. But there were consequences. I'm still dealing with them today." Gon feels the need to reach out to Micky. There's something about him that reminds him of himself. Back in those dark times. "I was no hero."
"I'm not trying to be a hero but I do wonder what my consequences will be." Micky hums. Gon blinks when Micky suddenly turns around, a bright smile on his face like they weren't just talking about all this deep stuff. "Geez look at me! Making it even more serious! This is a time for celebrating! One down and a couple more to go! Once I'm done wrapping your wound, lets have a party! You were great out there."
Gon tilts his head at the 360 but he can feel the pain in his shoulder increase and he takes a deep breath. "A party sounds nice." Gon chuckles. He wants to distract himself. "Micky you're weird. You go from serious to smiling in a minute. What was with you dressed as a cop?"
"That was a pretty good disguise right? They didn't suspect a thing." Micky grins.
"I think Killua suspected you." Gon chuckles. "But what you said about Killua's face had me laughing and I couldn't help it."
"He does look like a grump!" Micky grins. "I can't believe you haven't seen Free! You need to watch it. Your gay ass is going to love it."
Gon flushes, feeling a little bit shy about the subject. He's new to it and this new area is exciting. "I'm not sure if I'm gay yet." Gon crosses his arms stubbornly before looking at Micky from the corner of his eye. "Do you really think i'll like the show?"
"Oh yeah. Half naked guys all around." Micky chuckles, pulling Gon in for a side hug. Micky is warm and his laugh rumbles. Gon doesn't know much about Micky. He doesn't know who his other two targets are going to be but...he's having fun. Micky is helping him break his obsession with Killua. He's helping him to get over him just like Killua has gotten over Gon.
The space beside him is being filled up but...
Gon still feels empty inside.
"Dude you're still holding that guy's jacket?" Micky raises his eyebrow, looking over at Gon who is sitting next to him on the bed, having Killua's jacket close to his chest as the two of them watch this Free cartoon. Micky said it was something call an amine but it looks like a cartoon to Gon.
Currently Gon is wearing a long white tee shirt, not wearing a bra to relieve some tension off of his shoulder at this point. Micky sowed him up and bandaged him and he's all good to go.
Gon tenses when he realizes that yes, he's still holding Killua's jacket. After he took it off he never let it go. There's something comforting about it. Something familiar. Gon was subconsciously holding onto it.
He holds on too much.
"Yeah." Gon flushes but he only hugs the jacket closer. "It's my jacket now. Killua said he didn't want it because I bled all over it."
"Look, this guy has been ignoring you flat out for two years. You said so yourself in the car, you don't want to text him or anything but look at you! Hugging his jacket like some crazed boyfriend. You look insane right now."
"The jacket is comfy!" Gon defends, his face getting hot when Micky said he was acting like a boyfriend. Like Killua's boyfriend. Gon doesn't understand why his heart beats so fast. It makes him sweaty. "I'm not his boyfriend. I'm not even sure if I'm his friend. I just like the jacket." Gon hugs the jacket closer, burying his face in it. The smell of Killua lingers on it. The smell of cotton and water and flowers and blood-
Gon takes a deep breath of it before he realizes what he just did in front of Micky.
"Oh. My. Gosh." Micky stares at him with wide eyes before he busts out laughing. "You just sniffed it!"
"It was an automatic reaction! It's been a while since I've smelled him-"
"Stop! S-Stop! You're making it worse!" Micky is tearing up. Gon blushes, his face a light pink and that may have something to do with what Killua's scent did to him. His heart is beating so fast, his stomach twisting up in this knot, a pressure building below.
"He smells good." Gon mumbles, keeping the jacket close to him. "I can't have him so at least I have his jacket." Once those words leave his mouth, Gon can really appreciate how pathetic that sounds. He really does have problems. Sniffing Killua's jacket and holding onto it so tightly. He's still holding on to the past so tightly.
Micky stops laughing but his mouth is still turned in a grin. "Ohhh that's why you want the jacket so much. Are you going to masturbate with it?-"
"W-What?" Gon's eyes widen.
"Do you even know how to masturbate as a woman? I could teach you baby-"
"No thanks!" Gon keeps Micky at arms length when he tried to get closer, a mischievous grin on his lips. Gon's body is on fire. "I-I'm not going to do that with Killua's jacket! It just reminds me of-"
"Dat ass." Micky finishes, giving him a lopsided smile when Gon's face gets even redder. "I bet you're stiffing it and you're just like 'ohhh yeah I want some of that Zoldyck's ass-"
"Am not!" Gon pushes Micky childishly but the more Micky talks about it, the more images pop into his mind...like Killua in those jeans Gon first saw him in. They hugged his small thighs nicely and Killua has always had a nicely shaped ass... Gon swallows. "I was just-"
"It's nothing to be ashamed of. I did it with you when you were on conscious and I had to carry you back to your hotel. I sniffed all your boxers. I mean all of them."
"What?" Gon looks at Micky with wide eyes.
"Huh?" Micky gives him this blank stare.
"You sniffed..."
"All your boxers, yes. They had this musky smell and I was just like jizz in my pants. Seriously I got off from sniffing your boxers. I bet you would be a happy camper if you could sniff Killua's boxers-"
Gon's starting to feel a bit too hot thinking about instead of sniffing Killua's jacket, sniffing his boxers. The clothing that's been on his lower regions...Gon wonders how he would smell? Gon wonders how big he's gotten. "You're totally thinking about sniffing his boxers now."
"It's your fault." Gon flushes from being caught, giving Micky another playful shove. "Who sniffs someone's underwear! At least I know Killua."
"Ouch. Pain, right here." Micky points to his heart, giving him this expression of mock pain. "I know you too sweet cheeks-"
"No." Gon's eyebrows furrow at the name.
"You know what we should do? We should find out where Killua is staying and have a panty raid. Just go in there, steal his underwear and start sniffing-"
"I don't want to steal his underwear!" Gon shakes his head but he can't help to laugh at the idea. Wouldn't that be something if Killua caught them? Gon wonders what Killua would do if he knew it was him stealing his underwear and not Grace.
"Yesss you do. You want to be all up in that."
"Micky!" Gon grabs a hold of him, chuckling as the two roll around in the bed, rough housing. Gon is able to quickly pin Micky down and he grins down at him.
"Baby you can grin like you're victorious all you want but when I got that body on me, I'm the one who's winning." Micky sticks out his tongue, showing off his tongue ring. Gon becomes fascinated by the jewelry for a moment before Micky pushes him off, turning the tables so he's pinning him down. "Now I'm really winning."
"Did that hurt?" Gon stares at Micky's mouth, looking at his lip piercings. "Where did you get it done? Why did you get it done?"
Micky blinks from all the questions before he gets off of Gon, rubbing the back of his head. Gon raises his eyebrow when Micky's cheeks get slightly pink.
"My tongue didn't hurt at all. The lip was alright. My nipple piercing was a bitch." Micky lifts up his shirt, showing Gon the gold ring in his nipple. Gon swallows, becoming very interested in that jewelry and the pink bud it's through. "I got them done at this shop, I don't even remember. I've had them for a few years. I got them because I think piercings are hot. Girls and Guys like the tongue ring. I've found that a lot of guys like the nipple ring as well." Micky grins at Gon's staring before he makes eye contact with him.
"I wonder if I would look good." Gon thinks to himself as he touches his chest, expecting flat only to tense when he feels the mound. He still can't get use to having boobs. He can not.
"You mean with nipple piercings?" Micky smirks. "I would wait till you change back into your normal body but I think a tongue ring would be hot on you. You have that innocent face but then you can stick out your tongue and be like bam! I'm a cock sucking machine-"
Gon pulls Micky's cheek to get him to stop but he does think about about what he just said. "A tongue ring?" Gon thinks about it, staring at Micky's mouth. It does look good on Micky.
"Mm yes a tongue ring. It feels good when you kiss too." Micky leans closer, this voice getting lower, licking his lips. Gon can't help to follow the tongue ring.
"It does?" Gon can feel Micky's breathing on his lips.
"Want to see?" Micky grabs Gon's chin, his blue eyes getting half lidded. Gon's stomach tightens and he closes his eyes, waiting to feel Micky's lips on his, the atmosphere feels right for it-
There's a ringing that gets Gon's eyes to snap open right before Micky kisses him. "That's my phone." Gon reaches over and takes his phone off the night stand. His eyes widen when he has a text message...from Killua. "Killua texted me!-"
"That cock blocking son of a bitch." Micky huffs, crossing his arms. "Of all the times to text you, of course he decides to do it when it was all hot and stuff." Micky looks over at Gon watching him stare at the message with this strange look on his face. "...What does it say?"
" It says...'hey.'" Gon takes a deep breath.
"'Hey'? That's it?" Micky raises his eyebrow.
"That's it." Gon keeps staring at it. Not believing it. If Gon never met Micky, if Gon never saw Killua, and he got this message, Gon would have been dancing, shouting, smiling. He would have been so happy just to get this simple message from Killua. But now that he knows Killua has been ignoring him, now that reality has caught up with him...the message makes him...angry. Two years has gone by. Two years and this is what Killua says to him. Not i'm sorry I didn't text you. Nothing like that, just 'hey'.
"Wow. After two years and that's all he has to say for himself- Hey!" Micky is quick to move when he sees Gon grip the phone about to throw it across the room. He grabs Gon's wrist and stops him. "Don't break it! I know it pisses you off but you have to do what he did. Just read the message and don't respond."
"I really don't get it Micky." Gon stops struggling against Micky's grip, dropping the phone on the bed, still staring at the message Killua sent him. The message Gon was waiting two years for. It's not right. His stomach is all messed up and he's not happy. "Why do this? Even though i'm pissed off, even though it hurts, seeing him message me makes me want to message him back. I want to tell him how i'm feeling-"
"Then do it." Gon looks over at Micky who grins. "This is your chance as Gon to let him have it. Tell him how you feel and just don't text him back. It will drive him crazy."
"I doubt it. I said some pretty questionable things and Killua never texted me." Gon grabs the phone though. He wants to text Killua. He wants to let him have a piece of his mind.
"It took you two years to think of that to say, Killua? I kept waiting and waiting for you to contact me. Things have changed. With this new job I haven I may never be able to be who I was. You may never recognize me again. It use to make me upset but now I'm okay with it. I get it Killua. Two years of silence should have told me what I know now but I was fool. Like I always am. If you didn't want to be my friend anymore, if you didn't want to talk to me, you should have just said so. If you didn't forgive me, you should have just said so. I won't bother you again, Killua. You don't have to worry about my texts anymore. I should have stopped a long time ago. It took me two years of silence to figure out you don't want me anymore. How stupid is that?" Gon's fingers hurt from typing so fast and Gon hates to feel the tears at the corner of his eyes. He feels so stupid. He really should have stopped sooner.
"He's going to call you if you send that." Micky looks at the message, watching as Gon puts his thumb on the send button. Once he sends it, that's it. Gon isn't one to stay silent. He speaks his feelings.
"We'll see." Gon sends the message and places it down. He crosses his arms, glaring at the phone, remembering all the times he would sit there and wait for a message that would never come.
"So uh...you know we said we were going to order pizza and everything but you never said who was going to pay..." Micky gives Gon this look. "I really want pizza but I don't have no monies-"
"Then how are you going to pay me?" Gon blinks.
"I have money but not for pizza."
"But that doesn't make-" Gon starts to protest only for his whole body to freeze up when his phone starts to ring. Someone is calling him. Gon feels stiff as he looks down. His chest tightens and he swallows hard. Killua is calling him. Why? Why now? After all this time, why call him now? Even if Gon wanted to answer, he couldn't with this voice of his. Gon grips his fists, digging his nails into his palms as he just lets the phone ring. It's almost painful. Not answer Killua's call when he's wanted it for so long.
"Told ya he would call." Micky yawns like he's bored. "Now about that pizza-"
Killua is calling again. Gon squirms, feeling restless, his fingers twitching. He wants to answer-
"Chill out." Micky puts a hand on his shoulder, getting him to breath out a breath he didn't know he was holding. "Think of all the calls he didn't answer." Gon closes his eyes. That does make it easier. Killua didn't answer any of his calls.
Then Killua sends him a text message.
"Gon, what do you mean I wouldn't recognize you? What's happened?" Gon ignores it. Another message. "Answer the phone Gon." Yet another message. "I need to talk to you."
How many times has Gon said that? That he needed to talk to Killua? Too many times. Gon just places his phone to the side. He puts it into Killua's jacket before throwing both of them on the floor. He gets under the covers and hides his face into the pillow.
"...So I guess we're not getting pizza?" Micky frowns, watching Gon sulk under the covers.
"When I say i'm not going to text him is when he starts texting me." Gon mumbles. "That doesn't make any sense."
"You know what else doesn't make sense? Not getting pizza."
Gon groans. "Order pizza. You can use my card."
"Yes! Thank you babe!" Micky cheers before leaning over to give Gon a kiss on the cheek before walking over to his drawer where he keeps his card. Gon can still hear his phone going off. Killua is calling him again. "You're being strong." Micky's voice turns soft. Gon peeks at him from under the blanket. He's smiling at him. "I'm proud of you. Keep it up, and you'll see."
"I don't know if I want to see." Gon closes his eyes, not wanting to eat. He just wants to sleep. He's exhausted. Today has been exhausting. Gon covers his head with the pillow, ignoring all the ringing his phone is making.
After two years Killua decides to make an appearance and when he finally comes back to Gon...Gon isn't there waiting for his call like some love struck fool.
Yet every time Gon hears his phone ring, his heart yearns and he has the urge to just rush to his phone and answer it, cheering Killua's name, enjoying the feeling of having the other man call him.
But he fights it and he ignores how cold this bed feels with out Killua's scent around him.
"I'm pretty sure Killua isn't going to let you come along." Gon glances over at Micky who is walking by his side. Gon woke up and Micky's hair had changed. Now his hair is completely black and he took off his lip and tongue piercing, much to Gon's disappointment. He's wearing a suit too and his hair is brushed back. He looks like a completely different person.
"Uh he will when he hears i'm your manger and I go with you everywhere or maybe I should say i'm your boyfriend? Nah he'd never let me come if I said that. I think we should just stick with manager." Micky hums, waving at a couple of people who were staring at them. "I have to say, I did a good job picking your clothes."
"Yeah you did." Gon looks down at the dark jeans he's wearing that hug his thighs and butt tightly. He's wearing a black long sleeved shirt that covers his chest but they're still noticeable. Gon just wanted to cover up more for Alluka. Killua said he wanted him to do that. All his outfits go good together and right now Micky is carrying their suitcase of clothes and things they'll need.
"Can believe you went to sleep last night and left me with a whole pizza. I ate the whole thing. You see what you make me do? When I get fat, know it's your fault." Micky whines, rubbing his stomach which is flat and toned.
"I wasn't the one complaining all night about pizza." Gon huffs. "And you could have saved me some pizza, I would have ate it-"
"You snooze you lose, literally." Micky chuckles at his lame joke, Gon shaking his head but he can't help to smile. Micky doesn't make him feel so bad. He woke up feeling awful. He had a nightmare again about that day and the memory of yesterday is haunting him as well. Gon hasn't looked at his phone since last night. Micky said Killua called him a bunch of times. He finally stopped late at night. Gon feels like he's on withdraw. He really wants to call Killua back, he really wants to text him.
This whole thing is a lot harder than he thought. Even though Gon is about to see Killua soon and travel with him again, it's not the same. He's not Gon. He's Grace. Gon can't be happy about seeing Killua like this. This isn't how he wanted it.
"Grace!" Gon brightens up when he sees Alluka waving at him from a bench she's sitting at. Her eyes are wide and she's waving both of her arms. Gon tenses when he sees Killua sitting next to Alluka. His face is blank, no emotion, his body as still as a statue. His hair is covering his eyes and his lips are in a tight line. "I'm glad you came early. Brother was going to leave as soon as it turned 8." Alluka runs up to him, whispering this before looking back at Killua who has just looked up.
He locks eyes with Gon, getting his heart to flutter annoyingly before he looks over at Micky. His eyes narrow. "Who is this?"
"Hello. I'm Micky, Grace's manager." Micky holds out his hand. Killua stares at it before glaring up at Micky. "I'll be traveling with Grace, carrying her things and helping her when ever she needs it."
"We don't need you running around with us." Killua snaps and his voice is nasty. Gon can tell, he was always able to tell when Killua is in a bad mood. This one is a really bad mood.
"I do need him." Gon steps in, standing tall when those dark eyes land on Gon.
"That's just fucking great." Killua mumbles under his breath, standing up, his bangs in his face, hiding those eyes away from Gon. "This day couldn't get any better. Not only do we have bimbo here but we have her cooky manager as well." Killua looks up, glaring darkly at Gon. His eyes are a little bit puffy. Gon can see that right away. " If he tries anything i'll kill him and you. If you're trying something against me, I will kill you."
"Brother! Grace isn't going to do anything." Alluka frowns at her brother.
"You won't even notice that i'm there." Micky smiles sweetly, closing his eyes in his smile.
"I doubt that." Killua grunts, stuffing his hands into his pockets. "We're going now-" Killua stops when his eyes fall on the jacket Gon is hugging against his chest. Killua raises his eyebrow. "Why didn't you throw that out? It still has your blood on it. It's not like you can wear that out in public."
Gon finds himself flushing, hugging the jacket closer to himself. He shouldn't be carrying it around. He should of thrown it out but he couldn't bring himself to do it.
"I don't have any jackets so..." Gon tries to make up an excuse before he huffs. Whatever. He doesn't really care what Killua thinks of Grace. "I just want to keep it. It makes me happy."
"You're weird." Killua's eyebrows furrow and his lips tug in a frown for some reason when he looks at his face.
"You should have seen her smelling it-"
"Micky!" Gon gasps, his face heating up as he punches him in the shoulder.
"Ow!" Micky whines.
Killua's nose wrinkles in disgust. " What the hell is wrong with you?" Gon tenses at Killua saying that, his stomach twisting in guilt. Gon rubs his arm, swallowing down what he's feeling. He's tired of feeling like this. Tired of the nightmares. He's tired of guilt.
"A lot of things are wrong with me." Gon smiles at Killua, but he knows it doesn't reach his eyes. "But i'm keeping the jacket."
"Models right?" Micky chuckles, patting Gon on the back a little roughly. "So where are we going? And where will me and my lovely lady stay?"
"Just follow me." Killua narrows his eyes at Gon. And then Micky. "No modeling stuff while you're with us. No telling where we are either. When you're with us, you're on break."
"Got it." Gon nods, smiling when Alluka walks to stand by him, giving him a soft smile.
"No modeling. Grace needed a vacation. Thank you for letting us come with you. Grace has taken a liken to Alluka. I've heard a lot about you." Micky smiles gently at Alluka, getting her to flush.
"Let's go." Killua narrows his eyes at Micky when he sees him smiling like that at his sister. He grabs Alluka's hand and starts pulling her along. Gon and Micky look at each other before they follow behind.
"I can't believe you said that." Gon sighs, whispering over at Micky who grins, biting back laughter.
"I had to. It's not like he knows who you are really." Micky whispers back, nudging Gon with his elbow.
"I'm going to get you back for that." Gon grins playfully.
"Pssh. Bring it. You can't embarrass me anymore than I just embarrassed you." Micky waves him off.
"What are you two whispering about?" Killua glares at them, snapping. Killua is touchy today. His mood is off. Gon can tell. It's strange that Killua didn't put up much of a fight with Micky coming. It's like he's just rushing to get this over with.
"Nothing." Gon waves Killua off. It's none of his business. Since Killua was keeping everything away from him all this time.
"How long have you been Grace's manager?" Alluka smiles back at Micky.
"Man how long has it been?" Micky smiles at Gon before he turns that smile on Alluka. "It's been awhile. A few years now."
"Are you the one who took care of Grace' shoulder?" Alluka looks at Gon's shoulder, the bandage easily seen through his shirt.
"Yup. I use to be a nurse a long time ago. The medical treatments sure do come in handy." Micky smiles his eyes closing. "I shouldn't have let Grace out of my sight. It was my fault...Yesterday was. I wanted to thank you personally for saving Grace." Micky smiles at Killua who grunts.
"I came in at the last minute. She had taken care of a large group of them by herself." Killua glances back at them. "Her martial art skills must be impressive."
"Ah yes. She's been training since she was small. Her father was crazy protective." Micky smiles.
"You sure like to talk for her a lot." Killua narrows his eyes.
"Forgive me. It's a habit hard to break. I'm always talking for her when it comes to the fans and crazy people." Micky rubs the back of his head. "I'm a motor mouth. But she talks for herself as well."
"Are you feeling alright Alluka?" Gon smiles at Alluka when she looks back at him.
"Yeah I'm fine! I'm just...really happy." She smiles, her eyes so bright. "I'm excited to have you around Grace."
Gon smiles, his chest warming up. He may not be Grace, but he can feel happy as her.
"I'm excited too." Gon beams.
"We have a plane to get on." Killua grunts, his voice harsh and irratated.
"Is something wrong Killua?" Gon can't help to ask. Can't help to wonder. And he wonders if it's because of what he said last night. He wonders if that's why his mood is off.
"Yeah." Killua looks back at him for a moment before looking forward. "You're here."
Gon doesn't speak to him anymore for awhile after that.
"He's in a nasty mood isn't he?" Micky whispers to him, sitting next to him on the plane, Gon taking his eyes from off the clouds to look at him. Killua is sitting a cross from them with Alluka, his arms crossed but there's this blank look on his face. An empty look in those blue eyes. Gon doesn't like it.
"Yeah." Gon hugs the jacket close to him. "I want to know what's wrong. But I can't get close as Grace. I can't get close as Gon either."
"I know what's wrong." Micky smirks. " He's upset about what you texted him last night and the fact you're not answering his calls. He's having a fit on the inside and this is what we're seeing on the outside."
"I use to be able to read Killua really well." Gon looks at Killua for a moment, the ex-assassin looking over at him, glaring. Gon frowns. "I can't tell if Killua is upset or just irritated i'm not answering his calls. He doesn't look worried. Nor really sad."
"Yeah. It just seems like someone pissed on his food or something." Micky sighs. "It's irritation. He's only slightly irritated that you aren't answering his calls."
"...I want to believe it's more than that. I don't know what I was expecting. Iguess I thought he would be a wreck, like I would be if Killua said that to me." Gon is feeling irritated himself. The more he stays around Killua, the more it proves the distance between them and how they're not as close as they use to be but Gon still is holding onto this hope. He can't let it go, just like he couldn't throw away Killua's jacket.
"Don't worry." Micky puts a hand on his shoulder. "We'll get him back."
Gon doesn't want to get him back. He's not sure what he wants at this point.
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