"This is going to be your room." Killua grunts, opening a door for them. Gon walks in, raising his eyebrow at this place that looks like it's been abandoned a long time ago. The room looks dusty and the floor is covered in a white substance. Gon's sensitive nose wrinkles from all the dust and he has to cover his mouth when he sneezes.
"Bless you Grace." Alluka smiles apologetic. "I know this place isn't the cleanest. I can help you clean your room if you like."
"No, that's okay. I'm sure me and Micky can manage." Gon smiles at Alluka, he glances over at Killua who is staring at nothing in particular. His blue eyes glossy. He's been like this since the plane ride, barely talking to anyone and when he does speak, it comes out in a sharp tone.
"So I guess I'm going to be the one to ask, why are we in this dump?" Micky narrows his eyes at the bed that has sheets that are yellowed in age. "We traveled for half a day just to get to this cabin that looks like it would have some crazy guy with a chainsaw living in it."
"If you're going to complain, you're free to leave." Killua glares at Micky. "I have no issues with you two leaving right now."
"I don't mind it." Gon looks back into his room before looking out of the window, looking at the tall trees. This place is more of his element anyway. "The forest looks fun. I'd like to explore it." Gon looks over at Killua, the other man looking at him strangely. Careful. He's giving you a look. Did you say something that was too much like Gon? "S-So why are we here?"
"Big brother is on a job!" Alluka speaks up when Killua looks like he's not going to answer. "He said this cabin will be best for me to stay in so I'll be safe when he goes out. Now that I have you Grace, I don't mind being left alone."
"Micky, when I'm gone you're going to be staying in this room. I don't want you around by sister while i'm not around." Killua narrows his eyes at Micky who looks offended.
"What? Why? Who do you see me as?" Micky pouts.
"Just listen to me." Killua's eyes flash darker in warning. Gon's heart beats faster and he can't help to stare at Killua in admiration. He's forgotten how cool Killua can be, how he can change those bright blue eyes into sharp orbs of a predator.
"Killua is so cool." Gon beams, only to stop when Killua gives him this weird look mixed with a glare. He shouldn't be calling him cool. Not with what's been happening. Not with how he's been ignoring him. Gon glares away from Killua, feeling a flare up of anger and annoyance. Killua was about to say something smart but when he caught how Gon completely changed in a short matter of time, he stares at him with confusion.
"Let's get cleaning Grace. We have a lot of work to do." Micky wraps his arm around his waist, getting Gon to look at him. Micky smiles sweetly over at Killua. "Excuse us." Micky smiles over at Gon, speaking right before they get in the room. "I need to tell you about what's been going on with me! That guy has been texting me more often recently. He's so hot. It sucks you didn't get to meet him but I just found out who he is! He's that hunter that fought the ants! Remember how that was all in the news? He's that Gon freeces-"
"What are you talking about?" Gon's eyes widen when Killua is by Micky in a flash, grabbing his arm to stop him from walking anymore. Killua's face is strained, the veins in his arm sticking out, the ex-assassin using all he has to not shatter Micky's arm. "How do you know Gon?"
"I met him a couple of months back. I didn't know who he was at the time but I was sweep away by how handsome he was. He had these big amber eyes that glowed like the sun and his skin was such a delicious shade. His voice was deep, like a song." Micky's eyes get half lidded, Killua's face is getting more scrunched up, his aura starting to come out of him. "Grace was modeling so I was alone. I got to talk to him and then we exchanged numbers and we've been talking ever since."
"Gon never told me anything about you." Killua's eyes narrow. Gon can't help to tense. He's not sure what Micky is trying to do but Killua knows that Gon has been telling him everything that has happened to him till recently. Now he's suspicious of Micky-
"Maybe there are some things he didn't tell you." Micky tilts his head, Killua's shoulders shaking. "Come to think of it, I don't remember Gon saying anything about you either." Something flashes through Killua's eyes, his lips turning in a frown. "Maybe Gon just wanted to wait on telling you about me, we've been talking about dating but we haven't gotten the chance to meet up-"
"Now I know you're lying." Killua snarls, pushing Micky roughly against the wall. Gon's eyes widen from Killua's aggression. His blue eyes have gotten dangerous, his fingers turning into claws. "Gon isn't gay. He wouldn't want to date someone like you."
"I have to disagree with you. Gon certainly is gay. You should have seen the way he kissed me. He loved it. I'm surprised Gon didn't tell you about his sexual orientation. You guys must not be as close as the news made you out to be-"
"Micky stop." Gon's eyes widen when Killua's aura sparks out, threatening to shock Micky. Micky is just pissing Killua off. He's going to end up hurting him.
"You did not kiss him!" Killua growls, pulling his hand back like he's about to punch Micky-
"Killua stop it." Gon grabs his arm, catching it-
"Don't touch me." Killua pushes Gon away, his finger nails cutting into his cheek as he does so. Gon hits the side of the wall, the sting of the cut, and the wetness of his blood oozing out isn't nothing. Killua's eyes widen, looking over at Gon before looking down at his hand. His nails turn back to normal and he lets go of Micky, his bangs covering his eyes.
"Brother why did you do that?" Alluka yells at him as she runs over to Gon, looking at him in concern. "Grace are you alright?"
"Tsk." Killua grinds his teeth, gripping his fists in till his knuckles turn white. He turns on his heel and walks off down the hallway.
"I'm fine Alluka. This is nothing." Gon reassures when Alluka frowns, looking him over. "It's just a cut." Gon smiles. "Killua didn't mean to hurt me." Gon knows him enough to know when something is intentional or not. Killua got really mad about what Micky was saying. He was losing his cool.
"Still big brother was being mean to Micky as well. He shouldn't have gotten so worked up." Alluka frowns. Gon looks over at Micky, wanting to question his actions. Why get Killua all worked up with lies? Killua had been in a mood all day, what's taunting him going to do?- Gon's stomach turns when he catches this strange smile on Micky's face as he watches Killua walk away. It's gone so quickly but Gon caught the smile on Micky's face and how his eyes crinkled in pure bliss.
"...Micky?" Gon raises his eyebrow, Micky turning towards him, the look gone.
"Please forgive my brother. He gets crazy when it comes to Gon." Alluka looks up at Micky. "Is it true that you've been talking to Gon?"
"Yes it is." Micky smiles sweetly.
"How...How has he been? Is he okay?"Alluka frowns deeply. "Has he really not said anything about big brother?"
"He hasn't said anything about Killua, no. Gon does seem a little down though. He smiles and you'd think he's the happiest person but there's something about him. A secret I guess. I wouldn't know. I'm not that close to him." Micky sighs. "honestly I just want to get with him."
"Um...Um..." Alluka's face gets tinted but there's such a fire of determination there that whatever Gon was about to say is caught in his throat. "Mr. Micky...If you have Gon's number, can you please give it to me?"
Micky stares at her for a moment before smiling sweetly. "Of course. Just don't try to steal him away from me now with that pretty face of yours~"
"T-That's not why I want it." Alluka defends, her face getting redder as she gets out her cell phone. Gon is surprised when Micky tells Alluka Gon's number without looking at anything. He has it memorized. "Thanks." Alluka's eyes light up before she grabs Gon by the wrist. "Grace i'm going to help you clean up your wound! Lets go!"
"Okay." Gon blinks as he's pulled by Alluka quickly, letting himself be lead away from Micky, his long black hair swaying behind him, hitting his back. He glances back at Micky, still wondering what on earth he's planning.
"I'll get started on the cleaning." Micky closes his eyes in his smile, disappearing into their room. Gon's eyebrows furrow. He's not sure what he felt back there, whether it was bad or if he disliked it, when Micky had smiled. The smile seemed out of place for the situation. It looked like he took a bite out of something delicious, his lips parted into the sensation. Gon wouldn't say he's uneasy but he does feel confused. He doesn't understand Micky's actions right now or how he knew Killua would go where the target is- Unless Killua's job is to get the same guy they're looking for! Gon's eyes widen in realization. But...How did Micky know about Killua's job-
"This is great Grace." Alluka's voice breaks Gon out of his thoughts as he's pulled into a bathroom, Alluka shutting the door behind them. Gon blinks when Alluka smiles at him brightly, those blue eyes shinning as she holds out her cell phone. "I have Gon's number! And big brother doesn't even know! I can finally talk to him myself!"
"Yeah!" Gon smiles, not able to help it, his heart lifting from her enthusiasm and her love for Killua. It's strange talking about himself but right now, he's Grace. "What are you going to say to him?"
"I'm not sure yet." Alluka calms down, her lips twitching into a frown. Gon's eyebrows furrow, not liking the change in her. "Something happened to big brother." Alluka looks at Gon seriously. "Remember at the ball I told you how he hasn't been texting Gon?"
"Yeah?" Gon shifts, knowing what she's about to say, knowing he's the cause of this behavior in Killua.
"Well...the night before we came to get you, I was sleeping in my bed next to big brothers. Most of the time big brother checks his messages and just looks at his phone. But that night he was restless. He was moving around in his bed and he kept texting on his phone, I could hear it. He thought I was asleep. Big brother started pacing around the room and when I finally needed to ask what was wrong, big brother just stopped and laid back in bed. He told me to go to sleep. I don't think he slept that night though. Big brother has been in a sour mood since. I think something happened between him and Gon." Alluka's eyes get glossed over in thought. "I bet I know what it is."
"What do you think it is?" Gon says too softly. He could picture all Alluka just told him. Killua laying in bed in the darkness, his blue, sharp eyes piercing through the darkness as he reads his messages, deciding after two years to finally text Gon. He can picture him getting restless when Gon messaged him back that he wouldn't speak with him again. Then the pacing came when he wouldn't answer his messages or calls. But the question is, was Killua pacing because he was just angry Gon wasn't answering? Is Killua just angry with him? Does he understand that Killua has been doing this same thing to Gon for two years? Is he even making the connection?
"I bet they had a fight. Big brother hasn't been texting Gon and then he decides to text him...I bet Gon is really angry at big brother. That's why big brother is so upset." Alluka frowns deeply.
"He doesn't look upset. He just looks pissed off." Gon finds himself saying, surprised at the own bite in his voice...Gon knows Killua. He knows he hides his emotions. He likes to keep them hidden. He likes to put on an act. It just upsets Gon he can no longer tell what Killua is thinking. He's lost that ability. He's lost that closeness.
"Why do people get angry?"Alluka gets a piece of toilet paper to wipe away the blood running down Gon's cheek before applying pressure. "Anger comes from getting hurt, or seeing someone else get hurt. You can either get sad or angry. I feel like big brother is upset right now. That's why he got so worked up when Micky started talking about Gon...and that Gon didn't say anything about him. Gon is important to big brother. I don't understand what big brother thinks sometimes, and I don't understand why he hadn't been texting Gon, and I know it was wrong for big brother to do but I love him. I don't want to see him upset. So I think...I'm going to beg Gon to forgive big brother- Eh Grace why are you crying?! Does it hurt?" Alluka's eyes widen when Gon starts to tear up, his chest heaving.
He couldn't help it. His emotions just started welling up like water boiling up from a pot, this feeling rumbling in his chest, reaching his throat, making it feel tight. Alluka doesn't need to beg him to forgive Killua. Forgiveness towards Killua is as easy as Killua saying sorry. Forgiveness is as easy as Killua explaining himself. Forgiveness is as easy as Killua coming back into his life. Gon could never hold a grudge against his dearest friend.
Alluka shouldn't be the one texting him for forgiveness. It should be Killua. Killua should be the one explaining himself. Alluka loves her brother so much and she understands him. They've gotten so close in these four years. Now that he's up close and personal he sees it now. Killua has grown so far away from him, the space between them is large but Alluka has kept Killua company. Alluka is looking after Killua now, and Killua is looking after her. They're family. Maybe there is no room for him anymore.
He's not needed.
"N-No it doesn't hurt." Gon holds Alluka's hand against his cheek, swallowing down the lump in his throat, sniffling when Alluka started to freak out. "Sorry, seeing how much you love your brother got me emotional for a moment. I'm sure this Gon would forgive your brother without you begging him. But I think...he may want to hear an apology from Killua himself."
"I didn't know Grace was so sensitive!" Alluka's eyes light up before she smiles softly. "hehe that's cute. I do love my big brother! More than anything even though he can be stubborn at times." Alluka cleans Gon's cut with soap, patting it dry. She gets a band-aid from the first aid kit on the wall before putting it on his cheek. "I know Gon will want to hear it from big brother but...I don't know what the reason is, But it's going to be hard to get Brother to do it. Gon will want an explanation as to why big brother hasn't been texting him but...I don't even know why. He won't tell me. I wonder if he even knows the reason." Alluka's blue eyes get deep.
Gon dries his eyes, taking in what Alluka just said. Is that even possible? Could Killua have stopped texting him without even knowing why? Gon doesn't believe that. Did Killua just decided out of no where that their relationship would be one-sided? That he would just look at his messages but not reply? Why? Gon wants to march out of this room. He wants to grab Killua by the shirt and shake him around for answers. He wants to yell in his face like they use to do if they got frustrated with each other, he wants Killua to yell at Gon in response. Gon wants Killua to respond to him properly.
"Hey Grace, do you have any family?" Gon is ripped from his thoughts once again by Alluka looking at him with curious blue eyes.
"Yes. I miss them too." Gon smiles thinking about Mito. "After all this is over, I'm thinking about meeting up with my aunt-" Gon tenses from saying that but Alluka's eyes light up.
"maybe I could meet your aunt?" Alluka smiles sheepishly when that came out a bit loud. "Er if you want that is-"
"I would like that." Gon smiles. He would like taking Alluka to whale island. He'd also like Killua to be there too.
"I'm going to take a shower. I feel gross from being on a plane for so long. After I get out would you like to paint each others nails? I've always wanted to do that! We could play dress up with some of the clothes I brought with me!" Alluka's eyes sparkle.
"Sure that sounds like fun." Gon beams, thinking about Alluka in cute dresses. It might be nice to wear a dress again too.
Gon walks out of the bathroom, taking a deep breath, leaving Alluka to take her shower. Gon glances down the hallway where Micky is. Gon bites his lip, his heart beating faster and he grips his fists as he turns and starts heading the opposite way. He probably shouldn't do this. Not when he's in this state but he can't go into a separate room when Killua is so close. He can't just walk away and pretend nothing is wrong. He's tired of not knowing, tired of the space between them. Yeah he's angry that Killua has ignored him for two years. He's hurt too. He just wants to know the truth. He just wants to talk to Killua again.
He yearns for the past but he messed all that up along time ago.
Gon knocks on the door that he can smell Killua through. Gon could never forget his scent. It doesn't take long before the door opens, Killua standing before him in nothing but sweat pants, his shirt off. Whatever train of thought Gon had is lost as he takes in his old friend's fit body. Damn it he's gotten even more muscular! His skin looks like porcelain so pale and flawless, the flesh looks fragile but what's underneath it is monstrous power. Gon's eyes stare at the toned chest and board shoulders, traveling down rippling abs to the V shape of his hips that dip down into his sweat pants. Muscular and lean. He looks so smooth, his skin so pretty like the moon's sunlight dancing off of a lake filled with fireflies-
"Are you just going to drool over me or is there something that you want?" Killua snaps. Gon swallows the saliva in his mouth, realizing that his mouth was watering. He looks up slowly, locking eyes with sharp purple. Killua's eyebrow raises when Gon glares at him. He can feel an irritation well up inside him.
Not only is Killua taller than him but he still has more muscle than him. He can tell he's gotten even stronger. He's still ahead of him! Curse his lack of nen for years!
"Ugh Killua you piss me off!"Gon groans, grabbing his head. He wishes he had his own body back so he could show Killua his own fit body. He wants to compete with his friend again. "Damn it I thought for sure I would be at least-" Gon stops when he realizes what he's about to say, his childish nature almost getting the better of him.
"You would at least be?" Killua raises his eyebrow. "Are you crazy or something?" Gon pouts, crossing his arms against his chest. Killua looks away from him. "What? Are you angry about the cut? I don't know what to tell you. Don't get in my way."
"Then don't get carried away." Gon says back, getting Killua to glare at him.
"Who the fuck are you telling me what to do? You do realize that I could rip your head from off your shoulders."
"I'd like to see you try." Gon narrows his eyes at the challenge, his heart picking up speed and an excitement spreading.
Killua stares at him for a moment before grinning. "Wow." He whistles. "You're stupider than I thought. Is their a reason for your confidence? Do you really think you could fight me?With karate?"
"I don't just think I could fight you." Gon grips his fists. "I have a good chance of being able to defeat you."
"Please." Killua scoffs. He actually laughs. "You can keep having that fantasy if you want. What's with you? Are you pissed because I messed up that face of yours? Did I mess up your modeling work." Killua smirks.
"Just a little cut wouldn't mess up my face." Gon puffs out his cheeks. "you didn't cause that much damage."
"Really? Your eyes are puffy like you've been crying." Killua smirks. "You're a big baby. Stop acting like you're tough shit and get out of my face-"
"I wasn't crying over your stupid cut. You think this is anything?!" Gon shoves Killua, his anger getting the better of him. Gon ignores how good it felt to feel Killua's bare chest on his hands. Gon, get out of there. Killua stumbles back, his eyes widening, looking surprised only for his face to get scrunched up, his eyes dark. "That's not why I was crying."
"That's quite a shove." Killua's voice is deep, those eyes on him, watching his every move like a cat watching a mouse. "You and your manager are full of surprises. First your manager being a nen user and then your attitude and slight strength-"
"How do you know my manager is a nen user?" Gon's eyes widen in surprise.
"His body reacted to protect himself when I grabbed a hold of him. IT wasn't much but I could feel it." Killua's eyes narrow. "Why did you keep that from me?"
"You didn't ask." Gon straightens himself out, swallowing when Killua keeps staring at him with those purple eyes unblinking. He's locked on him.
"And it's funny how you were able to take care of all those men by yourself and get out of metal cuffs. That man had taken some bad damage before I showed up, and he was a nen user. Karate doing all that is amazing. Please teach me what you did." Killua starts to walk closer towards him, Gon doesn't back up though.
"That's my secret." Gon glares but he's starting to freak out. Killua isn't stupid. Thanks to his stupid shove and the show of his strength, Killua is already putting it together that they aren't who they say they are.
"You were at the hunter ball, yet stated it was a family member who was a hunter. They weren't there, or at least you didn't show them to us. I find it interesting."
"..." Gon grips his fists. He didn't come here for Killua to be agonizing him and trying to get answers out of him. No. Killua is suppose to be giving him answers. "Why did you get so angry with my manager?" Gon finds himself saying when Killua gets right on him. His heat is so close.
"Don't change the subject-"
"You got so angry when he started talking about Gon. At the ball you were acting like you didn't even care if he showed up or not. So why get all angry with my manager for talking about his interest in Gon?-"
"Because he's a fucking liar!" Killua snaps, his face wrinkling up, his eyes flashing. "Gon wouldn't be into him. He likes girls. He's a fucking chick magnet. He was spreading lies-"
"How would you know if they're lies? Did Gon tell you he's not into guys?"
"He didn't tell me and he doesn't need to. I know. You don't know him like I do. He's been dating girls since he was younger than twelve!...So yeah." Killua's chest heaves a bit before he calms down.
"That doesn't mean he doesn't like guys-"
"That's disgusting." Gon's heart sinks, his face falling before he glares.
"What's disgusting about it? What's wrong with Gon liking a guy-"
"What's wrong is that it's not true! Stop filling my head up with this shit! Making me think for a moment that..." Killua's voice trails off, his nose flaring.
"Would you hate him if he liked men?" Gon questions, rubbing his arm, feeling nervous despite everything.
"Of course not." Killua answers quickly. He glares at Gon who looks at him with wide eyes, his heart beating faster. "I could never hate him-" Killua's eyes widen and he looks away, snarling at the wall. "What the hell am I doing talking to you about this? It's my business."
"And that's my manager you attacked." Gon counters, feeling proud of himself. "you've been in a bad mood since yesterday." Gon's expression softens when Killua's eyes flash. "...Did something happen Killua?" Maybe there was something in his voice because instead of getting angry, Killua looks over at him slowly, those blue eyes staring at him intently, searching his for something.
"you're trying to focus on me. Talk. You're a hunter aren't you? My question is why are you following us around." Killua avoids Gon's question, crossing his arms.
"I want to be Alluka's friend...I want to be around you." Gon looks down at his hands that he grips. Killua is smart.
"Why were you hiding the small amount of strength you have?"
"Because of reasons." Gon mumbles.
"You can use nen can't you?"
"..." Gon doesn't like where this is going.
"Show me your license."
"I don't have it on me."
"Show me your nen."
"No." Gon says firmly, glaring at Killua who's eyes narrow. "I'm not here to hurt you or Alluka. I just want to be your friend. I just want answers."
"Answers?" This catches his attention.
"I also have a target. The same target you have for your job."
"Really? So you're on a job right now?" Killua narrows his eyes. "I don't believe that."
"Huh?" Gon tilts his head.
"It's obvious that your so called manger is controlling you. He's got strings on you, like a puppet." Killua shakes his head. "I was going to wait to kill you in your sleep and blame it on my target but i'll tell you now. Leave. This is a message to your puppeteer. Whatever you want from my sister you're not going to get."
"I'm not a puppet-" Gon frowns, not liking how quickly the situation has changed.
"A puppet who doesn't know they're a puppet. Pathetic." Killua smirks. "I don't know what he was thinking, that you could seduce me or make me lose my concentration? That I wouldn't see through him? I know a manipulator when I see one. I've grown up surrounded by them."
"manipulator?" Gon blinks. Micky is a specialist isn't he? Not a manipulator... "I wasn't trying to do anything like that."
Killua stares at him for a moment before shaking his head. "He must of done something to your brain if you can't see it. I'm sure he can hear what i'm saying through you. Just go back to him. If you don't leave, I will see to it that you're destroyed-"
"Why did you let us come this far if you thought we were lying?" Gon can't help to question, his lips trembling. This wasn't suppose to happen. He shouldn't have come here.
"I wasn't sure. What you did and what Micky did proved to me that you're lying. I had my suspicions but I didn't act like I did." Killua grunts. "I'm not called a hunter for no reason."
Killua is good. Amazing. He had him fooled. He was able to figure out what's going on mostly. Except for him saying he's a puppet. "It's not like I was worried about you or him. Alluka took a liking to you. But you don't have your own will-"
"Stop saying that. I do have my own will. I chose to do this. I chose to come here with you. I want to make friends with Alluka. I want to be here-"
"Is it truly your feelings though? Did you truly want to come here?" Killua presses, his face becoming blank.
"I...I wanted to be around you again." Gon swallows, a bead of sweat falling down the side of his face, his body overheating suddenly.
"What are you talking about?" Killua raises his eyebrow.
"I just wanted to know why you did it-" Gon is starting to feel sick. "Killua..." Gon needs to put an end to this, his stomach is clenching up. "It's me-" Gon tries to speak but he can't. His throat closes up and such a strong wave of nausea hits him that he falls to his knees, holding his stomach, gasping. "K-Killua-" Gon tries again, he gets his name out but can't tell him who he is. Gon tries to reach to take out the contacts but his hand won't listen to him.
Gon has broken out in a cold sweat. Oh no. The realization hits him hard, Killua seeing it before he saw it himself. He stares up at Killua with wide eyes, his face pale.
"Oh? You see now? How you're a puppet?" Killua isn't smirking anymore.
"M-Micky what are you doing to me?" Gon tries, gripping his shirt, trembling. He gags, trying to find some relief in this feeling but nothing comes up.
Sorry,love. I couldn't have you telling him our little secret now could I? How well can you fight without using your nen Gon?
Gon takes a deep breath when the nausea leaves him and he's able to stand up again but he's wobbly. He holds his stomach, looking at Killua who is only watching him. He's not looking at him in concern or questioning what's happening to him. Killua spreads his legs, he's getting ready to fight. He's getting ready to fight him.
Get ready Gon. IT's time to face your next target.
Gon's stomach clenches, his blood leaving his face. Killua is his next target? Why? What is going on? Gon makes no move to get into a fighting stance, he fights against this urge his body has to lunge towards Killua.
"Your puppet master left a long time ago. I sensed him go. Still, he's able to have control over you from this far away. That's pretty impressive."
Don't forget what he's done to you. Images flash through Gon's mind, he sees himself waiting for hours for Killua to message him. He sees these last two years pass through his mind and then he sees Killua reading them, saying nothing. There's a ringing in his head, a madness that's seeping through the cracks in his mind that were made that day long ago in that cursed forest.
"Why?!" Gon screams, he roars, his chest heaving, his eyes burning with a bright fire before he charges towards Killua, his arms out, ready to swing, ready to strike. This feeling is overwhelming, making his mind into mush. All he knows is that he wants to know why. All those feelings of loneliness and self hate crack his mind more till it feels like he's about to shatter. The pressure needs release. That release is from Killua's pain.
Killua side steps him easily but Gon is right on him, He tries to punch him but Killua dodges it, moving his body away from him as he moves back and Gon moves forward. He doesn't' think of nen or getting the upper hand. He just wants to hit him. This ringing in his ears is getting louder, and his feelings can't be stopped.
"Why, Why, why, why! Do you hate me that much!" Gon roars just as Killua punches him in the face, sending him across the room, and into the wall hard. Gon groans as he lands on his feet and runs after Killua again, this time with no want of hitting Killua. The ex-assassin sends him flying back with a punch to the gut. Without using nen, these hits could kill him but Killua is being easy on him. Gon coughs up a bit of blood, trembling from the hit to the stomach. The ringing and his feelings send him forward again but he fights against his body that wants to attack Killua. He just wants to get closer.
"It's not that I hate you in particular. You're annoying but even I can see you're just a dumb ass that got tricked into something. If you don't keep it down, my sister will get worried." Killua's eyes narrow when Gon charges towards him again, being smacked down easily by Killua, his lip bleeding. "Why would you pick such a weak girl to control? You aren't doing anything to me. I will easily kill her."
A wave of nausea hits Gon again when he tries to take out his contacts. He groans, holding his stomach but he forces himself up, gagging as he does so. He walks towards Killua, his eyes burning with a fire of determination. Gon doesn't care how wrong this is. He's not panicked about what Micky has done to him. He just wants to understand Killua first and then he can worry about Micky.
"Stay down." Killua snarls, grabbing Gon by the neck and lifting him up, his grip tight. Gon can't breath. Killua tightens his grip, not letting up. He's trying to choke him out. Gon grabs his arm, willing his nen to come out but nothing but pain shoots up his back and he gasps. Gon tries to kick Killua to get him off, but everything is hurting.
"K...ill...ua." Gon's vision is starting to go white, everything around him become fuzzy. With the last of his strength he swings his body and kicks Killua in the chest, a bit of nen coming out allowing him to kick Killua away from him, the ex-assassin skidding back a couple of feet. Gon takes deep breaths, holding his throat, gasping for air, coughing.
"...That felt like..." Killua looks down at his stomach, touching where Gon had kicked, his blue eyes wide before he looks at Gon. His eyebrows furrow when Gon takes a step forward. He's bleeding out of his lip and mouth but Gon isn't going to give up.
"Tell me...why...do you hate Gon so much? Why have you stopped talking to him? Do you not care anymore?"
"Why do you keep bringing him into this?!" Killua's eyes flash and he gets stiff. "Of course I don't hate him! Of course I care! Get your nose out of business it doesn't belong-" Gon is on him in seconds, hitting him hard in the jaw. Killua snarls, grabbing him tightly by the arms and flipping them over so he's on top, glaring down at him.
"You don't...act like you care. I know you loved me in the past. I don't know about now."
"What are you-" Killua stops. He freezes, his breath hitching and his shoulders tensing. It looks like he's just seen a ghost as he looks down at Gon. "Y-Your eyes, you were wearing contacts..." Killua takes a deep breath, something clicking in his head and he leans closer, all that aggression leaving him, this pained expression taking it's place. "No way...Gon?"
"So you know the truth." Gon grinds his teeth when a wave of sickness hits him, turning his stomach and he starts to cough uncontrollably when Micky comes in through an open window. Killua whips his head over towards Micky but his arms have shot out, wrapping around Gon protectively, holding him against his body. Gon leans into his warmth, his body trembling from feeling so cold all of a sudden. Damn it, his mind is all fuzzy. "Grace is your precious Gon."
"What the fuck have you done to him? How did you turn him into a female? How did you trick him?" Killua bares his teeth, his anger seething. Killua takes a deep breath, calming down as he runs his fingers through Gon's long hair, pressing his head into his chest. Gon can hear his heart beating so fast, his chest so warm and nice. Gon missed this place, so close to Killua's heart. "What do you want from me?"
"I want to make you suffer." Micky's voice turns dark, those blue eyes losing any light that Gon had seen in him. Just when he says that, a pain like no other rips through him, like the muscles in his stomach are slowly ripping like fabric. Gon curls into himself, biting back his whimper but he can't stop himself from trembling or his body from sweating. Killua picks up on it immediately and tightens his grip on Gon.
"Gon!" Killua's eyes flash with his concern before he turns a dangerous gaze towards Micky. "I will kill you-"
"Come one step towards me and i'll rip his intestines from out his stomach." Micky smiles sweetly. Gon screams when it feels like just that is about to happen, the pain becoming too much for him to hold back. He hates how Killua starts to tremble, his eyes wide with fear as he tightens his grip on him, trying to sooth him, trying to protect him.
"Shit stop! I won't do anything." Killua swallows thickly, rubbing the side of Gon's face as he breaths heavily, the pain leaving him and he collapses on Killua, leaning on Killua for his strength. "Don't hurt him"
"I won't as long as you listen to me." Micky smirks. "That's a good boy." Killua doesn't say anything.
"D-Don't let him do that Killua. You're strong. We can fight him together, I can fight him-" Gon tries, not wanting to be saved again. This has gone all wrong. He didn't come here to look weak in front of Killua.
"Gon are you stupid right now? He has the power to kill you. You're staying down." Killua snaps at him. "Stop being so reckless! Have you changed at all?"
Gon's eyes widen, his heart picking up speed. He almost wants to cry. Killua is speaking to him like he did when they were younger. He's being the stable one, holding back Gon who is reckless.
"...Nope." Gon gives him a lopsided smile. Killua stares at it for a moment, a smile twitching at his own lips before he glares forward at Micky. That was the first smile they shared in 4 years.
"Of course not. Your personality is too stubborn even for time." It's not harsh, it anything it's soft. Those eyes turn hard when he sees Micky smirking at them. "What do you want?"
"I want a couple of things. The main thing I want from you though, is a wish." Micky takes a step closer. "I need your sister to heal someone dear to me, if she can do that, I will let Gon go. I'll turn him back to normal as well."
"How do you know about my sisters abilities?"
"That doesn't matter." Micky waves Killua off. "You will do as I say Zoldcyk or your precious Gon will be the one to pay." Micky smirks when Killua's pupils become constricted. "I know what you're thinking. But it won't work. Even if you kill me, Gon won't be safe. The body he has can't survive without me. Killing me is killing him. Even if Gon would live, he could never be turned back."
"Damn it." Killua curses, gripping his fists tightly.
"Damn it is right." Micky smirks. "I'm going to be enjoying my room, you two enjoy each other." Micky winks before he walks off down the hallway, whistling a tune. Gon stares after him, still catching his breath, a bead of sweat falling down his cheek. His heart is still beating fast for all that just happened and Killua's warm chest that's pressed against his head still. Gon's stomach sinks and he grinds his teeth, feeling Killua tense next to him.
"Killua, I'm sorry." Gon looks over at Killua, the other male had his mouth open like he was about to say something but he stops. "This is all my fault but don't worry. I'm going to fix this. I'll stop Micky. If you want to leave with Alluka, that's okay too-"
"If I do that you'll die idiot! Don't be reckless, don't do anything. You're staying here." Killua grabs him by the shoulders, his expression firm. When he notices how close he's gotten, Killua averts his gaze for a moment, closing his eyes. "You have some explaining to do. How did this..." Killua looks Gon up and down before locking eyes with Gon who blinks. "Happen?"
"Um...well that's a long story." Gon rubs the back of his head, feeling a bit sheepish when he recalls how he got into this mess. Killua is going to yell at him. That's for sure.
"Also, what did you mean by this?" Killua pulls out his phone, scrolling before holding out his phone for Gon to see. It's the message he sent him last night. "What's with sending me this and then not responding? Huh?" Killua's eyes narrow. "Did you turn into this last night?"
"Why don't you tell me what's up with you first!" Gon snaps, getting in Killua's face. "I'm the one who should be asking you the questions Killua! What I did to you last night was just a little taste of what you've been doing to me for two years!" Gon growls, watching Killua stiffen. He averts his gaze, his adam's apple bobbing in his throat.
"So you did it to get me back?" Killua smirks, this strange look in his eyes, his voice isn't strong.
"Micky told me I should do it to give you a taste of your own medicine. I did it to see how you would react. I did it to see if you would hurt like me...and I did it to make sure I could. I've been waiting by that phone for two years." Gon growls, gripping his fists tightly. "It pissed me off seeing how irritated you looked today, like me not texting you was just an irritation. A slight annoyance. You're cruel Killua. If you didn't want anything to do with me, you should have just told me. You had me have a one sided conversation with myself for 2 years. I made myself crazy you know? I was worried at first but then I just couldn't accept that you didn't want to talk to me, that you didn't need me..." Gon trails off, getting into dangerous territory.
"I'm the crazy one, not you." Killua's fingers twitch. Gon's eyes widen when Killua wraps his arms around him, hugging him tightly. "Gon...You don't get it. You don't understand and I don't have the skills to explain it."
"...Do you not want me anymore Killua?" Gon swallows down this feeling, Killua's embrace doing strange things to him.
"Don't ask stupid things." Killua tightens his grip on him. "I want you too much." He grinds out, his hug tightening to the point Gon has to hit him on the back to get him to loosen it. Killua pants against his ear, Gon's stomach tightening up, and his heart beating so fast.
"If you still want me, why did you ignore me for two years? Why did you make me worry? I felt alone. I wanted to talk to you all the time, so much so that I was making up conversations in my head. I really went crazy. I missed you like crazy and I told you so in my messages."
"I'm sorry." Killua buries his head in Gon's neck, his breathing uneven. "I missed you too." Killua's voice is barely heard. "I'm sorry I couldn't stop it."
"Stop what?" Gon frowns at how Killua trembles.
"I took too long trying to...fix it. I can't. Even now I can't, I still feel...even after being away from you for two years I still..." Killua grinds his teeth so hard that Gon can hear the bones grating together. "Don't tell me how much you missed me. Don't tell me it drove you crazy. Don't. I eat it up, because I'm sick Gon."
"Sick?" Gon raises his eyebrow, not understanding what Killua is saying. "What did you take too long to fix? What are you talking about?"
Killua shakes his head, pulling away from Gon to lock eyes with him. Killua's blue eyes are so deep that Gon finds himself getting lost in them, his heart beating so fast and his chest tightening. It's Killua... "It really is you. I can't believe it." Killua speaks the words Gon was just thinking himself. Gon is surprised when Killua touches his cheek gently, right where he scratched him. His eyes get half lidded. "What mess have you gotten yourself in this time, idiot?"
" A pretty big one." Gon chuckles slightly.
"That's not something to laugh about!" Killua scolds, hitting him lightly on the head. As soon as he does this, the two look at each other in surprise before chuckling some more. How strange, how wonderful. Despite everything, despite not talking for two years, the space is melting away. It's like they're clicking back in place and the air around them is no longer tense. Maybe there is hope. Maybe he can have his Killua back.
"but seriously how did you get this way? You didn't send me anything weird like this in your texts." Killua raises his eyebrow, staring at Gon like he's looking at him for the first time. "And are you...a complete female?" Killua seems a bit reluctant to ask that.
"I got this way because Micky came up to me and offered me a way to get my nen back. And this was the way to get it back. I didn't know he was going to turn me into a woman and I defiantly didn't know he was going to do something strange to my body to control me. And Yup, completely a female. Yeah it's really weird. At first I didn't even know how to go to the bathroom." Gon flushes a little at how Killua's mouth has dropped.
"I-It's gone?!" Killua shakes his head in disbelief and starts to shake Gon. "How could you let some stranger do this to you?! When some strange guy comes up to you and offers you something, you don't take it. Don't you know anything about safety?" Killua narrows his eyes at Gon when the boy pouts. "Why didn't you tell me you couldn't use your nen?" Killua's voice gets more serious. "you never mention that in your texts."
"I didn't want you to worry about me. It was my fault I couldn't use my nen. I didn't want to bring up those memories." Gon admits, his amber orbs shifting away from Killua. "Besides, I was determined to get my nen back through my hard work. If I told you, I was worried you would try to fix it for me. I wanted to rely on myself for once. And of course I failed." Gon grips his fists. Weak. "I guess by the time Micky came, I was good and desperate."
"..." Killua stares at him for a moment before sighing. "Doing things yourself is what gets you into the most trouble. You should have asked for my help, or at least for some guidance-"
"Would you have answered me?" Gon can't help to question. Killua tenses at his tone of voice but he nods his head.
"I would have." Killua has gotten stiff again.
"I don't know..." Gon decides to take a playful tone. "You didn't answer to any of those awesome pictures I sent you so I don't know if you would answer to that. Now that was really mean Killua." Gon pouts.
"Gon you sent me pictures of everything. You even sent me a picture of your waffle that you swore up and down looked like Leorio, when it just looked like a burnt waffle." Killua rolls his eyes but there's a smile tugging at his lips. AT first Gon doesn't know what he's talking about. His eyes widen. He had sent that picture about a year ago. He remembers that waffle. Killua really has been paying close attention to his texts.
"It did look like Leorio." Gon grumbles, crossing his arms. "What about the picture I sent you of that cave?"
"that was pretty awesome." Killua hums, something getting warm inside of Gon. The hunter is still a little confused as to why Killua didn't text him back but Killua obviously still cares. He remembers his pictures. He was paying attention to him...he just didn't let Gon know he was.
"What was your favorite picture?" Gon questions, not able to help it.
"The ones of you." Killua says immediately but once those words left his lips, his cheeks flushed and covered his mouth, glancing away from Gon.
"The ones of me?" Gon's eyes light up, moving closer. Killua moves back.
"Yeah...I liked seeing you." Killua mumbles under his breath. Gon's chest feels so light. That's what he told himself when he sent pictures to Killua, that he liked them. "anyway..." Killua straightens himself out. "Let's talk about the issue at hand. We can reminisce later."
"Okay." Gon's eyebrows furrow, his expression getting serious.
"that guy has got you good. There's nothing I can do to loosen his hold on you. You let him change your body and now he has control of it." Killua grips his fist.
Gon come join me in my room. Gon winces when he hears Micky's voice. Maybe because now it's not welcomed, Micky's voice hurts like a sting.
"What's wrong?" Killua picks up on that.
"Micky is calling me to his room." Gon stands up. "I guess I should go."
"I'll be close by." Killua grinds his teeth, not looking happy with this, his blue eyes looking over with that worry that Gon is familiar with. It's been too long. "I'll let me sister know of the situation."
"Right." Gon starts to walk away from Killua. His eyes widen when Killua grabs his wrist tightly. Gon looks back at Killua, to see the ex-assassin staring at him with trembling blue orbs, this longing, scared look. When their eyes meet, Killua quickly lets go of him, turning his head away, his bangs covering his eyes.
"S-Sorry. Go ahead. I'll be here." Killua doesn't look at him. Where Killua had grabbed him stings, the ex-assassin had gripped with with the force of panic.
"Don't worry Killua. I'll be okay. I'll come back." Gon smiles sweetly, his heart beating faster when Killua looks at him with those blue eyes slowly turning back to normal. Gon's smile turns fond.
"I know that." Killua puts his hands on his hips, glaring off to the side. "Just go."
Gon leaves but he can't stop the smile on his lips. Maybe Killua hasn't changed much either. That's a relief. Gon isn't too far behind.
Now to face Micky and try to wrap his mind around what the fuck just happened.
Lol that escalated quickly.