"What the fuck are you doing?" Micky's eyes suddenly turn dark, Alluka squeaks, stopping from getting into the back seat like she was doing. Gon blinks at the change in Micky who is standing outside of the rent a car they used to get to the cabin. Killua crosses his arms, standing next to Gon who was about to get in the back seat after Alluka.
"We're about to get in the car, what else are we doing?" Killua narrows his eyes at Micky who points a finger at the ex-assassin.
"Where are the snacks?"
"Huh?"
"I see you standing there but I don't see any snacks. This is a road trip. How are we going to have a road trip without snacks?"
"Just drive? We don't have snacks in the cabin-"
"That's unacceptable. Go fetch me some Oreo's and Doritos." Micky waves his hand at Killua, getting his eyebrow to twitch.
"And where do you expect me to get that? The store is in town. Just drive to the town and-"
"I want them now." Micky demands before reaching over and grabbing Gon by the wrist, pulling him closer. Killua's reflex is to grab Gon's other arm, stopping Micky. Killua's hand is warm and his grip is tight on Gon's wrist. "You have that Godspeed of yours. Just go and get me some Oreo's and Doritos. Don't worry. I'll keep Gon company." Micky smirks, licking his lips, getting Killua's eyes to flash.
"Micky." Gon glares at the other male for purposely trying to upset Killua. They haven't even gotten in the car yet and Micky is causing complications. The puppeteer was acting alright while everyone was getting packed and didn't say much as Gon and Killua loaded up the car but as soon as they started getting in, Micky's expression and attitude completely changed.
"Don't make me repeat myself, Killua." Micky coos, wrapping his arms around Gon. Gon isn't one to just let things happen if he doesn't like them so he tries to push Micky off and he's able to.
"I'll get your damn Oreo's." Killua snarls, his aura busting out into an electrical explosion, built up by rage and frustration. His hair stands up, puffed up from the electrical current, his body glowing. Gon can't help to stare in admiration. It's so cool.
"Killua is amazing!" Gon's eyes sparkle. Killua's dark expression lights up a bit and his cheeks flushing. He opens his mouth to say something-
"I agree. Your little boyfriend is amazing Gon." Micky coos, playing with Gon's hair, hugging him from behind. Killua's expression turns sour quickly. He grinds his teeth before he's gone in a flash of light.
"Did you really need Oreos and Doritos at this moment?" Gon turns to face Micky who is chuckling, looking too pleased with himself.
"Yes. I really did. It's a medical condition."
"A medical condition where you need Oreo's and Doritos?"
"You don't know me like that." Micky snaps his finger and Gon can't help to agree. He really doesn't know much about Micky at all. It's been like that since the beginning but he never expected all of this. "Besides I'm having fun seeing Killua squirm. Oh that was rude Gon, I just realized I didn't ask if you wanted anything from the store. When he comes back I can tell him to get you something-"
"I don't need anything." Gon shakes his head, glaring at Micky.
"What about you sweetie?" Micky smiles over at Alluka who is glaring at him as well, gripping her dress before glaring away.
"I don't want anything." Alluka looks back at Micky, those blue eyes holding that determination. "I don't like that you're upsetting big brother. You should leave big brother and Gon alone!" Her voice wavers when Micky's smile becomes sinister.
"Oh?" He raises a thin eyebrow, taking a step closer to Alluka but Gon is quick to grab a hold of his wrist, squeezing hard enough to hurt him.
"Don't do anything to her. Leave her out of this." Gon's voice becomes lower. He won't let Micky hurt Alluka. He doesn't care if Micky burns him from the inside out. He's not going to sit here and let that happen. Killua shouldn't either.
"I wasn't going to hurt her. You wound me Gon. You think I'm a horrible person-" Micky pouts, his attitude changing again.
"You are!" Alluka chimes with disbelief.
"I don't know what you are Micky. I'm still trying to figure that out. But I don't like what you're doing. What you're doing is horrible." Gon doesn't back down when Micky turns to face him completely, those blue eyes looking deep into his own. They lose light again and it's like Gon is staring into a empty room that's pitch black.
"Sometimes when horrible things happen to a person, they do horrible things in return. It becomes all you know. Horrible things." Micky's voice is like a chant, a whisper to himself. "but I would never hurt Alluka. She's like him. Never would." Micky reaches out and touches Gon's cheek, right over where Killua scratched him. Gon doesn't flinch as Micky removes the bandage, touching the cut with his fingers. Gon holds back a wince when the area starts to burn.
"Micky I don't understand you." Gon says once the burning stops and Micky touches his cheek again...The cut is gone. Micky just healed him. "I want to know why you're doing this."
"I told you before my little sugar pie hunny bun. I want Killua to suffer. I want revenge." Micky suddenly hisses in his face but his smile is twitching, unstable.
"For what?" Gon stands his ground when Micky wraps a hand around his throat, squeezing tightly, not enough to choke him but enough that it's uncomfortable.
"P-Please don't hurt Gon!" Alluka pleads when she sees what looks to be Micky choking him.
"No...I don't want to hurt Gon." Micky lets go of Gon when Alluka yelled at him. Those blue eyes flash with something before he leans in, kissing the cheek Killua had scratched. "I just want to hurt the person that Gon means the most to."
Alluka grips her skirt, Glaring at Micky just as Gon is glaring at him. Both getting protective, feeling that flare to fight for Killua. To protect him from Micky.
"I got your fucking Oreo's and Doritos." Killua comes back in a flash of light, panting slightly as he holds out a bag filled with goodies.
"Yay!" Micky lets go of Gon to take the bag, humming happily, his mood changing again. Gon and Alluka look at each other, both witnessing Micky's weird behavior. Alluka knows Micky's intentions now. He wants to upset Killua. Wants to make him hurt. "You're such a good dog aren't you Killua? But you're a bad boyfriend! Gon is so hungry and you didn't even get him anything! Shame on you."
"What?" Killua glares at Micky before looking over at Gon who shakes his head.
"I'm not really hungry-" Gon tries but Micky cuts him off.
"He's so hungry and you didn't get him anything. So I'll take care of his needs. I'll share my food with you, Gon." Micky coos, Killua gripping his fist.
"I can get Gon his own food. Gon, what do you want?" Killua snaps, he's gripping his fist so tightly.
"I don't really want anything. I'm fine but thank you." Gon shakes his head, waving Killua off. Killua seems to calm down and he nods but how his muscles tensed, Gon was sure if he said he wanted something, Killua would have ran to get him it. Killua's aura calms down and soon his hair falls back normally, his body left with just a couple of sparks flying off of him.
"Killua you're going to drive us. Alluka you'll sit up there with your brother. And Gon~" Micky wraps his arm around Gon's shoulder. "Will be sitting with me in the back. He'll be keeping me company."
"Why don't you sit in the front with me?" Killua's eyebrow twitches ever so slightly watching as Micky hugs up all on Gon. "You need to tell me where to go anyway."
"No i'll stay in the back with Gon." Micky smiles sweetly.
"Ugh." Killua doesn't like it. The ex-assassin is reluctant to get into the front seat, those blue eyes watching carefully as Gon crawls into the back with Micky right behind him, staring at his ass so openly. Killua grips the wheel, grinding his teeth, making eye contact with Gon through the mirror. Gon gives him a smile, trying to calm his new lover. It seems to work a bit, the glare falls to one of frustration and he takes a deep breath. Alluka puts her hands on her brother's shoulder and that seems to help too.
"Okay so where are we going?" Killua's voice becomes blank as he puts the car in drive and starts down the road that got them to the cabin.
"You'll make a left when we get out on the main road and then just go straight. I'll tell you when to turn. And you'll obey." Micky smirks. Killua facial expression doesn't' change. Gon grins, feeling proud of Killua and his heart beats faster. Killua isn't letting Micky get to him. He's ignoring his taunts. Killua is being so cool right now that Gon wants to hug him from behind and kiss his cheek.
It's nice thinking that he doesn't have to question if this is weird or not. Killua feels the same way. He wants to touch him and get closer. Gon is just so happy to have Killua back and that he can hear his voice and talk to him like old times. Maybe it is a little weird that as soon as they met up again, they got together but Gon feels like it was meant to happen. He feels almost like it was overdue.
For two years Killua was always on his mind. He wanted to talk to Killua, to feel him, to be with him, to see him smile, to hear his laughter...He was always there. Gon wanted to do everything with him again. Gon just didn't think it was romantic feelings. He wasn't sure but now it's obvious. He doesn't know how far these feelings go. He doesn't know if all he wants is to be closer to Killua, or if it's that he wants Killua to be always by his side that he feels this way. Maybe in a way having Killua as his boyfriend means that Killua can't walk away from him again. Like they have this connection.
Gon wants to see where this will go. He wants to see if he can be a lover to his best friend. He wants to explore these feelings and find out more about them. It's like a new adventure he's going on with Killua and that makes him really happy.
"If you keep staring at Killua like that, you're going to make me jealous." Micky suddenly whispers in his ear, getting Gon to blink out of his thoughts, realizing he was just staring at Killua through the mirror. Though the ex-assassin didn't seem to mind, or he didn't notice because his eyes are on the road, his expression blank but those eyes are firm. Gon looks over at Micky who is smirking, his arm has snaked around his waist. "Are you so happy to be with Killua, Gon?"
Killua glances back at them through the mirror but when he sees how Micky is holding Gon he quickly looks away, biting his lip. But he's listening. Gon is sure of that.
"Yeah I am." Gon says honestly, catching how a soft blush starts to spread over Killua's cheeks but he keeps his eyes forward.
"So jealous." Micky pouts, leaning closer to the point Gon can feel his breath on his face. "Who's going to keep me company then? I don't know if I can go on without feeling those lips on mine-"
"Keep your dirty mouth away from him." Killua snarls, his eyebrows scrunched up in a scowl. He grips the wheel and Alluka has to put a hand on his shoulder to try to calm him down.
"It's not dirty." Micky looks offended. "Gon didn't think so a couple of days ago. Right Gon? I didn't taste dirty did I?" Micky leans closer, and now Killua is watching him closely with those piercing blue eyes, they're so dull and dangerous that Gon swallows, his face getting red. His heart is beating quicker and when he tires to move away from Micky, his dress starts to hike up his thigh, exposing more of his body than he would want to the puppeteer. "Well?" Micky smiles sweetly, those eyes getting half lidded like how all those times he taught him how to be seductive.
"You didn't taste dirty. Kind of like mint." Gon says honestly. He regrets it soon after when Killua's face completely drops. That dark look is wiped off with something else entirely.
"You kissed this guy?!"
"Yes he did and he liked it. Why don't we show Killua how we kiss? He doesn't seem to believe us." Micky leans closer, licking his lips. Gon can't move back anymore, Micky is on top of him, his face so close to his own. He feels light headed and no matter how much he tries he doesn't have the strength to push Micky off.
Killua slams on the breaks. It's so sudden that Gon his flown off the seat, his side hitting Killua's chair while Micky is sent forward, hitting his head hard on the window.
"Don't do that." Killua's voice is calm. Eerily so. His bangs are covering his eyes and he's as still as a statue. Gon gets back up on the seat, and Micky straightens himself out. Instead of looking scared, Micky is smirking. Gon has goosebumps, Killua is serious. He's never heard that tone of voice before and it's thrilling. Gon wonders if this is an appropriate time to feel wetness in his panties or not.
"You're a jealous little birdy aren't you?" Micky coos as Killua starts to drive again. "You don't like that i've kissed Gon before you. I got to taste him before you could touch him."
Gon can see what these words are doing to Killua. The way he grips the wheel and his shoulders tense up. He's causing Killua distress. Gon glares at Micky before pushing him slightly.
"Stop that. Killua's kisses feel a lot better than yours. Besides every time you kissed me it was surprise. I wasn't expecting it." Killua relaxes slightly at this but there's this silent rage in those eyes as he drives, those eyes so cold.
"That's mean Gon. Saying another man's kisses feel better than my own. I take that as a challenge you know. I'm sure I could make you feel better than him-" Micky touches Gon's cheek, rubbing it soothingly but it makes Gon's stomach curl. Killua is watching. Killua doesn't like it when Micky touches him.
"What do you want?" Killua's voice is so dark, and blank at the same time. Those eyes lock onto Micky. "I got you your snacks and i'm driving you. What do you want, what can I do to make you stop doing that?"
"Why do you think I want something from you? Maybe I want something from Gon." Micky licks his lips, wrapping his arms around Gon but when Gon tries to push him away he winces when he feels a sharp pain in his stomach.
Killua's breath hitches and he tightens his grip on the wheel, his knuckles becoming white but he keeps driving. "...Don't do that."
"Oh? Are you already at your limit? But I'm barely touching him!" Micky chuckles. "I bet it would drive you mad, the idea of me making him feel good, touching his body, feeling on him-"
"Don't do anything to him!" Killua's voice raises, he's panting, the veins in his arms sticking out, his bangs covering his facial expression away from everyone.
"You're going to make a right here Killua." Micky says. Killua makes the turn. The air between them is so thick and nasty. "It's okay Killua. I won't touch him. Not right now. But you owe me. It's hard to restrain myself when he's so cute. I bet it's hard for you. I bet it was hard when you two use to be alone all the time. Gon was a hot guy too. I bet you really had to restrain yourself around him. I bet you're just like me, wanting to fill him up and make him scream-"
Killua opens his mouth, his canines showing, it looks like he's about to yell as he turns his head around, glaring so darkly, his eyes filled with a mixture of rage and guilt-
"Killua the road!" Gon's eyes widen when they swerve onto the other side of the road into oncoming traffic. Killua turns around quickly and moves the car just in time before they crash.
"You have horrible driving skills, Killua." Micky sighs.
"Shut the fuck up! That was your fault!-"
"I have no idea what you mean-"
"Micky stop doing this!" Gon growls, his eyes getting dark in warning.
"I'm not doing anything my lovely-"
"Micky." Alluka sudden breaks into the conversation. She turns around, her blue eyes big and strange. She grips into the seat, this deep frown on her face. "Leave big brother alone. Give him a break."
"Alluka." Killua stares at her in surprise but his muscles are tense. He's ready to protect her if Micky tries to attack. Micky just stares at her for a moment ,his face becoming blank before he nods.
"Okay." And then Micky looks out of the widow, throwing an Oreo into his mouth. Gon stares at him with wide eyes before looking at Alluka who seems just as surprised. Micky listened to Alluka. Now his attitude has completely changed again.
Alluka turns around and puts a hand over her brothers. Killua lets out a long sigh of relief before he focuses on the road. No one speaks, the air around them thick but not as nasty. Micky only speaks to tell Killua where to turn. He doesn't touch Gon and he doesn't taunt Killua.
Gon lets out his own sigh of relief as he looks up at Killua, frowning slightly at how tense his shoulders are. What Micky said really got to him. Killua looks calm on the outside but Gon knows better. His thoughts are brewing up and he's going to end up making himself depressed. Gon will ask him about it later, make sure he's okay.
Gon looks out of the window, leaning against it and closing his eyes. This is only the start of the road trip and Micky has already turned it into something not so pleasant.
Gon really doesn't understand Micky.
"This doesn't look right." Micky suddenly says, Gon barely hearing him from the music blaring at Micky's request. Killua turns down the music that was singing about 'milkshakes' before he glances back at Micky.
"What did you say?"
"I have no idea where we are right now." Micky bites his lip, looking out of the window. "I think we're lost."
"Huh?!" Killua slams on the break, turning around to glare at Micky who keeps chewing at his lower lip. "What do you mean we're lost? I've been listening to you for five hours!"
"I thought I had the directions down by heart but I guess I was wrong. This doesn't look right." Micky smiles almost sheepishly. Killua looks like he's seconds away from ripping Micky's face off with his claws. Gon knows he wants to. The ex-assassin is mentally exhausted. Gon is sure of it.
Alluka who was sleeping against the window starts to wake up from the lack of music and from Killua jerking the car like he did. "Big brother, are we there yet?" Alluka yawns cutely, rubbing at her eyes.
"No we're not Alluka because this dumb ass doesn't even know where he's going!" Killua grinds his teeth.
"I know you're frustrated, I am too." Micky puts his hands up. "But I'm sure I just over looked a turn...maybe."
"Where exactly are we going, Micky?" Gon tries when Killua looks like he's about to pull his hair out. Gon's legs are cramping up. Micky didn't let them have a pit stop so they've been stiff in the car for five hours, And Gon has been holding his bladder for two of those hours. Gladly the only thing Micky has done in those five hours is demand the music be loud and to his liking and that everyone sing along with him. Gon didn't really mind that but Killua...
"Mmm... A place." Micky looks forward and his eyes lighting up, clapping his hands together. "Okay! I know where we are now! We turn right up here!"
"Are you sure?" Killua looks doubtful.
"Positive!"
"This is tiresome." Killua grumbles, about to start driving again-
"Killua put the car in park." Killua looks back at Gon but he listens to him. Gon looks over at Micky who has his eyebrow raised. "Micky we're going to take a break soon. We've been at this non stop and I know I'm not the only one who has to go to the bathroom." Alluka nods her head quickly in agreement, crossing her legs.
When Killua had demanded a break, Micky had started to burn Gon, which had gotten Killua to cuss but he kept driving, asking for his sister to wait and saying sorry.
"We'll get a break. The first hotel or motel you see Killua, pull in. We'll stay the night there and rest." Micky agrees.
"Also, I'm going to drive instead of Killua now." Gon states confidently, Killua locking eyes with him through the mirror. "You can sit in the front with me. Let Killua and Alluka rest in the back."
"Gon i'm alright-" Killua starts only for Gon to give him a firm look.
"You're exhausted Killua. You've been through a lot in these five hours. I can drive." Gon's eyes shine with a fire and once Killua sees it he sighs, knowing going against that fire is like pulling teeth.
"That's fine I suppose but do you even know how to drive?" Micky raises an amused eyebrow at Gon.
"I can learn." Gon grips his fist in confidence. Everyone is silent for a moment before Micky cracks up.
"Yes you can." Micky hums. "This should be fun." Micky gets out of the car, Gon following after him. He winces when his stiff legs bear his weight and he has to kick his legs around to try to get the blood flow moving again, pins and needles up his legs getting him to tense.
"Gon i'm really fine. Besides you're going to kill us if you drive." Killua grumbles but he's gotten out with his sister, both of them stretching and getting the blood to flow in their legs as well. Gon walks over to Killua and gives him a hug, wanting to do that since the beginning of the ride. Killua's body tenses before he relaxes into the hold, his arms wrapping around Gon.
"I'm not going to kill us." Gon huffs as he pulls away, loving how warm Killua's embrace is and how those eyes are watching him so intently. He loves the grin he gets to form on Killua's lips and how those shoulders that were so tense seem to loosen up. Gon hated seeing Killua upset up there.
"We'll see." Killua teases but that smile soon falls when Micky speaks.
"Gon~ Stop hugging your boyfriend and get in here!" Micky calls for Gon, already sitting in the passengers seat.
"Tch." Killua's body gets tense again, clicking his tongue. "Come on Alluka." Killua's expression softens when he looks at his sister. Alluka is squirming from having to go to the bathroom, her eyes half lidded from being tired. "You can sleep on me in the back. If you want you can try to go the bathroom now-"
"I don't want to go outside." She mumbles but Killua just nods.
"Try to hold it a little longer then." Killua helps Alluka get into the car before settling in the back. Alluka is quick to lay her head on Killua's chest, the older wrapping his arm around her shoulders to bring her closer.
Gon gets into the divers seat, an excitement building up from driving for his first time. His chest feels warm when he looks back at Killua and Alluka. It's cute and it just expresses the love they have for each other. Gon doesn't really feel excluded. He understands how Alluka and Killua's relationship is different. He's never had sibling but he can imagine how it would be like.
"Alright Gon lets do this." Micky grins. Gon steps on the gas petal and the engine revels up but it's not moving. Micky is chuckling, looking at Gon's expression of confusion with amusement.
"It's in park idiot! You have to move it in drive!" Killua watches Gon warily.
"Oh!" Gon chuckles at his mistake, pulling the lever into drive.
"Gon don't floor it-"
"Floor it?" Gon hears instead of 'don't' and slams his foot down on the gas. "Whoaaa!" Gon's mouth opens in awe and he can't help to laugh in excitement as they go speeding down this road.
"Yay!" Micky cheers, opening up a window before throwing his arms up. "it's like a roller coaster!"
"Gon slow down!" Killua warns. "You're not going to be able to make the turn coming up going like this. Take your foot off the gas pedal!"
"Ah." Gon takes his foot off the gas pedal and once he gets to the turn he's able to make it without flipping the car over.
"Watch out for the lamp post, go more right." Killua warns when Gon starts to swerve off to the side. Micky is too busy laughing to have any input.
"Ngh I got it. It's okay for you to rest Killua! I won't hit a lamp post!" Gon smiles back at Killua who, leans back with Alluka who is still laying on him.
"I don't need to rest. You should know I can go days without it."
"I know but it doesn't mean you should." Gon counters. Killua is acting tough right now but Gon knows the truth. Micky's stunt in the beginning of the trip is still bothering him. It's still playing at his mind and Killua is probably worried to sleep while Micky is around Gon.
"I'm fine." Really, Killua is as stubborn as him.
"Where do I go now?" Gon turns to Micky who is smiling a lot, still pleased apparently from the adrenaline rush Gon had gave him from speeding.
"Keep going straight." Micky grins over at Gon who is staring at the road with his eyebrows furrowed in concentration, trying to get the right speed so he's not fling Alluka and Killua all over the place. He wants them to rest. "I do really like this dress on you, Gon." When Gon feels Micky's hand on his thigh, he glares over at Micky only to look back to the road when he starts to swerve. He's doing that thing again. Killua is going to get upset.
"Micky how do you dye your hair?" Gon decides to ask, trying to get the focus off of him. Micky pulls his hand away and stares at Gon. Killua was squirming in the back but once Micky is off of him, he can relax, if just a bit. "When I met you, you had blue in your hair but now it's all black."
"I just dyed it black but I do miss my blue." Micky pouts, touching the top of his head where he had the blue. "I had to get rid of it to play the part but I looked so good with it-" Micky starts to go on and on about his hair and all the different hair styles he's tried. Gon just listens, happy that Micky is speaking normally and not trying to touch him, not trying to upset Killua.
Killua seems annoyed in the back but that's it. Annoyed is okay but those blue eyes desperate and worried are not. Gon knows this is an annoying situation. He doesn't want Killua to be dishearten by it or upset. Gon doesn't want to be the reason for that, his weakness being the reason for it.
After all this is his fault for not being strong enough to get his nen back on his own and not being able to fight Micky.
There's a memory coming back to his mind. Gon laying on his back, defenseless, not able to move, his long black hair in his face and mouth, only able to twitch his fingers and when Killua called out to him in horror, Gon could make no sound-
"Don't look so sad, Gon." Gon snaps out of his thoughts, looking over at Micky who is grinning at him. Killua is watching him closely from the back, his eyebrows furrowed. "If you want to be as fashionable as me, I could dye your hair for you."
"I don't really want to dye my hair." Gon blinks, remembering what they were talking about before he spaced out.
"I think..." Micky starts to sit up in his excitement, looking at Gon closely.
"Hey, watch the road. You need to tell him when to turn." Killua gives Micky a look.
"We're going to go straight for awhile." Micky waves him off.
"You sure?" Both Gon and Killua say at the same time, raising their eyebrow. It's like a mirror image.
"Whoa...ya just did some 'That's so raven' shit on me." Micky blinks before he grins. "Yes I'm sure! We're going the right way. I was just confused for a minute. Have faith in me!"
"I believed in you in till you betrayed me, Micky." Gon huffs, glaring at Micky. The other male pouts.
"You wound me, right here." Micky touches his chest but his lips are wobbly like he's trying to hold back a smile. "When I look at you, I think to myself...You'd look good with some long green strips in your hair. What do you think Killua? Don't you think he'd look good?"
"He looks good how he is now." Killua glares darkly. "I don't want you changing anything else about him unless it's changing him back to the way he was."
"But change is good sometimes." Micky hums, looking forward, watching the road. "Change opens doors to new roads that you would never know were there. Change makes life exciting. That's why everyone always wants to change something, even when it's not bad. It's just something new. Sometimes you just have to accept change. Sometimes you can't control it." Micky looks back at Killua, this smile curling his lips. "I can change Gon's body so easily. There's nothing you can do to stop it. Remember that."
Killua's shoulders stiffen but he doesn't say anything. He looks out of the window, glaring with his eyes but his face is blank.
"I'm not really sure if I want green in my hair." Gon decides to break the tension in the air. "Change is good sometimes but it's not good all the time." Gon glances at Micky before watching the road. "But I did like the color in your hair. It looked cool."
"Right?" Micky beams, seeming pleased. "If you don't want green, I won't force it on you. Beauty is all about the insides. If you change yourself but you don't like it, regret starts to eat at you and you feel the loss of what you once had." Micky's eyes get glossy before he chuckles, that look gone. "Like when you have hella long hair and you decided you want to be cute and try to get a bob and then when your long locks are gone you're like 'whyyyyyy' It's so sad."
Gon blinks at the sudden change in Micky again. "I cut my hair when it was long easily." Gon flinches slightly remembering that. Those locks falling from off his shoulders, like long strings of darkness, as if he was shedding the evidence of his sin away but he still sees those dark locks in his dream. "When I cut it, it was a relief." Gon swallows, Killua now glancing at him from the corner of his eye.
"I know the feeling." Micky sighs. "Long hair is hot and it's heavy and it tangles. A lot of work. I like my short hair." Micky whips his hair, fluffing it out.
"Killua your hair has gotten kind of long." Gon smiles back at his friend, wanting to talk to him and bring him into a normal conversation. Killua is just watching him carefully and Gon can't tell what he's thinking.
Killua feels at his hair absentmindedly, before he shrugs his shoulders. "It got longer and I just haven't cut it."
"You look like a lion with a big puffy mane!" Gon can't help to beam, looking at Killua intently, taking in his fluffy white locks that have grown more out than down. In length his white locks reach the back of his neck. Gon chuckles when Killua's hair puffs up more in his embarrassment, his face becoming flushed, his body bristling like a cat.
"Don't say stuff like that idiot. I don't look like a lion." Killua grumbles, reaching over to hit Gon in the shoulder. Gon whines but he can't help to laugh afterward when Killua glares at him and it looks more like a pout with how red his cheeks are.
"It's a compliment! Killua is cute." Gon says without any hesitance, without any worry. He's always been straightforward with Killua. He's not one to hold back. Killua only gets more embarrassed by his words but those blue eyes have this light to them.
"Ughghghgh stop flirting in front of me!" Micky groans, stomping his foot on the ground like a child, pouting over at Gon. "Gon why don't you call me cute? I'm much cuter than mr. grump over there! I mean look at his face! You're complimenting him and he looks like someone shit in his cereal all the time."
"Fuck you Micky." Killua glares at Micky, that light leaving him and his blush dying down a bit. "The reason why Gon isn't calling you cute is because you're not. Nothing about you is cute. You use control to get Gon, you creep."
"That's the ugly side of you talking. The soo jealous side." Micky rolls his eyes before batting them at Gon. "Tell him I'm adorable! You know you like this Gon!"
"Micky is cute and I think your style is cool." Gon is honest as always. Gon doesn't' have to look at Killua fully to see the way his face drops in shock and some other bad feeling. "But I think Killua is way cuter and cooler." That gets Killua to perk right back up and he smiles, Gon caught it before he hid that soft smile with a smirk over at Micky.
"Ha!"
"Why you always be hurting me?" Micky looks offended. " Now my chest hurts-"
"No one gives a fuck."
"How is that cute Gon?!" Micky sighs, shaking his head. "When I see you two love birds flirting and being like this it makes me kind of angry." Micky's expression starts to change. "Because you're making him smile."
Gon feels something. A little clenching of his gut and he knows Micky is probably going to do something to him. He can see how Killua catches the change in Micky's voice and his shoulders get stiff. Alluka is silently sleeping on her brother's chest, unaware of anything at the moment.
"I could kill him so easily." Micky looks back at Killua, his eyes darken. "One snap of my finger and his internal organs would bust. It would be a nasty way to go." Micky reaches out and grabs Killua by the shirt, pulling him closer. Killua's expression doesn't change and he doesn't fight against Micky. "So I would be careful about smiling around me. I might just lose it." Micky touches Killua's lips before he lets him go. Killua makes no expression but his eyebrows furrow.
"Micky-" Gon starts only to stop when Micky suddenly leans forward, blood pours down his nose in a steady stream. Gon's eyes widen at the nose bleed and how Micky shivers. " You okay?"
"Yes. Nose bleeds can't be helped." Micky takes a deep breath. "Killua come over here." Killua pauses but he leans closer. Micky wipes his nose off on Killua's shirt, dirtying it. Killua's nose wrinkles and his eyebrow twitches but he doesn't say anything. Micky squeezes his nose and leans his head back. "The longer you're like this, the more I'll have nose bleeds."
"So this is affecting your body too?" Gon presses, wanting to understand what he's dealing with.
"Oh yeah. It's a major stress managing your new body. It' scary really. As you know if I die, you'll die but if I get hurt too much or I don't get enough rest, I could lost control of my nen inside you and you'll die as well. It's dangerous, this change we've made Gon."
"Are you serious right now?" Killua's eyes flash with panic at this news, leaning up to see how Micky keeps padding his nose.
"Yes so you better take care of me well Killua. Getting me those Oreo's and Doritos doesn't seem so stupid now does it? The happier I am, the more I eat and rest, the better it is for not only me but Gon too. Our lives are connected now."
"..." Killua is quiet.
"But if I die, you don't die?" Gon's eyebrows furrow. It sounds like this process is harmful to Micky as well if he's bleeding from the nose. It must be causing damage to his own body, having Gon like this.
"No." Micky shakes his head. "I'll be fine." Micky's eyes get glossed over. "This time is different though. This time, if you go out Gon, I'm going with you."
"You're going to die with me?" Gon questions but Micky only groans, holding his head.
"I'm so hungry..."
"We've been driving for hours. There is a gas station coming up. Lets stop and get everyone something to eat and take a bathroom break." Killua steps in, watching Micky warily now whenever he groans before looking at Gon to make sure he's alright. Gon looks a little pale and this gets Killua to stiffen. "Let's stop."
"Yeah. I agree. I need to get out of this car." Micky groans.
"I really need to go to the bathroom." Gon nods his head. "I feel like I'm about to bust!" Gon sighs in relief when Micky agrees to finally stop and he happily pulls into this old run down looking gas station that has a couple of men smoking cigarets out in the front. Gon pulls into the parking spot crooked, hitting the edge of the side walk but he doesn't care. Gon gets out of the car and runs into the store. "Bathroom!" Gon pants, wincing and limping from his legs being asleep.
The cashier, a old woman chewing on gum, points to the back. Gon runs, almost tripping over himself to make it on time. He runs into the bathroom and closes the door behind him, pulling down his panties and letting go when he sits on the toilet. Gon sighs in relief, closing his eyes in bliss. Once he's finished he wipes the way Micky taught him before washing his hands and leaving, feeling so much better.
Alluka is right there, the side of her face red from laying on Killua, her hair a bit messy and her eyes half lidded from just being woken up. She runs into the bathroom and closes the door quickly. Poor thing probably had to go as bad as him.
"Micky is smoking outside." Killua is waiting by the doorway, his arms crossed, his eyebrows furrowed in annoyance. "He wants me to get him a slushy." Killua thinks for a moment. "You think it's true? That if he gets too tired it could kill you? Or is this just another scare tactic?"
"I don't think Micky is lying." Gon rubs his chin. "That nose bleed was real."
"Yeah." Killua frowns.
"Don't worry Killua. It'll be alright." Gon warps his arms around Killua, wanting to hug him, wanting to feel his warmth. "Are you okay?" Gon pulls away to look into Killua's eyes, the ex-assassin has his arms around his waist, and he pulled him closer without Gon having to ask.
"Of course i'm fine idiot. I'm not the one who's all messed up because of that guy." Killua grunts.
"That's not what I mean. You looked really upset when he was trying to kiss me." Killua tenses, his shoulders stiffening. "You're still upset."
"...I don't like when he does that shit...But you've kissed him before." Killua rubs the back of his head. "I guess It does piss me off a bit he's kissed you before me but...I don't want him doing it anymore." Killua tightens his grip on Gon, burrying his head in the crook of his neck.
"You know even if Micky kisses me, I don't want to kiss him. I want to kiss Killua. Killua is my boyfriend." Gon kisses Killua's cheek, feeling how warm it is. Wanting to test the word 'boyfriend' out on his lips. "But I understand. I wouldn't like someone kissing you."
Killua tightens his grip on him but when his sister comes out, he pulls away from Gon. His cheeks are flushed and he's looking deep into his eyes. "I'll...try my best to restrain myself when Micky is taunting me. I know he's trying to get under my skin. Just...just be you Gon. You always know how to make me better with that stupid smile of yours-"
"Hey." Gon pouts. Killua smirks but his eyes are soft.
"I need to go to the bathroom before I piss myself." Killua pushes Gon to the side before he walks into the bathroom with his hands in his pockets.
"Thank you Gon." Gon blinks over at Alluka who is staring at him with those blue eyes that are starting to refocus.
"For what?" Gon tilts his head.
"You just made brother feel better." Alluka smiles.
Gon smiles, opening his mouth to speak-
"Heyyyyy! Where is my slushy!" Micky shouts into the gas station getting everyone to tense. Gon blinks when his body moves on it's own an he walks over to the slushy machine and starts to make a strawberry one. Gon's eyebrows furrow and he tries to fight against the movements but it causes a sharp pain to shoot up him. Since there's nothing really wrong with making slushies he's fine with it...That is in till Micky gets him to walk out of the store without paying.
"Micky I have to pay-" Gon frowns.
"Yo Killua! We're leaving your ass so catch up! Gon is a criminal now! We have to go on the run!" Micky screams before he pulls Gon into the car, Alluka running after them and getting in the car quickly. This time it's Micky driving and he floors it when the old woman comes out, shouting.
"Micky why did you do that? I had money to pay! And don't just control my body like that, it feels weird." Gon frowns, looking back at the woman. He feels guilty. He just stole from her. Gon start to fiddle with his fingers, his ears heating up in shame.
"Gon is a little thief now. You can't ever show your face in that gas station ever again." Micky chuckles when Gon frowns deeply, his fiddling becoming worse.
"What the fuck?" Gon blinks when A flash of light is towards his left before Killua opens the door to the moving car and gets in, closing it behind him. Killua's eye brow is twitching. "What is-"
"Gon stole the slushy! We had to get out of there. I don't know what is up with Gon lately. You've become such a bad boy."
"But...But!" Gon pouts, pointing at Micky. "I wasn't going to but you controlled my body and made me steal it!"
"Excuses."
"What the fuck you mean excuses? You're the one who did it. Not Gon." Killua narrows his eyes when he sees the guilty expression on Gon's face. "Don't worry about it Gon. It's just a 5 dollar slushy."
"I can never go back there." Gon rubs his arm. Killua blinks.
"Why would you want to go back there anyway? It's a dump."
"And it was Micky's fault." Alluka adds.
"Why is everyone blaming me?" Micky pouts.
"Because you're the one who did it!" Alluka and Killua shout at the same time.
"I don't think we need to point fingers. What happened happened. Now we have a slushy and everything is okay with the world." Micky sips on the slushy, moaning. "So good."
Gon's eyebrows furrow. He still doesn't' like the whole thing with the slushy but what bothers him more is how easily it was for Micky to control his body. Gon really is a puppet and his strings are ready to be pulled. Gon can fight Micky but it causes so much pain that Gon wonders if he's going to pop. IT makes him feel helpless. Weak. Gon grinds his teeth and grips his fists, looking out of the widow, glaring at the trees they pass, his amber orbs getting darker.
Micky blasts 'barbie girl' for the rest of the car ride, by the end of it, everyone is groaning and complaining. Gon only gets more aggregated. This is all his fault. This is his problem. Killua shouldn't be involved. He should haven't to deal with all this. He shouldn't have to be Micky's puppet because Gon is.
Gon is weak and this is why he's in this situation. A lot has changed these pass four years but that hasn't changed. Gon is still weak.
Those black long locks still haunt him.
"We'll stay here for the night." Micky suddenly pulls into what looks to be a abandoned barn. There's vines growing on the side and the wood is rotting.
"There's a city up ahead. If we keep going a couple of miles we can have a normal place to sleep in-" Killua starts, looking at his sister before glancing over at Gon who hasn't said anything for awhile.
"We're going to stay here. Barns are great places to sleep. They have hay-"
"And they smell like shit." Killua protests.
"Exactly! They smell like home." Micky has this dopy smile on his face as he puts the car into park. He gets out of the car without much thought and walks to the barn, opening up the rusty doors before he walks in, humming a tune. Gon gets out after him, feeling drained after thinking about everything and coming to a conclusion.
"...Gon." Killua must notice the change in him. He always does. Killua walks over to him once he gets out of the car, his blue eyes watching him carefully. " You look pale. You should go straight to bed. He' hasn't been giving us the proper resting breaks and the only food we've had is that stop at McDonald's." Killua glances at his sister before looking at Gon. "If you want some more food I can run to the city and order you something."
"Killua you should go to the city." Gon sees his opportunity, his eyes lighting up as he grabs Killua by the shoulder. "Take Alluka too. Get us some food." Gon closes his eyes in his smile, cutting off Mickys' vision and mouths the words. "And don't come back."
When he opens his eyes, Killua looks like he just bit into a lemon. His face is scrunched and he's glaring at Gon.
"I'm not going to do that. I'll bring you a burger and I'm coming straight back." Killua's expression is firm, those blue eyes boring into his own.
"Killua." Gon gives him a pleading look. "This has gone on long enough. You don't have to stay here for my sake. This is my fault so-" Killua slaps him. Gon's eyes widen, the sting nothing like the shock. He looks back at Killua slowly, Killua's expression dark and he's breathing heavily.
"I don't care who's fault it is. You're in trouble. You need me. Stop trying to push me away and doing things on your own! I don't care what situation you pull me into because it's you and I can stand with you! Don't tell me to leave. Just...don't push me away. I'm fine with whatever shit happens because of you as long as I'm there to stand with you in the end of it."
Gon's wide eyes slowly go back to normal and he touches where Killua slapped him, rubbing the reddening skin. His stomach is clenching and his eyebrows furrow. He's making the same mistake he did that day isn't he? Pushing Killua away. That's why he's so upset. But Gon doesn't like doing this to Killua. He doesn't like making him worry and having him a puppet. Just like Gon didn't want Killua to die with him back with the ants. It was okay for Gon to die. He was ready to give up his life to fight the ant that took Kite from him. But he wasn't ready to lose Killua. He was selfish. He knows he was, to deny that, to push Killua away, and say all those things. But Gon had lost it and he couldn't lose anymore. It's ironic really. That attitude of his is the reason Killua has been away for so long. He's sure of it. And now Gon is back to his ways. Being selfish.
"...It's not that I don't want you standing next to me. I need you to stand next to me. I'm at my best with you Killua but I don't want-" Gon swallows, his emotions becoming too much for him.
"I don't care what you want." Killua glares away from Gon. "I'm...I'm staying with you. If you need me, I'm going to fight with you. I'm not going to let you get too far away from me in this. You're not doing it alone." Killua turns his back to him. "I'm going to get you a burger. I'll be back." And then he's gone in a flash of light.
Gon watches him go, his heart beating a bit faster from his words. When Killua spoke like that, it sounded like he wasn't going to leave him again. Even after this. Things have changed. Killua isn't easy to brush off like he was back with the ants. He's not passive and silent like he was that day, hiding his hurt and just listening to Gon. No. Killua isn't passive anymore. Killua is going to stay by his side even if Gon tells him to leave.
For some reason...that makes Gon smile. Killua has gotten better at expressing himself. Gon still may be selfish, but he's glad to know that Killua will put him in his place if need be.
"Big brother is confusing." Alluka sighs, getting Gon to look at her. "brother has been avoiding you for some time but now that he has you, I don't think he's going to let go. Maybe this is what he was afraid of."
"Huh?" Gon raises his eyebrow, not getting it.
Alluka smiles slightly. "Maybe he was afraid he couldn't let go. Maybe he was afraid he couldn't say good bye again if you wanted to go your separate ways after you guys met up. I think I understand why now." Alluka smiles over at Gon who stares at her, listening to what she says closely. Gon couldn't have just said goodbye again if they had met up on normal circumstances. He defiantly can't now. "I always knew you were close to my big brother and I noticed that he would always smile when you sent him messages and if he was in a bad mood, it usually had to do with you. I didn't get why he wouldn't message you back but I think he was just being stubborn." Alluka smiles. "Don't think this is a burden for us. We just want to make sure you're safe! And I'm happy, despite Micky being mean some times and unpredictable because my big brother is happy. He gets worried about you but he's happy to be around you."
"..." Gon won't push them away. The sting in his cheek is a reminder of how Killua feels. "Killua told me he was trying to fix something and that's why he didn't message me." Gon rubs his arm, glancing at Alluka wondering if she knows what that means. Alluka's eyes light up after awhile and she sighs.
"Big brother can be a big dumby sometimes. He had something to worry about. You like my big brother right?" Alluka pulls on Gon's arm, smiling up at him.
"Yeah. I like him a lot."
"Like a lover?"
"...Yeah." Gon flushes, averting his gaze and nodding. It's still new to him but he doesn't dislike it. Killua is his lover. How intimate that is. How close. Gon likes the closeness.
"Take good care of my big brother." Alluka smiles at Gon. Gon stares at her for a moment his chest tightening before he smiles back at her.
"Always." Gon will always protect Killua. That's why he wanted him to leave, to protect him from Micky but Killua isn't having any of that. So Gon will take care of him as much as he can like this. He'll give his all. He'll be the best friend he can be and learn how to be the best lover for Killua.
"Gon, Alluka. Come in here." Micky calls for them. Alluka frowns but Gon grabs her hand and leads her into the barn, his amber eyes keen and his muscles tensed, ready to protect Alluka with all he has.
Micky is laying in a big thing of hay in the middle of the barn. Gon is surprised when he sees some horses in the stalls.
"This barn is still used?" Gon looks down at Micky who has taken off his shirt and is now moving around on the hay, rolling like a child.
"I guess so." Micky stops rolling, grinning at Gon. "You'll be sleeping up there. Alluka there's a nice pile of hay for you there." Micky points to a large pile of hay. "I don't know if there's hay up there Gon but you'll have to make due."
"That's' fine. Alluka should get the softer laying area." Gon smiles over at Alluka though he doesn't like that she's down here with Micky.
"Gon. I'm not going to do anything to her." Gon looks over at Micky, he's looking him right in the eye, those deep look in those blue orbs that Gon stills. Gon stares at him a moment longer before nodding his head. He believes him. Micky won't hurt Alluka. Gon has been noticing it but Micky treats Alluka a bit more nicely than Killua or Gon.
Gon walks up the old latter up on the second story, looking around. There's nothing up here but a small platform with some hay. It's not going to be comfortable but Gon can sleep here. He sits down, yawning, rubbing his arms. It's kind of chilly up here though and this dress doesn't cover much. He pulls his legs towards his chest, rubbing his thighs, trying to get rid of the goosebumps that have showed up.
There's a flash of light down in the barn and then Gon hears Alluka's voice. "thanks big brother!" Gon's heart beat starts to quicken when Killua asks about where he is and he's sure Alluka pointed up before soon he hears the latter creaking from the ex-assassin's weight. Then his head peaks up, those blue eyes locking on him immediately.
"I got you a burger with fries." Killua gets up on the platform and walks till he's right in front of Gon, sitting down with his legs crossed. He hands Gon the good smelling bag that feels warm to the touch.
"Thank you Killua. After I smelt this I realized how hungry I am!" Gon gets excited, digging into the bag and pulling out the burger. He stops when he looks and sees Killua watching him, leaning back on his arms. "You didn't get anything for yourself?"
"Not really hungry."
"Really?" Gon takes a bite out of his burger, considering this before he holds out his burger towards Killua's mouth.
"Huh?" Killua moves away from the grease filled meat, giving Gon a questioning look.
"Go ahead, take a bite. We're going to share it."
"I told you I'm not hungry. I got that for you-"
"I want to share it with Killua." Gon smiles, waiting patiently. He knows Killua has to be hungry. He hasn't had much today. His nerves are probably bad. Killua stares at the burger before looking at Gon's expecting face. Killua grumbles something before he closes his eyes, giving in to Gon's amber eyes burning with that fire. He leans in and takes a bite out of it, his cheeks flushing.
Gon beams and takes another bite before holding it out to Killua. It goes back and forth like this, Gon taking a bite, before Killua takes one. The ex-assassin's face has a nice flush to it the whole time. When they're finished, Killua has some ketchup left on the side of his face. Gon smiles, leaning in and licking it off, getting Killua to get bright red, those eyes lighting up.
"I know i'm selfish Killua, I didn't mean to upset you earlier. I want you to stay with me. I know this situation sucks but i'm going to take care of you Killua!" Gon grabs Killua's hands, the ex-assassin's eyes widen and he's staring at him with such a strange look before hes wallows.
"I don't need to be taken care of idiot. And anyway, that's my line." Killua grumbles, interlacing their fingers. "You can try to be selfish all you want, doesn't mean i'm going to always give into you." Killua glances at Gon before glancing away. "But you know, saying those things..." Killua's face gets flushed. Gon smiles, enjoying the feeling of Killua's delicate, skilled hands interlaced with him, liking how close they are and the blush on Killua's face. It' makes his heart beat faster and all he can think of is...wow...Killua is-
"Beautiful." Gon blurts out getting Killua to look at him with his eyebrow raised.
"Huh?"
"Killua is really beautiful. Just looking at you is making my heart pound like crazy!" Gon chuckles, his nose wrinkling up in it. "Am I weird?"
"If you're weird for that...then i'm weird too." Killua licks his lips, his eyes becoming half lidded. Gon's chuckle dies when he sees such a deep look, those blue eyes getting darker and Killua's hands have tighten in his. The flush on Killua's cheek has settled and he just looks...hungry. But not only that, he's staring at Gon like he's just seen something amazing. There's not just hungry, there's passion- "Gon." Killua's voice is lower, rumbling in his throat. Gon swallows thickly, heat pooling in his stomach as Killua leans closer. "Can I kiss you?" Killua asks shyly, despite the look on his face and how he's staring at Gon like he's a piece of chocolate. There's this nervousness to him, this edge, and Gon just realizes how tense he is, waiting for his answer, staring at him. It's like a dog, waiting for his master to give the sign so he can get the treat that's resting above his nose.
Gon's heart skips a beat. That look is doing things to him, and the nervous undertone is making him feel all fuzzy inside. He feels like squeezing Killua to death right now. "Yeah! You can kiss me. You don't have to ask. You're my boyfriend after all-" Gon starts but Killua is on him quickly, his eyes widening like something snapped in him.
But he grabs Gon's face oh so carefully and he gets closer, pressing his lips against Gon's calmly. Gon hums at the contact, moving as close as he can to Killua, grabbing a hold of his shirt. Killua's kiss starts off slow, he sucks at Gon's lower lip and bites it a bit, getting Gon to groan. Killua shivers and soon his arms are wrapping around his waist and his kiss gets deeper, a bit faster. Gon keeps up with him, loving how soft Killua feels and when Killua licks his lip tentatively, Gon opens with no resistance.
Killua moans softly when Gon puts up a fight with his tongue, caressing and rubbing against Killua's, not letting the other male dominate him. The kiss keeps getting faster, more heated, their mouths are wide open and Gon is touching everywhere in Killua's mouth with his tongue. It's so sloppy and wet, heat is rushing up to Gon's head and down below, making his underwear feel wet again. Silva runs down Gon's chin as Killua starts to climb up him, his hand resting on his upper thigh while his other hand cups his cheek, deepening the kiss.
They have to take a break to get air, both boys panting close to each other. Killua is so close. His scent is overwhelming. Killua's blush has spread to his ears, his eyes half lidded in want. Gon knows his own face is flushed and his heart is beating so fast and he just wants to get closer. He wants to kiss more.
"G-Gon can I touch you?" Killua asks, his voice wavering. His voice is so low and Gon knows he's showing restraint.
"mm Killua can touch me."
"You'll tell me if you don't like it?" Killua locks eyes with him and Gon nods, smiling.
"I trust you. I want you to touch me. I feel all hot now. Hey Killua is your heart beating like mine? Do you feel warm also?" Gon touches Killua's chest, his eyes widening from all the heat he feels and how fast his heart is beating against his hand, he can even feel it. "Wow Killua is burning up! And you've got a boner-" Gon's eyes get excited when he notices the bulge in Killua's pants. He feels proud and his panties feel really wet now. He gave Killua a hard on. He must really like this just like Gon is liking this. Gon can't help to wonder how Killua has grown down there, if it looked anything like his.
"I-It's your fault!" Killua's face looks like a tomato and he covers Gon's eyes when he keeps staring at him. "D-Don't stare at it! You'll make it worse!" Killua is so flustered. It's the cutest thing ever. To see this ex-assassin get so worked up over this. Gon likes it.
"But I like it." Gon reaches out grabs the bulge in Killua's pants, experimenting, squeezing it gently. The reaction is immediate. Killua groans, looking at Gon with wide, in shock eyes but his blush has spread to his neck and his eyes have gotten darker. "Wow you feel big Killua-"
Killua grabs his hand and pulls it away from his bulge, pinning his arms next to his head, moving so he's hovering over him.
"When you do things like this..." Killua breaths out, his nose almost touching Gon's, those amber eyes boring into him. "Touching me like that..." Killua leans in so his face is buried in Gon's neck. He shivers from feeling Killua's harsh breathing against his sensitive skin. "You really are testing my self control aren't you?" He mumbles more to himself but Gon heard it. Gon wraps his arms around Killua's back, rubbing it soothingly, hearing Killua's breath hitch and where he touches, the muscles slowly relax.
"You don't have to have self control. I told you. I pinky promise. If I don't like something i'll tell you. You don't have to be so tense."
Something relaxes in Killua, the ex-assassin letting out a breath he was holding before he latches on To Gon's neck. Gon chuckles, his face getting hot as Killua places tiny kisses all over his neck because it's tickling him but when Killua's kissing becomes more of sucking and his teeth are used, Gon's laughter turns into moans.
Killua stops kissing for a moment. Gon is about to ask if he's made a weird sound when Killua pulsl up to kiss him deeply, wrapping his arms around his waist. Gon closes his eyes, loving how Killua's tongue rubs his tongue with his, how hot he feels, how passnate the kiss is. Gon's hand goes under Killua's shirt, wanting to feel his bare chest and the warmth there. Killua's muscles contract from the touch but a sound rumbles in the back of his thought that reminds Gon of a cat's purr. More... Gon reaches up, taking note on how Killua shivers when he brushes against an erect nipple, Killua biting his lip and groaning.
Before he knows it Killua's hand has gone back to feeling his thigh, squeezing the flesh there. The space between them has become so hot that Gon wants to take off this troublesome dress-
"Gon..." Killua pulls back, looking into his eyes. Gon starts when he sees how glossy those blue orbs are, how they darken in lust but there's something else there. Something that Killua can't hide and it makes Gon's heart skip a beat from seeing Killua like this. In this moment, Killua is exposed, even for a split second. "...I-"
"Killua get down here." Micky calls, cutting him off. "What are you doing up there? Trying to fuck-"
"I'm coming-"
"Ohh are you?" Micky purrs.
"Fuck off!" Killua's ears get red and he grinds his teeth. "I'm about to come down." Killua sighs that look he had is gone. Gon can't help to frown, wanting to see it again. He reaches out and touche Killua's cheek, getting his eyes to widen slightly and he looks at him. They stare at each other for a moment. "...I got to go done there." Killua says reluctantly.
"Yeah I know." Gon nods his head but he doesn't let go of Killua's hand that he had grasps. "Killua, that look just now..." Gon isn't sure how to say this. He's not sure if he's right anyway.
"O-Oh." Killua averts his gaze, those eyes getting a strange look again before he close his eyes and shakes it off. "What look?" Killua looks away quickly, not giving him a chance answer. "I better get done there before he has a fit. You should rest Gon. We have a long day ahead of us-" Killua hugs Gon quickly before he rushes down by jumping off the platform, landing down below before Gon can say anything.
Gon sits back down, his eyebrows furrowing, Gon not able to get that look out of his mind. The facial expression was just something strange. Gon has never seen it before. It wasn't a bad expression, the opposite of that. Gon lays down, curling into a ball, biting his lip. He wants Killua to still be up here. He wants to know what that look meant. That longing there, that happiness, and want...
To Gon, it looked like Killua was looking at someone he treasures. A look you may have seen in the movies when the man looks into the eyes of the woman he loves but this look was so much more real. Is Killua in love with him? Of course Gon loves Killua but they've just moved into this step to become boyfriends. Gon hasn't even considered this a possibility till recently but that look in Killua's eyes...
It takes Gon a good amount of the night trying to calm his facing heart, and this giddiness he feels in his stomach.
Gon doesn't know if he's in love with Killua but Gon knows that look made him really happy. It's a strange feeling, he feels like doing push ups or singing...
He almost feels like crying.
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