:-:-:Lovino:-:-:
I woke up in the middle of the night again, breathing quickly. I had that dream again, the one with him in it... Damnit you tomato bastard why won't you get out of my head! Why do I have all these stupid dreams about you?! I haven't slept well for the longest of time. I can't stop thinking about him... If I'll lose him when he's at sea, he'll leave me because he doesn't want me any more, or if that damn bastard would l- love... Damn it I need to fucking stop thinking about him...
I turned in my bed hoping to fall asleep again, but all I could do is think about how much I loved yesterday. Toni hadn't asked me to dance in long time and I had practiced without him in secrate. He seems happy when I dance in front of him, and the tomatoes were as good as they always are, the best tomatoes are Antonio's tomatoes. Don't you dare take that the wrong fucking way, damnit! A-and its n-not that I want to make the tomato bastard happy, I-I just like the tomatoes he gives me... A-and don't think of that in a perverted way you bastard!
Its almost three in the morning and I still can't sleep. I get up to use the bathroom, the same one that for the longest of time I couldn't find. But I didn't pee in my own damn bed it was the bastardo squirrels, sneeking into my room and pee-peeing all over my bed. The bastards finally stopped doing that after I found the damn bathroom...
On my way back, I started to walk past Antonino's room, more like I stoped to look to see if he was asleep. He looks so nice and warm in his bed l. For a moment I watched him sleep, peacefully undisturbed, beautiful... what the fuck?! Why am I thinking of this? Its not like I l-love him...
I look once more and can't help but walk over to him and get a better look of his face. It was so bello, peaceful, I just want to ki-
Antonio's eye's slowly opened, and I froze in fear. S-shit move you bastardo! It was too late, he sees me.
"Hola, Lovi," Antonio yawned out the words. I stay quiet, not knowing what to say. Toni smiled, "what is it, Lovi? Did you have a bad dream?"
Sì! A way out! I tryed my best to look sad, and nod yes. It must have worked because the tomato bastard got out of bed and hugged me.
"Oh, Lovi, lo siento. You know what, you can sleep with me like you did when you where younger. That way I'll be there to comfort you if you have another bad dream, sí?" Damn tomato bastard, making me seem like I'm still just a kid, and that damn nick name he gave me, is that all he'll ever see me as, a kid...?
"Okay, y-you bastard..." I did my best to keep up the act, which still seemed like it worked well. At least this way I won't have to sleep alone in my cold room. I can let Toni snuggle me and he won't know how I feel. N-not that I have strong feelings for the bastard, I-I just like to be uhhh... damn it... grr w-what ever, I don't have to exsplain myself to you bastards!
Toni smiled at me as I crawl into bed, next to him. You can tell he was still half asleep. I curl into a ball with almost all the blankets, almost forcing the Spaniard to spoon me. His arms are so warm around me, I feel so wanted, and happy. N-not that he made me happy I-I was just happy not to be cold anymore.
It didn't take long for me to fall into a deep, comfortable, sleep. I'm happy, but can I stay happy like this? Its hard thinking that I could never tell Antonio how I feel...