Chapter 1

Hi everybody! First off, thank you for giving this story a chance in the first place, it will probably suck since this is my first time writing on . I have stories on quotev, but I have been inactive for a month I think, so i'm starting here! Anyways, I hope you enjoy this really angsty H2OVanoss fanfiction. If you don't like angst, there's the back arrow. Listen to this song and put it on loop as you read this. I promise you it will trigger your feels. I'm warning you right now. Please enjoy!

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He couldn't do it anymore. He couldn't take the pain any longer. This was the final straw.

Jonathan shut off his skype and console without saying goodbye. Tears were streaming down his face as he made it to his bathroom. The jokes went too far this time. It was one thing to joke about his mess ups; for he would along with them, but to joke about his sexuality nonstop? That was another thing on its own.

What was worse, Evan was in on it too.

The person he fell in love with, who has been by his side since god knows how long. The person who would always listen to his problems if he had any and would answer with sincerity. The person he could trust, could no longer be trusted.

He opened up his cabinet and took out a razor. The cool touch of the metal gave him a feeling of pleasure. For every negative thought that he thought of, he gave himself one cut.

'For always messing up at everything I do,' one cut.

'For being friends with jerks,' another cut.

'For hating myself,' another cut.

'For being gay,' another cut.

'For being alive,' another cut.

After he finished, Jonathan ended up with ten cuts on each arm and leg. He cleaned himself up and left the bathroom, checking his phone in the process. Most were from Tyler, who was still making jokes about his sexuality, and some were from Brock, who was asking if he was okay. He opened up Brock's messages, took a picture of his arms and sent them to him. Brock was the only one that Jonathan could trust now. He cares about everyone, but mostly cares about Jonathan since most of the jokes are targeted at him.

Moo- Okay. This has to stop. They took this too far.

Delirious- I think i'm going to quit YouTube.

Moo- WHAT?!

Delirious- I can't do this anymore Brock. I can't take the jokes anymore. It's everyday, they make a comment about my sexuality. I can't keep pretending that i'm fine when i'm far from it. Everyday I cut myself because of them. I was so close to ending my existence because of their comments. I don't want to go through this anymore.

Moo- Well, you and I both know that I can't stop you from quitting YouTube, but I can stop you from killing yourself. There are people that care about you Delirious. Me, Luke, Ohm, and Bryce care about you. I'd be devastated if you left this planet. Don't you ever forget that. Oh, and wait 'til Luke hers about this, he'll flip out on them. I mean, I will too, but he will do far worse than what I do. Anyways, do what feels right to you, even if it means quitting YouTube. Maybe we could play still and I won't record at all, like a normal hangout.

Delirious- Thanks Brock, and yeah, I would like that. Just the two of of us and maybe Luke, Ohm, and Bryce can join us as well.

Moo- Anytime. Let me know when you want to play.

Delirious- Okay.

Jonathan put his phone away and started up his laptop and recording gear, contemplating on whether or not he should do a face reveal. Finally deciding that he should, since this was going to be his last video ever, he turned the camera on and started recording.

"Hey guys...it's me, H2O DELIRIOUS in the flesh. Um...first I just wanna say thank you for sticking around and supporting someone like me. I kinda find myself to be annoying and stupid, so thanks...but this isn't why I made this video…"

At this point, Jonathan started to cry his eyes out.

"I made this video to say that i'm quitting YouTube. I can take anymore of this pain that the guys give me. Calling me names and joking about my sexuality. I would always leave sessions crying and eventually leading to cutting myself. It became an everyday thing and it got so bad to the point where I almost killed myself. I don't want to deal with this anymore. So, to all of the guys, i'm sorry for being your friend. I'm sorry for being stupid. I'm sorry for being annoying. I'm sorry for being gay. Most of all, i'm sorry for being alive," Jonathan said, taking a much needed break to collect himself. Finally feeling a little in control of his emotions, Jonathan faced the camera one more time.

"And to all of my fans, I cannot thank you enough like I already have. I'm sorry it had to end like this, but...this is goodbye...the delirious army will forever live on in my heart...and it should in yours...peace out everybody...goodbye…," Jonathan said as he turned off his recording and uploaded it on YouTube. He couldn't keep the tears from spilling, for who knows how many hearts he broke. The comments were already rolling in, some in shock, some in denial, some crying, some furious and want to know who did this to him, and some shouting delirious army as a war cry. Jonathan the went to his social media apps and blocked all of the people who made him feel this way, then laid in bed and cried himself to sleep. His lifetime career, was now put to an end.