AN: remember guys, no matter how it looks like, this is a Harm/Jen fic, NOT a Harm/Mac. If you can't stand Harm and Jen together, please stop reading now.

Thanks to Carolfd for catching the slight error that is now corrected.

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Now she was standing before him, regret, apology and pleading for forgiveness showing in her eyes, lips spouting those impersonal words of asking him to allow her to be his Yeoman, and her heart begging him to give her the chance to make it up to him, prove him that she deserved his trust and friendship, that she regretted her short-lived infatuation with Vukovich.

He accepted hesitantly and 3 hours later she was standing in the tavern, watching as the coin flew through the air.

She was relieved when it was decided that the happy couple would be moving to London. Not because of her secured position, but because in her eyes the Captain deserved his promotion and position more than the LtCol ever would.

Harm had already given up so much for Mac, had already given up his career and flight status for her, while Mac had given up nothing for him, for 'them'. He shouldn't be the one to give up his career again, throw away his new promotion and the perfect position from which to eventually become the JAG of the Navy. No woman should ever expect or accept so many sacrifices from the man, without ever giving anything in return, always taking and never giving.

The coin had chosen and they were moving to London.

The first sign of trouble ahead was when the court would not assign Harm custody of Mattie so that he could take her with them. Their reasons were that Mattie wasn't in the shape to be going anywhere and the court would not have allowed her to go living to another country, even had Mattie been okay. The request was also denied because they were moving to a foreign city that had already been hit by terrorists and, as the family of a very prominent high-ranking US officer, they would've been a prime target.

That was also the start of the end, the start of the year from hell.

They had said teary goodbyes to Mattie and left for London that same day.

Harm and Mac had been given a luxurious apartment that came with Harm's post and Jen went to live on the base.

Everything went well for a while until Jen noticed increasing tension between Harm and Mac. The first time the alarms started blaring in Jen's head was at their wedding.

Harm and Mac had disappeared for a while during the reception and when they came back Jen could tell that they had been arguing about something. She had known Harm quite well and knew when he was upset and/or angry and had immediately caught the signs.

The next sign was the way Mac had aggressively corrected someone when they'd called her Mrs Rabb. It was another hint to Jen that something was wrong when Mac completely declined even thinking about taking Harm's name after having gotten married to him. She did not even compromise on hyphenating. Jen knew a lot of women who would've been honored to be Harm's wife and carry his name, much less carry his children. She was among them. Hell, she wanted it more than any other woman on the planet.

Months went by and Jen noticed more and more things that caused great deal of concern to her.

Harm started spending more time in the office, going home later, and when Mac came to the office she was always very tense and cool. There was not even one sign of that completely in love couple that she'd seen for the few hours before and after that fateful coin toss.

Slowly she managed to figure it out.

Mac resented Harm for giving up her career to go with him and she resented being a Navy wife, when before she'd been a Marine LtCol. Later on Harm also revealed to Jen that the situation had been escalating because their attempts at trying to conceive a child kept failing and Mac was losing hope and patience, channeling her anger and despair into getting angry at Harm.

When Jen saw them one day at home, having brought some files for Harm that he'd forgotten in the office, she was shocked to see just how far apart they'd grown.

She could yet again see the hopelessness in Harm's eyes, that tore her heart apart, that was a constant fixture in his eyes and demeanor after he'd returned from Paraguay and before he and Mac had gotten together. Harm still loved Mac and was forced to watch his marriage fall apart around his head. The marriage that he'd believed would never fail. And when Mac looked at Harm Jen was shaken to see hate in the older woman's eyes.

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