1To He Who Broke My Heart

Chapter 6

By: Demon Hiei's Girl (Demon Usagi)

Standard Disclaimers Apply

Author's note: I think this is chapter six, isn't it? Eh, in case my writing is too vague this beginning part is a flash back type deal.

It began not too terribly long ago. Just a year ago, at most. It was the mere third time Keiko rejected the possibility of intercourse to Yusuke, and he was overly frustrated. He ended up wandering around his favorite park in circles, attempting to think of cleaner thoughts, when he ran into his currently favorite fire apparition. The hiyoukai was calmly asleep in a tree; nothing terribly abnormal.

It didn't take Hiei a long time to wake up and notice the Toushin's awkward energy lingering nearby. In fact, right under him.

"Awake?"

"Now."

"Ah."

Obviously, the two weren't the best when it came to small talk. Yusuke innocently looked up to the demon, who was eyeing him curiously.

"What are you doing in the Ningenkai?" the chocolate eyed boy asked, equally as innocently as he looked. The fact Hiei was not following Mukuro around in Makai was peculiar. But Yusuke didn't really need to ask; it was obvious he was on one of his "breaks" that he got time from time. Mukuro ended up not being the tyrant demons thought she was. She knew Hiei had connections in the Ningenkai, and every once in a while a visit there would be good for him. Thus, when Hiei gave no reply, Yusuke didn't prod further.

"A better question, Detective, is why are you out here?" Hiei added darkly, glaring down at his comrade.

"Ughh..." the boy groaned, lying down in the grass below the hiyoukai's perch, "I had a fight with Keiko and I need to let out some steam."

"Keiko...? That ningen female you constantly have to save?" Hiei asked, cocking an eyebrow.

Yusuke chuckled a bit. "You could say that."

"I don't think I want to know what you're fighting about."

Yusuke sighed, deciding he didn't care if Hiei listened or not, he was going to tell him his sob story anyway. "What do you think of premarital sex?" The fire demon nearly fell of his branch.

"What the fuck are you talking about, Detective?" he asked, wide eyed.

"It's just, humans mate by marring each other, right? And Keiko wants to wait til after we marry before we--"

"I know how it works! Kurama told me enough!" Hiei interjected, not really wanting to hear the Spirit Detective's inner demons about marriage, cold feet, and sexual problems with a ningen he barely knew.

"Do you think two people can have sex before they mate? I see nothing wrong with it."

"You're a child." Hiei glowered at the human hearted demon below him. "You have sex when you're ready to have it."

"I'm ready!" Yusuke protested.

"Tsk. That's not what I meant. You have to be ready for the consequences. Like having a baby, among other shit I really, really don't want to discuss with you." Hiei explained, interlacing his fingers around the knee that was pressed against said demon's chest. Yusuke laughed; it was humorous that he was having a sex ed lesson with Hiei.

"What? You're not going to tell me you should be in love before you make a commitment?" Yusuke asked. The Toushin stood up and stretched before climbing up to the branch the hiyoukai was resting on. Poking the irritated demon's shoulder, he continued, "So? How did you learn all this, hm? Who do you love?" Yusuke teased Hiei a little further, until the already irritated demon got more irritated, and literally kicked him off the tree branch, leaving the chocolate eyed teenager to end up on his ass below the tree once again.

"I'm not telling you," the half Koorime finally said, looking over Yusuke from his branch, lightly sticking out his tongue.

"Oh well now I'm curious!" the ex Detective added slyly, trying to latch on the demon's cloak from his position on the ground. When the fingers finally managed to wrap around the dark fabric, Yusuke tugged a little too hard and the hiyoukai's back crashed into the ex Detective's chest as they sloppily fell to the grassy, dirty floor.

"Oof!"

"Look what you did now, you idiot!" Hiei grouched, attempting to get up. Yusuke pulled him back down, and pushed him against the tree from their sitting positions. They looked each other in the eyes for about two minutes before Yusuke's lips lightly brushed the fire demon's.

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"You never answered my question." Yusuke stated, rubbing the demon's back lightly. It was their third night together in whatever weird, lust filled relationship they had. After the night below the tree, they figured what that hell? Might as well ride the wave out. Besides, Yusuke liked the sex. He never thought of himself as a homosexual previously, and he sure as hell never thought he would lose his virginity to Hiei (or even kiss him, really). And he still liked girls, namely Keiko. But now it was painfully clear to him that the more he spent time with the half Koorime, the more he would need Hiei closer to him.

"What question?" the fire apparition asked lazily. He liked having his back scratched by his lover (not that he would show such weakness and mention it to the Detective). Yusuke shifted his weight in his own, messy bed. The dirty sheets were clumsily wrapped around the two's naked waists. Yusuke much preferred the use of a bed for love-making, as opposed to the wet, grassy ground.

"Who do you love...?"

Hiei's silence, much to Yusuke's amusment and joy, was reassuring. Yusuke didn't know why he was curious, or why he didn't want Hiei to be secretly in love with Kurama or something. He gave said demon a tight squeeze. "Stay with me...?"

"Huh?"

"Stay with me. This could work."

"Are you crazy? What about your ningen female?" Hiei closed his eyes abruptly as if declaring the discussion closed. He didn't want to think about Yusuke's girlfriend at the moment; the female he would 'marry' and thus spend the rest of his life with. The thought of their possible children made him want to gag. Why a demon, newly into this race or not, would want a human for a mate was beyond him.

"Oh! Heh heh, right."

Hiei visibly twitched. He forgot?

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As he predicted, Yusuke ended up wanting to spend more and more time with the apparition, and thus gave him extra attention. During makeshift missions that Koenma allowed the team to go on despite their "firing", Yusuke was always extra protective of Hiei. He himself didn't even notice it until one demon tried to cowardly attack Hiei from behind and wounded the hiyoukai's shoulder by putting a huge, deep slash in it. Infuriated, Yusuke killed the demon in a heart beat, then redirected his attention to the fire apparition fully. He didn't even bother kill any more of the weak B and A class demons. He figured Kurama and Kuwabara would take care of it (which they did) while Yusuke attended to Hiei's injury. Once the group went on their separate ways after the battle, Yusuke enveloped Hiei in a hug, mindfully avoiding the bandaged shoulder.

Their escapades went on the entire year. By the time the new year rounded, Yusuke knew he was in love with the demon that he assumed to be nothing more than a fuck buddy. He knew he loved Keiko, but... What could he say? He was a selfish bastard, and he knew it. He wanted Hiei. He only wanted Hiei. He tried to keep up with Keiko, but was failing miserably. Everything was a fight, and argument... Their relationship was becoming feeble, and soon it was falling apart. Yusuke figured if he really wanted to, he could save it. But then he decided if he had to pick, he knew who he really wanted. He would still protect Keiko, he was willing to be there for her...but not as a lover.

Yusuke, as brave as he was, could never before come right out and admit to Hiei what the hiyoukai meant to him. He tried to make subtle hints, but Hiei obviously ignored each one. Why he did was beyond Yusuke. He did everything in his power to make the aloof demon happy, so why wasn't he? Everything he tried ended in failure, and every time Yusuke planned on being blunt (after building up the courage), Hiei would change the subject as fast as possible.

Yusuke first suspected that while he at first thought of Hiei as a fuck buddy, maybe it was ditto for Hiei currently. Maybe he loved someone else. So the Toushin began to pry around to learn more about the hiyoukai. One time, he even tried to rustle some information from Koenma (while being discreet about their relationship). He didn't learn much about any lovers that posed a threat, since their was none, but he did learn the horrors of Hiei's past.

He didn't think it was possible, but he fell deeper than he previously thought.

That night coming home, Yusuke spent every waking moment with Hiei, and they did this or that to keep each other occupied and entertained. However, Yusuke didn't attempt anything sexual, which Hiei found rather strange considering how hormone crazed the man could be. He also noted how much the Toushin seemed to hug him, and soothe him from pain he couldn't know existed.

Hiei knew from the start. It was painfully clear, despite how much he tried to repress it... He returned the feeling the ex Detective kept throwing at him. But no matter what, he wasn't going to let the detective have his way. If Yusuke stayed with him, the detective would be miserable, or so Hiei chose to believe. He hated to admit it, even to himself, but the human hearted demon was just that: a human hearted demon. And a human heart needed a human heart, thus Keiko and he were better suited for one another. Besides, Yusuke knew Keiko longer. Knew her faults, her strengths, the list could go on and on. She loved him and he loved her. They were so perfect for each other, it was boring. So, inwardly and inevitably, Hiei decided that he would not interfere with the ningen female's relationship with Yusuke and stay out of their way.

Or that was the plan.

Hiei tried to keep his distance, but Yusuke would get him back into a corner every time, sometimes quite literally. And then they would have sex, and the pent up feelings would come back. Yusuke tried to go back to Keiko like nothing ever happened between he and Hiei, and Hiei was determined to let them. But the two always found each other again in a comforting embrace in the end. Yusuke wanted Hiei and Hiei wanted Yusuke. Yusuke loved Hiei and Hiei loved Yusuke. Why were things so difficult?

As of recently, Hiei was continuing to avoid Yusuke the best he could manage. Right before the reunion, he had found himself in Kurama's room, trying to distract himself by bugging the fox. It was easy to talk to Kurama because Kurama was able to understand the Reikai Tantei's awkward situations. However, Hiei had kept his mouth shut to the kitsune about his little affair with their team leader. No matter how much Kurama understood, he would never be able to get the whole situation fully. Besides, it wasn't any of his business, was it?

Not to say Kurama was so dumb that he completely overlooked the change in his friend's demeanor. One day, Hiei just suddenly seemed to be acting strange; stranger than normal, anyway. He started to get more twitch-y around Yusuke, which was really weird, since the two seemed more compatible as of recently. Kurama suspected the demon may have been experiencing emotions he wasn't used to. Normally, Kurama would be happy for him, but he knew immediately if that was the case, there's only one person that longing could be for. And that one person was forbidden territory because he was taken.

Kurama noted further the odd interactions between the two at the reunion. The two were guarding themselves at first by half ignoring each other at the beginning, but halfway through the reunion they were inseparable. Kurama felt a little sorry for Keiko, not that he said anything. But he noticed immediately that day that whatever it was, it was not one sided. But why was Yusuke suddenly so into Hiei? Maybe the whole thing was just Kurama's imagination. In the end, he never really learned about their adventures in the restaurant's bathroom.

Finally, during much whispering and isolation from the rest of the group, Yusuke admitted to Hiei that he loved him while they were siting in wet grass, ironically like where they first made love. Yusuke doubted Hiei would listen, or get it through his head, the amount the Toushin loved him. Yusuke wished there was a way he could prove it to the fire youkai.

Unbeknownst to the two love birds, they had an audience. A rustle in a bush was the give away. The two bolted their heads around, having being on high alert since they first got together. Keiko's body made itself known, and she bolted away from them as fast as she could. The leaves and other miscellaneous plants and dirt that covered her skirt and blouse indicated she had been spying on them from the bushes. Some more female heads popped up from under the bush, abruptly ignoring the men and turning to face Keiko. Botan's voice shouted after the girl. Yusuke heard Hiei groan as the half Koorime put his forehead into his palm. Yusuke could tell things would go even less smoothly with Hiei now, especially since Hiei felt guilty for coming between himself and Keiko.

"You moron!" Botan announced, making herself even more obviously known. She marched toward the two (the others getting up themselves and slowly inching towards Botan) and placed her hands on her hips, leering at Yusuke. "What the hell is going on? Aren't you going to go after her?"

Yusuke instinctively put a protective arm around Hiei as he answered bluntly, "No."

"Well why the hell not?" Botan emotionally spat out, not believing what she was hearing.

"Because this is the truth whether you're happy about it or not..." Yusuke sighed, clearly annoyed with the whole situation as he rested his cheek on Hiei's head defiantly. "I really do love him."

End chapter six

Author's note: Oooh aaaah. That settle that mystery. It was all for sex, but now it's not. Not a lot of Keiko in this one, but I had to show that Yusuke isn't a completely heartless bastard. He had feelings, just not for her in the way he once did. Next time: more of Keiko. Also, how do the rest of the gang handle the news? R and R. :D