Chapter 5 of Twisted Feelings
To say Kagome was confused would be an understatement. He insulted her and then gently kisses her tears away. She didn't know
whether to hate him or to like him, all she knew was that he was infuriating.
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He kept feeling her glances in his direction and when she wasn't looking he would look over at her and see her confusion and smile a
smile that was barely visible. He was glad that he had her so confused because it meant that she would not be able to decipher
anything from him at the moment. Why do you torment her so? It's fun to pick on her. I don't care, you hurt her back there. I
know, but that is why I kissed her eyelids. Admit it, you like her. No I do not like her, I'm just intrigued by her lack of fear.
Whatever.Said his inner beast as it rolled it's eyes.
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When they had made it back to camp Inuyasha had jumped up and ran over to Kagome giving her a big hug and asking her if she was
okay and various other questions like that.
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Sesshomaru suppressed the urge to growl and snarl at Inuyasha for hugging Kagome. Is this jealousy I am feeling? No it can't be,
I, Sesshomaru, Lord of the Western Lands does not get jealous over lowly humans. Rrreeeeaaalllly? Is that so? I believe you
are jealous of her. Replied his beast almost gleefully. I do not feel for her. He snapped back. Touchy, touchy, my, my, you are
being quite defensive of her being handled by other males. No I am not. Denial isn't good for the body. Denial, what denial?
I do not deny the fact that I truly feel nothing for her. Yeah right, and I'm a monkey and not a dog. Knock it off already; I'm
tired of fighting with you over this, so drop it. I shall not drop it till you admit to it.
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Inuyasha glanced at Sesshomaru and was startled by what he saw. Sesshomaru's eyes were flashing from red tinged to gold
continuously. What is his problem? Something weird is going on here and I'm beginning to wonder if I made a mistake by
agreeing to travel with him. When he released Kagome she turned walking towards the fire and glanced over at Sesshomaru.
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Why does he look like that? Is it because Inuyasha hugged me? What is it with these two being so damn possessive? Has to
be the dog part. I need another bath now to get Kouga's smell off of me. She walked over to her bag and picked it up as she
said "I'm going to go take another bath, I'll be back in about thirty minutes."
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Sesshomaru had already disappeared before she had proclaimed going to get a bath. He was walking around lost in thought about a
certain aggravating miko. So deeply in thought he did not realize where he was until he heard a gasp and water splashing. Looking up
he saw Kagome in the water with just her head sticking out.
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Turning several shades of red she said "Sesshomaru, what are you doing here?" as she thought He must have been in deep thought
when he wandered to the spring not realizing it.
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Interesting What is? That she has not told us to leave yet. Yes that is odd. "Miko, what are you doing out here?"
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"What does it look like I'm doing? I'm taking a bath idiot, so if you don't mind turning around so that I put something on, I would
appreciate it greatly."
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He turned around and she swam over to the bank where her bag was and riffled through it for her bikini and pulled it on. "You can
turn back around now."
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He turned around and stopped to stunned to move. She was wearing the most indecent clothing he had ever see, it left almost nothing
to the imagination. Well it's not like I haven't seen her nude before, but this makes her intriguing. Come on she's practically
begging for us to take her, wearing that sexy creation. No he replied forcefully shutting his beast out completely. "Miko what are
you wearing?" his beast was frantically bashing against it's cages' walls.
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"It's a bathing suit, we wear these where I come from to go swimming."
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"Why did you not get dressed?"
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"I need to wash my hair still and the water is relaxing for me."
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"I see" he replied as he watched her lather up her luxurious hair, fighting the urge to join her and wash her hair himself. Please join
her and wash her hair. No I shall not do it, because I will not risk losing control of you. Come on please No he said slamming
his beast back into its cage.
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Kagome rinsed her hair and then sat there soaking in the water. A companionable silence fell over them as she sat there and he
watched her from hooded eyes.
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After sitting there for ten minutes she stood to get out and tripped, but before she could fall she felt strong arms wrap around her as
they caught her. She was lifted up and set gently down on the ground. She looked up into his amber pools and her breath caught, his
eyes showed a strange emotion in them, and before they could stop themselves they kissed a sweet sensual kiss. He slid his hands
down her back, stopping at her waistline he began rubbing small circles with his fingers. Letting out a soft sigh she leaned against him
and wrapped her arms around his waist. He smiled at her reaction and pulled back from her and turned to leave.
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What have I done? He thought to himself. I don't care for her, so why is my body betraying me? Because you truly care for
her his beast purred.
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"Wait, Sesshomaru…….." she started. He stopped and faced her again as she said "If you don't care about me then why do you
keep leading me on like this? Why do you keep on kissing me? Tell me the truth Sesshomaru."
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"Tell me this miko, why do you allow me to kiss you?"
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"I'm not really sure why I allow you to, but you didn't answer me Sesshomaru."
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"I am intrigued by you miko, you do not fear me, you have excellent hygiene, and you are stronger than most humans. Is that a good
enough answer?"
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"Not exactly, you never did tell me why you lost control with Kouga either."
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"Because miko, unfortunately for me my beast has chosen you as his mate to be and he was calling for Kouga's blood. For some
reason in all the time I have lived my beast has never been stirred by a female of any kind before, so you are intriguing to me miko.
Tell me miko do you have feelings for anyone right now?"
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"I…I think that I might, but I'm not certain yet. Do you hold anything other than just an interest into why your beast has chosen me?"
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"I have tried not to think of it, for you have yet to prove your worthiness to me. Do not take it as an insult miko, it's just I need to
know you will make a worthy and capable mate before I let my demon rule my decision of choosing a human for a mate. See if I
chose a human for a mate and she did not truly want it she would stay human or she would become only a half-demon. So I will not
choose to mate you unless you are worthy and fully committed to it. I do not want the other demons to say I forced you if you did not
turn into a full demon. That is why I'm cautious, do you understand?"
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"Yes I understand Sesshomaru, I can not tell you whether I have feelings for you yet or not. I like the fact that you aren't as rude as
Inuyasha or like Kouga when he voiced his claim over me. And your control over your beast even though I'm in heat is amazing. You
surprise me with how gentle you can be, because I always thought of you as a cold hearted killer considering how much you always
tried to kill us over the years."
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"I'm glad that you understand where I stand miko." He drew close to her and looked into her chocolate eyes seeing the honesty in
them he pulled her up to him and gave her a gentle kiss on the lips and said "You need to get back, do you not?"
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"Oh my god its been over thirty minutes, they'll be sending a search party if I don't hurry up and get back." She took off running for
the camp and he just stood there silently laughing at her loss of time.
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"What took you so long?" yelled Inuyasha.
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"I was enjoying the water so much that I lost track of time." She replied a little to happily.
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Inuyasha and the others gave her looks that said 'forgetful much?' then sighed shaking their heads. Then Inuyasha nose started
twitching and he followed it over to Kagome and started sniffing. "Okay Kagome you're in heat but why do I smell Sesshomaru on
you?"
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Kagome froze Oh no I forgot to cover his scent on me after he hugged and kissed me. "What are you talking about Inuyasha?
Your nose must be fooling you, because I haven't seen Sesshomaru since I got back to camp." A little white lie won't hurt, I don't
have to tell him which time I got back here.
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"No my nose never lies to me, I smell him on you."
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She hurried up and masked his scent and said "Are you certain Inuyasha?"
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"Huh? It's gone, how did it? What's going on around here?" he asked confused as hell that Sesshomaru's scent suddenly
disappeared on her.
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"See I told you that your nose was tricking you." she said matter of factly.
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"I guess so" he said grudgingly.
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Sesshomaru was pleased that she was fooling his brother by tricking his nose hiding his scent quickly with a shield. She was slowly
gaining his respect and his beast was thrilled at her trying to keep things running smoothly in their little group. He thought it was funny
that she actually made his brother believe that his nose tricked him.
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They all settled down for the night but Kagome's thoughts were in turmoil about what Sesshomaru had said. And Sango knew that
Inuyasha's nose had not really fooled him that Kagome had really just masked Sesshomaru's scent on her.
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Kagome is going to have fun keeping up this ruse without Inuyasha finding out. I believe her and Sesshomaru are falling for
each other slowly but surely. Inuyasha is not going to be happy when he finds out about Kagome and Sesshomaru, thought
Sango.
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The next week of travel went by uneventful and Kagome barely saw Sesshomaru throughout the week. She knew he was nearby
watching over her when they had camp set up but the only time she saw him was when he was leading the group north. She didn't get
to talk to him during that week either it seemed like he was avoiding alone time with her. She couldn't blame him though with his
demon wanting to take her every time they were completely alone, but it still stung a little that he wasn't making opportunities to talk
with her. She missed his vague conversations, as hard as that was to believe, his conversational wordplay with her was something she
had grown to enjoy quickly. As much as she wanted to deny it he was beginning to grow on her.
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Sesshomaru avoided talking with the miko hoping his beast would stop pestering him about her but he started to long for their
conversations together. She was the only person he felt he could talk to who would not cower away from him in fear. He would not
admit to himself that she had grown on him and that the longer he avoided her the more his feelings for her would grow. He knew he
had to protect her but only to keep his beast quite, at least that's what he kept telling himself. Sesshomaru was to proud to admit that
he was really falling for the miko no matter how much he fought it.
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Kagome paused in their walk sensing an evil aura quickly approaching them, she readied her bow and yelled to everyone that
something was coming towards them. Sesshomaru was the next one to sense it then Inuyasha, Miroku, and Sango. When it came into
sight it was a large tiger demon that was after their shards, it had been told by Naraku that there was a group with a lot of shards in
the area and it was power hungry. Inuyasha and Miroku were the first to attack and Kagome decided to stay out of their way being
as it didn't have any shards within it. She tensed as she felt something coming at her from behind, spinning around she realized she did
not have enough time to draw back her arrow and purify the jaguar demon leaping at her. She braced for it to hit her and shut her
eyes dreading the pain that was fixing to hit her. Opening her eyes one last time she saw the back of a large white paw in front of her,
looking up she saw a huge white dog standing over her with the jaguar demon in its razor sharp teeth. Realizing it was just
Sesshomaru she looked around to see where the rest of the gang was and saw they had killed three other demons and were now
looking at Sesshomaru oddly.
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Sesshomaru was standing by watching as the others took on the tiger demon when he sensed another demon approaching them
looking around he saw it leap for Kagome, he noticed she didn't have enough time to draw her bow back to purify it. He started
transforming as he ran to save her. He stood over her as he snatched the Jaguar from the air crushing it instantly he tossed it from his
massive jaws and dropped his nose down to nuzzle her on the cheek and then gave her a gentle lick. He moved from over her and
laid down next to her eyeing her with one large red eye he slowly started to transform back into his normal form as he looked at her.
That was close, too close. We will have to keep a closer eye on her from now on. I know, otherwise she may never get the
chance to prove herself to us. Oh so you are going to give her a chance to break down the walls around your heart. I think
she has already started to do that beast. So you'll admit that she is slowly warming your frozen heart. Yes, but only because
we almost lost her today.
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Sesshomaru just saved me! Why did he nuzzle me though and lick me? Is he showing that he cares about me? I'll have to ask
him later when I get him alone, thought Kagome. She watched him as he transformed back and thought about how beautiful he was
in both of his forms.
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Inuyasha realized what he brothers actions had said while he was in his true form, and it stung him deeply as he realized that his
brother might succeed in stealing Kagome's heart. After the many times that he had hurt Kagome because of Kikyo he wouldn't
blame her if she really left him for Sesshomaru, especially after the display of affection his demon just gave her. He was afraid of losing
Kagome but he knew that he didn't love her like he still loved Kikyo, but if Kikyo was taken from him again he would've still had
Kagome. Wait a minute that time I smelled Sesshomaru's scent faintly on her when she came back from the bath that day, I
really wasn't imagining things she shielded his scent to keep me from getting hurt. He must have feelings for her because he
went after Kouga when she was taken and brought her back to us. Damn, I guess I really have lost her to him. I'm going to
make sure though, I'm going to catch her away from the group and kiss her to see how she takes it he resolved.
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Miroku and Shippo were just down right confused at the behavior Sesshomaru was displaying, and Sango just smiled a knowing
smile thinking Yep he is definitely hooked.
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"Are you okay Kagome?" Sesshomaru asked her quietly.
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"Yes, I'm fine. Thank you for saving me Sesshomaru, I didn't have time to draw back my bow and shoot it. I really thought I was
going to die that time." Then so quietly he could barely hear her she said "I would like to speak with you soon."
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He nodded his head slightly as a response to her request to speak with him. He figured if Sango left the next hot spring they came
across before Kagome did he would speak with her then. Looking over at the others he scowled at Inuyasha, then turned and
continued their journey north.
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Later that day, at dusk, when they set up camp Inuyasha asked Kagome to help gather firewood. They walked off to collect wood
and when they were out of sight of the camp he turned and looked at her. Then without warning he leaned down and captured her lips
with his, licking her lip asking for more of her mouth, he was hurt when she did not open her mouth to him. He tried to pull her into
him but met resistance and he tried once again to gain more of her mouth but failed. He stopped when he heard a quietly issued feral
growl from a nearby tree, pulling back he found he was not happy with what he had discovered from her. She did not love him
anymore and the knowledge cut into his soul deeply, he looked at her sadly and turned to leave when she said "Inuyasha I'm sorry, I
gave up on you long ago but I still love you but only like a sister would love a brother."
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"Don't apologize Kagome I should have expected this reaction with the many times that I hurt you when you saw me with Kikyo. I
hope you find happiness with someone who will love you for who you are, not who you replaced." He finished sadly leaving her
where she stood he glanced up and saw Sesshomaru and said for only his brother to hear "Sorry, but I had to be totally certain she
no longer wanted me before I gave her up. Don't hurt her or it will come back to haunt you." at Sesshomaru's nod he left them
completely alone.
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Sesshomaru leaped down from his tree landing softly behind Kagome. He closed the distance between them and wrapped his arms
around her from behind and pulled her back into him. She glanced up at him with tears in her eyes and said "I didn't want to hurt
him." Then she sobbed and turned into his chest laying her head on his chest. He lifted her face and kissed her forehead and asked
"What did you want to speak to me about?"
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"Oh yeah I nearly forgot about that. Why did you nuzzle me and lick me after you killed that jaguar demon?" she asked a little
nervously.
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"My beast was trying to comfort you and telling you that everything would be okay. Would you like to take a short walk with me?"
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"Shouldn't we go back to camp?"
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"Not right away, besides Inuyasha knows that I was watching and that I'm with you right now."
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"Oh, in that case I guess a short walk couldn't hurt."
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He smiled inwardly as he thought I missed spending time with her alone. Does that mean you will take her tonight? No it does
not, I want to make sure she wants what I have to offer her. So you admit to wanting her now. I want to know her better
that is all for now, he replied sadly. Why is that? Because she is upset about hurting Inuyasha right now and I don't want her
to feel guilty when I let you take her. Fine but don't take to long. "Is there anything you would like to talk about Kagome?"
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"Tell me Sesshomaru do you care for me? I know your beast does, but do you also care?"
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"Well it's difficult for me to say." He started he was surprised when she got depressed over what he just said. So he continued with "I
believe I care for you some, not as strongly as my beast does yet but in time maybe as much or more than it does."
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She perked up slightly at his words and looked over at him to see a small smile across his face. They stopped at a small meadow and
she sat down next to a tree and he sat down next to her. With some debate he reached over and pulled her into his lap and said "I
transformed because my beast and I were afraid we were going to lose you today. I want to give you a chance to care for me little
miko and maybe become my mate in time."
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She gasped as what he just said sank in and looked up into softened amber eyes. His eyes aren't cold like they used to be, is that
because of me?" she thought to herself as he held her snuggly against his chest. She leaned up a little trying to gain access to his lips
and sighed as he brought his down onto hers softly kissing her. He licked her bottom lip and was thrilled when she granted him access
into her mouth. They kissed for about five minutes like this and then separated only to do it again.
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She refused both Kouga and Inuyasha access to her inner mouth but allowed me this great gift. She truly is amazing isn't
she? he thought happily. Yes she is. It took you long enough to see it though, so when can I have her as mine? Not yet beast be
patient I will not rush things with her. Fine if you say so. I do, now let me have peace for awhile.
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She was content with him but she still felt bad about Inuyasha and knew that Sesshomaru felt this from her. She was glad that he
wasn't rushing her to mate with him, but knew she still had a ways to go to break down his walls completely. She was interrupted
from her thoughts when she felt his hand starting to roam her body and she tensed when she felt his hand on her inner thigh at the edge
of her skirt.
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He stopped instantly when he felt her tense under his hands. He then said "Sorry Kagome I only wanted to give you a little pleasure,
I'm not trying to move to fast for you I will not ask for you to be mine till we are both ready. I was only going to give you a small taste
of what I can do for you, but it is fine if you do not wish for me to pleasure you yet. I can wait till we both decide that we want to be
with each other, okay?"
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She stared into his eyes as he spoke and realized he had no bad intentions in what he wanted to do to her for the moment. She
glanced at her feet hiding her blush she said "Maybe in a few more days Sessho."
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He smiled down at her and said "That is fine my feisty little miko." He stood up with her in his arms and headed back for camp.
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When he strolled into camp with Kagome still in his arms Miroku and Shippo both jumped to their feet as they asked if she was okay.
She only smiled and nodded her head at their question. When Sesshomaru set her down he walked over and sat next to Inuyasha and
said under his breath "She is sorry about hurting you it still bothers her, but you would do well to keep your hands off of what is
mine."
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"When will you take her as a mate?" he asked just as quietly
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"When she is ready for that type of commitment and only then will I take her."
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"Good, she will be a handful though." Inuyasha warned.
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"I know but that's what makes her so interesting brother. I don't believe I would've ever looked twice if she wasn't a feisty fearless
human."
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"I know, it's always been part of her charm and that's why Kouga liked her so much." He replied sadly while thinking I have lost
her, but he better take good care of her or I will kill him. He stood up and walked over to a tree and leapt up into its branches to
sleep.
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Sesshomaru placed himself in the nearest tree to Kagome to watch over her. She did not go to sleep however, she grabbed her bag
and headed for the spring to bathe. He silently slipped out of the tree and followed a little ways behind her to keep guard over her. He
walked up to the spring and put his back to it then sat down.
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"Oh hey Sessho, why are you here?" she inquired.
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"Just ensuring your safety while you bathe, we are to close to Naraku's palace for you to wander around alone Kagome."
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"How much further is it from here?"
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"About another three days travel on foot. All I want you to do when we go into battle with him is to let us know where the jewel
shards are. I do not want any harm to befall you, okay?"
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"I will help if I need to Sesshomaru, you can't stop me from helping in the battle if I am needed to fight him."
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He sighed, somehow he had a feeling this would happen that's why he had tried to keep away from her. But he failed miserably at
staying away from her. "Kagome I just don't want the possibility of losing you, my beast would lose it if you were to die."
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"But you could bring me back with the Tensaiga, couldn't you?"
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"Yes but I would prefer for you to stay out of harms way. Please promise me you will not get in harms way Kagome."
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Crossing her fingers she promised him. She got out of the water and dried off then dressed. She walked over to him and grabbed his
hand and they walked side by side back into camp. She climbed into her sleeping bag and went to sleep with Sesshomaru watching
over her as she dreamed of her possible future with him.
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Okay guys that's it for this chapter. I had difficulty with this chapter almost halfway through it, I got stuck with the emotion revealing stuff between Sesshy and Kags I had fun trying to figure out where to go from there. Let me know what you thought.
Next time: battle with Naraku, something bad happens, and true emotions are revealed.