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Haley was standing over the sink looking outside. She had tears on her eyes. Her all life was out of control she could see all her dreams and hopes slipping through her hands and she had no way to stop them.

A green car stopped on the driveway and a little boy ran to the door. Haley just had time to dry her tears when the boy jumped and hugged her.

" Mummy! You should have come with us! I saw monkeys, bears and crocodiles!"

Haley bent down and took the little boy in her arms. " Wow! You're so lucky Jamie! Were you scared?"

" Na, I'm a big boy now! I'm no scared!"

Haley smiles " That's my boy!" She kissed him on the cheek. " What do you want to do now?"

" I don't know" said James pretending to be seriously thinking. " Maybe watching Sponge bob."

Haley sighed. " Sponge bob again?! Okay baby boy you got it! Sit on the sofa I'll got to fetch the DVD."

" Yeah!" Said James jumping into the leaving room.

Haley followed James with her glance. She felt so blessed to have him. How would she be today if James was not there to raise her up? She shivered. She preferred not to think about it.

She put the DVD and kissed James.

" Be good baby boy, I'll be on the kitchen okay?" She added with a nice smile

James nodded and looked at her very seriously. " Mummy where is daddy?"

Haley felt like the ground just opened under her feet. She paused the DVD and sat beside James.

" Well… Daddy is away for now sweaty." Said Haley kissing his forehead. " You know daddy is sick and…and he needs to get better."

" Is he going to be better soon?"

Haley looked into her sons' beautiful blue eyes. He was so innocent and did not understand all the drama around him. She did her best to contain her tears." I hope so honey…I sure hope so."

Haley stood up. " Well you better watch your cartoons now because mummy needs to cook dinner. Okay?"

" Okay mummy. I'll be good." Said James with a smile.

Haley went back to the kitchen and sat on a chair. She put one hand on her stomach but it was not just a random place. She took the habit to put her hand on her scar maybe in the intend to heal herself. This small scar was the only exterior proof of the accident she had with Nathan almost two years ago. This scar was about two inches and located near her navel and each time she was looking at it she remembered the day when her life took a different path then the one she expected.

She closed her eyes and remembered the accident as if happened yesterday. Nathan just signed his contract with the Spurs and Haley was making fun of him about having to move to Texas. Nathan was looking at her and did not see the red light. Haley did not see the accident but she remembered a quick but terrible pain. When she opened her eyes she turned to Nathan who was all bloody and unconscious on the steering wheel. She thought he was dead and started to shout his name. At this moment she unconsciously put her hand on her stomach and saw blood and passed out.

She woke up in the hospital where a doctor told her that she lost her baby but that she was lucky because she did not have serious injuries.

Haley stoop up and walked up to the sink. She chuckled sarcastically. She was lucky? She could not see herslef luck now. She lost her baby and her husband on that day. Nathan was still alive but it seemed that he stopped loving her. He was not the man she felt in love with anymore, she was just a ghost in Nathan's life and he was treating her worst than dirt. She did right when she left him. She had to do so. James needed to be in a sane place.

She could not hold her tears anymore and started to cry quietly while cleaning the dishes. She needed to exorcised the demons she had inside and the only she knew how was to sing.

She started to sing a song she wrote about a month ago, just before leaving Nathan.

Having a child from you, I waited for so long.

See him growing up at your side was the gift I waited for.

He has your eyes, your smile when you wake up in the morning.

With the love and all the hope that I had when you held my hand.

I have your child now but you're not there anymore.

I want to save you just tell me how.

I want to love you just love me too.

I want to heal you just let me do.

I -

Haley stopped to sing feeling someone glance and turned around. Lucas was rested against the wall.

" Please continue Hales". Lucas said seriously. " It's a beautiful song. It's yours isn't it."

Haley just nodded.

" Everything will be just fine Haley. Nathan loves you, he'll come around." Said Lucas nicely sitting at the table.

Haley gave him a sad smile and sat too. " Do you regret some of the choices you made?" Asked Haley out of the blue.

Lucas raised his eyebrows. " What? Why do you ask?"

" Just tell me Luke". Asked Haley almost begging

" Well… I… I regret many things Hales." Said Lucas sadly. " If I knew back then what I know now I'd have made very different choices."

" Me too Luke" said Haley in a whisper.

" What are you talking about Hales? The accident?" Asked Lucas taking Haley's hand.

" No I'm not. I regret only one thing, I regret the day I went to see Whitey to ask him to help Nathan."

Lucas seemed surprised. " What? Why?"

" Well If I didn't help Nathan to reconquer his dream. He wouldn't have lost it again so close of his goal. Things would be different today because he accepted to loose his dream back then. Fighting for it was just a huge mistake!" Tears were falling on her cheeks.

Lucas bent down and dried her tears with his hand. " You know deep down that it's no true Hales. You can't live with the idea of what could have been. It's not healthy! You can't be sure of that. Only God knows." Said Lucas nicely.

Haley raised her head and looked deep into Lucas' eyes. " Well… You should follow your own advise Luke because we need to be blind not to see the regrets and guilt on your eyes".

" Hey! I just preach, I'm not that hot on the practicing part." Lucas stood up and hugged Haley. " Things will fall into place Angel. You can be sure of that. You deserve the best and you know that. Nathan will come back to you." Said Luca trying to sound convincing because deep down he did not know what to think anymore.

Lucas loosened his embrace and kiss Haley's forehead." I'm going to see my favorite nephew now." He said with a fake smile while going to the living room.

Haley took her wallet and took two pictures out. The first one was a picture of Nathan Jamie and her. The second one was the scan picture of Kate, the daughter she lost on the accident. She kissed both pictures. " Please God, let's Lucas be right. I need some hope to continue believing." Said Haley to herself. " I just need to know that life will be good again."