Disclaimer: Don't own Twilight...I think I'll hire lawyers to take it away from Stephenie.

Chapter 4- Final Goodbye

Usually I tried to avoid awkward situations. I really did. However, I found myself in a conversation that was even more awkward than I ever thought possible.

Trying to spill out all your secrets about a vampire family, the very vampire family that left you, without sobbing from despair to your human father, who was probably still in shock, was awkward. But doing that with a werewolf, an enemy by nature now that you were a vampire even though he was your best friend when you were human, and his father, who was sitting in front of your father, expecting to have to haul you back due to your nonexistent bloodlust for him, was just unbelievably awkward…especially with the occasional growl from Jacob when I reached a part in my story that involved harm to myself.

It took a while, but I managed to finish my story. It might have been a lot longer if I had gone into details about Them, but I was in no way wanting to welcome the painful memories.

When I finished talking, I waited nervously for their responses…and waited…and waited. They were dumbstruck like a trio of mentally retarded baboons with their mouths hanging open and their eyes as wide as saucers.

"So…" I said, breaking the silence.

I waited again.

Finally, Jacob moved…twitched actually, but it was still considered movement to me.

"W-Why didn't you ever tell me any of this?" he said, trying to find his voice.

"I…I don't know. I guess it just didn't seem like that big of a deal to me." I muttered honestly.

"Please tell me that I am dreaming." Charlie's voice sounded a bit distant like he was talking under his breath. Of course, I heard ever word of it.

"You're not dreaming, Dad." I thought he was getting better at this whole acceptance thing.

"Billy, pinch me please."

"Charlie…"I started.

The yelp of pain from Charlie interrupted me and caused a short laugh to escape my lips. Well, I warned him, didn't I?

"Okay. Okay. I'm not dreaming." He muttered, looking down.

"Thank you." Wow, what a waste of time. Glad we got the fact that he wasn't asleep. My patience was running thin again. Hmm, I would have to work on that.

"Bella…" I was broken out of my thoughts by Charlie's voice. "Didn't you say that you were leaving?" I wished he wouldn't sound so sad.

I nodded. "So, where are you going to go?"

When he said that, I swore I could have heard the snapping of Billy's and Jacob's eyes on me.

"You aren't staying?" Jacob whimpered.

"Jacob, you know why I can't." Again, the awkwardness was everywhere.

"But you could…well, couldn't you…you aren't…I…ugh!" He was frustrated with himself for not being able to come up with a reason for me to stay, I knew that. But, I also knew that I couldn't, even if I wanted to.

"Bella," Billy began kindly, "if you are leaving Forks, then where are you going?" I could tell from the dark depths of the brown ocean in his aged eyes that he didn't believe me when I said that I wasn't attracted to human blood. He still expected me to hunt people.

"I'm going to Italy…the Volturi, actually. When I was human, their leader, Aro, told me that I was always welcome there. I've decided to take him up on that offer."

"What!" Jacob yelled. I had a feeling this was coming. "Why on Earth would you go there? Did you not just say that when you had previously gone that you were scared out of your wits?" His body was quivering all over, and I knew that things weren't going to get better.

"Jake, can we discuss this outside?" I asked.

Billy nodded his head in agreement. "I'll talk with Charlie about things."

At the mention of my father's name, I looked at his face and found him following our conversation like a lost, but observant, puppy.

Once Jake and I were outside, he was bellowing at me and my stupidity. I just stood there without moving, letting him let out all of his frustrations.

When he stopped pacing and screaming, I asked him "done yet?"

He looked at me incredulously. "Bella please give me a better explanation of why you're doing this?"

Sighing, I began. "I need to be with my own kind, especially these first few years. Things will be very hard for me, and they are the only ones that won't trigger bad memories-"

"Well aren't they bad? Don't they feed off humans? You said that you were only going to go after animals." He interrupted me.

"Jacob please." I held up my hand to stop him. "I'm not going back on my word, and you know what I meant about bad memories," I winced at that part, "however, this is what I have to do…what I am going to do." The last statement cut the conversation to a close.

Jacob groaned in defeat, and mumbled something about being too stubborn.

"I'll miss you, Jake."

"Ya, I know."

I punched his arm playfully at that comment.

"Ouch!" He rubbed his arm.

"Oops, guess I don't know my own strength." I smiled sheepishly.

"Sure don't." There was the Jacob that I loved. The cold mask was gone, and my best friend stood in its place.

We went back inside to find a quite happy Charlie. He seemed to have finally accepted the facts, and I was grateful for that. They all had coffee, even though it was nighttime and we watched a baseball game. I had actually almost made myself a cup of the caffeine loaded drink but then realized that I was a vampire.

When the game was over, Billy and Jacob said that they were going to go home, and we said our goodbyes for the final time. However, they stopped outside the door, and Billy advised me to not stay the night with Charlie. I agreed to this, for I really needed to feed. Charlie's pulse had been driving me nuts, plus I was planning on leaving the next day. I was not looking forward to a long plane ride full of people.

Just to let everyone know

Bella tells Charlie, because she feels guilty that he thinks she is dead and wants to make him happy.

Thanks for the reviews, I really appreciate them.

Glad you don't think it's boring either haha...i'm just anxious to get to the Volturi part. Bella isn't exactly that sweet and innocent anymore. coughspoilercough