A/N: Sorry if the last chapter was too fast and not enough character development. I must admit I was having trouble writing it. But what's done is done. Here is the chapter I know you've all been waiting for.
Experiences and love
"Susan, should we do this?" Caspian reached out his hand and delicately stroked her soft porcelain skin. She was certainly shaking; her breathing was jagged and her face filled with an overwhelming heat. Caspian could sense her bravery, but somehow she faltered when she came in contact with him. Susan knew she was ready—she was in fact mature and older than Caspian. If anything, Caspian should feel anxious. Nervous was an understatement for him. His face swam with colour; his palms were sweaty and stiff from clenching them too fight. Caspian's clothes were once again sticking to him with sweat and he longed to remove them. Susan sat down and crossed her legs; there was a small space between them now.
"I want to." She admitted.
"I do too. Isn't this too soon for you?"
"Caspian, we both could be dead soon. I think I should just for once let my body take control instead of my brain…did I just say that?"
Caspian chuckled quietly. "You did."
"You know what I mean."
"Do I?"
"I care about you…somehow…I actually care about you." She taunted him, but the truth behind her words was quite conspicuous.
"I think I might fall in love with you," Caspian teased her back. "We'll see how tonight goes though." Susan playfully smacked his arm. Caspian grabbed her wrist and intertwined his fingers with hers. She smiled when he kissed the palm of her hand.
Susan moved closer to him; Caspian placed his hands on top of her shoulders and without any struggle he slid her night robe off. Still not revealing her, he kissed her now bare shoulders. Slowly he ran his warm tongue and his soft lips along her collar and up her throat. He positioned himself so that he was now on his knees. Susan followed his action; letting her robes fall to the floor. Caspian took a moment to observe her naked figure in the darkness. He had to focus his eyes to be able to capture the beauty.
Susan wrapped her arms around his neck and loosened his collar with her quivering fingers. Caspian's tried to steady his breathing, but the feel of Susan's hands on his bare chest was maddening. He gently pushed Susan onto her back, and she bit her lip in anticipation. Caspian gazed at her before lying down beside her. He propped himself up on one elbow and caressed her face. He ran his fingers along her body; making her nipples stand erect and her body shake. Caspian smirked and slowly massaged her breast with his hand. While making the smooth motions, Susan moaned deeply.
"Shh." Caspian whispered in her ear.
Susan blushed. "Sorry." He bit her lip before embracing her in another kiss. He removed his hand from her breast. But Susan grabbed it and placed his fingers into her mouth--she sucked on them for a moment. This action aroused Caspian—he retrieved back his hand and slid it lower until it reached her pelvis. Susan arched her back when Caspian slid a finger inside her. Her head swung back and she hesitated before letting out a very quiet moan.
Caspian worked his intelligent hand and watched Susan try to contain her stimulation. He continued to torture her, when he slid another finger into her warmth. Susan became lost in her own personal oblivion.
"More…" was all she said.
"More?" Caspian snickered.
"Yes…" She gasped and struggled to pull him on top of her. Caspian steadied himself, he did not want to crush her. He covered her mouth with his hand, so she couldn't scream and wake anyone. Finally, he was positioned between her legs. Susan's eyes grew wider when she felt the tip at her entrance. It was so foreign to her and yet she wanted it more than anything.
Susan nodded and Caspian obeyed—he groaned fervently as he pushed in. Susan flinched in pain and dug her nails into his back, exacting a low grunt from Caspian. He then pushed with all of his weight until he was fully inside of her. Tears streamed silently down her face. Caspian felt the barrier break and he was aware of the bleeding. He let go of her mouth and kissed her lips and whispered that he was sorry. Susan just nodded and urged him to keep going.
Caspian pumped into her, very slowly—almost too slow. Susan's eyes became unfocused as she tried to center on the pleasure instead of the pain. Caspian unable to look at her pained face rested his head on her shoulder and he moved in and out of her.
Susan moved her hips rhythmically to meet his thrusts. Caspian soon became impatient and quickened his pace. Susan was enjoying the closeness with Caspian, but found herself unable to find release. Being a virgin is never easy for a female and Susan now realized how true that was. Susan stopped moving her hips with his; she let out a distraught sigh. Susan was mortified that she was unable to perform her act of love with Caspian. Even though the pain was almost gone—she just couldn't get into the right rhythm. This embarrassed Susan, the thought of dulling in comparison to other girls made her ill.
Caspian became aware of her awkwardness and he pulled out. Susan began to cry, making Caspian cringe with disappointment.
"I'm sorry!" She wept. "I ruined every thing!"
Caspian held her close and rubbed calming circles on her back.
"It's my fault." He said finally. "I shouldn't—maybe I…"
Susan's head shot up, her eyes wide with humiliation as they connected with Caspian's equally horrified eyes. "No! You were great…I just couldn't do it."
"We can always try again…" He sounded hopeful. He put the palm of his hand on her cheek, using his thumb to wipe away stray tears.
"B—but…aren't you dissatisfied?"
Caspian's lowered his gaze from Susan and she automatically thought the worst. "You are." She nodded her head in agreement.
"Frankly, Susan…I thought I was doing a horrible job…you handled it like a professional." Caspian smiled warmly and kissed her lips. "It's our first time—it's going to be a little uncomfortable. I think we just need to try again."
"Okay." Susan was starting to feel more confident by the second. She placed a shaky hand on his heaving chest and pushed him onto his back. Caspian groaned distinctively when Susan adjusted herself so that she was straddled on top of him. Caspian loved her ingenuity—he felt himself rising again and Susan noticed as well. She looked at him with reverence for a moment, before looking down to concentrate on her position. Her hair curtained around her face, making it impossible for Caspian to look at her. She placed two hands on his chest and let him plunge inside her again. Caspian threw his head back repeatedly—his lips parted as the sensation spread throughout his quaking body. He arched his back as she began to thrust against him—he kept himself anchored by holding on tightly to her commanding hips. They continued this motion for several moments. Susan very carefully trying not to go too deep, but Caspian wanted to feel the entirety of her warmth. He abruptly grabbed Susan and gently placed her on her back—he didn't miss a beat until he thrust fully into her from on top. Susan moaned deeply and gasped his name repetitively. Caspian began to feel the pressure building up from inside him. The feeling made him quicken his pace, so the release would come swiftly. Susan was more than willing to oblige. She wrapped her legs around his him, drawing him further inward if that was even possible. It all seemed surreal to them anyway.
Caspian felt Susan's muscles tighten noticeably around him. Caspian just needed one more thrust and he was done. Caspian's body ached with pleasure as he spilled himself inside her. Susan cried out avidly yet timid as she experienced her first orgasm. Her hips bucked against Caspian as she was being released. Caspian collapsed onto her chest—his breathing wild and his voice hoarse. He didn't want to leave her body yet, so he remained inside her until the intense feeling of release was gone.
Susan sighed as she ran her fingers through Caspian's damp hair. "Much…much better." She said short of breath. Caspian just nodded in agreement, restlessness taking over his worn out body. He pulled out before long and Susan moaned with unhappiness. She felt empty without him. Caspian lay on his back and gestured for Susan to lie down next to him. She did and he put his arm around her and pulled a blanket around to cover their naked bodies.
"So…" Caspian spoke after the long silence. "Did I prove myself worthy of you?"
Susan sighed. "Just…shut up." She kissed his jaw line up to his ear where she tugged at the sensitive lob with her teeth. "…And yes." She whispered.
They fell asleep in each other's arms, both fully content.