Is it love?
"Oga-chan, wait," I heard Tanaka echo through the halls as he was being pulled by Oga.
It was lunch call and I sat in the slowly emptying room. Dazing off into the sky, I felt strangely hallow and unsatisfied. Coming to my sense, I looked around the room; empty, just how I'm feeling right now. However, I'm curious why all the students left the classroom for lunch.
Feeling a tad famished, in my bag I looked for something to eat. Nothing. Growing infuriated, I turned my bag upside down on my desk and shook it. Books fell, so did pens and pencils; and food, no where to be found. Damn me, I was late today so I forgot to pack anything.
Fruitlessly shaking my bag the last thing that dropped was that cloth that Margery left me. It just laid there on top of my stuff; it's slight purple hue radiated from it which made it stick out from the rest of my stuff. I grabbed it and clenched it in my fist. I honestly had no idea whether to rip it of hold on to it; the slight hint for Margery's violet eyes reflects from these threads.
I took out my wallet and hid it in there. I looked around my wallet and noticed that I have enough money to purchase something. I finally left that damn empty classroom. The lunch room was about a minute away but every step, I hear students giggling, having fun. They were all eating lunch with someone else, but I have to eat alone once again.
I purchased a bowl or ramen. It was a pretty standard lunch I had to admit. I picked out an empty table near the window, perfect. As I sit down, I felt the warmness of the bowl flow around my arms and all I did was look out the window. I was about to dig in until I stroked across the locks of noodles. Blonde? Who else do I know is blonde? And like a playful ghost, my wallet fell from my pocket and that cloth flew out. I grabbed it and placed it on the table; all I did was sigh.
"You look lonely Keisaku," I heard a voice come out of nowhere. I turned and found my reflection on a pair of glasses. "Mind if I sit next to you?" the voice asked.
"Well Ike, I thought you would be with Yuji," I replied.
"Yuji, Shana, and Yoshida are all up on the roof," he said, "I was headed up there but I found you." I rolled my eyes at Ike and said nothing. He's always going around campus it's hard to find him actually settled.
He sat next to me and noticed, "The weather is nice today."
"Mhm," I really didn't care. It's just that, there was something bothering me. Through the tainted water in my bowl I looked at my own glazed stare. I more I looked at myself the more I just sucked in into my own emptiness.
Ike broke my trace as he said "Keisaku, I haven't seen you around lately. What are you up to."
I looked around. Honestly I had no idea what to say; quite frankly, it feels like I haven't been living a life at all. I stumbled on words trying to figure out what to say. "Living life I guess," gosh what a cliche line to say.
Ike gave me a stare and laughed. "I guess I am too," he replied. After that he looked out the window with a similar glazed look. It reminded me of myself; he had such an empty and yearning stare.
I was curious, "Ike, do you feel like you really aren't living a real life?"
He laughed, "Yeah at times," he didn't hesitate to answer. "To be honest there is someone who's creating meaning in my life," he continued as he shook his drink, "don't know why but when I'm with her, I don't feel so empty."
Sounds like love. Someone who swoops down and making meaning in your life? I guess its too late for me, no one gives a crap about me. I'm just a dreamer, I can't love at all. But yet, when I look at those sincere eyes of Ike, it seemed like there was some hope for me. I began to laugh to myself. Who'd fall in love with me; hell who would I fall in love for?
I lost my appetite and got up, "Ike I'm gonna take a walk for the rest of the break." All he did was nod. I couldn't resist but I had to say, "Tell Kasumi I said 'hi.'" He instantly jumped up in his seat and blushed bright red.
I started walking down the hall but all I could think about is what Ike said. I kept thinking what I'm really feeling. A creature like me, falling in love? I laughed at that thought. It was just my mind playing a joke on my heart.
Suddenly I hit someone on the way outside. "Satou what the hell are you doing," a familiar shrill voice called out. Oh God, I thought to myself, it is her. I blushed and jumped up.
I looked up and saw those piercing violet eyes and that elegant smile. "Margery-san, why are you here?"
She took my hand and dropped a box on it. "You left this at home Keisaku," she winked.
I opened it and a familiar scent beckoned to me. It was my lunch that I prepared! Can't believe I forgot this. But before I looked up she already had her back to me. She turned her head to me and gave me a smile and just walked away.
I really didn't think much about it. Well, that empty feeling in my stomach is gonna be filled now.