Ok, so this is the night after having sex. Edward sees that he has hurt Bella. From reading the first chapter of Midnight Sun, I kind of got the vibe that Edward is very angsty. So, this chapter displays that pretty well. Sorry that theres no sex in this chapter, but there will be in the next one lol.
First night
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I was horrible. I was a monster, a horrible creature that should be killed. Ripped apart and burned before I could damage anything else.
I had hurt her.
I had hurt her beautiful porcelain body. And here she sleeps, her warm skin rising and falling with the weight of her breathes. And here I watch and trace over the purple and blue slowly forming, circling the bumps of premature color. Even in sleep, she response to my touch. I see her pink lips curve slightly, the shake go through her body.
The moonlight shines over her pale skin revealing even more damage. I cringe away catching my breath and turn my head in anguish. She was so breakable, and I had broken her.
All that control and precision had not been enough. I had let my senses go to far, so caught up in the pleasure that I lost control. I had bitten pillows no less. I carefully unraveled myself from her, and walked into the bathroom, looking at the full length mirror behind the door.
How could she love me? I was disgusting, I was putrid. I was nothing that no one should ever want. And yet she wants me.
I walk to her now and delicately trace the contours of her face. Why did she have to love me? Why was I so selfish letting her take me? How could I have been so foolish to let her go on with this? I should never have made this deal. I should have stayed in Italy, she could be happy and unhurt with Jacob.
But now we were married and I could not leave. And some how tomorrow, I would beg her to forgive me. Beg her to not lie to me, to tell me that she hates me.
Because I am a monster, because I do not disserve her.
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Sorry its so short. I was worried it was getting a little to repetitive. Anyways, please review! Thanks