Chapter 4, Good to Bad

Xemnas retired from another hard days work. Him and Vexen both struggled to get the assignment done. Although it wasn't finished completely. There were a few blocks but Ansem wasn't really smart enough to spot them out. Which he'd hope he wouldn't. If he did, he'd be in big trouble.

Xemnas laid on his comfy bed. He recapped the time he seen Saïx in the library. His back was facing towards him as he searched through books on the shelves. The moment Saïx turned around, his piercing eyes met his. He remembered the feeling he had when he could feel Saïx eyes on him when he walked nervously across the room. How his body burned with an unfamiliar sensation.

Xemnas flipped to the other side of his bed. He smile delightedly as he tried to fall asleep.

Xemnas picked out different books from the shelf hoping he'd pick something interesting. Which didn't seem to happen. Most of the more interesting books rested where Saïx stood. A few times Xemnas would attempt to approach this section but backed down. He thought he would save the embarrassment for some other time.

"Stop staring at him" Vexen whispered into his book.

"Are you whispering to me or the book?" Xemnas joked.

"You" Vexen chuckled.

"I was looking at the other bookshelves" Xemnas lied, picking out a random book. Wishing he could be there.

"Since when did you like reading about fish?" He asked, raising his eyebrow.

Xemnas looked down at the book in his hand. "Well I never like reading about fish, but I do like eating them" Xemnas joked.

Vexen shock his head with a chuckled.

"Xemnas, you're too funny"

Strangely, Vexen packed up his selected books. He looked a bit panicky, as if somewhat startled.

"Hi" A soft yet deep voice greeted.

Xemnas looked up to meet the gaze of the individual in front of him. To his surprise it was Saïx. He was standing right there looking at him. It was a magical moment. He felt nervous yet at the same time joyful.

"Oh, hi" Xemnas manage to speak out. His excitement made him feel somewhat confident.

"I'll be back at the lab if you need me" Vexen said before hurrying away. Xemnas watched Vexen as he left the room. Xemnas didn't get a chance to ask for his help but that didn't matter. Saïx was there and what would be more important then getting a chance to talk to him.

Good Vexen, leave. He thought to himself. Leave us two alone.

"I see you like reading about fish" Saïx mused.

Xemnas completely forgotten about the book in his hand. He looked at Saïx blankly "I umm... " He paused, trying think up something quick. "I like to learn about a variety of different things. I find all thing interesting"

Xemnas scolded himself for being such a moron. He could of thought of a better reply.

"Interesting" He looked up at Xemnas. "What other books you like to read?" He paused briefly. "Show me"

"Of course"

He put the book back on the shelf and pulled out another one. This time the book was on unicorns. No not that one. He thought as he puts the book back. He didn't know what to look for. What would make him look impressive? He reached up and pulled out another book. That too wasn't the one he was looking for. If only the other side of the room was here. He could walk over there, but a table was in the way. He couldn't seem to move. Should he just ask what he likes? No, he couldn't do that. He had to impress him. He reached for another one, then another one. He couldn't find the right book. He kept going through books after books, panicking. Why couldn't he pick the right one?

"You'll never impress anyone. You can't even pick out a good book" Ansem mocked, appearing out of nowhere.

"No, no!" Xemnas panicked. A sudden bang on the door made him jump but he still kept searching. Books slowly piled the floor. He could hear Ansem laughing in the background. Saïx repeatedly telling him to impress him. The words kept going through his mind.

"I can't find one, I can't find one!"

The time seem to pick up, faster and faster. The surrounding glowed brightly. His images spun around him until he couldn't take it anymore. Then everything went black. All he heard was someone calling his name softly. Was it Saïx?

Xemnas opened his eyes, seeing someone blurred in his vision.

"Xemnas, you were having a bad dream" Marluxia spoke softly, wiping the sweat from his hot forehead.

Xemnas sat up. His body felt all sticky. He was glad Marluxia had woken him up. After what he dreamt, he thought he'd never want to fall asleep again. His nice dream turned into a nightmare.

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Xemnas sat at his desk staring blankly at the neatly stacked papers before him. A sudden knock at the door brought his conscious back from his lifelessness. His gaze met with the eyes of Marluxia's. He watched him intently as he strolled towards him.

"I thought I'd prepare you some coffee. Then, as I remembered, you don't like coffee to much. So instead I've made you some hot cocoa with a little special something added" Marluxia placed the mug in front of him. "The enhance flavor should perk you up."

Marluxia half sat on his desk next to him.

"How very thoughtful of you" Xemnas appreciated. He wrapped his hand around the mug of cocoa. He took a sip carefully so he wouldn't burn his tongue. The hotness of the creamy liquid warmed his body.

"Mmm" He delighted. "I hope one day you'll share your secret with me."

"I wouldn't waste your hopes for it" Marluxia teased.

Xemnas smiled. "Thank you"

"Your very welcome, Xemnas" He stood up and headed towards the door.

"Leaving so soon?" Xemnas asked with a pout.

"Yes, I have to do some errands for the master. Otherwise I would of loved to stay and keep you company."

Errands for that pesky suck-up? That man can't do anything himself. Xemnas scoffed in his thoughts.

"See you later, Xemnas" He waved off and drifted out the door before he can reply back.

Xemnas returned to staring at the stacks papers, which he really didn't know what to do with it. Ansem hadn't given him anymore research to work with. He'll probably give him at the last minute again. Which he's hoping he doesn't.

Only a few minutes past before someone entered his office again.

"Did you forget something or did you miss me that much and had to come back?" Xemnas asked playfully.

He looked up, his breath froze in his chest. His heart raced as the young man stepped forward.

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Sorry for taking so long, been busy but not no more. Just seeing if anyone is still interested in reading it.