Another

I promised myself

I'd say no

Another promise broken

I wanted to stop

My heart from breaking again

Another broken heart

I wanted to stay

Sharp and knowledgeable

Another time confused

I promised him

I'd say no

Another promise broken

I wanted to forget

The way I felt about him

Another memory jolt

I wanted to suppress

My addiction to his kiss

Another beautiful kiss

I want to end it all

All this pain and confusion

Another wave of fear

I can't stop

I'm afraid

I don't want to be

Permanently broken

But I also

Don't want to be alone

Another time of loneliness