Reason for Living
Why does this hurt?
He did it to himself.
I should have seen it coming.
I should have been expecting it.
I saw the pain in his eyes.
I knew what he was going through.
I have experienced the same things,
and thought my pains were much worse.
I should have been there,
to make sure he was okay,
but I turned my back,
and the result wasnt what I wanted.
I regret turning my back.
But regret is not the only thing I feel.
I am hurt by his actions.
He promised not to start again
HE FUCKING PROMISED ME!!
He broke that promise.
The one guy I trusted,
and deeply care for,
broke the most important promise we held.
How can I trust him again?
He thinks his actions won't hurt anyone.
He thinks they'll benefit all those around him.
Countless times I've told him,
It would hurt me.
It DID hurt me.
I knew he will do it again,
So I want to sever the ties between us,
But it's impossible.
I care for him too deeply,
To sit around and do nothing.
I'm trying to help him.
Get him to see that there are people out there,
Who care about him,
And would be lost without him there.
But he's too stubborn to see it.
He won't see the joy through the pain.
He won't see that I love him,
That I need him to keep me together.
Naruto, stop with this sillyness.
The cutting and suicide attempts.
I love you and I don't want to lose you
I CAN'T lose you.
You keep me sane.
You're the reason I came back
To this village full of hatred.
Naruto, can't you see?
You are my reason for living!